produced written and recorded by me.
im alone and unwell. im trying to hypnotize myself into eating 3 meals a day.

lyrics: 

i dont want to 
leave you hurting...
i dont wanna leave 
but this shits just not working

u can hate me 
if you really wanna think that im bad

i dont think like that 
but if it works
then go ahead

you can keep on searching
even when you say that im the one
its so concerning

everything we’ve known 
is destroyed 
now my rooms so drab
i don’t think im the soul 
that you want
sleeping in your bed


im so broken
u cant fix me
i cant fix you
you cant stitch me up

u say im worth it
u cant convince me
i think im worthless
my mind trips me up

we were choking on our words too much
but i finally spit it out
u said baby i will wait for you
to rid yourself of all your doubts

we’ll see about that 
come a few years when im back on track
come a few years when i get my stacks right
come a few years and you wont look back
at me (x2)


i dont want to 
leave you hurting...
i dont wanna leave 
but this shits just not working

u can hate me 
if you really wanna think that im bad

i dont think like that 
but if it works
then go ahead

you can keep on searching
even when you say that im the one
its so concerning

everything we’ve known 
is destroyed 
now my rooms so drab
i don’t think im the soul 
that you want
sleeping in your bed

go ahead

featuring @gl0wrm

coproduced by @gl0wrm and me

[verse 1] (patient)

i wish i could help you
you keep dissecting yourself
broke into smaller pieces
the temperature starts to melt us down

the spell was short lived
but i still feel 
all of the effects
my heart is contorted 
am i pain in your neck?

so please just tell me right from wrong
cause i don't have a way to know that
so please just tell me right from wrong 
my judgement is flawed

[verse 2] (gl0wrm)

trauma fight back
i want all of you
wanna get clean
wanna notice me?
wanna throw you back
wanna run it back
I want all of that
I'll just stay by your side
a minute of your life
I'm faceless in your eyes
I'm talking my name like its yours
I can't stop thinking of you
i guess you don't want that way
my eyes are yours then
don't care about it
i don't want you
Gotta set it free
i can't keep going back
i want all my life like I'm all that's true
I don’t care about it
I don’t want you
Gotta set it free
I wanna notice you

[end]

dissection + gl0wrm

i produced this beat almost two years ago 
using a guitar sample from ichika nito

chops / second vox by @gl0wrm

p.s this is my first song w the spazzteam tag hehe

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ verse 1 : @sprigtek ]

metal rings 
sharpened teeth
take a bite of me

why am i terrified 
i just wanna bleed 

wanting to escape
every place i see

i cant heal cuz i mix up my wants and needs 

metal rings 
sharpened teeth
take a bite of me

why am i terrified 
i just wanna bleed 

wanting to escape
every place i see

i cant heal cuz i mix up my wants and needs 
-

Didn’t wanna face the truth 
Now i know im hated by you

I dont wanna make it through this
I just wanna start one new

Didn’t wanna face the truth 
Now i know im hated by you


I dont wanna make it through this
I just wanna start one new

Ask me whats wrong
i Cant really answer 
I dont wanna get into it now
So i 
put my head down 
doesn’t fucking matter 
Is this really 
how im getting through it with you

Ask you whats wrong
dance around the answer 
Sick of feeling like im in a fight 
So i put my head down
doesn’t fucking matter
is this really how im getting through it with you

guilty little pill
i cant deal
with the side effects 

and if looks could kill
id be dead 
i see your regret

[ verse 2 : @gl0wrm ]

((( unknown )))

[ @spazzteamonline ]

everything thats wrong + gl0wrm

all audio by me

i hope you enjoy <3 

[ Lyrics ]

taking all my pills 
on an empty stomach

The side that has the plus, 
needs a wire dipped in blood 

How long should i try?
Im getting nothing from it.

