this song is fucking nuts. i come back all the time!

then my demons fucking told me- I should Feel this on my Own!

once again ive returned to patients entire discography

congratulations on the legal name change n I hope you continue growing 🥀

i create noises and put them inside of this container

all sprig songs

vocals, production, and cover art by me

i've been working on this for 5 months and i still havent perfected it...
but i need to get it off my mind, so here it is <3

🠟 lyrics 🠟

self hate 
contradictions 
little bit 
narcissistic 
i know what keeps me going
its much better than missing 

But this the problem
This is an issue
I need to fix me
You need to fix you

I cant hear you out no more
And i don't even wanna get you 

stared into my inner workings 
please just show me how to grow 

then my demons fucking told me
i should feel this on my own

i cant disagree
it hurts
its real
and thats how i judge things

i cant see my future
without drugs and dreams of nothing 

But its beautiful the way it stings
i cherish that burn 

I can never tell 
what am i worth?
and what have i earned? 


We grew closer
When you hurt me
When you cut me
When you burned me

I liked it better when u didn’t care 
(didnt care) 


We grew further apart
You tried to heal me
Its not the same as the start
You just dont feel me

Trust me love theres enough of this pain to share

stared into my inner workings 
please just show me how to grow 

then my demons fucking told me
i should feel this on my own

i cant disagree
it hurts
its real
and thats how i judge things

i cant see my future
without drugs and dreams of nothing 

But its beautiful the way it stings
i cherish that burn 

I can never tell 
what am i worth?
and what have i earned?

cherish it

all production, vocals, mixing and mastering by me!
I've gotten a lot better at mixing in the last 9 months :)
Also, I will be performing this soon at an event called 
"Make America Scene Again" in NYC, at a venue called The Meadows
Thank you for listening!

🠟 lyrics 🠟

too hot
too cold
turn it off
i just needed a break

still want
to give you hope
to show you 
that
it was all for your sake


where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

 
just know that 
i will always
watch
and i carry that weight 

it gave me chills when u said
that for u 
its too late 

i’ve always wondered
on the other-side
of deaths gate

will we cross over to a better life?
and be saved...

or is it
just this

a world on the cusp of melting

catching 
the tail end
nothing is helping 

each day repeating
the world just keeps selling 

poison and sweets to
delay the rebellion

and we fall for it
cuz were made to be
part of all of it
so we can think were free

well i want more than this
and so do many more
but we can only guess
what else the world will have left
when its
all done and over

you're too cold

-
where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

is it just this

is it just this?

ft @ons13 in the middle of the track <3

main production, chorus and outro, mix/master by me
additional production by @2sleepymayne

what u need + ons13

>lyrix<

check ur ops check ur opsec

i jus leakd ur ip
i jus hakd ur network
hakd ur psyche
i c what ur typing
what ur hiding
i jus logged ur card
now im swiping

i move 
w security
duck the feds
duck the cops
duck the hearing
i dont make no appearance
no secret
i got all the clearance

new shoes in a po box
thats alprazolam
came thru on a nonstop
shipped from amsterdam
i jus put ur name 
on a watchlist 4 these
feds came knocking
i think ima flee

opsec [dgtl] ***

vocals, mix + master, and half of the production by me
other half of production by @rainphase1

[fall 2024]

prod @yumenikki

i could never do wrong
didnt think id really fuck up
i would never get lost
lay awake till the suns up
i was falling out of love
didnt really mean to hurt you
but you took so much
watched my wings slowly turn black

i will never get my soul back
now im walking down the wrong path
i lost friends i wont get back
i lost friends i wont get back
i wish i could just forget you
i wish i could take it all back
now im ruined cuz i let you
all my fault, yea i know that

i just get left on read
make me feel lesser than
fake life i play pretend
fake thoughts inside my head
i like to cut myself
try to get lost again
i dont need any help
rock bottom is in my bed

rock bottom is nodding off
so hard i lose my breath
unconscious almost dead
wake up and see your face
youll look so terrified
ill feel so dead inside
pinpoint dots in my eyes
but ill still want to be high

pinpoint eyes prod. dollmaker

@7senss @inssekt
prod @5vexe @silversxo @with3rx

inssekt & senses - disaster (5v + silver + with3r)

