in my opinion, this is the best song i've ever written. i put my entire heart into this one, and hopefully you love it just as much as i loved creating it <3

lyrics:
verse:
its a scary thing to realize
that we all lose something in end.
when we fade away, theres nothing
that we leave behind as a memory.

it's alright, it's okay.
i'll see you in my dreams.
i hope you think of me,
when im gone. 

verse:
never thought that it would come to 
the ending that i didn't want. 
burnt pages, ripped places,
in the book inside our hearts. 

are we finished? im sick of
assuming everything. 
im done overthinking.

chorus:
my head in the clouds, jumping from cloud nine.
into the sea of my own thoughts.
feel like imma drown, im getting closer to the edge.
so take me to the moon. 
all i want is you.

i never knew how, how to express
all of the feelings that i had. 
until i met you, i found something i could do.
my darling, you're my muse.
i dont wanna lose you.

verse:
hold on to the past,
never looked at the future cause im scared of it.
what if i lose you, and the ones that i love 
because of me again?

i dont want to lie, yeah.
so i'll be honest here.
all i need is you with me dear. 

chorus:
my head in the clouds, jumping from cloud nine.
into the sea of my own thoughts.
feel like imma drown, im getting closer
to the edge.
so take me to the moon. 
all i want is you.

i never knew how, how to express
all of the feelings that i had. 
until i met you, i found something i could do.
my darling, you're my muse.
i dont wanna lose you.

bridge:
keep the promise that you made to me.
that you would stay and would never leave,
till the day that we finally meet,
i'll give you everything, i'll show you what you did to

make me feel like im one with you.
caving in, stuck on what to do now,
you know darling, you're my muse.
i'll do whatever for ya, and i'll stay for the long run.

verse:
i dont wanna lose somebody 
that was close to me again. 
im still not healed from the last time
that i lost another friend. 

my feelings, 
get in the way.
im tired of repeating the same old fate.

my muse // fade away

dedicated to my best friend <3 i lov you this is for you

[PLATFORMS]
SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/artist/0XUDqqceSV5tzbbpX58V3x?si=eKNmttdpRFWsEqnpQ_drIw&dl_branch=1
APPLE MUSIC: https://music.apple.com/ca/artist/sirensays/1581343056
YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/channel/UCbPLp2X7Wv8d3s31i4QJ1Xg

[lyrics]
i dont know how to act around you no more.
guilt and shame is always behind these closed doors.
i wish i could apologize for at least the millionth time.
but, it's over and over again. over and over, it never ends.

and if i could, you know that
i'd take back the words i said. 
then maybe i would do much better,
than i thought in my head. 

is it too late to go back?
to the night that we first met.
shouldn't have pushed away then. 
cause i live with that regret.

don't think things will be the same,
even if you tell me it's okay.
i'll forever take the blame.
that i failed to make you happy. 

it seems like you're doing better on your own. 
can't deny that i hear silence on the phone. 
it's 4am and i can't sleep, cause i'm thinking bout you and me.
and, it's over and over again. over and over, it never ends.

and if i could, you know that
i'd take back the words i said. 
then maybe i would do much better,
than i thought in my head. 

is it too late to go back?
to the night that we first met.
shouldn't have pushed away then. 
cause i live with that regret.

don't think things will be the same,
even if you tell me it's okay.
i'll forever take the blame.
that i failed to make you happy. 

i hope you take this song,
as a big apology. 
to the times i did you wrong,
and messed up your mentality.

i swore that i would be better,
but then i shifted the weather, 
now it's thunder with a chance of reality.

now everything i see and hear reminds me of you. 
the pain i feel because i think that i'm gonna lose ya. 
without you by my side no, i don't know what to do.
but i'll still be around..

is it too late to go back?
to the night that we first met.
shouldn't have pushed away then. 
cause i live with that regret.

don't think things will be the same,
even if you tell me it's okay.
i'll forever take the blame.
that i failed to make you happy. 
i failed to make you happy.

