"honestly, i feel like this gift is much more of a curse than a blessing"

home is where the heart is at, try to but i cannot hide
tryna find a reason not to die out in anaheim 
this your theme song, girl yeah this is your lullaby
go to sleep, i hope you fade slow when you fucking die

im not tryna make it out, im tryna make it quick
sitting on the edge of the bridge bitch i hope you slip
i hope your moments falling are worst moments you live
i hope you feel my pain from every word that left your lips

8 bars in, and i made an angel cry
jet black lines running down from her eyes
it drips down, mixing with the blood on her thighs
she was so damn desperate there was rust on the knife

prom night, we would dance slow, i dont understand hope
the devil's in our room and hes playing the piano
alongside, the harps played slow by the angels
sky high sniffing laced lines off the table

theres so much i could say you really wouldnt understand
i look at my reflection fucking hating who i am
filthy ripped jeans, bloody, beaten up vans
as im walking down the street, bottle in my hand

really noone understands but the voices in my head
telling me i should be dead, im addicted to a scam
im addicted to your love id slit my wrists for a gram
i got so many dreams i wanna follow but i cant

the spark is all gone in my soul swear theres nothing left
look into my eyes, you gon see nothing but emptiness
but i keep on going and just pushing nonetheless
i dont have a chance, but i havent dropped yet

16th birthday i cried myself to sleep
thought i would dead when i turned seventeen
a year later, 18, im still walking down these streets
tell me what the fuck it means when you turn 19, and you still aint fucking drop

maybe theres an ounce of hope left after all
when i try to find a reason im just left with withdrawls
its the same damn shit im turning 20 in 4 months
maybe i wont wanna end it when im 21.

when i turn 22 will i understand the cost?
cuz the reason why i feel this way i do not get at all.
maybe one day ill be grateful for our bond
maybe 23 will make me not regret our love

home is where the heart is at, try to but i cannot hide
tryna find a reason not to die out in anaheim 
this your theme song, girl yeah this is your lullaby
go to sleep, i hope you fade slow when you fucking die

im not tryna make it out, im tryna make it quick
sitting on the edge of the bridge bitch i hope you slip
i hope your moments falling are worst moments you live
i hope you feel my pain from every word that left your lips

i hope you feel my pain from every word that left your lips

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once upon a time [prod. misery]

Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featured Artists: Seejayxo, Nkno, Crizzy White, Robstar
Production: Shxdy808
Mixing: lil XipZ, Seejayxo, Nkno, Crizzy White, Robstar
Cover Art: @king_of_the_corpses
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Lyrics:

[Intro: Nkno]
heard you're doing fine without me, without me
heard you're doing fine without me, without me 

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
hey, heard youre doing just fine without me 
yeah aye but i know you loved it around me
after all that i gave to you
and the trauma that you put me thru
and then kissing me in your room
and then sending me home with the blues 

[Verse 1: Seejayxo]
after all the shit we've been through
im still hopin that you come through
i got these bands so we comfortable 
ill throw some hands if he touchin you
baby i dont wanna say it but i will
i need your love, its like a drug and it kills
i gotta feel it in myself and keep it real
i know you plottin on me baby, whats the deal?

After all the shit we've been through
I'm still hoping that you come through
I got these bands so we comfortable
I'll throw some hands if he touching you

[Verse 2: Nkno]
heard You're doing fine without me
but i loved it when you're around me
but atleast i tried, atleast i don't hide
I'll be alright, I'll say that I'm fine 

[Verse 3: Crizzy White]
I heard you're doing fine, 
But I don't give a fuck, 
That's a lie, 
You're my type, 
And I can't give it up. 
Watch me cry, 
I been stuck inside, 
I'll die again, 
Try again, 
I just burnt my eyes again, 
God I'm getting fried again.
So high, 
Girl I gotta blaze it, 
I laid my heart up on the line, 
And then you went to go and take it, 
My bones were working fine, 
Then you had to go and break it. 
Hate it, 
How I'm fading out the image, 
Like you're waking up, 
The devil's on your bed. 
You're better off with him, 
But that's better left unsaid, 
Lead is loaded up, 
So I'll paint the words in red, 
Reading out the words and it said, 
"At least you left my head."
I can't leave my bed. 

