dusk

She was hoping her serious thought would be understood/accepted from more than she would like. But, she was thinking there had been some actions like her thought hadn't been accepted seriously she would like as far. Really, the persons she had been needing/appreciating  especially are the serious persons who give supports to the songs she had supported without hesitating if they like the stuff. She was hating to be added to their following list with light feeling like adding a playlist (so in other words, without having the will to support her repost stuff constantly) by her non-following (except the persons she is following on her another account) accounts (that she hasn't been giving likes to their stuff at all or mostly) that don't give supports to any stuff she have shared by reposting as far, or don't do so mostly a lot!! To the honest, it never make her mental health to be healthy. Because she had been hoping the support/sharing to favorite stuff from her would be accepted even from many serious (=the type like they don't have a option to select accounts like her as a resource to find their new favorite stuff) persons. But even now, the real situation doesn't become what she would like to wish from before. That's the properly reason she had been depressed. So now, she stopped to use this account by such reasons.

heaven holds a sense of wonder
and i wanted to believe
that i'd get caught up
when the rage in me subsides

dusk

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