all production, vocals, mixing and mastering by me!
I've gotten a lot better at mixing in the last 9 months :)
Also, I will be performing this soon at an event called 
"Make America Scene Again" in NYC, at a venue called The Meadows
Thank you for listening!

🠟 lyrics 🠟

too hot
too cold
turn it off
i just needed a break

still want
to give you hope
to show you 
that
it was all for your sake


where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

 
just know that 
i will always
watch
and i carry that weight 

it gave me chills when u said
that for u 
its too late 

i’ve always wondered
on the other-side
of deaths gate

will we cross over to a better life?
and be saved...

or is it
just this

a world on the cusp of melting

catching 
the tail end
nothing is helping 

each day repeating
the world just keeps selling 

poison and sweets to
delay the rebellion

and we fall for it
cuz were made to be
part of all of it
so we can think were free

well i want more than this
and so do many more
but we can only guess
what else the world will have left
when its
all done and over

you're too cold

-
where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

is it just this

is it just this?

prod @4evaaxx @pawl4k

im feelin better now got my eyes closed
cus when i look around i still see ur halo
look at my cup i drown in red mixed with faygo
i carry so much cash around i think i got lumbago
n now im boutta cash out, money from sites that they dont know
id put u on if i could but i wanna do dis alone
only notifications is money comin thru my phone
feel my stomach drop when im textin u n u change ur tone
what did i do wrong
what did what did i do wrong
self pity as a song
i cant speak im way too gone
don wan dont wan speak u'll kno im fucked up
crush an OC in my cup
put some oxy in my nose
i feel my body give up uh
hypochondriac still on dese drugs
woke up on my front
face to the ground
i couldnt see nothin but finally i felt found
perc knocked me off my axis, upside down, with a smile not a frown. but if im upside down a smile looks like a frown
slowly givin up but she dont giv a fuck
got no morals wen it comes to juggin ppl outta love
we aint d same, I drop an NBOMe, u gettin love bombed
i fell in love wit research chemical bonds
while u breakin all ur bonds
its like u do that shit for fun
brains been scrambled
cus of affection that u cant handle
im goin all in got my cards drawn
ill play my hand if u jus play urs

self pity as a song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PYoEvtuKa0Y
ft @drrux
mix, prod, coverart by me (@bigdog30k)

[drux]
It was going great but I stopped 
Pour a drink on the rocks 
I’m late for a show 
I say it’s ok when it’s not 
I’m breaking apart 
I can’t let go 
I was outside my phone on silent sorry girl I missed ur call 
Reaching the top kept falling I’m trying 
But I can’t have it all

[buffalobang]
It always falls apart
I cant really fake it
Woke up this morning and decided that i hate it
And my body’s going vacant
Got a bad feeling and i cant seem to shake it

[drux]
I love fucking up for myself 
I’m coming down once again 
She’s Gorgeous 
Whenever I see her lose my breath 
Why am I skipping every step 
I can never figure  where we stand 
Please go easy I’m doing all i can 
Turns out I was never trying my best
I could never see it for what it is

[buffalobang]
I know you sew me up but 
Im hanging onto the last thread
Real bad day cant make out what just happend
I really fucked it up huh?
Everything is collapsing
Hold me close baby im on my last leg
I was hoping not to get close
Stayed inside my stronghold
Yea i tried not to get too close 
Made it by on bare bones

[buffalobang]
It always falls apart
I cant really fake it
Woke up this morning and decided that i hate it
And my body’s going vacant
Got a bad feeling and i cant seem to shake it

[drux]
It was going great but I stopped 
Pour a drink on the rocks 
I’m late for a show 
I say it’s ok when it’s not 
I’m breaking apart 
I can’t let go 
I was outside my phone on silent sorry girl I missed ur call 
Reaching the top kept falling I’m trying 
But I can’t have it all

Stronghold

StrongHold (ft drux)

@emorave
prod @1dgtl

inssekt:
unless ur face looks right
i see pain in ur eyes
i see thru the blame in ur lies
let me go ive been feeling so low
she saw teardrops on my phone
i gave her a choice to let me go (let me go)
cuss iii cantt coppeee

emorave:
if it werent for the pills id be all alone
60mg imma die alone
i dont even know wtf im on
fallin on the floor i cant fuckin walk

spillin pills on the ground im gone
i mix half a perc with ondancetron
i feel so alone imma kil myself
hear u call my name when im nodding off

yea i dont feel alive
smokin pressure think i wanna die
get ur bread up ur so fuckin fried
i take extra im so fuckin high

off these drugs fr cuz i dont fuckin lie
if u dont fuck with me dont waste my fucking time
i dont trust nobody only need mine
bad anixety so imma take 5

teardrops on my phone +emorave

@7senss @inssekt
prod @5vexe @silversxo @with3rx

inssekt & senses - disaster (5v + silver + with3r)

now + kiryano

senses & inssekt - sick (lovbug sg37)

every day i be on the same shit
every day u be on some lame shit
how u gon split and not say shit
switches not no glocks im talkin faces
i think u was racist
tired of these bitches who think all this shit a game bitch
i jus pop lil pills n wake up in new places
i dont pop real shit all them xannies fake bitch

i need payment
u need pavement
u cant say shit
cuz then ill say shit
just the way it is
just the way it went
fuck with another girl u gon hit the pavement

i could make a call n get u bent yuh
never take another breath yuh
shawty fw my scent duh
how u gon smoke fent yuh
how u cant pay rent yuh
ion wanna see ur face again yuh
all ur bitches pillfriends yuh

how u gon have pills and pillfriends n still lose them yuh
u been down bad had so many chances how u still fucked them up
i jus wasnt gon be there n watch you fuck yo whole life up
how u let me do heroin just cuz u scared of me bein sad yuh
not a fuckin thing i could do to make u make good choices
u was always hearin voices
i know that shit hard but how u gon destroy me
know i had them warnings
but i was too young fried off them fuckin bars i was so avoidant
i be stuck inside my head be stressin bout the future
terrified im gon lose her
I wish I could just be with u when I want but I cant be a commuter
crush a pill up im a user
i was always so sure shit wud be okay thought i knew the future

spotify

626  ~ ft b07gem (prod sif)

paris by cortisa star x technogaia's dystopia problem by kaizo slumber

cortisa slumber

@45avast @820 @kiraiu @odel007

(me)
save me, i need help
get out, cant find myself
been down, where i turn to now?
dont know, cuz ive checkd out.

i been out of touch, need to know
can you save me from where ill go?
ever notice how i roll?
in silence, im alone.

i been thinkin how ill fly
with angels in the night
need a place to adress my side
cant be scared when ur up all night

its all the same
dont wash these stains
need to escape
just want to be saved

(nosgov)
i need some time away
its cuz things never changed
its cuz i cannot face
one reason i should stay

i wait for thoughts
its so dumb now
i cant tolnize
it doesnt make sense

i could never change
im still waiting for the better days
i cant obey
i still wish it would stop
but ill never change
you still counting change
i been getting paid
put 10 on my name

i wait for thoughts
its so dumb now
i cant tolnize
it doesnt make sense

(me)
save me, i need help
get out, cant find myself
been down, where i turn to now?
dont know, cuz ive been checkd out.

save me ft. nosgov (odel+kirai)

credits are in every song description, mostly self produced <3

is it just this?

sprigtek