A loss for words. An immediate response following traumatic news that leaves you numb. Scott felt this, learning only moments before his fiancée’s betrayal. She told him not to worry, this new person was her first truly platonic guy friend. He had no reason to not believe her, he was blinded by his love for her. But, coming home to them being together can shatter anyone’s world, leaving you with emotions that you have no true words to describe.

    As a storm began to roll through, he drove to the only place he could think of that had held memories of happier times. His cell constantly rang, her face glowing on the screen. But it felt as if that girl never truly existed, her image merely a poster for an actress. Scott played back the voicemail, but it only devastated him more. The blame was shifted, and it truly left him at a loss for words.


Nodus Tollens - n. the realization that the plot of your life doesn’t make sense to you anymore—that although you thought you were following the arc of the story, you keep finding yourself immersed in passages you don’t understand, that don’t even seem to belong in the same genre—which requires you to go back and reread the chapters you had originally skimmed to get to the good parts, only to learn that all along you were supposed to choose your own adventure.

    Scott wandered in the rain, his former fiancée’s words echoing inside his head. As he walks through the downtown district, images of his life with her play like movies through the windows of the buildings. To him, it was all just a cruel facade, leaving him with a sense of hopelessness as he does not know what comes next. 

Hiraeth - n. A homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was; the nostalgia, the yearning, the grief for the lost places of your past.

    Weeks have passed by in what feels like years. Scott had to stay with an old friend, all his stuff packed in boxes, his memories left in storage to rot. But as hard as he tries, he longs for the comfort he once felt with her.

Liberosis - n. the desire to care less about things—to loosen your grip on your life, to stop glancing behind you every few steps, afraid that someone will snatch it from you before you reach the end zone—rather to hold your life loosely and playfully, like a volleyball, keeping it in the air, with only quick fleeting interventions, bouncing freely in the hands of trusted friends, always in play.

    Months have gone by and Scott’s mood has yet to improve. He finds himself laying in bed, unable to sleep and wishing to not be able to think of anything or anyone. Scott felt that he could not find happiness, the fear of being hurt this badly again appearing as a brick wall on the road. The static behind the stillness of the air served to soothe him as Scott allowed his mind to play soothing words from his memories, sending him into a deep slumber with a single tear trailing down.

Sonder - n. The realization that everyone, including strangers passed in the street, has a life as complex as one's own, which they are constantly living despite one's personal lack of awareness of it.

    A year has passed and Scott feels numb to life. As he sits on a park bench, he realizes he misses a call from his father. He plays back the voicemail and the words his father spoke made him realize that his story isn’t the only one. As the veil is lifted Scott looks around and sees the large multitude of people walking, talking, laughing and loving. For the first time, he feels peace as the static he feels is now lifted.
    

Released 11/12/2019
Run time: 15:59
Produced, Mixed & Mastered by Spiffy Man
©2019 Spiffy Recordings

A Loss For Words

Sonder

Spiffy Man - Sonder

Spiffy Recordings is the rebranding of the former Bl@ck Tie Records. The brain child of artist Spiffy Man, we look to release music that moves people with stories and imagination.