VERSE 1

(epitome)

i solidify the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that are telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you say to me
6 feet deep is where i’ll be
as the light from the tunnel grows darker and darker
my mind grows farther and farther away
please stay
stay with me
don’t leave my body alone to decay

VERSE 2

(paperthinwalls)

this is the last time i hope you see me 
(hope you see me)
6 feet underneath i’m not breathing 
it’s too late to go back
i cant run to the past
you left me shattered like glass
knew this would never last
it doesn’t matter i’ll be dead in the morning
body lined with chalk yeah i’m never returning 
i’m writing all these songs yeah this is my warning 
never had a place yeah this doesn’t concern me
oh oh oh
i’m burning it’s ok
i’m learning (i’m learning)
i’m so alone
got nobody i feel like a ghost

BRIDGE

(epitome)

i’m so alone 
i’m so close
to letting go
of the life i use to know

VERSE 3 (shared)

(epitome)

p-p-p-pain is never ending 
i cant find the beginning
my minds at war
don’t know what i’m searching for
a sense of hope maybe?
but i can’t find that lately (lately)

(paperthinwalls)

and lately i’ve been lost in this dream
and no hope of ever escaping
and oh god yeah look what you made me
i’m sorry it’s these feelings that change me

OUTRO

(epitome)

i’m so sorry
please for give me
i cant change
i know i’ll stay the same

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longing for death w/ paperthinwalls (metlast x luffy)

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lyrics

yokai:

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

and i
understand if you hate me i do, oh i do
so try
to cope with the fact that i'm not the man that your'e used to

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

autumn:

but they don't know me, and they never will
just how much more's left to say? 
i'll take that shit and decay
but just not to my grave
lie to yourself out of pity
life's not right; imma fly out the city
say it'll be alright, okay?
i no longer believe what i say

knees are falling
i can smell the pollen
i'm fucking sick of random people calling
i don't have too much left to give
the thought of it is making me sick

turnt my face towards the tainted sky
it left me hurt, i don't know why

Heart Of Stone w/ autumndropsdead (in bloom)

stay away please

Prod. Venus

Lyrics 

This song’s a message to my older self
Huh
I hope that one day you can find yourself
i hope it worked out with that girl you love
or did you fuck up like i thought i would
I hope the thoughts don’t keep you up at night
cos right now i cant fucking sleep at all
Hope that you overcome ur anxious mind
or it’ll be your fucking funeral

tides changing, and i been contemplating my thoughts, 
smooth sailing is not smooth if you bail when its hard
I hope you beat the demons that left you so broken and scarred
hope you surround yourself with people that wont
TEAR YOU APART

AND WHILE YOU’RE AT IT WONT YOU LET SOMEBODY INTO YOUR HEART

START TO APPRECIATE THE TIME YOU SPEND WITH HER IN YOURS ARMS

CAUSE RIGHT NOW IM DISSOCIATED I FORGOT HOW TO FEEL

WOUNDS REOPEN THAT I SWEAR HAD 
ALREADY FULLY HEALED

Its like everything that’s happened lately hasn’t been real
life’s been feelin kinda pointless uh 
oh
maybe higher powers set me up
But I dont know if its just me who’s lost oh
I give up i fucking guess they won

This song’s a message to my older self
I hope that one day you can find yourself
i hope it worked out with that girl you love
or did you fuck up like i thought i would
I hope the thoughts dont keep you up at night
Cos right now i cant fucking sleep at all
I hope you overcome ur anxious mind
Or it’ll be your fucking funeral

message to my older self

this isn't really the most me kind of song
just a lot of gibberish thrown together but i did want to share at least something as it's been a hot minute
i hope i'm back to usual soon <3

