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Keep you guessing, I swear I won't tell you
Make you want me and then I'll desert you (Welcome to the first page of my diary)
(God damn it, I meant to say journal)
But it's alright 'cause you said you don't need me (I don't like to talk all too much, so here is a song that I wrote today)
It's alright 'cause I kept it steady

And I wish that I still felt
Like I never needed help
Lock myself inside the dark
I've been rotting in my shell
Through the walls I watch you sleep
All you did was lie to me
I just wanna hear the words
That you still believe in me, and you're sorry

Hopefully through this song you can finally understand what I've been trying to tell you
I am just not all too good with words

SKELETONS DIARY INTRO

You left me bleeding in the dark
A hollow scream a broken spark
The ashes fall they burn my skin
Was it love or just a sin

You tore me apart you tore me apart
Ripped out my veins left a blackened heart
You tore me apart you tore me apart
And now I'm screaming into the void we start

Your words were knives your touch a curse
Every kiss a wound it only got worse
I tried to climb out of the grave
But love's a chain I can't escape

I hear your voice in every cry
It cuts me down I don't know why
Your shadow haunts me in the flame
I scream your name I scream your name

You tore me apart you tore me apart
Ripped out my veins left a blackened heart
You tore me apart you tore me apart
And now I'm screaming into the void we start

tore me apart

love you

Broken glass
Your lies reflected
Shards of trust
Forever infected
Bitter smoke
The air corrodes
Our love burns on these desolate roads

Shattered chains
No escape
Love’s a prison
Carved in hate
You tore the flesh
Left the bone
Now I’m stronger
On my throne

Echoes scream
Your ghost won’t fade
Scars remain from the games you played
Poisoned tongue
Venomous kiss
Our ending carved in the abyss

Rising now
I shed the weight
Crushed the past
Embraced my fate

Shattered chains
No escape
Love’s a prison
Carved in hate
You tore the flesh
Left the bone
Now I’m stronger
On my throne

Ashes fall
A bitter rain
Cleansing fire
Purging pain
No regrets
No looking back
The darkness fades
The world turns black

no escape

Lyrics:
Baby your just a Krystal magic 
Your a dumb witchy bitch 
And I’m so paranoid 
I think I’m fucking pissing myself 
You wanna be so imaginative 
I think your minds in a rift in creative mode

Bad audio (monologue)

I just wanna get you wet like you're Lapras
Hundred fifty-one things that I'll never do
I'm on Route 6 thinking 'bout my actions
Put you in a Poké Ball and I'd torture you

Now I'm so drunk like Electabuzz
Tried to tell me your concerns, didn't give a fuck
And my name's "N" like a no one
But you can't escape, shawty, you should level up

I just wanna get you wet like you're Lapras
Hundred fifty-one things that I'll never do
I'm on Route 6 thinking 'bout my actions
Put you in a Poké Ball and I'd torture you
I just wanna get you wet like you're Lapras
Hundred fifty-one things that I'll never do
I'm on Route 6 thinking 'bout my actions
Put you in a Poké Ball and I'd torture you

Now I'm so drunk like Electabuzz
Tried to tell me your concerns, didn't give a fuck
And my name's "N" like a no one
But you can't escape, shawty, you should level up

151 things i wanna do to you cover

We built our dreams on borrowed bones,
Painted halos over broken homes.
Every promise was a loaded gun,
And I still taste the smoke when the night’s begun.

You said the stars would keep us safe,
But they just watched as we fell from grace.
Now every whisper sounds the same—
Your name, your name, your name.

So cut me open just to feel alive,
I’ll bleed confessions in ultraviolet light.
Our glass hearts don’t echo when they break,
But I still hear yours in every quake.

The city sleeps while I replay the tape,
Static screams in the shape of your face.
You were thunder in a paper sky,
And I was rain that forgot to cry.

You swore forever through your teeth,
Now I’m choking on what’s underneath.
Every scar’s a memory’s ghost,
And I wear you like I need the pain the most.

So cut me open just to feel alive,
I’ll bleed confessions in ultraviolet light.
Our glass hearts don’t echo when they break,
But I still hear yours in every quake.

This love was a requiem in reverse,
A lullaby that always hurts.
You said, “We’re infinite, just close your eyes,”
But forever was just another lie.

Bury the sun, I don’t want to wake—
Let the ashes sing, let the heavens shake.
If this is what it means to stay,
Then I’ll burn with you, fade away.

So cut me open just to feel alive,
I’ll bleed our names across the sky tonight.
Our glass hearts don’t echo when they break,
But I still hear yours—
I still hear yours—
I still hear yours in every quake.

Feel Alive

Isolated

Built From Hate

“Measure of Fear” is a crushing anthem inspired by Gorge from Ninjago, a force whose power isn’t speed or chaos — but scale, control, and inevitability.
This isn’t about chasing enemies.
It’s about outgrowing them.

Measure of Fear

@thepessimistofficial
solace through pessimism

tore me apart

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