guitar by @prodjpjp
prod me
lyrics

im eating her bodyweight no, i know that you hate my face. bro
neck it down w a slice of cake yo, lets hold back from tainting grace, hoe
stomach thin w a feint of shake woah, she grows back but cant stay, loyal

im curious by the way that he touch you
im destroying us by the weight of my bad mood
im enjoying us, everyday is so bad dude
depression getting worse, i cant even leave my home dude
do i deserve this bad, i swear that i want to hold you
ur all i never had, i swear to god that i told you
does he want you back, as much as i do
i guess i like, i guess i like you

im eating her bodyweight, laying down as i deflate
where are you now, as i replay
deep in the ground is my only space
where are you now, i got something to say
i live in hell its the only way
i couldent tell that i need your face
locked in a cell and its called my place
how can you tell that i need a razor;
the trees when i stepback feels like safest place
if i see your guy ima stomp on his face
are you alright im not scared to embrace
whats that from your eye, get those slits of your face

cake

featuring @user-411557229
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
the veins in my skin pop out when i'm warm
i handle a blade and point to my arm
oh she'd be upset if i put it through
i'll put it away but only for u
well this time u won, you proud of yourself
i put us down, no need to be held
i've suffered too long in my mental state
i'm harming myself, does it look like i'm okay
i said u were right
and i'm sorry just know i'm not bright
or the smartest, keep beating my eyes
till they're blue and to where i can't see
now they're swollen, i'm blind in my view
and now everyday feel like i lose
but i'm trying to cope without u
and it's hard oh baby it's hard
so wish me ur luck and ur regards

it drips from my forearm to my shirt
watching the blood fall is the worst
ignore all of your calls cus i've learned
i made it a full year without her
I LISTEN TO NONSENSE ON A BASIS
IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD AND IT'S MY FAVORITE
I KEPT THEM AROUND FOR ENTERTAINMENT
I CHOOSE TO STAY PRIVATE AND FACELESS
DON'T TEXT ME
DON'T CALL ME
I'VE WITNESS AUTOPSY
DON'T COME HOME
I WON'T BE HERE
I LEFT SO IT'S SINCERE
a lots on my mind
like my future and maybe a wife
and i wonder if music's my prize
it's the only thing going for me
been a week since i've gone outside
i'm pathetic it sums up my life
forgot her and god it's about time
and something that i can't help but think
if ur disappointed in me

(residential)
tell me what you find
deep inside her eyes
cause she used to be kind
until she lost her mind

blade in the basement
i'm high but i'm anxious
snapping back the hat when i am next in the rotation
thought i found myself, but i'm in dissociation
love being alone, but i don't fuck with isolation

quarter ounce
pack it up and take me out
you said i’d be better now
but all i got are pills around

where the fuck you’ve been at
you left your nail marks on my back
now i'm going too fast
but i can't help but think about the past
i just smoked what was left in the bag
and i really don't mind if i crash

spotify

pathetic ft. residential

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and melonmusik

lyrics:

leave it down in my heart now
seeing stars in your eyes now
im alive but i cant tell
my life is fading out
stay here in my arms fly away
i look at you in my head to keep away
tomorrow dont come so i say today
i need you and i love you
ima relive it again
again again again
again again again

i slammed their door im scared of it all
ran past a brick wall and threw my phone
it felt alien that place you call home
i was never welcome there
inside the ufo
feels like you had afair
places i wouldent not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this
and says im not having this
and says im not having this

suck me up in the ufo and tell me you wanna go with me
you can feel my cuticles ur face has took a hold of me
pressure on my arm babe you damaged my artery
i might be unusual atleast i got everypart of me

feels like you had afair
places i wouldn't not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this
feels like you had afair
places i wouldent not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this

am i the anomly
or am i common
im not an enemy
im too broken
im too broken
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here

come here, i love you

Lyrics:


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that let's get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg


This is not the same it is not the same
On the drive home I do not feel safe
I'm the one to blame I'm the one to blame
Without you this time I don't feel okay


Baby your my home, can't imagine it with someone else
Eyes are pointing to the floor don't want you to see myself
Are we on a different page or are we on a different shelf
I'll be reading chapters just so I could be with you or else

Driving home now I'm wishing I could stay
Lightning strikes the summer skies hear the city train
Purest words between your lips is keeping me sain
Ill keep you safe around my arms u give me all your pain
Just miss your flight and stay with me I'll give you better days
The weather shifts with waterfalls we're kissing in the rain
If your in doubt you know I'm here just tell me anything
We're out of time you gotta go is this where it will change?


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that lets get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg

heylog - Driving Home & Im Wishing U Could Stay

prod by stezzyxl 
guitar by michael harrison 
enjoy ^\^

lyrics:
she’s like a mystery, a puzzle i can’t solve
i try reach out but she ghostes, and withdraws
she loves to keep it to herself, silent resolve
the more that we don’t talk, the length of it evolves

she invites a side of her, a stranger i don’t know
her words and action are like poison she can’t control 
as her dark side emerges, fear begins to grow
the more I fight, the more she tightens up her hold

maybe someone else needs come and take my place
to whom i once loved to the point i’m losing faith
10 months have passed yet, you remain the same
you turned into the being, that u know i hate

oh
where have u been
no one likes me anymore (x2)