Lyrics:

it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better you're never hearing this

could you tell me that you love me
even if you'll never mean it i need something
i been needing reassurance that i'm something
this shit is fuel for giving up please
so could you tell me that you love me
it's fucking lonely in this body so i share it with her lusting
oh could you fuck me

could you fuck me right back
i won't get attached
just need to make it thru the night without a rollie or a pack
at least the music has my back
yuh
cuz i know people never last
yuh
i made this shit so in a week i'll have a song to cry to
i made this shit so in a year i'll be at peace and i won't mind you
she said that she'd be right there nothings ever right there
i'd honestly be dead if i found another life there

so let me know if you relate
or i'm alone to fight my fate
i tend to fall in love too quickly
have the habit getting clingy
have a habit sort of sticking
it's probably something that i'm missing
from my childhood or misery
and now i can't remember much
but i know i never really wanted this
and the things i'd give to run back life again
now i fantasize bout the corny lovey shit
but it's probably better you're never hearing this

yuh it's probably better you're never hearing this
yuh it's probably better you're never hearing this

it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better you're never hearing this

something, anything.

prod. maxchris x ayoley

lyrics:

if you're in pain reach out to me !!
i'll be there best that i can be
forgot to eat
and i can't sleep
at least with u i learned to breathe
no matter what this earth can throw
my friends and i survived it all
there's unique pain i know you own
you'll someday beat it i hope u know

time won't stop for you
these things won't work how you plan them to
the beat moves slow
and i move slower
people so fake
so i thought i'd be real for a second

oh did i mention
i like making friends but lately most feel like a set up
they'll try to use you any way they can and then they'll dead you
they'll steal your beat insert themselves upon your art in seconds
they'll beg you for an open till you cave so grit your teeth and give a scrap you made a month ago and let them
send a single snippet and they rip it just so they can load it up in fl studio and slap a halfass verse around it
god i wish i was kidding
but feels nice to vent all the shit that i live with
there's two types of friends and i know which is which
yea i've got my ways but i'm not spilling shit

-

if you're in pain reach out to me
i'll be there best that i can be
forgot to eat
and i can't sleep
at least with you i learned to breathe
no matter what this earth can throw
my friends and i survived it all
there's unique pain i know you own
u'll someday beat it i hope u know

time won't stop for you
these things won't work how you plan them to
the beat moves slow
and i move slower
people so fake
so i thought i'd be real for a second
oh did i mention
i like making friends but lately most feel like a set up
they'll try to use you any way they can and then they'll dead you
they'll steal your beat insert themselves upon your art in seconds

hurdles

@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace ft. popularreject (hero)

If theres one thing for certain
Its time 
Time Will kill us all in the end
Death is the only thing thats guaranteed in our lifetimes
And we cant take that for granted
We must embrace it and take it it all in 
Embrace
The end

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my
Fucking life
All of this weight on my shoulders is too much
For my mind
And body to handle ill never be alright

I promise i wont be okay tho
All of the words gettin twisted around and my head is a fuckin tornado
I wanna say how i feel but i promised you thats a promise i cant break tho
When i turn up on the side of the road i just know someones takin my place oh

All these people round me
Make me feel like im a zombie
I cant tell you bout what i see
Cuz the demons gonna haunt me

and they tell me a prodigy
thats something i could mever be
the bright side i could never see
so this gon be the death of me

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my
Fucking life
All of this weight on my shoulders is too much
For my mind
And body to handle ill never be alright

Why do i
just Sit back and wait for the moment to tell you 
Im not fine
But i promise it wont be your fault when i end my
Fucking life
All of this weight on my shoulders is too much
For my mind
And body to handle ill never be alright

time is nothing but relentless

time is nothing but relentless (santana)

by the graves in the dark
*hold my hand*
i cant see, not even spark
on this land, fall apart

i just played you, im not smart
dripping faucets, hear the bark
from the dogs
in the old mans house

nothing's ever worse than getting high
yeah i said it right
laying down
my gaves been settled there
on my house
in my dreams, i just lay there
every night
i swear it comes back, daily and im 
ripped apart!