PRODUCED BY: Oz Something
ARTWORK BY: @sebsmakesart on instagram

is it too late?

slowed version :)

[PLATFORMS]
SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/artist/0XUDqqceSV5tzbbpX58V3x?si=eKNmttdpRFWsEqnpQ_drIw&dl_branch=1
APPLE MUSIC: https://music.apple.com/ca/artist/sirensays/1581343056
YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/channel/UCbPLp2X7Wv8d3s31i4QJ1Xg

[lyrics]
i dont know how to act around you no more.
guilt and shame is always behind these closed doors.
i wish i could apologize for at least the millionth time.
but, it's over and over again. over and over, it never ends.

and if i could, you know that
i'd take back the words i said. 
then maybe i would do much better,
than i thought in my head. 

is it too late to go back?
to the night that we first met.
shouldn't have pushed away then. 
cause i live with that regret.

don't think things will be the same,
even if you tell me it's okay.
i'll forever take the blame.
that i failed to make you happy. 

it seems like you're doing better on your own. 
can't deny that i hear silence on the phone. 
it's 4am and i can't sleep, cause i'm thinking bout you and me.
and, it's over and over again. over and over, it never ends.

and if i could, you know that
i'd take back the words i said. 
then maybe i would do much better,
than i thought in my head. 

is it too late to go back?
to the night that we first met.
shouldn't have pushed away then. 
cause i live with that regret.

don't think things will be the same,
even if you tell me it's okay.
i'll forever take the blame.
that i failed to make you happy. 

i hope you take this song,
as a big apology. 
to the times i did you wrong,
and messed up your mentality.

i swore that i would be better,
but then i shifted the weather, 
now it's thunder with a chance of reality.

now everything i see and hear reminds me of you. 
the pain i feel because i think that i'm gonna lose ya. 
without you by my side no, i don't know what to do.
but i'll still be around..

is it too late to go back?
to the night that we first met.
shouldn't have pushed away then. 
cause i live with that regret.

don't think things will be the same,
even if you tell me it's okay.
i'll forever take the blame.
that i failed to make you happy. 
i failed to make you happy.

PRODUCED BY: Oz Something
ARTWORK BY: @sebsmakesart on instagram

is it too late? - slowed and reverb

sequel of my first ever song, fly away // shooting for the moon. 

lyrics:
verse:
It's been a while since I've fallen for the first time
Nothing changed, still getting black butterflies
It's a shame that I could never get this right
(Time and time again, I'm falling)

It's a beautiful thing to see the stars at night
But all I think about is you when I go outside
Wish on the shooting star that slowly passes by
(Will you be here in the morning?)

pre:
I'm unsure of how to act
I wish you could take me back
Too much to lose now, that's a fact
My only question is that

chorus:
Do you still wanna fly away?
To a far away place?
But now everybody would know our names
Is this something you wanna recreate?

Sometimes I still stay up
And sit on the roof
And talk to the moon, and think about you
Oh, I'm having hella deja vu

verse:
Take our time, press rewind and look at our past now
Look at how much we have changed, and how our future selves are
How are you?
(I'm scared of the nearby future)

Thinking bout it, I have so much to look back on
All my silly decisions that have turned out wrong
I guess I'm still a fool
(I don't ever wanna lose ya)

pre:
I'm unsure of how to act
I wish you could take me back
Too much to lose now, that's a fact
My only question is that

chorus:
Do you still wanna fly away?
To a far away place?
But now everybody would know our names
Is this something you wanna recreate?

Sometimes I still stay up
And sit on the roof
And talk to the moon, and think about you
Oh, I'm having hella deja vu

bridge:
I'm still around, so just hear me out

chorus:
I still wanna fly away
To a far away place
But now everybody knows my name
Is this something I wanna recreate?