Im frail and out of tears
but still not tired of your love 

REMOVING MYSELF
from every equation 
TAKING MYSELF OUT
OF each and every heart
And Im not worried bout the way 
that things have went for me at all
Cuz Now that ive lost everything 
At least i know its all my fault 

I realized
i cant stand myself
without you

i cant remove
each moment
it was all that i knew

begin to feel
the new world 
render in front 

begin to taste 
of freedom
but its not what i want 

What was the takeaway from this?
What did i takeaway from you?
What was your takeaway from me?
If you found your answer 
was it true?

you dont have to answer me at all
i dont have to answer you now
im not going to beg for one last dance 
im not going to ask to be found

removing myself

written, recorded and mastered by me
produced by @oldyungtoadsage <3

🠟 lyrics 🠟

A month that passes like a second with no comment

Living in the present,
its a box that lost its contents...

I wake up to their world,
where observations are nonsense

I wake up to their world,
where the truth is just too honest.

I wake up to a world
where everyone i know has lost it all

I wake up with the knowledge
That everyone i like is lost...

Im really okay with the pain and the costs,
and they think im not sane
its okay cuz im not

i said babe
im a pain to you
see that im draining you

said im engrained in you
get me away from you

im really okay
   as i say 
       while im crossed
then u stare at my eyes,
and u can tell im exhausted.

you don't wanna be chained to me
im probably a stain to you
i cant contain, asking,
how is it plain to you?
its not to me.

grew up having bad rep
look around me
everybody chasing checks
i have no crew
because the cliques just chase
adrenaline and neck

bitch im numb just like a sedative at best

and im pathetic cuz i leave the ones that love me
for some rest

and imma do it till im finally unaffected
by the ones
who make me scared of getting left

and imma do it till im finally unaffected
by the ones
who make me check my fucking back
like every second

and imma cherish every laceration
gratefully like someone who was made
to take a lesson

cuz im a masochist
and maybe im addicted
to the people who can send a fucking message

i think i left a bad impression
till the end, from the start,
im the source of my depression
build it up and tear it apart
spill everything in the session

 [ switch up ]

i dont
   see love
       as i used to anymore

some part
     of my heart
         died to keep me alive

i dropped my guard,
     in the end 
        what was it for?

some part
     of my heart
        died to keep me alive

-

its probably cause
     the light that was
inside of me
       has given up...
                well im not sure if it can be revived
                                 (be revived)

im mourning youth
       this shit is tough
             no innocence
                   no giving up
       my heart ran dry so you cant be mine
                        (cant be mine)

Its kinda clear that you dont need me,
Its pretty clear that i dont need you...
Its kinda clear that you dont want me,
Its pretty clear that i dont know what i want...
         kno-kno-know what i want
                        anymore

i dont
   see love
       as i used to anymore

some part
     of my heart
         died to keep me alive

i dropped my guard,
     in the end 
        what was it for?

some part
     of my heart
        died to keep me alive

bad impressions

produced by @dj-fortify + @2messi
additional drums // sound fx // vocals by me

lyrics:

There was no one
Now you’re standing here 
I dont wanna give 
into this quite yet

I was cold and empty 
Please don’t disappear 
The thread that holds me is
at your fingertips 

I hope that its real
And if im dreaming 
Dont wake me up yet
A need a minute

I hope that its real
And if im dreaming 
Dont wake me up yet
Up yet
Up yet
Up yet 
Up-up-up-up

(break)

ive been dealing with it so painfully 
i just make assumptions
please wait for me
tell me how it is
ill listen gratefully 
But in the end
I think you’ll probably end up hating me

ive been dealing with it so painfully 
i just make assumptions
please wait for me
tell me how it is
ill listen gratefully 
But in the end
I think you’ll probably end up hating me

There was no one
Now you’re standing here 
I dont wanna give 
into this quite yet

I was cold and empty 
Please don’t disappear 
The thread that holds me is
at your fingertips 

I hope that its real
And if im dreaming 
Dont wake me up yet
A need a minute

I hope that its real...

the thread that holds me

featuring @ons13
produced / mixed by me
visual art by @earthsoft on insta :)

i made this song when Ryu's name was ryukage then he changed it to ons13 so thats why there are conflictions but regardless i hope u enjoy this track and follow 0ns13 on Instagram

