this song is fucking nuts. i come back all the time!

then my demons fucking told me- I should Feel this on my Own!

once again ive returned to patients entire discography

congratulations on the legal name change n I hope you continue growing 🥀

2x
eyes roll back im no longer here
my only chance to make it - lost

feel like im frozen to the ground theres no way around 
i cannot move cant make a sound ill never be found 
and i dont kno who to trust its so hard for me
they never stay at all only take my heart from me 

your so cold im freezing to death, so cold i cant catch a breath
u got me so obsessed and now theres notging left
i cant tell if im in the wrong or right 
but i know 4sure that i cannot win this fight
i think i learned my lesson 
if you love something then you should never let it go 
or you will never get it back
took me time to accept it but i might never make it
never take things for granted or you will soon regret it 

i wanna run away and dont look back 
need sum time to get things off my mind 
need sum time to realize that ive been blind for so long, blind for so long

lost「sp00 + craves」

vocals, production, and cover art by me

i've been working on this for 5 months and i still havent perfected it...
but i need to get it off my mind, so here it is <3

🠟 lyrics 🠟

self hate 
contradictions 
little bit 
narcissistic 
i know what keeps me going
its much better than missing 

But this the problem
This is an issue
I need to fix me
You need to fix you

I cant hear you out no more
And i don't even wanna get you 

stared into my inner workings 
please just show me how to grow 

then my demons fucking told me
i should feel this on my own

i cant disagree
it hurts
its real
and thats how i judge things

i cant see my future
without drugs and dreams of nothing 

But its beautiful the way it stings
i cherish that burn 

I can never tell 
what am i worth?
and what have i earned? 


We grew closer
When you hurt me
When you cut me
When you burned me

I liked it better when u didn’t care 
(didnt care) 


We grew further apart
You tried to heal me
Its not the same as the start
You just dont feel me

Trust me love theres enough of this pain to share

stared into my inner workings 
please just show me how to grow 

then my demons fucking told me
i should feel this on my own

i cant disagree
it hurts
its real
and thats how i judge things

i cant see my future
without drugs and dreams of nothing 

But its beautiful the way it stings
i cherish that burn 

I can never tell 
what am i worth?
and what have i earned?

cherish it

@glassxhotel @prodlura ily 

(chorus) x2
i’m so lost .. i need a way back home
i’m so cold .. i feel it in my bones
left your warmth .. & now i’m on my own
shield my heart .. with walls made from stone

(verse)
all u put me thru
i still held onto u
i feel so fragile
i’m so sad, i could shatter

girl, i’m like a snowflake
everything is so fake

my visions blurry, i don’t know
if i could do this on my own

(bridge)
my heart is frozen
it’s all because of you
give me a moment
wonder what i have left to lose

(chorus) x2
i’m so lost .. i need a way back home
i’m so cold .. i feel it in my bones
left your warmth .. & now i’m on my own
shield my heart .. with walls made from stone

snow angels

stream on spotify

snow angels (lura)

drums by @oldyungtoadsage, remaining production, mels / vox / mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying 

Pain
Abbreviated
I burn what i grow
Till its all the same to me

All these fucking games
that they play are lame to me

please talk real
all these bitches fucking sound the same to me...


ill cut you out if you suppress me

all the blood means = growth
++more stress please

i just wanna get these words of my chest please 

step out
from depression 
like i bested it

its my craft 
i invest in it

my hearts not pure
you tested it,
so u know

i strike down
what's best in me

i cut down and rebuild 
what's left of me
on my own 

shawty keep on texting me
u can try 
but u wont see the rest of me

no no no 

my swag so heavenly 
i don't take no pills 
match my energy 
no, u wont

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying

impure

- featuring [@daybat aka spiral]  | (second verse)
- produced by [@mothshonor aka ami4evr]
- additional production, effects and mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ first half : @sprigtek ]

Hanging on for something 
u believed that i had

But my hands are closed noww..

you took my heart from me

i didn’t have what u wanted

still u took a part that i need

you’ll never give it back, be honest

i don’t even want you to now

i dont want you to
noowww...

[ verse 2 ]

mind goes static 

i control the mix like magic

bad shit happens
when ur passive

part of me knows that im trash 
thats why u like to laugh me off

please im begging u to stop

hold my blade two inches off

hesitate to let it drop



all those times you said im worthless

all those times you said that im worth it

i just wanna find my purpose 

acting like
you never said
those things at all?

always hurting 
wishing i could fucking 
clear my mind

clear it of you
and leave your face a couple miles behind

[ verse 3 / outro : @daybat /spiral ]

you wanted more from me
but i can’t see the light like i used to 
will you give me something i’m used to
something that hurts
show me my worth
none of my thoughts look so pretty on paper
my body’s a prison and i can’t escape her
trapped in myself
i’ll envy someone else
i’m not your friend i don’t like you
search the mirror until i find you

passive >|< + spiral

See it through 
I know I’m coming back 
I’m Falling out 
Count a number 
I’m done too
It’s you 
Crossing states 
I just wanna waste time w u
Crush thru another pack 
Im ttyna make it thru another day
I cannot lose but see its taking me away 

Burning out like candle
But can it 
All the days not canon
I can never go back 
Only crushed thru I had too many
Shits scary

I slept thru soul cracks
I think I can’t turn back

And when it points south  
Yesterday 
Don’t u sign up
Rip teeth out 
Far away 
Ripped peace out