@inssekt @em0rave
prod @yumenikki @oaelis

bug:
push me right to the side
tell me i mean nothign 2 u while u watch me cry
cross my heart, n watch me die
1000 needles in my eye

emo:
30mg goodnight
off these drugs u aint know what its like
close my eyes in the sunlight'
3 percocets turn off my lights

bug:
lights off, nobodies home
they say home is where the heart is baby but my heart is cold
i know it gets hard i think i know that the most
yea i think i know that the most

emo:
my hands feel cold
way 2 fucked up dont enn know what im onnn
smokin loud it got the blunt singin notes
id die for you girl, come close

bug:
bb come close (x4)
come close
come close
yeah uh
ik did a lot of shit to u
ik im in the wrong
ik uh uh uh uh
our feelings collide
we clash and we fight
then we fuck all night
idk, this feels right

emo:
tell myself that its alright
girl it broke my heart when we said goodbye
nodding off i dont fw nightlife
im not suicidal just want day of flight

i need pills just to feel alright
i feel empty, nothing inside
zombie walk i dont feel alive
take too much cuz i wanna fly

need your skin u make me feel alive
smoking pressure im way too high
i wan feel good so jus lie
OC 40 im feeling right

inssekt & emorave - come close (freger + r000)

14th of February at 4pm EST

This is a teaser track for the acoustic guitar EP I'm currently in the process of finishing <3
Ive been practicing guitar for the past couple months, so everything on the EP will be played or sung by me.

I’m Sorry But I Need To Leave For My Sake
A case of right heart in the wrong place
And in the wrong time
You’re the only reason that I tried to stay
In a place
Where I wouldn’t find rest or light
Just didn’t feel right
Now I’m learning, how to say with my chest
Things I should have said
Or found, on the first day
I didn’t look ahead,
Or expect to reject this place
I promise

In Retrospect
You gave it your all
I gave it my best until the last text I sent
Now we’re trying to mend
Our wounds
Although they are different
I learned a new type of gentleness
From you, in a different sense
I learned a new type of gentleness
From you

This Time
I’m running towards, not from
I can bend my knees
And stand what I’ve done
I’ll dull my teeth so my bites don’t hurt
In my search for home, I’ll arrive unsure
Hoping, wishing, someone cares to
Mend my wings and lock my stare
This time if somebody sees me,
Hopefully, I won’t leave them bleeding

I’m Sorry But I Need To Leave For My Sake
A case of right heart in the wrong place
And in the wrong time
You’re the only reason that I tried to stay
In a place
Where I wouldn’t find rest or light
Just didn’t feel right
Now I’m learning, how to say with my chest
Things I should have said
Or found, on the first day
I didn’t look ahead,
Or expect to reject this place
I promise

im an orchid

prod me

>lyryx<

how tf did i kno
tht everything was gonna blow
its tht fkn feeling when ur broke
look ahead n u nvr find a home

when ur lost 
gotta make ur own path
take the loss 
but bby dont b sad
check the cost
n i can only laugh
all i want
is 2 take it back

everyday comes a wave of emotions
bottle up til u break somn open
i hope som1 takes notice
i dont pray but i still keep hoping

i said u dont evr listen when u need2
i said u cant c the vision but ill c it thru
i said if my position is beneath u
i think u aint livin how u mean 2

how tf did i kno
tht everything was gonna blow
its tht fkn feeling when ur broke
look ahead n u nvr find a home

when ur lost 
gotta make ur own path
take the loss 
but bby dont b sad
check the cost
n i can only laugh
all i want
is 2 take it back

𝓱Ø𝔀𝐓ⓕ𝓭Ɨ𝓭ƗⓀ𝐍Ø𝔀 ???

This song is really meaningful to me and marks my move from NYC to Denver
Produced by me and @youshowedmewhatloveis 
thank you for the guitar!!

lyrics

[@sprigtek]

There was Peace before…
Can we go back
our world is waning, 
I’ve been feeling trapped
With these memories
Breakfast and tea
Movies we watched
And the way you held me
Everyones leaving
How can one last?
Its awfully uncommon
Given my past

Cranberry oatmeal
Watching you read
Books that I gave you
and books you gave me

Friends you had shown me
Ones ill forget
Biding my time in a half empty bed

In a Forest of trees without leaves
at a corner where we used to meet
at a flower shop, flipping a coin,
at the airport, missing the point.