Sometimes I still stay up
And sit on the roof
And talk to the moon, and think about you
Oh, I'm having hella deja vu

deja vu (fly away 2) - instrumental

deja vu (fly away 2)

this has been a work in progress for the past three weeks. oz, ronin and i really hope that you enjoy this, and the upcoming EP "Indirect Conversations" we're putting out soon !! <3

LYRICS: 
verse:
i got a case of love disorder, 
everything seems out of order. 
and i don't know what to do. 

when it's four in the morning and i'm losing sleep,
over something so little, that it's killing me. 
and that little thing is you. 

pre: 
and i keep looking, in all the worst locations, 
baby, say your place and i'll be on my way.
you're a good distraction, but there's no attraction,
sorry to say, maybe another day,

chorus: 
i'll be yours, for the keeping. 
but for now, my heart is beating 
for someone close to you, 
what the hell did i get myself into? 

you should know that they make me nervous, 
no offense, but you can't compare us two, 
to just a little distraction like you. 

post: 
like you (run)
just a little distraction.

verse: 
i know i said that i wanted you then, 
it is okay if we're just friends?
you can call me your baby, and make me go crazy, 
but i swear that i'd never fall for someone else again. 

and it's hurting my ego. 
thinking bout you and someone other than me tho. 
it's a shame, that it's all a game,
but i'll bet my life away. 

pre: 
and i keep looking, in all the worst locations,
baby, say my name, and i'll be on my way.
you're a good distraction, but there's no attraction,
sorry to say, maybe another day,

chorus: 
i'll be yours, for the keeping. 
but for now, my heart is beating 
for someone close to you, 
what the hell did i get myself into? 

you should know that they make me nervous, 
no offense, but you can't compare us two, 
to just a little distraction like you. 

outro:
just a, just a, just a little.
just a, just a, just a little.
to just a little distraction like you. 

just a, just a, just a little.
just a, just a, just a little.
to just a little distraction like you. 

CREDITS: 
lyrics: JESI 
production: Oz Something & Ronin

indirect conversations

distraction

distraction // sorry to say

track six ~ heart rate monitor // the harsh reality 

verse:
i'll be okay, i'll be fine. 
i'll take a minute, and i'll be alright. 
breathe in deep and clear my mind. 
and maybe you'll be out of here in time. 

i shouldn't be dramatic, 
and clean up this crowded room. 
but every single thought of mine is somehow stuck on you. 
now my darling, please tell me what to do. 

chorus:
my heart rate monitor is on cardiac arrest. 
the little things that you have done to me, i can't accept. 
cause my mind is being occupied by the words that you have said. 
i swear that you're messing with my head. 

verse: 
last night, i was on the phone just gushing to my friend. 
he told me that i fell in love, and i should get over it. 
cause he'd hate to see the pain that would flow into my veins.
when you said that i'd be better off without you. 

i'd stay up till bout five am. 
thinking of the ways that i could be like them. 
is there something wrong with me? is it the harsh reality?
that i'm just no good for you. 

chorus: 
my heart rate monitor is on cardiac arrest. 
the little things that you have done to me, i can't accept. 
cause my mind is being occupied by the words that you have said. 
i swear that you're messing with my head. 

i've been feeling so damn lonely, sitting in this hotel room. 
cry until i fall asleep, and my undereyes are blue. 
put me out of misery, this is too much to get through. 
when my heart is beating for you.

bridge: 
do you realize what you've done to me?
i don't think you do, so let me tell you. 
i've been in love, and jealous and angry, and sad. 
i've been using some people to distract all that. 

and i feel like shit. but i can't take it back. 
and this is all your fault, for making me feel that. 
do people call this love? baby, it's such a shame. 
that these butterflies won't ever go away. 

pre: 
could you let me in? i'm struggling. 
i'm shaking, yeah. i'm caving in. 
i'm falling again. for another friend. 
don't want this to end. because i need you,
i need you, i need you bad. 

i need you, i need you bad. 
need you, i need you bad.

chorus: 
my heart rate monitor is on cardiac arrest. 
the little things that you have done to me, i can't accept. 
trying to move on, though it makes me upset. 
i guess you could call this the end.

credits: 
lyrics and vocals: Jessica Valera
music production: Oz Something

Indirect Conversations

heart rate monitor // the harsh reality

track five ~ stay the night // if only they knew 

verse: 
she is a city girl, i’m in a lonely world. 
all my mind does is wander all around her. 
she seems so innocent, but do you remember when, 
you and i were on the phone, and did way more than that?

she has a pretty face, but doesn’t like to say.
only lets the ones she loves to break those walls away. 
maybe another day, you would come back to me. 

chorus: 
all i wanted was to stay the night. 
pull me closer as i hold you tight. 
but baby i hate my life, 
without you in it. i feel so sickened. 

