SHADOWWORK II

Finish What I Started (prod. sorrow bringer)

prod. @iofmusic

recycle the words i used so many times
& i try so hard not to lose what was left of 
the image of you that i had in my mind
so let's keep on making excuses for why
i don't know you at all anymore
cause i'm not the person i was that you knew
i'd go back to the past if i could
just to make sure that i never met you at all

& i'll be fine
you can just leave me out in the sun
here to dry out alone
& time goes on
the color's gone from my eyes
but i promise that i'll be here falling for you

be here just falling for you
i'll be here falling for you
right here just falling for you

wish i'd move on
but i'm still caught in that
web you spun
you drain me slowly no 
it's not your fault
it's what you were meant for
so feed on my guts
let me nourish your bloodthirst

FALLING 4 U (prod. IOF)

burn w/ fats'e (prod. recycleBin)

Sleep Well, Darling (SECRETS Cover)

walking out ur door (prod. irby x jolst)

honest (prod. recyclebin)

fantasy w/ bruiser (prod. recyclebin)

candy w/ lil reign drop (prod. recyclebin)

alone (prod. recyclebin)

2nite (prod. recyclebin x northeast lights)

NEVERENDING (PROD. IOF)

SAFE TO SAY (PROD. IOF)

MARKS (PROD. IOF)

VIDEO : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zs-L2pYLr74

you know i'm never giving up on us
on us
and i 
i need you now need you to hold me real close
need your love
need your touch

lately you got my back on the wall
i hate when you leave me alone 
don’t know what to say 
cause i look at your face and i can’t find a way to relay what i want
so
why you brand new to me now
damn you so beautiful girl
want nobody else 
stay true to you girl 
fuck what they say cause you and me know 
you and me go so good admit it 
really though who am i kidding 
whenever i’m gone are you really gon' miss me 
maybe the moment’s as good as it gets 
making me think that i’m stupid as shit 
without you don’t know what to do w myself 
so tell me if you wanna do this for real
(will you please stay with me)

you know i'm never giving up on us
on us
and i 
i need you now need you to hold me real close
need your love
need your touch

you know i’m never giving up on us
but lately really feel like you don’t want it anymore
so tell the truth
i don't know why you won’t just say so 
and I don’t ever think i’ll be ok now 

why don't you just come back
i thought you felt the same
i thought you’d understand 
thought i had one more chance

yeah baby don’t do me like that 
still I’m running back over again 
can’t ever get you the fuck out my head
why do I care
this shit never change

Stay (prod. irby)

Keep It (prod. Sleye)

VIDEO OUT NOW
youtu.be/bhM_HMk36zE

and if i said
you were all i ever wanted and
could you relate or am i all on my own now
i know it's late still i might just ring the number you gave
and i see your hand but i just put all of my cards down

and if i can't
hold up my end of all i ever meant
is it too late to say i'm better off all alone
is that the same or am i just weighing the choice that i made?
still i need a sec cause i just let all of my lungs out

and what a waste
I sat around another day
i'm not afraid
It's no more time for me to wait
no we're not the same
i'm sorry i can never relate
i don't wanna say no more
I'ma take all of the blame

i don't really wanna cave in
everybody wanna fake it
i just cannot really place it
when i think of why they hate me
yeah
uh
same one getting wasted
still waiting for the payment
i'm getting sick of all the same shit
it's alot i gotta take in
i can't wait too impatient
face it
i ain't want nothing basic
i'm going straight for the greatness
fuck 'em all i see their faces
they ain't even really say shit
(all of y'all snaking)
break shit when i'm angry
never said that i would change it
it's a lesson i get a's in
i ain't playing when i say this
i don't really wanna be graded
hate this

and i can see it in your eyes now
i won't pretend that i'm surprised nah
nothing to say they asking why now
yeah

Pretend (prod. Sleye)

https://soundcloud.com/613ninja


and it hurts still when you cut slowly
and my heart still beating when it's broken
getting harder now to breathe when i'm choking
i don't wanna feel the heat nah i'm frozen

and i'm fucked up reason why i'm lonely
i'm a lost cause ain't no point in knowing me
i'm a ghost now ain't nobody saw me
and i'm gone now i don't know where i'm going