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ intro : @sprigtek ]

i can act quite cold
like im loveless

i can numb my heart 🤍
while its pumping

not invited
to the function

im a freak bitch
i say dumb shit


Sick of sitting home
on my own
someone hold me 

stuck inside my head
can my shrink unfold me 

i like it when they hate me
i like it when they scold me

i like it when they try
but they fail to control me 


Dont pretend you know me
I dont even know myself

Gimme just a minute 
to compose myself 

No one gives a fuck 
is what i told myself 

Gotta stop attempting 
to destroy myself 

i can act quite cold
like im loveless

i can numb my heart 🤍
while its pumping

not invited
to the function

im a freak bitch
i say dumb shit

[ verse : ons13 / ryu ]

i remember when i seen her in the club lights
now shes all i wanna see i don’t wanna fight
always made to feel wrong i don’t wanna b right 
i just rly hope that we’re gonna b alright 
had a dream last night that i was dressed in white 
woke up the darkness has taken whats mine
im dumb im stupid ignoring your signs 
i feel so useless i can’t make it right 

shes a freak bitch, and i hate it 
sometimes feel like i’m not good enough to make it 
if i give you my trust then don’t betray it
youre the only one i got so pls dont fake it 

im possessive and im nasty 
i don’t know why anyone would want me
i show you off, and you flaunt me
i look happy but my other side it haunts me

[ outro : @sprigtek ]

Dont pretend you know me
I dont even know myself

Gimme just a minute 
to compose myself 

No one gives a fuck 
is what i told myself 

Gotta stop attempting 
to destroy myself 

i can act quite cold
like im loveless

i can numb my heart 🤍
while its pumping

not invited
to the function

im a freak bitch
i say dumb shit

i can act quite cold + ons13

produced written and recorded by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

I 
saw through
your hesitation...

Did i bring you hope,
Or did i pull you down?

I told you i was trying 
but im wasting all my breath

I wanna rise above the waterline
Before i drown 



I know that i should just stop giving
power to the hurt

there’s something that i haven’t found,
ill never know my worth.

and it doesn’t come from you for sure.
u tried to help but you were burned

because i never do enough 
of what you want...

or enough of what i need
I will starve until im done
Every time that we progress
You take ten steps and i take one

Whats this feeling in my chest?
I feel as though i have been left in your dust

But i will stand if i must


-
Im doing better with you gone
pushing through these minutes one by one 
pretending you weren’t here before 
-


I 
saw through
your hesitation...

Did i bring you hope,
Or did i pull you down?

I told you i was trying 
but im wasting all my breath

I wanna rise above the waterline
Before i drown 



I know that i should just stop giving
power to the hurt

there’s something that i haven’t found,
i'll never know my worth.

And it doesn’t come from you for sure.
U tried to help but you were burned

Because i never do enough 
of what you want...

Or enough of what i need
I will starve until im done
Every time that we progress
You take ten steps and i take one

Whats this feeling in my chest?
I feel as though i have been left in your dust

But i will stand if i must

left in your dust

instrumental by @emorave
vocals/mix/chops by me 

[ Lyrics ]

SELECT MY HEART
AND TRY TO SEND IT THRU THE SCREEN

ITS LOST WHEN SENT
UR NEVER GETTING WHAT I MEAN

ITS EITHER YOU
OR THOUGHTS OF HARMING ME
THATS FILLING UP MY DREAMS

AND IT NEVER ENDS, I THINK
IM HERE 
JUST WAITING FOR 
THE BLEEDING TO STOP

( Stop )
( I Think )
( Bleeding Never Ends )
( Stop )
( You’re Harming Me )

