"if I can't cry" produced by @luckeyknows @mental & @akasukii

Performed/Written by @counterxo

(lyrics)
I used to feel pain
I used to feel alive
I used to feel like the rain hit me like some blunted knives
Nothing hits the same
There’s nowhere to confide
Say I’ve been acting strange lately, hate that you’re so right
I can’t put up a fight
I think I lost my sight
I need the tough of light
My chest is getting tight
I hollowed my own heart for this life
I’ve calcified, can I tell you that?

If I can’t cry can you please be my eyes?
I’ve numbed what’s inside need my soul to revive
There’s no hope inside my eyes 
I’m glad that you stuck right by my side
I’m too broken to tell a lie 
I pushed you away as I crystallized, cause it’s suicide
Is there another way?

Don’t think I’m a victim, I’m sorry
Cause I didn’t listen to you and it scarred me
I don’t mind being this alone cause I’ve hardly healed, but it’s fine, cause there still is a heartbeat
If I get out of this I promise not become this again
Had some feelings come around, they didn’t stick, they came and went
I gotta keep my head down, it’s so much different than back then
Like a voodoo doll the thing that’s killing me’s my only friend

if i can't cry (luckey + mental + akasuki)

steps {bloodcryY + togepi}

prod @flojy @ripwarheart  <33


whoa-oa-oa 
ur games ya they get so old
ima fade out on my own
gone b4 u ever know, '4 u ever dont h8 me ..

im making my last stand
find a way that we're not done
u will go but i cant follow
i need a reason 2 keep going on

can u treat it like
its the first time,
cz the last time didnt feel 2 nice
gettin upset whn we lie
call it off ima make it right

givin up more than my time
keep dreamin abt
givin u my life
my life, my life
takin care cz im on the ice

whym i here whn i can't do anything right
every day js feels like torture
if there's a fine line, i hope that i can find it
at my side, ur the only one that i have

u told me tht ur feelin so far gone
so why not 
stay up together
we can watch the stars disappear and u might feel better xo

whoa-oa-oa -ohh
ur games ya they get so old
ima fade out on my own
gone b4 u ever know, '4 u ever dont h8 me ..

im making my last stand
find a way that we're not done
u will go but i cant follow
i need a reason 2 keep going on

last stand {flojy + warheart}

mix it wit amphetamine [akimbo]

prod @ssj5-junk @spaceboyry
sfx @bloodcryy

ya I Think im rly fried ,]) nevr Coming Down . .; / //
I Js kno it Wasnt right ** ( so I Had 2 Doubt . {{ =__\
evryTime i Gave A chance & U let it Down // : [ [[ .
i remember 1st Glance ,, -- & i Hear the sound __ -----'

ion Rly like2Talk imma Lonerr , , ,.
smoke Purp Pop pills , ||| Imma Doper ; p  . ..
Thought I Loved her "" xanny I 4got Her / ; ;
All these Cuts in my skin }}{ Its A Slaughterr = =_)

i Js Alwayz feel Low .  u aint rly Gotta go ] ] ]
ur the Best. Imma Mess. nothing Less ik . ,, , ,*

baby u Kno tht I miss Uu ,, I Js wna kiss u }} '//4
But i Cannot rn babyGirl & #ThatsTheIssue , ,, . .....

its Js another Song .. 
but im Thinkin bout u all day long --__+
n Maybe i Was wrong , ,///
u Belong right Here in my Armzz / . ;' [

ily like i Luv my Xanz . , ==
if it Werent 4u i'd Be dead [ [ ::
bae Ik Im not worthy  / // 
go ahead U Can Hurt me ::: __%

how do i Deserve Uu ??
How can I Serve uu .  ?
How Do I earn u ??
How2Make u Love ., , ,
like I Love uU u . .; (


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thats the issue [ssj5 + spaceboyry]

am i gona die [counter]

MV OUT ON INSTAGRAM ! 

shoutout @spaceboyry for tha fye beat and @s0lemn for the ft

@haunted_sad
popped an oxy when im feelin ##down
crystalized hearts u n me were fallin out
anotha pill ima ##PROFESSIONALLONER
running back lookin 4 some closure
i was a loser i was comin down
popped anotha pill everytime u come around
dont talk to me bby i think that im fallin out
i aint not givin u anotha fkn chance

all of the words tht u fkn said
all of the words that u nvr meant
wish i could forget me ya im wishin i was ##dead
i thought tht i helped u but u jus left me dead
my life that im retrying u left me hollow too
u left me like a tragedy 
and now its haunting me
all of the past bby like what was wrong with me
ima #PROFESSIONALLONER looking4 closure

@s0lemn
yuh feel like ichigo im hollow
yuh ion wna c 2mrw
tell me can u luv me back
ik im always askin dat

im top 8 like myspace
gtf up out my face
g22 like getsuga 
shoot dat btch dey wont c ya
do ts for my fam do ts for my friends
talkn sht on tragedy
all u hear is blam

i didnt wna go back
not2 my old ways
im takin all my sadness
and turn it into rage
if i catch u atta spot
ur life will end tht day
mfrs think im playn
til im smokin whyhaze

ipopthesepillstrynaforgetu w/ s0lemn (spaceboyry) *MV OUT NOW*

tragedyClub EP #s0lemnStyl3 __  : p

prod @ssj5-junk  @sleepyyfr
sample|| sleeping with sirens - if you cant hang
sfx @ssj5-junk

all The ^^ # ## #DrugsIdo ,, if I Quit it would U <3 me2 >> ???
I Cant make  m0ve __-- if I Do i Would Cut u Loose : [[ /. .
Caught in the back Of my Head ,, , 
Dope Inna cup hope Its Killing me Dead .. .[
im Tir3d of sht Dat u said . .. 
i Wana ______ u Can fill in the Rest .. ++

look Back & it Wasnt Even Worth it . ..
Ur dumb : p . .. u Think dat Ur perfect ++ -__
i Cut4u I Deserve it ,, ,  Fuck 0ff ,,( ur makin it Worsen)

take Back Wat i Dont Knooo ,,__( i Js put Fent in a Cyclone
Take pillz Where da Time Go ??? im Higher den Fxck : p how Should Ik ???

d0pe Inna Cup , fkn me up Like its nun Ive done . . .
r u Finally Done ??? ., , shattered2pieces got nowhere2Run . . .,,__))
Body Feel numb & Im Smokin A Ton ,,ll * 
Killing Mys3lf so I b0ught A new gun ,  l 
puttin Xans On my tongue ,, ,
Got me Fkd Up so im Totally spun .;))

Ima Fck Up ,, Slur Wen i talk ya im Already Drugged up^^^^
spillin The blood from My cuts ya its so Good (( **
oh God.. ...
dats2Much : p
i should Js Go ,, u were My Home .. ((*
its Not The same if Ur Tellin me No . ;
i Cut my Wrist n Im lettin it Flow- -- 
im Lettin u ..  Im lettin u Kno . . .
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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠹⣧⠀⢠⡿⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢹⣇⣾⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠸⣿⡿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢹⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