9-8-18

Recurring Pattern

I’m alone with my thoughts
Don’t know if I should give up or go on
Again, this fear that I won’t
Stand up against myself to hold on.

Fuck this depression!
Get me out
This recurring pattern
No escape
My mind is a prison.
Locked in a mental cage
In a regression
I’m gonna break
Hatefully mental
Turns to rage
Full of aggression
The darkness that is in me, voices that never leave.

Won’t let them see, this pain this agony
Always feeling down, hiding it behind a smile
Master of disguise, never a tear in my eyes
It never sleeps, internal beast unleashed

Sometimes I stand there with a blade,
Force myself to not cut my veins
Like demons take control of my brain
If I lose this battle I hope it won’t be in vain

Recurring Pattern

I truly apologise, I am getting slower and slower.

10000 METERS DOWN

Lyrics:

"Salus" [salvation]

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Condemn

Lyrics:
When will it end?
I've had enough
Got my liquor in a solo cup
And I can't help but drink

Where were you?
You left me alone
I can't think what I'm supposed to do
Drinking problems, I am always alone
I cannot deal with this
Every day I hate this
I don't know where I am half of the time I am
Awake
Or am I?

I am calling for you -
I don't know what to do -

Fading
I am fading
Fading
I am calling for you

Fading
I am fading
Fading
I don't know what to do -

All Vocals done by me
Produced by Me

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Fading

Hook:
Fallen into darkness
Aimless like a comet
I often pray
That I don't phase away

Verse:
Carry on with the breathing
Try not to say what I'm thinking
Suicidal thoughts taking over
Leave a note behind to show my motive 

Fallen into darkness
Aimless like a comet
I often pray
That I don't phase away...


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All Vocals done by me

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Phase Away

Lyrics:
I might be alone again x2

Verse: 
Will I ever be enough? 
Here I am and I can see myself
I wanna throw up 
Struggling with demons and my health

Chorus: 
I just wanna break (Wanna break)
Everything in this state of mind (state of mind) 
I don't wanna take (Wanna take)
Unnecessary, innocent lives (innocent live) 

I might be alone again!

Verse 2:
Take me
End this early
I wanna see if I bleed
Tragic
Stomachs Turning
Darkness and red is all I see

Chorus

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All vocals done by me

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Fathom

A song written by my fiancée and I. 
Go Follow her :D -@arielle-leah

Lyrics:

(Totally not Utada Style reverse vocals) 

Hook:
Say it all, on a whim
Say it all, all or nothing x2 (Say it all)

The trace is faint
I'll follow it to the gates of my cage
The miles won't change me
When the work’s done
would you do the same thing 
Covet the flaming path of a daydream

Covet the flame

Say it all on a whim (I'll follow it to the gates)

I've gone astray 
An impulsive thought races through my brain
The madness awaits me
Can I dispel the demon I'm facing
Wish I could sell the smile I'm faking

I will not wait (I will not wait)
I'll follow it to the (to the)
gates of my cage (my maker is to blame)
and I will not break faith ( scream-  break faith)
When the work’s done
would you do the same thing (I would do the same thing)
Reach towards the flame and worship a day dream

Hook + Chants: 
a voice
buried alive
found the right
words to say
dream out loud
don’t stop
til the sound
breaks the cage

Verse 2:
Find a way to make, your day dream
A reality (Find a way to say)
All or nothing (Go on and say it) 
ALL OR NOTHING !

Verse 3: 
Draw the cards from off the table, I am not able to feel like this. 
Draw the cards from off the table, and realize.

Produced by Me x Sushin0bi
Vocals by Me x Sushin0bi
Screams by me

Enjoy !

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Realize - FT Sushin0bi [Bonus Track]

l ultima

Tubo & Sk L Ultima  (Testo di Anam Hermit & Sk)

King Boomin made it

Viejo Enemigo

🎹Producer | 🎧 Engineer | 🎵 Artist | Real One  

I am the music that I make.

Fathom

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