U SAID U LIKED ME
BUT U DONT 
CUZ IM A PSYCHO

YOU CHANGED YOUR MIND
LIKE WHAT YOU SAID
WAS JUST A TYPO 

IT MAKES SENSE
CUZ I COULD NEVER BE UR TYPE

I TRY TO TELL MYSELF TO STOP
BUT THINK ABOUT U EVERY NIGHT 


IM NOTHING NEW 
U PROBABLY GOT A QUICK REPLACEMENT 

MY WORDS ARE WASTED
YOU FORGET MY FUCKING STATEMENTS

I KNOW THESE THINGS
BUT STILL YOU MAKE ME FEEL ALIVE

AND WHEN U ASK ME WHY I CARE
ITS SOMETHING 
I JUST CANT DESCRIBE

( Im nothing new)
( Im nothing new )
( My words are wasted )
( On you )

[ @spazzteamonline ]

select my heart

produced by @sprr00w + @craves <3
written recorded and mixed by me 

as of making this I'm not doing good

🠟 lyrics 🠟

i wish that i could say
that im at my worst

but i know you’re here too


took my mind to a place
where i can hide my pain

so i can fucking hear you


and when you’re done
i turn my phone off
so i can disappear 

u dont wanna know
the things i do to cope
when ur not here


so don’t you worry your 
little head

im all ears for you 
as i should be

ill keep lying and saying
that im fine

until your problems
eat
away at me



time we get away from here
and see a place that doesn’t rain 

its time to say goodbye to home
cuz all it brought us both was pain 

its time for us to vanish 
in a way where they ask
are we sane ?

its time 

for us to walk alone


ill go left and you go right

ill go dark and you go light

ill accept while you deny

and say im not a waste of time


ill go left and you go right

ill go dark and you go light

ill accept while you deny

and say im not a waste of your time

i wish i had more to give

i love all these people dearly >|<

produced by me and @kojowav
mix/chops by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ intro : @xxsyris ]

what i feel around you 
is hard to describe
i can see thru ur lies 
please dont hurt whats inside

i feel like a nuisance
i feel i'm reclusive
why do u act cluless
you make me feel useless

[ chorus : @sprigtek ]

you still 
look at me 
like you did

back when 
we had met
u had let me in 

even when
you explain
its so strange

am i the one?
i -i
 the one
that u still miss


and ur the one
   that i want- 
i want to listen to 

until my death
    when i dream 
i still envision you

why would you tell me that?
if it just isnt true 

those things we said would happen 
am i just your distraction?

[ verse 1 : @xxsyris ]

i'm not the one, oh
i'm not the one oh,
what we've become
something that can't be undone

i'm not the one, oh
i'm not the one oh,
what we've become
something that can't be undone

and i know its fucked up but stay here with me

i promise its worth it so baby dont leave

you know that i want this you know that i need this

spinning in circles with lies but believe this

just keep it a secret ur love yeah i need it

i need it your love yeah i need it

[ verse 2 : @venusiann ]

i can't breathe, i'm so weak
i can't go on like this right now
but maybe, you'll save me
want you to lift me from the ground

and i can't keep you around
love is my curse i'd drown

hate to see your face
i wanna escape
to another place
never wanted it this way

[ chorus : @sprigtek ]

you still 
look at me 
like you did

back when 
we had met
u had let me in 

even when
you explain
its so strange

am i the one?
i -i
 the one
that u still miss


and ur the one
   that i want- 
i want to listen to 

until my death
    when i dream 
i still envision you

why would you tell me that?
if it just isnt true 

those things we said would happen 
am i just your distraction?

[ end ]

resolve / once + syris + venusiann

vocals, production, and cover art by me

i've been working on this for 5 months and i still havent perfected it...
but i need to get it off my mind, so here it is <3

🠟 lyrics 🠟

self hate 
contradictions 
little bit 
narcissistic 
i know what keeps me going
its much better than missing 

But this the problem
This is an issue
I need to fix me
You need to fix you

I cant hear you out no more
And i don't even wanna get you 

stared into my inner workings 
please just show me how to grow 

then my demons fucking told me
i should feel this on my own

i cant disagree
it hurts
its real
and thats how i judge things

i cant see my future
without drugs and dreams of nothing 

But its beautiful the way it stings
i cherish that burn 

I can never tell 
what am i worth?
and what have i earned? 


