Instrumental produced by @secretstash

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[lyrics]

You say to keep my head up all it does is drag me down tho
I'll meet you in the middle; keep my feelings on the downlow
You're a fool if you think theres a cure for a broken mind
ICant decide if its more humane for me to live or die
Laugh or cry, sink or swim. thats what ive been dealin with
Tried to run, tried to hide. But the feeling still persists
To wrap around my mind so fuckin tight until my brain bleeds
I'm tried of waking up to be depressed about the same things
If God is real he has my soul up in a vice grip
If this was in his plan then hes a sick fuck for devising it
Still you act surprised I do the drugs I'm hypnotized with
Anything but this is better so I stay high as shit
Never been the type but lately I've been thinking violent 
Everybody dies and thats alright 'cause I ain't dyin to live
Lost in my reflection but it's not because I'm likin' it
Suicide is bliss but I'm a pussy just for trying it

Do you know why I'm up all night? nah
Do you know why I still get high? nah
Do you know how many tears i've cried? nah 
Do you know why I just wanna die? nah
Do you know why I don't come by? nah
Do you know why I still get high? nah 
Do you know why I write what I write? nah 
Do you know why I just wanna die?

Do you really wanna know why I stress so much?
Just like a hypochondriac man I can feel it my guts
I'm trapped inside my mind and honestly I'm seeing scary things
if you could put it underneath a microscope youd see just what i mean
Feelin like a fiend for the dopamine,
Dreaming for a better scheme of thinking
Because when the bottles gone dry and the bags half empty
It feels like I could die and it feels just like I'm ready to
Feels like I'm cursed by blessing in disguise 
I guess that things could be worse but they could be better if I tried
I can sit and be depressed or I can get up and try to fix it
But even when it's done and over with it feels like something's missing 
From my heart, from my soul. What it is, I don't know
Feel a presence so cold tryina tell me where to go
I been trying so hard not to fuckin let go
But when you got no hope you might believe that you'll find clarity in rope
 
Now you know why I'm up all night yuh
Now you know why I still get high yuh
Now you know how many tears i've cried yuh 
Now you know why I just wanna die yuh
Now you know why I don't come by yuh
Now you know why I still get high yuh
Now you know why I write what I write yuh
Now you know why
 I just wanna die

BRAIN BLEED [PROD. SECRET STASH]

Producer, rapper, singer, screamer & guitarist in Illinois.
1/3 of the band @vilephile

"Static MOB Records" is a semi local artist collective hailing from West Central Illinois, U.S.A. and beyond founded in 2015. We provide features, beats, recording, mixes, masters, distribution, artwork, consultation, & hard press releases for artists within a range of genres with the roots residing in Underground Hip-Hop!
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