and i'm in pain when i’m alone. 
and i’m thinking bout the shit i was told. 
when you said to me that you'd come home.
didn’t think you’d leave me. where are you baby?
cause i’m still falling.

verse: 
and i’m in misery. this love is killing me. 
the weight put on my shoulders is gonna be the end of me.
i fucking hate this shit. why am i feeling it? 
i don’t deserve the way i’m treated, cause i’m out of it. 

you had a perfect smile, you made me stare a while.
you’d turn your head away, every time that i’d point it out. 
this love's impossible, losing all self-control. 

chorus: 
but all i wanted was to stay the night. 
pull me closer as i hold you tight. 
but baby i hate my life, 
without you in it. i feel so sickened. 

and i'm in pain when i’m alone. 
and i’m thinking bout the shit i was told. 
when you said to me that you'd come home.
didn’t think you’d leave me. where are you baby?
cause i’m still,

bridge: 
driving down the city, in my brand new maserati.
got the blood red colour, and thought about somebody. 
and that somebody is you. didn't think you'd have a clue. 
what the hell i wanna do. 
but if only they knew. 

i'm so lost in my drowning thoughts. 
in a hotel room, where the walls would fall. 
it's caving in. my bones are shaking. 
if only. if only. 

chorus:
if only you could stay the night. 
pull me closer as i hold you tight. 
but baby i hate my life, 
without you in it. i feel so sickened. 

chorus: 
but all i wanted was to stay the night. 
pull me closer as i hold you tight. 
but baby i hate my life, 
without you in it. i feel so sickened. 

and i'm in pain when i’m alone. 
and i’m thinking bout the shit i was told. 
when you said to me that you'd come home.
didn’t think you’d leave me. where are you baby?
cause i’m still falling.

im still falling. 
im still falling. 
im still falling, im free falling to your heart.

credits:
lyrics and vocals: Jessica Valera and RONIN
music production: Oz Something

stay the night // if only they knew (feat. Ronin)

stay the night // if only they knew (feat. RONIN)

track four ~ paradise // heart of stone

verse: 
it's only been one night. 
but i've fallen in love a stranger. 
i swear i see the light. 
i'll be gone soon or later. 

i've been thinking bout the stories 
that i'd tell my kids, if i'm over it. 
it's too soon to say shit, but i'll say this. 
i don't think i'll be over you. 

chorus: 
but there's nowhere for us to go. 
baby, please let me know. 
can i break it open? 
your heart of stone? 

your love is so ice cold. 
where i want to reside.
if you come with me, 
i promise you'll be in paradise. 

verse: 
my best friend said he's catching feels. 
but i swear i don't feel that way.
a little pushy, desperate for me. 
i don't know what else to say. 

making videos, to let me know. 
but all you do is call out my name. 
but even though i want only you,
you shut me out again. 

chorus: 
but there's nowhere for us to go. 
baby, please let me know. 
can i break it open? 
your heart of stone? 

your love is so ice cold. 
where i want to reside.
if you come with me, 
i promise you'll have, 

the time of your life, stay by my side. 
stick a while longer, and enjoy the ride.
i know you don't care, but baby just stay there.
and i'll take to you to my paradise, my paradise. 

bridge:
at the tone, please let me know. 
if i'm just a phone conversation. 
i'll be real, i wanna feel 
a little more than what you're giving. 

sticks and stones might break my bones, 
but your love will always hurt me.
you need someone who'll give you love?
so let me love you, baby.

chorus: 
but there's nowhere for us to go. 
baby, please let me know. 
can i break it open? 
your heart of stone? 

your love is so ice cold. 
where i want to reside.
if you come with me, 
i promise you'll have,

the time of your life, stay by my side. 
stick a while longer, and enjoy the ride.
i know you don't care, but baby just stay there.
and i'll take to you to, i'll take you to..

chorus: 
but there's nowhere for us to go. 
baby, please let me know. 
can i break it open? 
your heart of stone? 

your love is so ice cold. 
where i want to reside.
if you come with me, 
i promise you'll have,

the time of your life, stay by my side. 
stick a while longer, and enjoy the ride.
i know you don't care, but baby just stay there.
and i'll take to you to my paradise, my paradise.