We grew closer
When you hurt me
When you cut me
When you burned me

I liked it better when u didn’t care 
(didnt care) 


We grew further apart
You tried to heal me
Its not the same as the start
You just dont feel me

Trust me love theres enough of this pain to share

stared into my inner workings 
please just show me how to grow 

then my demons fucking told me
i should feel this on my own

i cant disagree
it hurts
its real
and thats how i judge things

i cant see my future
without drugs and dreams of nothing 

But its beautiful the way it stings
i cherish that burn 

I can never tell 
what am i worth?
and what have i earned?

cherish it

it took me 20+ versions to get this

produced/mixed/written by me
cover art edited by @venusrose4u

🠟 lyrics 🠟

conceal my heart
cant trust another soul
to pull me out 
i think i need to find

how to 
make this my own
create a home
without a hand to hold 


i swear this is my final plea
to find a love whose fine with me
these wounds create a 
timeless piece
of
whats inside this mind that keeps me

painfully awake at night 
in this 
drab and empty room of white
in this 
hole devoid of love and light
that i
dug myself into despite your

passionately held advice
telling 
me to find a fucking vice
that
doesn’t have to do with knives 
or 
sacrificing sections of me

ohh i was too late
but i see it now
can i fix my ways?
before i bleed out

conceal my heart
cant trust another soul
to pull me out 
i think i need to find

how to 
make this my own
create a home
without a hand to hold

plea

all audio by me / coverart also by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

In each attempt...

Your symbol laid in the view of my path

And with every step that I took, with deft

If you weren’t beside me, I knew it wouldn’t be the last

Where do you believe were from?
And where do you think we’ll go, from here?

I wanna hear it all from you,
So tell me how you feel...

Don’t act like you know how this will go,

Will you leave me alone, when I need you close?

I knew
You see
Through me

I knew you could see through me...

You see some things that i cant see
Ohhh

Although sometimes,
You tire my mind

Im worried sick
Will she survive?

Just one more night
Just one more try

To grab this rope
Attempt to climb

Its yours to take
Your choice, not mine

Its not the end
You still have time

I see you’re trying for yourself this time,
And thats a better start

Trust me, no matter where we are
I'll hold your voice inside my heart.

Well, do you care if I bring it up?

Your presence weighs on me and its tough to look away

And when I sing of something else...

You keep on coming up,
No matter what i say...

Ohhh,
Well maybe thats okay

Where do you believe were from?
And where do you think we’ll go, from here?

I wanna hear it all from you,
So tell me how you feel...

Don’t act like you know how this will go,

Will you leave me alone, when I need you close?

I knew you could see through me

"caring hurts, but i cant turn it off..."

in grey

drums by @oldyungtoadsage, remaining production, mels / vox / mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying 

Pain
Abbreviated
I burn what i grow
Till its all the same to me

All these fucking games
that they play are lame to me

please talk real
all these bitches fucking sound the same to me...


ill cut you out if you suppress me

all the blood means = growth
++more stress please

i just wanna get these words of my chest please 

step out
from depression 
like i bested it

its my craft 
i invest in it

my hearts not pure
you tested it,
so u know

i strike down
what's best in me

i cut down and rebuild 
what's left of me
on my own 

shawty keep on texting me
u can try 
but u wont see the rest of me

no no no 

my swag so heavenly 
i don't take no pills 
match my energy 
no, u wont

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying

impure

- featuring [@daybat aka spiral]  | (second verse)
- produced by [@mothshonor aka ami4evr]
- additional production, effects and mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ first half : @sprigtek ]

Hanging on for something 
u believed that i had

But my hands are closed noww..

you took my heart from me

i didn’t have what u wanted

still u took a part that i need

you’ll never give it back, be honest

i don’t even want you to now

i dont want you to
noowww...