[District]
i know you don’t understand, I
don’t see you reaching your hand out, no
don’t try to call me again
ayy
fuck all these feels, it’s just chemicals
now where have you been?
wondering when,
will she ever get the fuck out my head?
still don’t understand, how could u....
shit, I saw the hurt from the cuts on her skin

[Ja¥en]
i can’t feel anything inside my body
numbing everything, need escape from pain.
dead, now I’m a ghost
wonder if you even saw me
my heart falling apart
i’m the one to blame 

[Ja¥en x District]

i’m a ghost u can’t see me, yeah I’m gone now
floating off into space, where the stars are
in the Phantom windows tinted, music so loud
i don’t know where I’m going, but it’s so far
x2

Hurt w/ Ja¥en x District (prod. Sleye)

[Sleye]
i won't put the pen down
i was at a friend's house
you just broke the news to me yeah
i can never live now
i been getting lifted
got me coming down from this cloud
i been living still inside a town i never get out

i get low on everything i need to keep the mood down
got me going crazy like i'm losing all my cool now
and i'm just saying lately get the picture i'm a fool
i'm counting petals on the roof
and you don't love me but i knew that

i wish i could go back
tell you what it's like
i took a knife to every tie
i think about you all the time
and i hit you never wrote back
cut me out your life
now it's got me feeling so bad
i want you to know that

i want you to know that
got me feeling so bad

hit you never wrote back
wish that I could go back
cut me out your life
yeah
and I don't wanna lie
i think about you all the time

[Brady Amour]
picture you inside your room
it's monday afternoon
pick up the phone and call for you
but you won't let me through
 
i know i said that i was better
but now i wish i never met her

i know the last time that we talked it wasn't easy 
yeah
i wish that i could change
and just be me again
i know the last time that we talked it wasn't easy yeah
i wish that i could change
and just be me again..

just be me again
x3

you left a cigarette still burning on the table 
fell asleep and then that’s all you can remember
i try to say i'm sorry for losing my temper
i try to say i'm sorry for early november

[Sleye]
i won't put the pen down
i was at a friend's house
you just broke the news to me yeah
i can never live now
i been getting lifted
got me coming down from this cloud
i been living still inside a town i never get out

(you left a cigarette still burning on the table 
fell asleep and then that’s all you can remember
i try to say i'm sorry for losing my temper
i try to say i'm sorry for early november)

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Counting Petals w/ Brady Amour (prod. Sleye)

https://soundcloud.com/weepingwolf
https://soundcloud.com/prodreaper

[Sleye]

just give me something to rely on
something i could die for
something i could put my fucking life on

i got this drug you wanna try some
got me feeling empty it's the shit i really strive for

i be on it lifelong
probably end up mind fucked
throw me in a jacket with some white and keep the lights off
i could treat you nice though
only for a night though
it's obvious i try but i can't help it i'm a psycho

girl just tell me what you want
i could give you anything
tell me how you want it now
i make it a reality
i don't really cover up that
nothing really shit to me
think i only want you cause
to me you're still a mystery
you don't really care nah i can see it through your smile
i can read between the lines
just like the print you know you're fine
yea i been seeing every sign
synchronicity in life
it never caught me by surprise
i saw your soul right through your eyes

[weepingwolf]

you said that you love me but i know that you lying like
every time i call your phone i swear you been crying
i seen all the drugs but you keep on denying
i read between these lines no there's no point in trying

why you tryna hide it from it me
my paranoia it drives me crazy
i know you don't want hurt me
can't you tell me like please just maybe

tell me i'll save your soul
i know that you can take control
tell me i'll save your soul
i know that you can take control

and when you do everything will be fine
we gotta go forward if you want this all behind
cause nothing's more important than how we spend our time
fuck it you ain't gotta tell me i can read between the lines