See it through 
I know I’m coming back 
I’m Falling out 
Count a number 
I’m done too
It’s you 
Crossing states 
I just wanna waste time w u
Crush thru another pack 
Im ttyna make it thru another day
I cannot lose but see its taking me away

ushiosgrave [watering + pearlblade + ami4evr]MV SOON

prod: starboyrob x _offandout x themed1c

I'd give it all
Give it all
I would let the bridges burn and towers fall
I'd give it all
I’d give it all
I would let the bridges burn and towers fall
From this guilt that I know
Want this shit want this shit that I know
Pop a pill pop and X ur 2 slo
Maybe one day if I burned u would show

(2x)
I'd give it all
I would watch bridges burn and towers fall
Pop a pill and now I'm drowning I can't talk
Yeah you hate me telling me that it's all my fault

I pour gasoline
On myself and so I burn watch me fucking bleed
Yeah I cant go to nobody cant fucking speak
Now I sit here by myself
Watch me sit here by myself
When I need help nobody would help me

In my ear yeah you cry4me
All these teardrops on the dear love watch it die for me

I cant even fucking sleep
I cant even fucking eat
I'm so tired god im tired of it all

And i know
Oh god i know

All this pain inside my chest that I have stowed
Now you mumble all this and now you're acting like I care
I'm self conscious hate the stares
I cant breath I need airrrr

hopeurhappynow

u could never, yeah i know

prod @stellathepixie & @sprigtek
feat @sprigtek

(pixie)
otherworldly 
politics 4 kids of foreign bodies 
smash me 2 the ground 
u stop my heartbeat
fucked my perception of things around me 
blush and ill bleed

razors, ivs
i am sick and god i know what’s waiting 
flowers underneath but my ribs r breaking
sleep n keep repeating in the backseat 
live while starving 

i won’t stay young and i haven’t been happy 
coz im trying so hard 2 want what u gave me
strawberry veins run w sugar n sweet tea
ill spit the blood back and savor the green sea

kiss my body, forcibly become relieved by me
u could never, yeah i know, but at least im not on my knees 
maybe i will burn forever but my love she tastes like peace
n when divinity comes for us i know they’ll burn with me

look on the lake by the sixth circle x2
blasphemous girl your blood’s in the water x2

(patient)
losing words so slowly that u cant tell
i say something but u don’t give a fuck
oh well

nothing heard from me slow crawling
towards ur heart before i fall
the chambers cold n white walled 
not jaded yet im so appalled

i get concerned when you say nothing
and i’m waiting for your calls
my heart is burning when we speak
but u don’t seem to care at all

i knew that this would happen
now i think of back then
cover me in gas and
throw the fucking match in

but i cant go yet
don’t know why but something keeps me here
part of me is wishing i spoke less of love and left unclear 
but i cant go yet
i don’t how u keep me here

      part of me is wishing

                        part of me is wishing

sixth circle w/ sprigtek (pixie & sprig)

@sshinju @dj-heroin

hold me close, close to your heart 
don’t let me go, don’t make me fall apart 

it could be so perfect 
but idk if it’s worth it 
I know you’re still hurting 
so am I, tell me what’s on ur mind 
I just want to do you right 
press rewind go back in time 
I’d never leave your side 
I’d never leave you behind 

hide my tears go undercover,
one last try can’t get another 
take my heart I’m going under 
I’m nothing special just a number
in your system, in your memory
I’ll be there til you delete me 
til you feel like you don’t need me 
just press the button it’s that easy 

hold me close, close to your heart 
hide my tears, go undercover
one last try, can’t get another 
don’t let me go, don’t make me fall apart 
take my heart, I’m going under 
I’m nothing special, just a number 

pull me close, push me back 
I’m just way too attached to you 
yea I fell for your trap
too far gone, can’t go back 
now I’m lost in my head,
and I’m lost with the thought of you just leaving me right here 

hide my tears go undercover,
one last try can’t get another 
take my heart I’m going under 
I’m nothing special just a number
in your system, in your memory
I’ll be there til you delete me 
til you feel like you don’t need me 
just press the button it’s that easy

undercover「shinju + djh」

its a good day its ok

its a good day its ok  w/winks

>> lyrix <<

what if light falls asleep
and then ill have the night 2 keep me company
should i hide or should i scream
said im fine but i feel somethingg
i need some rest
cant sleep, chained 2 my bed
w all these things that stay runnin thru my head
im on the fence, leanin off the edge of life or death

when it's dark out
and u haunt me
cry my eyes out
when u hold me
rip my heart out
it's the old me
in the darkness
ion feel lonely
when it's dark out
and u haunt me
cry my eyes out
when u hold me
rip my heart out
it's the old me
in the darkness
ion feel lonely

i just hold on 2 my faith, i cant lose it yet
i keep going til im drained and there's nothing left
i need a change
i just want the bestt

what if light falls asleep
and then ill have the night 2 keep me company
should i hide or should i scream
said im fine but i feel somethingg
i need some rest
cant sleep, chained 2 my bed
w all these things that stay runnin thru my head
im on the fence, leanin off the edge of life or death

when it's dark out
and u haunt me
cry my eyes out
when u hold me
rip my heart out
it's the old me
in the darkness
ion feel lonely
when it's dark out
and u haunt me
cry my eyes out
when u hold me
rip my heart out
it's the old me
in the darkness
ion feel lonely

when it's dark out [dgtl]

@spazzteamonline
production credits are in every song description !!! 
majority of my songs are self produced
or co-produced

cherish it

sprigtek

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