you could never tell, 
*that i been there*
yeah i hear all of the stories that ur telling them
everyone whos me, knows that im nothing like that
ur garbage human being, and there's no coming back

i just wanted die, good thing you'd never understand
i know i got too close to it, the days were running thin
outt line
really outta time

running through the trees, yeah im running through the breeze
now its set, im crying help!
no one ever talks now
this shi*s like poetry, im just tryna help myself. 

im just tryna walk my way out of this hell
im just tryna make a name to feed myself
the photos never really cut it, its an act im sorry please
dont just cut me off cause im not rich as i seemed
blood all on  my sheets
you name keeps ringing back amongst the graves, i just need to find some peace, oh well

nothing's ever worse than getting high
yeah i said it right
laying down
my gaves been settled there
on my house
in my dreams, i just lay there
every night
i swear it comes back, daily and im 
ripped apart!

you could never tell, 
*that i been there*
yeah i hear all of the stories that ur telling them
everyone whos me, knows that im nothing like that
ur garbage human being, and there's no coming back

grave 2 (prod. AsharpTheOne)

music video/show recap:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_IhrC5Zs0gc

call me 
i hate to feel this worthless 
and i did it all myself but 
i still think this whiskey helped me a bit 
and i'm sick of promises 
they never seem that fervent 
how come i lean on someone else when 
i just need myself 

i hope you reach me 
i am starting to question everything 
did you love me for who i am or 
did you love me just 'cause i was there
i never meant to make you unhappy 
it just happened 
this world is against me 
could you give me a chance 
give me a chance 

call me 
i hate to feel this worthless 
i did it all myself but 
i swear that this whiskey helped me a bit 
and i hate your promises 
they never seem that fervent to me
lean on someone else when 
i just need myself 

yeah i'm back on i'm back on that drink again 
when i am she be all in my head 
i am not hungry for money i'm past it 
she just can't get past it it seems 
she don't like no consequence 
when i die bury me at my wedding 
she would look better if she wore a black dress 
make sure you put sunflowers up on my casket 
they're my momma's favorite 
sorry that i gave up on everything 
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing  
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing again 
i'm my mother's favorite (consequence)
sorry i gave up on everything 
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing 
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing 

call me 
i hate to feel this worthless 
i did it to myself but
i swear this whiskey helped me a bit 
yeah yeah

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i lost my voice at my show w/ acey

Getting off with your right hand
As for me, I'm fucking bitches on the nightstand
All my friends snort white sand
As for me, I'm going off on this mic stand
Got to pick your battles in this life. alright?
Either way we die
Wouldn't you rather live it right
Get high all time; cheat code? not quite
Hedonism fill your whole soul with spite

I can't even live these words
That I'm just now preaching
Habits kick them to the curb
But I'm always seeking
Lately life's been a blur
Bleached memories
Hide the ones that hurt
High under sheets
Heart So Cold  *Burr
Stone cold sober
Real life's so boring
Waking up in the morning
It's the same shit day after day
Used to think that church was stupid
Now I know why they pray
I was bout 12 years old when this life went grey
Now I put all of my vices and addictions on display
Only chasing what entices me
I ain't half the man I'd like to be

And I'm sure you can see it
One day depressed and the next I'm conceited
But I won't die defeated
I'll try my best until I am deleted

Getting off with your right hand
As for me, I'm fucking bitches on the nightstand
All my friends snort white sand
As for me, I'm going off on this mic stand
Got to pick your battles in this life. alright?
Either way we die
Wouldn't you rather live it right
Get high all time; cheat code? not quite
Hedonism fill your whole soul with spite

And we all bleed red
Had to get it through my head
There's a cause and effect
From the words that you said
When you lie there dead
What's your list of regrets
When you're filled with dread
Remember life is a gift
But your only human
There's no solution for that
Coping with my Neumann
And the sound of the hats
If you live in pure enjoyment
Something's bound to go bad
If you're tryna stay buoyant
It's a balancing act

i lost my voice at my show w/ acey

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