Between The Lines w/ weepingwolf (prod. reaper)

https://soundcloud.com/prodreaper
https://soundcloud.com/safehold

[Sleye]
i'm looking back i see the way you always set me off
i always knew you would
crawl to me like you were young
and i won't put up with no one
leave me on my own
turn off my phone
i been ignoring every call 
yea

i'd say i'm getting through it's fine
i know i'm lying through my teeth
recite this shit so many times
forget my lines i hear you speak

do you remember when i said
i want you right here next to me
i cannot say i feel the same
the way it was it never be 

i watch you when you walk away
i wish it were okay
i sleep in late most every day
you do the same 
you know the way
you get me right where i can feel it
cut me right down to my vein
i see the blood the way it's spilling
no expression on your face

i'm sorry I just let you down
you know it's all i ever did 
i run away from every issue
it's the way i always been
i can't relate you say you miss it
i can't help but look ahead
cause all the shit that's in my memories
i wish i would forget yea

[Safehold]
how long can we keep this going on?
falsify information to get what you want
lie right to my face, it's all the same
tell me it's okay but you never change

tried to find some common ground
i fought to the end but our love just fell
and i tell myself to walk away
i'll just forget this reality

you never ask if i'm okay
(i never hear you say my name)
you always try to save your face
(i guess we're better off this way)

i know you hate to see this
your intentions so deceiving
I always hate this feeling
torn by the thought of you leaving

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Walk Away w/ safehold (prod. reaper)

Pulling The Strings (prod. tothegood)

My Fault (prod. tothegood)

Lost Soul (prod. tothegood)

soundcloud.com/prodreaper


another night i would've wished that you were here 
i'm kinda high but still it never really stick
yeah i used to sit around just reminiscing
but now i'm tryna figure out a way to make a difference

turn around i see you standing in the sunlight
but i can't look cause everything around me so bright
sometimes 
i just wish i wouldn't be up all night 
and i don't ever really like it going outside

and if you love me why you treat me like you do
you always left me out the loop
and i got nothing left to lose

i ain't your trophy you can't put me in your room
with every heart that you collect 
you never really had me fooled
(i kinda knew)

i gotta pack up all my shit 
i'm on the move
i think i need another hit
don't feel a thing at all unless i'm taking two
still i can't forget it i be holding onto you
i got a pill to help me go and find some closure really soon

know you wouldn't answer 
if i ever tried to call
blow me off again
i know i'm not the one you want at all

you got me all tied down
now i'm strung up
i always felt that i was up against a lost love
i never said i wouldn't quit you should've saw
i wouldn't put up with your shit
don't you pretend you didn't know

i guess i'm not that right for you
i didn't ever really wanna have to fight for you
and i don't ever wanna lie to you
i think i left it where i should've least i tried to
(tried for you)

bury me with several little roses by the words
and write my eulogy in sentences that make me look the worst
i'll have dependency
addicted 'til i'm rotten with the worms
no i don't think i'll ever end it
got me caught up in a curse

If You Love Me (prod. reaper)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/tothegood

https://youtu.be/zKJHrOSRpQA


i'm searching for something it never compare
it's not really worth it
it's never the same
again and again in my head i'm a waste
i can hear what you said on that night clear as day

i broke every promise i made to myself
i severed my word but it's all for the best
i don't show any love cause they all were in bed
they were snoring so loud never heard what i said
and i swear to god if i ever am clean
i'll end up with nothing to love i'm a fiend
i'm a loner i'm toxic without much esteem
i could end up with no one not hard to believe

tell me what you want from me
i could be your anything if you'd let me
resent me 
blame for the things 
that we both had agreed 
were results we'd accepted
i don't wanna talk that long
let me get off the phone now
yelling at me i'm so wrong
i ain't really yours no more
doing better on my own
i don't gotta watch my tongue 
no
i don't really want no smoke
got enough for myself
yeah

baby do you love me
said i'm sorry
i'm being honest
need you with me always
i never call
you're hanging out with empty hallways
and now i'm never home i got the ends i wanna go make
wanna find a way to say this
i don't really know what to do
i ain't ever been so impatient
find a way to get over you
had a feeling i'd fuck it all up
knew it all would go down
didn't know i would fall into love
and it'd go in the ground
no