[@youshowedmewhatloveis]

am i wasting my breath?
it starts to feel like it i guess 
let the words spill out my chest
i wish we could lie here instead
(ooohhh)
it wont be long and u know 
i claw at my skin and it shows 
(just) a break in my step not a fall
though not far from the ground below

i scratched my arms ceaselessly
u blame it on my compulsivity 
but then say something sweet 
and everything disappears around me

[both @sprigtek and @youshowedmewhatloveis]
so ill take some time 
with you to watch the world spin around 
while we still can

end

missing the point + gosha

prod @with3rx

leave me here to cry bb i know why
i know why u push me to the side bb i know why
i could give u all i hav but its not enough
the only thing i give baby is giving up
i give it up
i give u love
i give u time
its not enough

i jus cant sleep when im not with u
n if u leave baby u see the issue
its scary baby i dont wanna diss u but i think i could fix u
yea i rly wanna kiss u

i jus cant sleep when im not with u
n if u stay baby u'll see the issues
time goes on u see me at my worst, then dont think itll work
leave me in the dirt
leave me in the dirt
it wont be the first
it wont be the first
leave me in the dirt
leave me in the dirt

fix you prod with3r

@emorave :) <3
prod taylor morgan + shinju

Say you didn’t notice
Take it back 
then i left with your heart broken
My bad :(
I couldn’t explain my emotions
It’s sad
I’ll get better and i know this,
Cause i have

You were honest,
I went to the pond and thought about it
Reflecting to my core, present harnessed
To have you by my side is the best
I wanna touch your skin and kiss your neck
Everything i say, i meant


emo:

oh yuh
dont go, yuh
i cant be alone, yuh
west, thats where i wan go

dont act like you know shit
all them pills had me broke, shit
fell in love with opiates
now im up cuz kicked that shit

i dont wanna be here, shitt
it can all go downhill so quick
i wanna be more than this
dont ask bout it cuz im over it

downhill (taylor morgan + shinju)

@820 @rainn_god
recording process: https://youtube.com/watch?v=v8BWwObCLaw

Nosgov - fantasizing prod. rainn_god

prod @rubbishrubbish

lyrics:
aye im so fucked aye
she draw blood aye
nother bad day
let it roll aye
i like gettin paid
geeked up outer space
dont een know my name
make it go away

we aint on broadway
we on broad aye
we in philly aye
i dont be okay
i be lonely
shawty bad tho
scene like boxxy

molly roxy 
geeked up out my body
walkin round the toy store off a fuckin oxy
crawling thru the dark web do it thru a proxy
funny how they hate me but they never block me

rollin like a trolley
nobody can stop me
suddenly im popping
yea the fans they stop me
i stay hella sleepy
i jus love the feeling
shawty wanna keep me
she a cute lil scene queen

i be feelin bad yuh
i be sad yuh
u so mad yuh
im so back yuh
cut me slack yuh
get on track yuh
fuck up bad yuh
im so last yuh

blowin gas yuh
got some rax yuh
goin fast yuh
she so bad yuh
im a fag yuh
gettin cash yuh
u get passed yuh
u so trash yuh

broad street broadway prod. rubbish

prod me:)
ft @creepybuggirl

inssekt:
let me sleep here for a while
let me chase my dreams
promise that i'll smile
whenever you see me
cus i would give it all up
just for your love
needing your light
crying alone
testing my love
do you want me or not??
crying alone
crying out for your love

creepybuggirl:
my vision went black
i was hiding in the back
cus i thought i heard your voice and i couldn’t face it
but that’s never been the point
what it really is, the avoidance of goodbye
i don’t wna know what the last time is
so don’t tell me, don’t take a breath
i’ll be holding out, all the words unsaid
all the messages i’ll end up leaving unread
cus i get scaredd like i wanna forget
you don’t understand the way you fill me up with dreadd
i pour it out cus i try to be my best
then you wna crawl back like why do you do that

i won’t be going out ill be staying in
take the other street so I don’t pass where you live
i’ll never check the time ill let everything go by
until i wake up
revived by the new sun
feel it for the moment
savor it and hold it
cus when the night comes it’ll all be gone


crying alone +creepybuggirl

credits are in every song description, mostly self produced <3

cherish it

sprigtek

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