the quality is crazy brother, good work 🖤

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

stare at my body as i bleed
what did u even find in me 
a bucnh of dreams ill never reach
a lot of ideas ill never be 

stare at my yeah (4x)

im fucked up and shits not over
i want to but i can't get sober 
ur death made my whole body colder
everynight i dream about when i used to hold ya(2x)

love life but death seems charming
can't stop myself from falling 
eyes glued to the back of my eyelids
when i die fill my coffin with violets 

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

misfit (santana)

fishing in los angeles (p. michael harrison)

Stressin [fthkfiftyone]

pop these pills till its over
everybody hating on lil october
thats why im staying high
no im never staying sober
ill see you in the sky girl
im never growing older
im caught in the same pain
im always growing colder
dont even know my full name
you call yourself a doxxer
girl cut up my brain
call her a doctor
get a new bitch in the same day
and i dont even want her

if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
if u want me to stop
hit the thc
on the grind to the top
with my bpd
if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
used to wanna be a cop
endless misery
watch your body drop
coz its me vs me

these thoughts in my brain 
askin me why id stay 
my life is a nightmare 
it wont go away
i lie through my teeth
and say that im okay
pretend that its normal be feelin this way
its not okay 
its not alright
the battle inside is like every night
myself wants to kill me 
i put up a fight
im still wearing the mask 
when i pick up the pint
put that shit to my head
it cant be the end
i just wanted out
now im on the fence
i know its crazy
but in my defense
i prolly am too
im off of the meds 
like i said im borderline
whatd you expect
got a hole in my soul
but im gettin bread
my horizon is somewhere that 
ill never tread
holdin on to what ive got 
and the pain wont end

if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
if u want me to stop
hit the thc
on the grind to the top
with my bpd
if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
used to wanna be a cop
endless misery
watch your body drop
coz its me vs me

me vs me w/ HKFiftyOne (prod. Xenshel)

Lyrics:
i ain't been sober in like ten days
baby come on over, promise i'm ok
say they wanna be me but they don't, no way
i'm not myself when you're far away

i ain't been sober in like ten days
baby come on over, promise i'm ok
say they wanna be me but they don't, no way
no way, no way, no way

i just sleep, i just sleep, all the time now
staying low, make a peep, homicide now
i can't speak about what's on my mind now
except to these songs and my baby she mine now

i feel like im crazy, im based in my mind now
i'm pacing the corners like shadows in hideout
i'm up and i'm down, when i smile i frown
i'm a mime now, i'm a clown now, i'm a raven in the ground

i ain't been sober in like ten days
baby come on over, promise i'm ok
say they wanna be me but they don't, no way
i'm not myself when you're far away

i ain't been sober in like ten days
baby come on over, promise i'm ok
say they wanna be me but they don't, no way
no way, no way, no way

Darling

darling

cowboys never cry 
but i've been crying all the time 
you're my benzodiazepine 
you always ease my mind 

cowboys never cry 
but i've been crying all the time 
you're my benzodiazepine 
you always ease my mind 


yeah i'm steady on my way 
but never steady in my hands 
just a man at sea 
that's gasping up for air 
yeah i'm burning up my treads 
'cause i'm just steady doin laps 
to a finish line i don't even know is there 
and i feel like i saw it once
but only in my dreams
and when i try to find a meaning i don't know 
and i just left my body and saw myself across the bar 
with a weary face and sipping tequila soda


and cowboys never cry 
but i've been crying all the time 
you're my benzodiazepine 
you always ease my mind 

cowboys never cry 
but i've been crying all the time 
you're my benzodiazepine 
you always ease my 
always ease my  


i might get too drunk 
and get kicked out the 27 club 
but i don't really care there's smoke up in the air
you a politician i can't even tell what's been the truth 
but ever since we left arizona the love ain't there

tequila soda (p. zakk garner)

