sshvdow playlist

i will never be a memory•°”˜

( produced by ayazra & auriel )

aye
im not okay
been feeling foreign inside my own place
its not your fault but youre leaving a trace of this place in my brain that i thought had been long gone away

need no protection, repent not my wish 
wish to engrave my full name on her wrist
(x2)

disgrace to my name
darkness holds, aint felt a thing
fantasy about this place i wish exists but doesnt stay

when i arrive i find me dead
snowy forest, severed head
feel my grip upon this holy place get severed with my neck

\\<

"FANTASY"•°”˜ p. ayazra x auriel

The Perfect Girl Instrumental(sped up) *fixed*

produced by ayazra

aye
im in the rain
look up in agony, 
suffering, hate,

i could be perfect and hurt less
i dont know my purpose 
theres no more in life but this pain

maybe she said
something about me that got in my head
wonder these thoughts while surroundings turn red
if i dont wake then my love will be dead
if i dont wake then my love will be 

rot is my brain
im so lost
i need love
theres no way
i can save you all
x2

x2

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FANTASY PT. II"•°*”˜ ( p. ayazra )

produced by kizutsuku

walk 'round
face down
overcome my demon's sounds

hard ways, i cope
hearts ice, stay cold

bitch im tragic
dead inside
say you love me
tell me lies

might i fold, this ends my time
dont you love me when i've died

hard ways i cope
hearts ice stay cold
x2

selling my soul just to keep up my hold
these voices screaming i might have to fold
x2

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SOULBRANDT*ೃ༄ ( p. kizutsuku )

[VERSE I: LIL HALF CUT]

well it's that mac daddy
lac swangin'
all these suckers still complaining
back at it
still an addict
i got love for bad habits
riding low
sipping slow
mixing codeine with that dope
split it up with my kinfolk
grey five nine
you know the code
ridin' down the 7th
make a left on Crescent
opposite of heaven
no confessions or you end up missing
lil half cut
got the mac
oddy got the sack
yung tyler durden
introverted
born a burden
yet they still worship

[VERSE II: JAME$$PLEEN]

i got 4 lines in the cup and that cup inside another cup
creme soda turned into red creme soda
hydrocodone liquid
made the fucking doctor cough it up
now i'm leaned over
now my spleen's yoda
green throw up
ima fiend, so what?
life is but a fucking dream
pour up
drive high when i drive by just to seem sober bitch
and if i seem sober it's because my fucking spleen exploded
and i keeled over
wheels rolling right off of the cliff and splashed into that river stream below us

KILL YOURSELF Part XV: The Coast of Ashes Saga

STYROFOAM

SPOTIFY:  https://open.spotify.com/album/4RBxenOX1i4gOiyH71eW5c

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How I truly feel about everything...
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Havent felt the same happiness since elementary
People tryna lock me in creative penitentaries
My high school experience started fuckin with me mentally
Cant see ahead of me
Embeded in my head is thoughts of feeling

Empty
Thoughts so sick
Thats why I where the mask often 
I get lost when I spit

Everythings dumb
I'm feeling numb
Hating my presence
Like a bad christmas

Is this hell
Oh well 
Im dissmissive

Tell me
If I'm dreaming 
Thats what Im wishing

I cant find a human I relate to
I cant find a person that dont hate who
I am
I am
I am

S S H V D O W
I cant find the will to love you
S S H V D O W
I dont know what this has come to
( x 3 )

"EMPTY" p. boyfifty

my chest feels cold from vll this PVIN ( < )

( lyrics )
Can't remember feeling shit
it's so long ago
i don't know why all these people wanna see me go
till death comes all will here my song
( x2 )

my chest feels cold from all this pain
( x4 )

Can't remember feeling shit
it's so long ago
i don't know why all these people wanna see me go
till death comes all will here my song
( x2 )

"PVIN" ( prod. rizi )

i just wvnted to be PERFECT, but i don't know whvt perfect is ( \\< )

( lyrics )

Perfect night
I feel pain
this holy light, drifts away
I know that non of this was worth it,
i just wanted to be perfect

Hear my cries but I'm alone to kill my thoughts of suicide 
I break myself so you feel better
I just wanted to be PERFECT

PPERRFECTTT!!!!

"PERFECT" ( prod. masked man )

"L \\ 2020""

{ \\"MRRY XMVS"< }

BRACE
HOLD MY TONGUE FOR YOUR WILL
TAKE MY LIFE BUT FOR HERS, NO DEAL
SEPARATE LIFE FROM THE PILLS
MAKING A MISTAKE TAKING YOU OUT ON THIS GRIND FOR THE MILLS

I BE CONSUMED BY RAGE
YOU BE TELLING LIES
MAN I TRIED
THOUGHT WE ON THE SAME PAGE

I'VE BEEN IN THE DARK ALL DAY
REMINISCE ON ALL THE OTHER WAYS THAT I'VE BEEN BETRAYED
THIS PLACE IN MY HEAD
DARKEST THOUGHTS THEY WANT ME DEAD
NOW I'M LOSING ALL CONTROL
LETTING LOOSE THE BEST OF BETS AND STILL MY HEART JUST TELLS ME NOT
BUT I WANT THIS PAIN TO STOP
KILL THE //////// BRING THE //////
YESTERDAY HE WON THAT FIGHT
( AND HE CAN )
( X2 )

RAID MY HEAD
L'S ARISE
FOLLOW MY LEAD BACK INTO THE LIGHT
PUSSY, I KILLED FOR LIFE
AIN'T NO WAY YOU'RE TAKING THAT BACK WITH A KNIFE
I'M STILL GON' FIGHT THIS FIGHT
YOU GON' FEEL HELL WHEN THE METAL FROM MY BLADE SWING BITES
ORANGE EYES, SMILES ALL NIGHT
CUZ WE GON' EVOLVE FROM THE FALL TO THE ANGELS FLIGHT

THIS BEASTLY GOAT
WATCH YOUR TONE
FINESSE YA LIFE 
MAKES ME COMFORTABLE
I KILLED MY /////// NOW I'M THE HOST

YOU CALL ME LLIGHT NOW
I'M READY TO GO

BRACE
HOLD MY TONGUE FOR YOUR WILL
TAKE MY LIFE BUT FOR HERS, NO DEAL
SEPARATE LIFE FROM THE PILLS
MAKING A MISTAKE TAKING YOU OUT ON THIS GRIND FOR THE MILLS

I BE CONSUMED BY RAGE
YOU BE TELLING LIES
MAN I TRIED
THOUGHT WE ON THE SAME PAGE

I'VE BEEN IN THE DARK ALL DAY
REMINISCE ON ALL THE OTHER WAYS THAT I'VE BEEN BETRAYED
.....

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"LILITH"

( < )
( lyrics )

Imperfect
So worthless
I'm nothing
I'm not worth it 
( x2 )

Imperfect
So worthless
I'm nothing
Feel so worthless

Imperfect
So worthless

I feel so worthless

"IMPERFECTION" ( prod. trapcode )

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