Keep it up brother. I believe in you, and everyone reading tbis

lights over camden
smile on the inside
planting flowers in the dirt on the road back
the parts of yourself that you don't like

but i could tell you, i thought it's obvious
(why does it always speak from the hallways?)
all about you, i wanted all of it
(why does it sound like you pretty often?)

move through the silence (last year)
your feet in the wet grass (can't hear what you say)
where inside this life was i supposed to find the time to make it all last?

years in the making
your hands always shaking
said just to trust you, said it feels amazing
why can't we know that?
why can't i know that?

just bear yourself for somebody else
just to recollect
i guess that there's nothing left
just the way you feel since like like seventeen
do you wonder why?
trying to close my eyes

Camden

and these seconds go by like they’re nothing 
and precious is time but means nothing to me 
and these minutes rain down and cause flooding 
my waterproof coat hides the heart on my sleeve 

and i met her last year through her cousin 
it was april or may i don’t know honestly
i was away with the fairies all morning 
and we texted all day and it felt like a dream

now this time i once spent with my darling 
means nothing to her or to me 
oh my god 
how embarrassing for me was blubbing
in front of her mom and like 3 of her friends

and i guess ill be there if you need me 
you don’t have to fake to please me
you can talk to me so sweetly
or pretend that this is easy
it’s a daily rock bottom
so i drown my pain in weed leaves
10KG weights, and tea leaves
and when you hurt me kill discretely, please 

(greenwood)
try to parse through the things that you said
crossed over Madison, i loved you to death
stayed in the winter despite what i need
but we never made it to august heat
eyes on the valley, you asked me to wait
ask of the baggage, it's as is you care
still keep the coat that i got you in spring
i still keep the pictures i'm not even in

i still keep the pictures i’m not even in w/ greenwood (pekarot)

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evergarden - https://soundcloud.com/evergardens

also check out aceys beats on YT - https://www.youtube.com/@prodacey

lyrics-
what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be
i saw the changes in your eyes
guess it's not easy to hide, that you wanted to leave
i see your pictures online
there's now none of you and i
oh it seems
like it was all just a dream
pretend you don't know me anymore
you just left, walked out the door
oh please
why'd you do this to me


our ship sailed 
we left feelings stranded

you take everything i have
time i wasted, wont get back 
don't move on
i wont withstand 
back to strangers? just like that?


guess it was never meant to be
we were too young, no guarantee 

i don't know why we even tried

two worlds collide

seen it coming, not surprised

what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be

strangers again (ft. evergarden) (acey)

people keep telling me i'm a guardin clone, so here's this in spite to start off 2024 :)

Lyrics:

like where did all my friends go?
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

like where did all my friends go?
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

she could read minds in the first place
she could read minds in the worst way
that means she should know that i can't stay :(
that means she should know this ain't my day
spent my whole life chasing first place
somehow i'm 5th wheeling on my birthday
taco bell 3am on a thursday
wish i could share it with you come to my place
ay
double stack chicken wrap yuh
ay
babygirl where you at love :(
crush up 9 grams gurl i'm terrified
still i'm feeling alright this deep in your eyes 

like where did all my friends go
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope- 

YUH

like where did all my friends go
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

solitary (dash)

beautiful guitar -> @safeatlast

Lyrics:

jaded in the backstreets
she'd hit the gas flyin past me
5 guys girl ur trashy
9 shots like who put me in the front seat
ay
guardin on my playlist
wired up on go while the tape spin
kind face but he a rapist
no name
no face
still complacent

this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote
where after?
this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote
where after

-

where after
where after
where after
where after

where after
where after
where after
where after

this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote

where after?

where after? (prod. safeatlast x hero)

Lyrics:
Are you mad at me?

It's a tragedy
Reality slip through my hands now
Are you mad at me?
Since I left myself in the past now

Fading, I'm fading, this feeling gets numb
In the back of my mind I know what I've become
Yeah just keep pulling strings until I come undone
Don't want to know all I know, I'd just rather be dumb

Weight upon my back 
It's like I'm Atlas, but I shrug though
Seen it all before
So I just do not give a fuck though

Count my days until I'm gone
Life is precious, carry on
One day I'll be so old and gone
Count my losses, move along

It's a tragedy
Reality slip through my hands now
Are you mad at me?
Since I left myself in the past now

Are you mad at me?

Dumb

dumb

some of my most emotional songs out everywhere<3 love u

Runaway

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runaway (feat. jomie & spookybands)

im sorry that its been a while
the time had made a heart to mend
find me in another life
i swear id try as hard again

a catalyst in heavy dark
your voice and how the bleeding stops
breath in a cold room to comfort
the surface im under for two years in sunder

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

i know its been a long time

silence feels like dying
i dont mind it
i cant find you in colours i had learned to know
olive skin in amber tones, cedarwood in maple grove
eyes low the night before i drove you home
said one day we could have our own
so why am i still here alone?

did you know then it was broken?
thought you cried in the car cause it still felt so far
but instead its just not what you want

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

all that it brings
cold in the spring
whats the point of waking up
if not for you again?
i dont know me now
i dont know me now

Mount Hood

i don't talk to my mom as much
since i started therapy
i started taking adderall 
so i ain't getting too much sleep
i thought about hurting myself 
instead i'm working out 5 times a week
they tell me to better better better myself
and you're way better better off without me 

whoa, whoa, whoa

i don't see my friends that much (that much) 
i moved out of the city when i turned 27
but i can tell they're all doing well
but when it comes to me, ah, not much is different (yeah, yeah) 

yeah, when it comes to me, ah, not much is different

not much is different (p. velvet)

i cried this morning in the car
and i hate how my brain's wired
i can't give myself love
i gave it to everyone 
i gave it to everyone 
and now i don't have anyone to call
besides this one friend, but 
he's busy with a new job
i can't give - fuck (i can't give myself love)
i took that from everyone 
that affects everyone 

look, i ain't no narcissist but i wish i was
they seem like they have so much fun
while i'm looking at myself like 'what the fuck?'
at this point i really thought i'd be in love
i thought i'd have 2 kids and a pickup truck
not some shake in my hand when i don't drink enough (fuck)
nothing's gonna complete me, huh?
nothing's ever gonna tell me to keep this up, but

i will

this morning i closed my eyes, and i 
talked to god 
i asked him why he had to -
i don't know

i wrote this in my head in the car (p. michael harrison)

prod secre x tiedforsilver

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

(you and i could try to work it out)
ive spent enough time in my mind to know its not the answer
is there a god in the sky respond to my prayer
maybe i wanted to die i couldnt find my savior

turn me into sumn i cant even look at
stare into a mirror and a stranger is what looks back
8 grams in my book bag
smokin after school to kill the feelings that i hold back

ripped away at my life
got gutted with my own knife
im tired of livin in strife
i thank the demon inside

that caused the place i reside
to wither in front of my eyes
you couldnt keep me alive
no matter how hard you try

i dont need a thought process
could do without the options
tell me what to be i feel like nothing but an object
i could be your prospect
you could be my prophet
wheres the road ahead of us gone i think ive lost it lost it

im nauseous
scratch that i meant noxious
fill my body up let it dissolve with all your toxins
i cannot be cautious
sorry im obnoxious
i dont mean to be a pain i dont know how to stop it

what do you want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

wha- wha-
want from me
ill try to be
your anchor
indefinitely
ill writhe and seethe
in anger
why are we 
so blind to see
a stranger
as a friend
with good intentions
never

i wrote this in my head in the car (p. michael harrison)

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