differences w/ zangel (logi2k17)

@55depths
@bleedteam
@blackwinterwells
@bleakboi

track 2 off of:
"si tu veux"
produced by bleaky and i<3
a glance at the concept of being cheated on.

ty wells for joining me on this(:

lyrics:
(dth)
oh can you see
the wake i left behind
drowned for a second
and if it weren't for me
you wouldn't have wasted all ur time
but you seem fine

with ur friends
at ur house
do ur thing
around town
but i'm not gonna ask
where you were at last
cause i read every word
and you know that i've heard
breach of trust in her eyes
and her phone off tonight

so fuck ur thoughts
and fuck ur feelings
who would have known you could be so deceiving
this ocean blue like your eyes
gaze asunder
i didn't know that you'd
be with another

(wells)
it's okay
i'm not mad
well if i am
that's too bad
cause i'm not letting you in
you don't get another chance
and it's fine that i let you
stronger than i was
and i tried to protect you
now i'm covered in blood

it's not mine
it's not urs
but next time i can't be certain
fine you were right
that doesn't stop this from hurting
another mistake
oh great that's just what i hoped for
i'll leave through the back door
i won't say a word

so fuck ur thoughts
and fuck ur feelings
who would have known you could be so deceiving
this ocean blue like ur eyes
gaze asunder
i didn't know that you'd
be with another


(dth)
oh can you see
the wake i left behind
drowned for a second

fuck ur thoughts w/ blackwinterwells (deathright + bleaky)

the bastard

lyrics:
i dont wanna wake up now its way too hard to get up
why dont you just say sum now, i waited so long to hear it
but you don't got a clue what you've done so its all good to move on
it could be a day since then, i'd still say that its too long
living out your liveliest dreams dont let your heart go to waste
so many damn things in my mind so hard to put it in a place
stuck inside the same damn dream i see the same damn face
and i got real life dreams i let them all go to waste
tell it all but i still feel like they're onto me
every single walk i avoid myself like honestly
go and take it off i could never live without my peace
try and get it done i just get it done by all my means
try to catch myself but you know that i always fall
i do every single thing around the place and i still lost
help is what i need cant even stand on my own two feet
i been off of things cant even hear that they're calling me

i cant even look up now my heads too hard to keep up
i spent all my good allowance on nothing that i needed 
so when i see myself again, ive got my life to keep up
try to go hiding now but all the people see us
can i even see the stars or all they all burnt up
can you even see my farce or is it all worthless
you know that i did everything and it was all for us
i cant even see myself upon the gaze of my trust
hollywood dreaming fuck my friends and family
how you live your life thinking that you owe somebody things
bleedin in these walls you dont wanna see nobody's peace
stuck inside my mind every single bad thought is a breeze
kill me off tell me that im horrible to please
you can grip my heart every time you do you always squeeze
you dont care at all you just do these things and then repeat
everything is cold every single thing will make me freeze

bleed (irby)

Produced by michael harrison
Featuring @1gr4eme
Mixed and mastered by me and graeme
Lyrics by me and graeme

Change of direction
Don’t know where to go
A change of exception, I don’t want you here at all
You’re looking at me funny
Did I say something wrong?
There’s no more discussion 
Believed that I’m fucked

Oh, tell me why you left
Oh, tell me why you lie
Oh, tell me every story that you make inside your mind 
Oh, tell me if you’re bluffing, baby, I will make it right 
Oh, why should I try when I barley feel alive
Whatever it takes to say that I’m okay
You paved me in the gutter baby, pushed me out the way
You said you wanted love and now you’re picking out my brains
I promised then and now that I will make it out

Just tell me what you want, these things I can’t give you
I want the same things but I can’t upset you
And I’ve tried, I can’t see the light
Messed up my direction, just tell me what I’m missing
So we can move on and count what we've lost
We've lost our connection, what’s the point of me stressing?
And I’ve found what you said again
You left me out, all the lies
I know I’m still in your heart

Change of direction
Don’t know where to go
A change of exception, I don’t want you here at all
You’re looking at me funny
Did I say something wrong?
There’s no more discussion 
Believed that I’m fucked

Oh, tell me why you left
Oh, tell me why you lie
Oh, tell me every story that you make inside your mind 
Oh, tell me if you’re bluffing, baby, I will make it right 
Oh, why should I try when I barley feel alive
Whatever it takes to say that I’m okay
You paved me in the gutter baby, pushed me out the way
You said you wanted love and now you’re picking out my brains
I promised then and now that I will make it out

oh (w/ graeme) [p. michael harrison]

prod @bloodcryy

sample / battlefield 4 :]

gas goin deep i 4got i had2 ash it out ..
damn was dat me .. ? ? i 4got cuz i was blackin out :p// /
score by da 3 ,, but im pourin by da8 again //: {
say wat u mean . /; cuz ik u always h8n man

smoke until i cant , , lemme run it back .. /
i cant even stand //. . is u seein dat ??
pick up where i can ,, . i runnin back .
wat u do2me ??? /.. i jus wana fight back .. .