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
hey, heard youre doing just fine without me 
yeah aye but i know you loved it around me
after all that i gave to you
and the trauma that you put me thru
and then kissing me in your room
and then sending me home with the blues 

[verse 3: Robstar]
That was the time that you broke my heart
Saying to move on but I never got that far
Instead I'm still stuck inside your car
When you were still mine and it didn't feel so dark 

I thought you wanted it
Then you start to call it quits
I pour my 40 up
Wonder who you fuckin' with?
But don't you tell me
Don't you tell me that you needed him
I've already downed my cup
And I'm already feeling sick 

I count your sins, count your sins
Count your sins yeah
I'm seeing double on my fingers
What you think? yeah
It ain't enough, it ain't enough
When I drink, yeah
Pass another fucking bottle 

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
hey, heard youre doing just fine without me 
yeah aye but i know you loved it around me
after all that i gave to you
and the trauma that you put me thru
and then kissing me in your room
and then sending me home with the blues

Heard You're Doing Just Fine Without Me (ft. seejayxo, Nkno, Crizzy White & Robstar) [Prod.Shxdy808]

CHORUS:

my eyes roll back
the skies fade to black
nothing stays the same
and i wish it wouldn’t change
the clouds are looking gray
as my colors fade away
and i cant tell what’s real and what is not
anymore
my life’s becoming a chore

VERSE:

(becoming a chore)

b-been wasting my time 
trying to find
happiness in that
that don’t feel right
how might i
survive this tragic life

(how might i survive)

i wake up and complain 
about the day 
before it’s even begun 
am i the only one
that feels this way
i cant look at my own face

BRIDGE:

to bare witness to face the facts that i just go on living the same boring shit… i cant fuckin do this


CHORUS:

my eyes roll back
the skies fade to black
nothing stays the same
and i wish it wouldn’t change
the clouds are looking gray
as my colors fade away
and i cant tell what’s real and what is not
anymore
my life’s becoming a chore

my life's becoming a chore (metlast)

red roses (prod.APC)

She Wants Me Dead (Prod Splashgvng & ayoleybeats)
Key Eb major
Bpm 167

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She Wants Me Dead

Nothin To Do (Prod Splashgvng)
Key C major
Bpm 180

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Nothin To Do

Not Enough (Prod Splashgvng & Morin)
Key E major
Bpm 99

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Not Enough

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
time won’t fly
it’s like i struck a nerve
i spoke to the sky
he said i’ll never learn
i’ve clawed through the sand
just to dig my own grave
though heartache’s my villain
i take the cake

the song i sing
the trees sing back to me

cuz i entered the forest
and it chewed me up and spit me out
“you’ll never win, i have no doubt”
i kept my promise
but i suffer when i speak aloud
will i ever find a way to slow time down?

stream everywhere!

X. dearly departing [jolst]

Main Artist: lil XipZ
Featured Artist: Danny's Adventures
Production: lil XipZ
Mixing: lil XipZ x Danny's Adventures
Master; teddyboi
Cover Art: FUCKING GOOGLE AND MYSELF LOL
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Throwing Up (w/ Danny's Adventures)

Clean the cabinets off the empty desk 
Coughing heavy, dirty cigarettes
Dirty hands and fear that hasn’t left
Feels like you in every single thing

And it’s my fault to even give a fuck
To get invested when it never works
But I was worse than this despite the love 
Now I can’t recognise the way it was

And does it visit you in shaking breath? 
And hurt a little just to hear it said?
Only closure cause I know I’m cursed 
And you had learned to know what safety was
Cause I had poisoned everything in hollow skin
And I had hated it from deep within
But learned to shed to look like someone else
Just on the surface never less than dead 

And nothing shields you like the afterthoughts
Like how you're fine with being fucking gone
And this connections just a circumstance
That only I would try and make it last 

So when I drink again it’s just for me
And I won’t speak cause even words can leave
And you won’t get it they don’t get it here 
And I need something that won’t disappear

And I feel dumb as fuck for taking space
To leave you sleeping while the thought remains
And none of these answers ever gave me life
And tell me its fucked as I'm gonna get tonight 

And on the first morning it’s only me
I won’t know where I should put my feet 
I won’t even trust myself to leave
Cause in the open I’m still underneath 

And like an addict I forgot to grow
And like an addict I just upped the dose 
I'm not an addict I’m so fucking close
Inside the attic I’m so fucking close

Antebellum

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Mixed and Mastered by my dude Ari!

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Shout out sorrow bringer the GOAT producer!!

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Not Enough

splashgvng

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