[ verse 2 ]

mind goes static 

i control the mix like magic

bad shit happens
when ur passive

part of me knows that im trash 
thats why u like to laugh me off

please im begging u to stop

hold my blade two inches off

hesitate to let it drop



all those times you said im worthless

all those times you said that im worth it

i just wanna find my purpose 

acting like
you never said
those things at all?

always hurting 
wishing i could fucking 
clear my mind

clear it of you
and leave your face a couple miles behind

[ verse 3 / outro : @daybat /spiral ]

you wanted more from me
but i can’t see the light like i used to 
will you give me something i’m used to
something that hurts
show me my worth
none of my thoughts look so pretty on paper
my body’s a prison and i can’t escape her
trapped in myself
i’ll envy someone else
i’m not your friend i don’t like you
search the mirror until i find you

passive >|< + spiral

all audio by me no samples <3

this is the first song under my new name, sprigtek!

i had the name patient for like 4 or 5 years even outside of this page,
but its time for me to turn a new leaf :,)

interface

this song is very sentimental and important to me.

song is coproduced by me and @gl0wrm, 
im really proud of the synthy part before my verse in the middle. 
everything about this song is beautiful and somber to me, and it always tugs at my heart. i hope you enjoy!

lyrics

[ intro @gl0wrm ]

all that I wanted
I’m feeling honest
All out of debt, clean me
all out of hope
run,

getting fucked up
I’m me
And imma hear what you on
want from me,
a reason to love?
I-
imma wait out loud
sorry,
imma waste my mouth
i’m late,
imma waste my own on you

inside your head
can you help fill my heart
beside of aid,
I’ll carry ur hell
i'll feel it all

[ verse @sprigtek ]

open your mouth
and let the words spill off your tongue
ill wait for anything
you have to say
open your mind
and let your preconceptions run into the ground
for good
my time is yours to keep
on almost any day
so take me, if u would

Until the sky falls on our heads
Until the ground below below our feet diminishes
Until i lie beside you dead
Until our visions are so fleeting
that we cant see right behind
or right ahead

[ outro @gl0wrm ]

all that I wanted
I’m feeling honest
All out of debt, clean me
all out of hope
run,

getting fucked up
I’m me
And imma hear what you on
want from me,
a reason to love?
I-
imma wait out loud
sorry,
imma waste my mouth
i’m late,
imma waste my own on you

inside your head
can you help fill my heart

who wants flowers when theyre dead? + gl0wrm

guitar by @gl0wrm, drums split, all other production and mixing by me

cover art also by me

lyrics

[ intro / chorus : @sprigtek]

i think i turned 
bad
i
said
it wouldn’t take long
thats
why 
you’re turning your back
i 
knew
you’d be gone

do i get inside your head
too 
much
will you regret 
me
this once?

kept up by these 
thoughts 
that 
i cant outrun

[ verse 1 : @sprigtek ]

almost dead
but u breathe your light into me

i fight what i feel
when it gets to me

i send awful chills
down your spine
when i say
i’m the downhill descent
in your life

tell me what
are you trying to get from me?

looking close
as u wait for the death of me

u should know, 
if u stay you’ll get sick with me
then get sick of me

[ verse 2 : @gl0wrm ]

wish I felt nothing
watch it fall away
I say something
Im waiting for the day
u dont notice
and idc at all
I can’t show this
At all 
I wish I felt nothing
watch it fall away
I say something
Im waiting for the day
that u dont notice
and idc at all
I can’t show this

cover up my eyes
when im with u a part of dies
I see u from far away
I got nothing I even wanna say
u dont notice shit
fall back and breath thru it
I see u from far away
I got nothing I even wanna say

[ outro / chorus : @sprigtek ]

i think i turned 
bad
i
said
it wouldn’t take long
thats
why 
you’re turning your back
i 
knew
you’d be gone

do i get inside your head
too 
much
will you regret 
me
once?

i see something u dont wanna know...

[ end ]

downhill + gl0wrm

all production, chorus and outro by me
ft @ons13 in the middle of the track <3

what u need + ons13

synths that sing to sunken souls

@spazzteamonline
production credits are in every song description !!! 
majority of my songs are self produced
or co-produced

sprigtek

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