<3
soundcloud.com/eoin-disney

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Greenwood:
the shades been drawn for so long
i dont know why i've been here
a summer passed without your laugh
i still hear it so clear
i wonder why it happens now
left to figure out
how the pieces of me suffocate in the weeds intact
told you that its good, its getting bad

listening to rover in your attic
sleeping in til 6 i know it after
i had marked the page to save the passage 
something about the pain that doesn't happen
i wonder if your neighbours figured out at all
i wonder if you saved yourself at a cost of what we lost

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Greenwood:
light we couldn't see but i'm sure that its hitting
i'd be down for a week, i'd be down for a minute
see the scope of your life when its already finished
kinda strange at the end, feeling like the beginning
and i know what you'd say but i'm glad that you didn't
put my life on a shelf for a job and its killing
cause i've been fucking up
i just need to come around
figure out the proper way to hold you but its different now
i just couldn't figure out

time had taken hold of me, bury me
take control like its kerosene 
in my head its invisible, what's that mean on a principle?
when its dark i could speak but i regret it so easily
if you promise to forget i'd tell you just what it means to me
to be out again
fucked up with the sound effects
heard he made it overseas i hope he knows i'm proud of him
happy so we call it that
second summer came to pass, i've been working late
cause no ones waiting for me coming back

cycle through the lens of the moment
i couldn't see what was coming
i tried to fix it when its over 
cause i thought that it wasn't

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Bloom (w/ Eoin Disney)

people keep telling me i'm a guardin clone, so here's this in spite to start off 2024 :)

Lyrics:

like where did all my friends go?
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

like where did all my friends go?
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

she could read minds in the first place
she could read minds in the worst way
that means she should know that i can't stay :(
that means she should know this ain't my day
spent my whole life chasing first place
somehow i'm 5th wheeling on my birthday
taco bell 3am on a thursday
wish i could share it with you come to my place
ay
double stack chicken wrap yuh
ay
babygirl where you at love :(
crush up 9 grams gurl i'm terrified
still i'm feeling alright this deep in your eyes 

like where did all my friends go
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope- 

YUH

like where did all my friends go
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

solitary (dash)

prod me
guitar by Morgan Cheadle

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could
never even amount to the way we used to be no  

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but
ill do it for you i dont care about me still

its like i never even mattered
put my fist into a mirror just to watch it shatter
every day i eat my life away im only getting fatter
and the soul i left behind is begging me "do somethin about it"
i dont know how  
i dont even know where to start
its like the weight upon my shoulders keeps me off of the charts
its gettin sickening
try to do the things that i love but deep down
theyre only pulling strings away from my heart

let me go
this place reminds me of what we once called home
walkin this empty road
the path before mes left me nowhere to go 

everything that i see
and all the air that i breathe could (let me go)
never even amount to the way we used to be no
(this place reminds me of what we once called home)

wakin up in your sheets
every day is so exhuasting but (walkin this empty road)
ill do it for you i dont care about me still
(the path before mes left me nowhere to go)

chapter II: a reminder of home

Lyrics:
Are you mad at me?

It's a tragedy
Reality slip through my hands now
Are you mad at me?
Since I left myself in the past now

Fading, I'm fading, this feeling gets numb
In the back of my mind I know what I've become
Yeah just keep pulling strings until I come undone
Don't want to know all I know, I'd just rather be dumb

Weight upon my back 
It's like I'm Atlas, but I shrug though
Seen it all before
So I just do not give a fuck though

Count my days until I'm gone
Life is precious, carry on
One day I'll be so old and gone
Count my losses, move along

It's a tragedy
Reality slip through my hands now
Are you mad at me?
Since I left myself in the past now

Are you mad at me?

Dumb

dumb

i don't talk to my mom as much
since i started therapy
i started taking adderall 
so i ain't getting too much sleep
i thought about hurting myself 
instead i'm working out 5 times a week
they tell me to better better better myself
and you're way better better off without me 

whoa, whoa, whoa

i don't see my friends that much (that much) 
i moved out of the city when i turned 27
but i can tell they're all doing well
but when it comes to me, ah, not much is different (yeah, yeah) 

yeah, when it comes to me, ah, not much is different

tequila soda (p. zakk garner)

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