shoutout @k4yd3nce for working on this song w me ily <3
and shoutout @kaihaunted too ily bestie this cover art pretty 

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sitting in my room, feel like an asshole 
everyone around me building castles 
i can feel my brain starting to unravel 
starting to get bashful 
posted up on twitter, feel my bones shake 
wish i was satisfied with all that i make 
i can feel my brain replaying every mistake 
wishing i had switched lanes 

im going down
and what i found 
is no one notices any time i'm not around 
i make a sound 
and then i'm crowned 
will someone tell me it's in my mind, im being drowned 
by all of the clout 
that's not what this is about 
if i had known that this would happen then i would take a different route 
but things feel different now 
it's a vociferant sound
yeah i gotta get the ignorance out 

i know what you've been seeing but it's not me 
it's all my fault i'm the only one to stop me 
feel the same everyday, yeah the pressure got me 
wanna pave my own way but i'm just a copy 
i swear to god i promise 
my own image, is being shifted, i wanna keep it honest 
cut my eyes out, lights out 
see a cliff and i'm driving off of it now 
and what i found 
is no one notices any time i'm not around 
i make a sound 
and then i'm crowned 
will someone tell me it's in my mind, im being drowned 
by all of the clout 
that's not what this is about 
if i had known that this would happen then i would take a different route 
but things feel different now 
it's a vociferant sound
yeah i gotta get the ignorance out

vociferance

premonition (yungspoiler)

w/ @t1gerstar
cover art by @aithuia
prod: me & @aithuia

lyrics:
(polar)
you think im perfect, im not perfect
you think it hurts, but on the surface
its not bad

try and lie and say its worth it
close your doors do i deserve this
its not bad

you love to play
you love to play
and i can tell that
you hate the way
you hate the way
you recognize my
every mistake that i make
its amplified by every word that you say
and im feeling the weight

its not bad

(tigerstar)
tell me all the things you want and i'll try to be that
get rid of and scrap the shit that has no meaning
promise im alright
i'll be good for awhile
until i become someone who you would wanna
save a seat and space for and more cus u want me here
everybody wants that one person they know they can't have
but its really not bad
its just that i made it up in my head and you dont see it

even if the surface says a different thing
if i was really suffering i'd suck it up and say
it's not bad

Im trying not to freak out even though its the worst pain
I can hold your hand and bleed out and i would still say its not bad

surface w/ tigerstar

Hit Her From The Back

Yuji vs Mahito / Yeat - Rock This ( ft. Playboi Carti )

Went on a little trip
Just to clear my head
I wish I felt less alone
And were with you instead

And there's this constant feeling
That lingers
At the back of my head
I think I'll end up dead, if I

Let go
Forget the safety net
You're gone
And having fun, I bet

It's been a while
And we haven't spoke too much
Guess you moved on
Having fun, living life and such

I'm so out of control
Manic episodes
But why would you care?
I'm just someone you know.
(Uncrypted)

Went on a little trip
Just to clear my head
I wish I felt less alone
And were with you instead

And there's this constant feeling
That lingers
At the back of my head
I think I'll end up dead, if I

i went on a trip today

Everybody looks at me the wrong way
you tell me what you wanna hear
then text me
i wish that you were here
I spend my life living in fear

that i won't have nobody
to wipe my tears
that i won't have nobody
to hold me close

I wish that i was special
so you could maybe give a fuck
but i don't really know you
as well as i thought
that i did

i'm way too scared
of the consequence
i'm way too confused
cause nothing ever makes sense
( uncrypted )

Everybody looks at me the wrong way
you tell me what you wanna hear
then text me
i wish that you were here
I spend my life living in fear

everybody looks at me the wrong way

(nocipher was here)
Everything feels like it’s just
Way too much for me
You’ve got your glasses on
But still can’t see

I’ve just been struggling every day
To keep my cool
And I just sit and reminisce about the days

When back in school it was me and you
And now it’s me and me
And now I’m here alone

I'm just wasting time
Maybe I’m gon' find
Some purpose

Drowning in my thoughts
‘Cause I’m still trying to reach the surface

And I cannot breathe again
We could sit and play pretend
We could maybe sit and try
Try to act like we’re both fine

We’re not, and we both know that’s a fact
Move on
And then never turn your back
‘Cause girl, maybe there’s something I lack
‘Cause girl, maybe there’s something I lack
(uncrypted)

I'm just wasting time
Maybe I’m gon' find
Some purpose

Drowning in my thoughts
‘Cause I’m still trying to reach the surface

And I cannot breathe again
We could sit and play pretend
We could maybe sit and try
Try to act like we’re both fine

i'm still lacking something

(totally better than, goth angelz)  

just woke, i'm already mad  
cause  
every little song i wrote  
is way too bad  

you never ever text  
and that makes me sad  
you went and forgot about  
everything we had  

i'm sitting all alone again  
but you tell me we could still be friends  
fuck that, i'd rather kill myself  
i'll take the pills stacked on my shelf  

ooh, ooh, oh  

(Uncrypted) 

i'm sitting all alone again  
but you tell me we could still be friends  
fuck that, i'd rather kill myself  
i'll take the pills stacked on my shelf   
ooh, ooh, oh

Hit Her From The Back

man