i would kill for the chance to go back and replay
but i'm better i swear
i can learn from mistakes
i'm searching for something it never compare
it's not really worth it
it's never the same
i'm telling myself that you meant what you said 
can't believe what you did
and you act innocent
give it up 
you're the saddest excuse for a friend 
you were all that i had and you left me for dead


mix/master by me

Clear As Day (prod. tothegood)(VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

if you call me at all
don't tell me that i'm ordinary
cause i won't be passing you 
please don't leave
and if you tell me you're listening to everything you read

turn off this light
call my name
don't talk 
just ride
who wouldn't let you be all about
about me
i'm only trying to work this out

i hear you breathing on the line
oh baby girl i'm not your type
i'll leave you hurting every night
so i won't be coming back
who wouldn't let me be all alone
who wouldn't let you scream oh into a soft pillow


mix/master by me

She Makes Dirty Words Sound Pretty (prod. IOF)(Pierce The Veil Cover)

i hate the way you caught me i wasn't at my best
i hate the way you talked to me wasn't cool with that
now i'm probably better off
can you see me where i'm at
yeah
i thought you were the one 
but it wouldn't ever  last
no
been a couple months 
and the times gone missing
yeah i'm moving on
and my life's so different
still i'm kinda wishing 
you would try to hit me
probably i'd fuck it up again
don't have a way to fix it

i don't wanna hear you i'm not listening 
i don't wanna see you it makes me sick
yeah
still i'm on the fence and my mind's so twisted
said i wasn't shit it's yourself that you're kidding

i don't wanna let go i'm not ready
thumbing through the last few lines you sent me
i'm in such a bad mood yeah it's so upsetting
idk why you try to lie you're so petty

i thought you were my only
i should've known better
you were always cold to me
like the winter weather
scent it's on my sweater
yeah i miss her i don't wanna tell her
i know we don't belong together 
no

running for my life
when the nightmares hit me
all i do try but my strikes still missing
fall asleep and i always fight my fears
and it's all in my head now i might not win this


mix/master by me

You Were Always Cold (prod. Sleye)

https://soundcloud.com/tothegood

i was already broken before you been around
that was permanent i was hurt it had been a while
now we're struggling looking for some we never find
i was already empty inside

i was happier never alive
i'll be honest i'm saying this lie
now i'm only alright when i'm high
and i don't know if i'm doing this right

can't let it go
it's like a leech 
they're living  on me
i'm getting close
yeah all my blood is draining slowly
yeah still it show and you can tell i'm fucking lonely
if i were someone else pretend i'd never known me

how was i to be knowing you wouldn't stick around
that was obvious i was probably just in denial
i can't look over it saw you from in a different light
i always thought i would tell from the signs

Signs (prod. tothegood)

https://soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer

wait
i thought you wanted me to beg
you give me something not to hate
can't be without you for a day or my skin starts to raise from the coldness

make me
take it all back
baby
where you going
stay please
i cannot stand
waking
up for nothing

i saw reflections when i look in your eyes tonight
i watch my vision get distorted in cries from the sight of your short glare

hate when
you change the subject
and say things
that set me off and
i'm blanking
i'm short for words
and you're making me sick to my stomach
we're done with

Waking Up (prod. sorrow bringer)

https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

you don't really want this
i don't wanna force it
i was only open cause i thought you would be honest 
i know i was wrong then
always said the wrong thing
i was only hoping you would end up being worth it
i was at my worst then 
you already know this
better off alone
but still i felt you getting closer
wasn't what you hoped yeah
i know that i'm broken
i just wanted someone i don't think that you're the person


i know i always mess it up i'd rather not get involved
and no there's never any point but still we're talking it up
and now i'm feeling really good
it never stay very long
i try and cover up the mess i know i made of myself
and now i'm
not doing better nah it's breaking me down 
another chance i didn't take i wasn't rid of my doubt
another plan i should have made but now it's late and you're gone
and i'm fucked up all on my own in the dark


by myself in the car
i don't want this at all
but i'm used to the hole
where i always end up
every cause
it was lost
from before i would start
see the mark that i got where you tore me apart

i got your hopes up 
should've never done that 
always had our clothes off
wasn't really romance
almost getting choked up
think of how it all went 
i been making progress
i don't wanna go back

still i never learn yet
i ain't going nowhere 
remember when we first met
know it wasn't long
and i'm not even who i was then
i was lacking substance
i just had to show them all that i was good for something

it wasn't ever enough for you but i won't feel sorry
and you don't look from a point of view but the one you were born with
i know i said i was over you but i can't ignore this
and now i sit on my bed in my room cut my face from the portrait