droppin 50oxycontin , wen u c me u cant stop it / // 
i been thinkin bout it all day ..  but now i got it .
i cant feel it ? ? ima drop it :P/  /. spend it back until its gone bish ,
wai until its gone bish..

hold up do u c me ,, c me ?? 
feel bad wen its on me, , ./; on me ]} .
can u take me ..  takeme ?? 
i think .. im breaking. .

sunken dragon freestyle [bloodcryY]

w/ @hibradn 
prod. @yokulol

lyrics:

did i do something wrong
they wont pick up my calls
they hate it when we talk
then say you dont need that x2

i dont wanna be 
the kind of person you are
don't u think
u might've took this too far
only if i could go
back to the start
and make sure
this never happened 

@hibradn:

now you always
talking shit
on my dick
talking bout 
you wish it never happened
it never happened

and like a glass sheet
under pressure
we are always cracking

hold up
i might just have a break down
i shouldve fuckin layed down
i'll lay here with my face down
i think i need a break now x2

never happened w/ hibradn (yoku)

lyrics:
spent the night waiting for something to come
waste it all just doing nothing instead
it’s like everybody’s waiting for some
thing that’ll never really come in the end
but i know
this’ll all be a joke in the end
as they noticed me
as i notice you
everything is coming all apart

don’t you know?
cause you’re breaking my windows
i’m just waiting for you to show
i feel the wind crossing over
and it takes me to another world
 
i can feel the breeze on my skin it’s so cold
i’m waking up young, but i feel just so old
everything is falling apart, like you told me
everything is falling apart 

you said your life feels like a joke
laugh it off until the curtains close
walking through the streets im comatose
i know what it means to let it go
come and tell me what you really know
about this life besides the chemicals
all these empty streets and broken homes
walk the night until the morning shows

i can feel the lights on
burning on my iris
walk another mile till i ache
melancholy calling
morning dew comes falling
saw the blue sky fading
into grey

but i know
yeah i know
this’ll all be a joke in the end
yeah i know
yeah i know
you’re just another ghost
in my head
oh i know

cause i’m breaking my windows
i don’t even know why anymore
walk the miracle mile
in the end we’ll still all be ash and bone

i don’t know
i don’t know what they told you but i really rather be alone
i don’t know what i told you but i don’t know what im talking about

miracle mile

it goes to waste demo [dead yami]

[Intro]
It’s crawling in my veins,
Feeding on my pain…
This disease called depression —
It’s eating me alive again.

[Verse 1]
I wake up choking on my thoughts,
Another war I never fought.
A shadow feeds beneath my skin,
And I can’t tell where I begin.

Every heartbeat feels like rust,
My sanity’s fading into dust.
These voices scream inside my head,
“You’re better off gone, better off dead.”

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s a parasite in my mind,
Eating what it finds inside.
Can’t escape, can’t disguise,
This disease won’t let me hide.

[Chorus]
This disease called depression’s eating me alive,
Tearing my soul just to survive.
Every breath feels like a crime,
Trapped in hell, but I act fine.
Yeah, this disease called depression’s eating me alive,
Bleeding through the cracks I try to hide.
But I won’t break — I’ll fight this tide,
Even if it kills me inside.

[Verse 2]
I’ve got a smile that’s stitched and fake,
Hiding demons I can’t shake.
Every mirror shows my pain,
A stranger staring back again.

I tried to pray, but God went mute,
Faith feels hollow, pain feels true.
Every night’s a war, no peace in sight,
This disease just feeds on my fight.

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s in my bones, it’s in my chest,
Won’t let me sleep, won’t let me rest.
I’m drowning deep in my own mind,
Suffocating, still confined.

[Chorus]
This disease called depression’s eating me alive,
Scratching, clawing, I’m barely revived.
It feeds on fear, it drinks my tears,
Been fighting this monster for too many years.
Yeah, this disease called depression’s eating me alive,
But I’m still breathing — still gonna rise.
Burning pain keeps me defied,
I won’t let it decide my life.

[Bridge]
It whispers lies like lullabies,
Tells me comfort’s just disguise.
I bite my tongue, I bleed inside,
But I refuse to say goodbye.

You want my soul? Come take your shot,
I’ve lost too much to lose a lot.
This pain won’t own my final line —
I’ll turn this sickness into fire inside.

[Final Chorus]
This disease called depression’s eating me alive,
But I’ve learned to turn my pain to drive.
Every scar’s a war I’ve survived,
Every tear means I’m still alive.
Yeah, this disease called depression’s eating me alive,
But I’m the flame it can’t deprive.
I’ll burn brighter — I’ll stay defied,
Till this darkness finally dies.

[Outro]
It’s in my head, it’s in my soul…
But I’m still here, still in control.
This disease called depression —
Will never take my whole.

it goes to waste demo [dead yami]

ssj5