selfdestruct「shinju」

all production, vocals, mixing and mastering by me!
I've gotten a lot better at mixing in the last 9 months :)
Also, I will be performing this soon at an event called 
"Make America Scene Again" in NYC, at a venue called The Meadows
Thank you for listening!

🠟 lyrics 🠟

too hot
too cold
turn it off
i just needed a break

still want
to give you hope
to show you 
that
it was all for your sake


where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

 
just know that 
i will always
watch
and i carry that weight 

it gave me chills when u said
that for u 
its too late 

i’ve always wondered
on the other-side
of deaths gate

will we cross over to a better life?
and be saved...

or is it
just this

a world on the cusp of melting

catching 
the tail end
nothing is helping 

each day repeating
the world just keeps selling 

poison and sweets to
delay the rebellion

and we fall for it
cuz were made to be
part of all of it
so we can think were free

well i want more than this
and so do many more
but we can only guess
what else the world will have left
when its
all done and over

you're too cold

-
where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

is it just this

is it just this?

let go of me ft. mint「kojo」

prod me
<3

>lyryx<

if i think
if i am
i dont think
that i am
if i had a dream
if i realized
nothing i could be
another waste of time
theres no saving
what u once lost
im just in it for the chase
theres no other fun
theres nobody else
unless i thought so
if i go2 hell
where will u go
id be remiss
to say i exist
theres nothing but bliss
if i nvr know
what am i 2 miss
the gaze of abyss
how am i gonna live
if i nvr know

if i think... [xℝ/ⱯΩ] ////

prod me

lots of  cool stuff otw
feel like im getting better at everything :D

>lyryx<

i still h8 myself cuz im not like her
i dont want ur help cuz im not like her
im still under ur spell, blessing, & a curse
now u give me hell cuz of what u heard

u kno i h8 2 b this way
im like a waste im a mistake
fuck what they say anyway tho
hold on 2 shame cuz they say so

duno where 2 go
i stay right here
n i feel so slow
stalled in high gear
figure where 2 go
spend my life here
all i got a lil smoke
get me higher

i dont shed a tear
if i want it so bad i should face my fears
i looked in the mirror
saw everything i had just disappear

if u nvr let go
u nvr see what u dont
u get under my clothes
then get under my skin- we're so close

not 2 good at explaining
u gotta go out the cave urself
fuck sublimation
escape simulation itself

i still h8 myself cuz im not like her
i dont want ur help cuz im not like her
im still under ur spell, blessing, & a curse
now u give me hell cuz of what u heard

if u nvr let go
u nvr see what u dont
u get under my clothes
then get under my skin- we're so close

((im not)) ##dgtl ⟡⟡⟡

prod and mix by skoolio 
https://on.soundcloud.com/BwGVuVd38XuhFJzQ7

cover art by @himbeer.ida  instagram

gold [prod. skoolio]

something [prod.skoolio]

needles w/ emorave (donttrustlando)

milligram scale +emorave

perfect「dy.wsh」

@spazzteamonline
production credits are in every song description !!! 
majority of my songs are self produced
or co-produced

is it just this?

sprigtek

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