Portrait (prod. IOF)

mix/master/prod. by me


erase these dreams i never had
it turns again but never look back
we'll never go back
delete these sheets i failed to save
words cant describe the day
and i cant speak tonight

never look back
never hold back
gotta get back
to the places we once loved
so i can sleep tonight

embrace these streets i've never crossed
it turns again and we might be lost
we're well on our way
we lost our way back home
but we drive around for miles
just to see the open road
i can see it coming


just keep driving
let's keep driving

Ten & Two (prod. Sleye)(A Bird A Sparrow Cover)

prod. soundcloud.com/cpt_sad

recount it back from the start
don't know what tore us apart
could be the way that you hold my heart so tight

you walked me back to my car
i wasn't scared of the dark
but you were saying it's alright you don't mind

was i just nothing to you
what else was there i could do to get through this now
when we've both been bruised
& i don't care if they knew
i'd scream it out from the roof
if you felt this too
yeah you felt this too
know you felt this

you're always far from me
so why'd you fall for me
you make it all just feel so incomplete

you make it hard to leave
i'm always down on my knees
can barely tell how to speak cause your kiss so sweet

i'd do anything
just keep it all the same
i spilled my guts onto the floor 
i made a mess of it
 
i'd do anything
don't want our love to change
i spilled my guts onto the floor won't get this surface clean

every time i see you now i'm losing my balance
the pressure always peaking till i blow up i had it
i'll pull my sleeves down on my arms so it'll cover the damage
you drink away the shit you bottle but i know that you felt this too

Damage (prod. yesterday)

soundcloud.com/joel-villagran
soundcloud.com/iofmusic

& it was dark outside lastnight
i can’t remember were you there or had i closed my eyes?
a constant wreck i think i lost my mind
was that a recollection i made out of what i’d like?
& it’s so hard to get inside so tight
it’s not apparent to you number of the times i tried
& now i guess it finally comes to light 
i couldn’t see it even if it's only just a mile

i remember how it felt the way that you left 
it wasn't shit to me compared to what you'd do next
how you'd pretend you never cared & tried to prove it 
so why'd you do it?

make believe i wasn't there to keep from losing
run away you know you're scared to face the music
so what’s here left of me just take it you can use it
i won’t get through it 
i cut the loose end

xxajii:

every night it’s been keeping me up
every day got me losing my touch
you shoot me down & you sit there fine with it
i wasn’t sure if we would make it to the end
i’m barely needing you tonight 
don’t think we’ll make it out alive
cut by mistakes, hung out to dry
if you don’t mean it, don’t apologize
i won’t make you choose what you have to do
if i don’t have you, what is left to prove

Lastnight w/ Xxajii (prod. IOF)

https://soundcloud.com/lullabyboy

mix/master/art by me 

still i know you’re all i need
cigarette holes on your sleeves
every night so hard to sleep
without you i’m a wreck
kiss me on my cold wet cheek 
spill out tears all on my sheets 
my pillow soaked up all my screams 
alone i lie in bed 

maybe i'm the one who's wrong
that i'd confide in you at all
just getting tired & i'm sore
i waste the breath out of my lungs 
& you don't try for us to compromise at all or work it out
you said you'd stay i should've caught that lie 
before i cared so much

lullabyboy:

& i don't really care if you hate me
but why did you date me
yeah i admit it's getting hard to sleep
i don't wanna be myself
i don't wanna be me
breaking piece by pieve
i just hope you see me
i can't help but ask if it's worth it
but the lonely nights leave me so broken
i hope i fall asleep less hopeless
but you’re so done with me i know this

yeah i’ve tried
but i can’t do this again
you left me out in the cold
you got me stuck in emotions