(leave me)

she makes me turn into the person that i don’t wanna be
she ripped my heart out of my chest and layed it so we can feast
her actions says it all she will not change even if she tried
but i’ll still hold on to her even if it makes me die

why would i
go ahead and ruin my life
for someone like yourself
if i didn’t even care for ur health
so tell me 
why would i
try so hard to make this work
if i didn’t even care for ur worth
but u treated me like i’m dirt 
so tell me (x2)

ive done some things that i dont like to say
i’ve been all of the the things that i say that i hate
a cheat, a lie, the smoke in the sky
i don’t want u to see, can u please close ur eyes?
but i have learned from all my mistakes
i will never go back to reside in that place
i have changed for the better and that i can say
i put that on my grave (x2)

back in time ll

produced by: @tnvr555
vocals and lyrics by: me and @heylog

lyrics:
just a sec, i needa bit to catch my breath
i try to hold onto what's left
but it seems that you're leaving again
and i saw your face
you're laughing at the back of the room
you're with someone and i can assume that
you have moved on, so soon
(you have moved on, so soon)

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think i've fallen in too deep

summer's coming round the corner, i can't wait to be warm
the uv's high so we lay some blankets out on the porch
and do you remember what you said to me
our past is something hard to believe
don't go
cause i don't want anybody else
oh no
i really don't want anybody now
i'm edging toward the ground
but that's what happens all the time as soon as life goes on
to you i'm not important
and i hope i'm wrong
without you it's harder to breathe
cause you're not laying next to me

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
(not laying next to me)
and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think I've fallen in too deep

hope every1 has a good day/night xx

jealousy w/ heylog (tnvr)

guitar played by @user-374890447

lyrics:
what do you know about this
what do you know about this
oh what do you know about this
I'm sick of saying that I'm okay

I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone
im sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone

say what u done to me
you open me gave me misery
you blow out the candle as i set it alight
fate wasn't kind to me
your over me were history
into someone else
erases every part of me

I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i prey it don't
i wanna leave but im all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone

anxiety

prod me
no samples used
take care

up in the trees is where i would hang
'till i tumbled down when he told me to stay
back in the bush; cast on my arm
shall i never heal, i'll be happy a pine.
yet i'm full of shit, atone every word
but this is for you, so i'll try not to hurt
choked up every verse though.
you cannot reverse

what a fine young man, i wonder where his head's at
too far gone, now i needa take a step back
all that i want is to live in my notepad
feeding me lyrics for songs 'till my days' last
genuine crave, and i don't wanna change that
mental array in a haze getting whiplash
honest display, but there isn't a playback
trust in the heart of your cards when it fades black

patch on the leg; how the fuck do i move it
i miss your laugh, and with friends, watching movies
oh, i'll try a bit harder to step out my comfort,
but being alone is just way too damn soothing

i cannot bear this weight,
so i'll just eat it up and stomach it
your words they spoke to me,
i'd always wonder what would come of it

you were nervous, well, i'm anxious
but for you, did you know i would fucking get back on my feet,
though, not complaining
seldom i held any care, wouldn't budge, wouldn't speak
years, haven't walked down the street
i took a walk down the street.
bubbling grief
if only you knew what you meant to me, 
god i would hope you had felt what you meant to me

june arrived, i almost felt alive
but then i heard the news and felt the water rise
capsized the thought of letting go of life
but now it's even harder getting sleep at night
what a gentle soul, grown out the mold
with the sky his home, and for the earth, a stone
beyond the ozone; inside the mind
what an ethereal one, and of a joyous kind.

suck in the rain, spit out the clouds
our synergy now resides in the ground

yeah i know the rain is real important when it's pouring down the evergreens
thought about you often, so i hope that you remembered me
'cause you took your leave
autumn and sleep
we ran our shit up until '23
growing the seeds; sowing their seams
if i make it out of this, hoping you see, yeah.

sycamore

A Dark Industrial/Darksynth Album Inspired by Goblin Slayer

11. More Than Hatred

the beat was produced by @lindenpearce @nevrfall

lyrics:
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘺, 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦, 𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯, 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘶
𝘥𝘰 𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯? 𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘪 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘶

light blonde hair hangs over your eyes
i dont wanna waste all ur time
am i wrong, i think im right
on the search for duds just to light it one more time

eyeliner covering your eyes
i get nervous wasting your time
am i wrong or am i right
tell her to leave so u can stay for the whole night
on the balcony, im afraid of heights
standing next to u, made my fear shy
is it just me or does this feel right
out here in the cold,
could be here for the whole night

im waitin for you
im bad at the first move
im breaking for you
im sad now, its not new
not afraid of death bitch im burning in both eyes
when she look at me i lose track of mind
if i give u my heart, will u hold it tight?
and if u gimme yours, i promise ill treat it right
i get nervous on what i could say to u
i dont want u to leave so damn soon
i would spare my time just for u
and if this could be it, id take a bullet for u

im sorry u had to go, ill see u in a week or so
i put u in my phone but im nervous to hit u up
now that youre here, im shy gotta cover up
im a nervous wreck, but thats because when ur
eyeliner covering your eyes
i get nervous wasting your time
am i wrong or am i right
tell her to leave so u can stay for the whole night
on the balcony, im afraid of heights
standing next to u, made my fear shy
is it just me or does this feel right
out here in the cold,
could be here for the whole night

im wastin your time
im sorry, ill shut my mind

𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺
𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘥𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦

nervous (p. linden & nevrfall)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
its nice to see your face 
how u been today
oh she said im great
oh shes goin great
yeah im good i guess
but i lied abt that
im losing all my friends
im losing what i have

i love u mom and dad
youre the only ones here left
oh mom and dad
u are all i have
ive lost all my friends
im ready for whats next
dont u see im a mess
idk who i am

recently i been so alone
even when im out of my home
dead end dont know where to go
ill jump im getting pretty close
so close
so close
i havent seen u in awhile
and im teaching me how to smile
whats new with u got a guy
time to leave and say my goodbyes

i love u mom and dad
youre the only ones here left
oh mom and dad
u are all i have
ive lost all my friends
im ready for whats next
dont u see mom and dad
idk who i am

and all the things that u said to me
i thought u really meant it
but i guess u were bluffing

back in time ll

Stezzyxl