outro: 
(i'll take you to my paradise, take you to my paradise)
take you to my paradise...

credits: 
lyrics and vocals: Jessica Valera
music production: Oz Something

paradise // heart of stone

track three ~ distraction // sorry to say

verse:
i got a case of love disorder, 
everything seems out of order. 
and i don't know what to do. 

when it's four in the morning and i'm losing sleep,
over something so little, that it's killing me. 
and that little thing is you. 

pre: 
and i keep looking, in all the worst locations, 
baby, say your place and i'll be on my way.
you're a good distraction, but there's no attraction,
sorry to say, maybe another day,

chorus: 
i'll be yours, for the keeping. 
but for now, my heart is beating 
for someone close to you, 
what the hell did i get myself into? 

you should know that they make me nervous, 
no offense, but you can't compare us two, 
to just a little distraction like you. 

post: 
like you (run)
just a little distraction.

verse: 
i know i said that i wanted you then, 
it is okay if we're just friends?
you can call me your baby, and make me go crazy, 
but i swear that i'd never fall for someone else again. 

and it's hurting my ego. 
thinking bout you and someone other than me tho. 
it's a shame, that it's all a game,
but i'll bet my life away. 

pre: 
and i keep looking, in all the worst locations,
baby, say my name, and i'll be on my way.
you're a good distraction, but there's no attraction,
sorry to say, maybe another day,

chorus: 
i'll be yours, for the keeping. 
but for now, my heart is beating 
for someone close to you, 
what the hell did i get myself into? 

you should know that they make me nervous, 
no offense, but you can't compare us two, 
to just a little distraction like you. 

outro:
just a, just a, just a little.
just a, just a, just a little.
to just a little distraction like you. 

just a, just a, just a little.
just a, just a, just a little.
to just a little distraction like you. 

credits: 
lyrics and vocals: Jessica Valera
music production: Oz Something

track two ~ jealous // you have some nerve

verse: 
i like the way, you said my name that one night we were alone. 
so many things, were going on, might as well let it go.
don't you remember all the tension in between ourselves?
the words that we would say in front of everybody else. 
you have some nerve, to go on, and say you blame yourself.

verse: 
and then you say, that you and i are nothing more than friends. 
if anything, i'd like to have some benefits. 
i guess it's just a fantasy that never will come true. 
cause once you cut off all connection, everything went blue. 
you have some nerve, to go on, and jump somebody new. 

chorus: 
and i'll admit, i feel a little jealousy. 
i wont forget, the way that you acted towards me,
before all, before everything

changed for worse, i know that i'm getting possessive. 
and i apologize if i ever get obssesive. 
but i, i can't help but feel so jealous, jealous, 
of everyone you fuck with. 

verse: 
the 28th, the night we put everything we had on hold. 
what could we say? there's nothing that we could've told. 
you went to go exploring, fucking everyone around. 
and baby, i don't blame you, you don't wanna be held down. 
you have some nerve, putting me six feet underground. 

chorus: 
and i'll admit, i feel a little jealousy. 
i wont forget, the way that you acted towards me,
before all, before everything

changed for worse, i know that i'm getting possessive. 
and i apologize if i ever get obssesive. 
but i, i can't help but feel so jealous, jealous, 
of everyone you fuck with. 

bridge: 
and it's a scary kinda story, 
the kind that leaves your body quaking.
and baby, you could be that one for me. 
the one that gets my bones shaking. 

i feel angry, confused and i know that i'll lose 
everything if i don't have you. 
yeah, i feel envious. i feel a little jealous.

chorus: 
and i'll admit, i feel a little jealousy. 
i wont forget, the way that you acted towards me,
before all, before everything

final chorus: 
and i'll admit, i feel a little jealousy. 
i wont forget, the way that you acted towards me,
before all, before everything

changed for worse, i know that i'm getting possessive. 
and i apologize if i ever get obssesive. 
but i, i can't help but feel so jealous, jealous, 
of everyone you fuck with.

credits:
lyrics and vocals: Jessica Valera
music production: Oz Something

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