Sleye:

i’m at the end of my rope 
no i can’t wait anymore
you should’ve told me before 
if you knew it's not what you wanted

Hard To Sleep w/ lullabyboy (prod. Sleye)

art/mix by me

i held the lie i let from out of my mouth
i always try but never find a way to get what i want
it isn’t right no idc if it’s wrong
i can’t do this anymore
i’m putting all my regret in a coffin

hey
need you to wait
need you to wait
don't run away
need you to stay
so will you stay
yeah will you stay
need you with me
right here with me 
don't wanna leave
need you with me

if i knew it would be like this
i wouldn't have come
you kinda treat me like a side thing
already got what you want 
i know you lie
can you tell me the truth?
i wanna see you every time
i never get to at all

will you stay with it when i'm falling apart
or would you just go back again erasing it all
it isn't like you to just say what you want
want me to read all your thoughts 
if i could then i would & i'm sorry
if i went there right now would it be like last time again
or if i said it all wrong
would it get messed up
couldn't really feel it like i did
i'd take it back if i could now still i don't think that'd make it work
& maybe if i wasn't gone so far it wouldn’t be this way no more

Coffin (prod. Sleye)

mix/master/art by me

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i'm standing in the bedroom where i lost my peace of mind
& all that's staring back now when i look is lust filled lies
now I’m trying to hold back tears leave
the corners of my sight 
i swear that i can understand you
the darkness to my fire

come on tear my insides out
i'll be the flame you can't put out 
fight this all for one more round
to feel like love is not allowed 

it wrapped around me as the light filled up this night
i swear i don’t think i’ll get out of this alive
still i'm trying to be more than meets the eye 
you were the last one
that i had ever expected
wouldn't pass up
all that i offered to present to you
i'm glad that you came through

come on tear my insides out
i'll be the flame you can't put out 
fight this all for one more round
to feel like love is not allowed 

i'm so
caught in the web you spun
that i could
stare while you drain my blood
but i'm not
sorry for every honest word i wrote

Phobia (prod. Sleye)

Til The End Of Time (prod. Sleye)(Trippie Redd Cover)(VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

art/mix/master by me
prod. @iofmusic

it wasn't how i had pictured
the way that it went was 
just a little bit more different than what i had in mind
i think i'll swallow my pride
& take one for all of us this time
remember when we were kids &
thought we were invincible
now all the bodies start to drop like flies
no i don't like to remind myself
that i knew what loss felt like 

so maybe we'll
hold
on to this for just tonight
& if you let go
baby we're all gonna die
reverberating color invade this sky
& maybe we could have it for more than just one life
is it what you had in mind ?

& this world
it's so wrong
& no one 
should deserve
this curse
there's no cure
& it hurts
what i've learned

i'm sleepless
i can't find the reason
i'm not healing
wounds have gotten deeper
i'll keep this solemnly between us
our secret 
we had an agreement

i don't wanna leave
i'll do what i can to cheat it
i wear a smile knowing 
you won't believe it
i thought that maybe you were just what i needed
but i know you're reciprocating none of my feelings

Sleepless (prod. IOF)

art/mix/master by me

cover my mouth
i won't make a sound
i see my shadow on the floor & now it's come so close
out of my hole 
i decide to crawl
i let it feed upon my heart & nothing's left no more

stay 
out my way
yeah i can feel it moving harder in my veins
all i see 
that i hate
& every day it's getting hard to keep it in 
blame 
it on me
you got a problem so does everybody else
& i'm sick
in my head
& i don't think that i can ever get it fixed 

shattered my hope
no resolve at all
cause when you look at what the world is eyes go numb 
what did i learn from my time alone?
it's barely anybody else that took the blindfold off

lie that i told
i haven't grown at all 
still i'm cold to my core
i couldn't let this go
now i'm unsure
i don't pretend to know
i cut away all that i felt 
& then i bled this out 

kill what i was
so that i'd evolve
i took away the very person that i was before
got what i want
no more heart is left
i won't remember how it felt to be alive at all

Sleye

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