Alternative II - part 15

This song came much later in my life, during the 2000s when I was part of a car club called "Silent Rage." The name of the club inspired the song, but the lyrics tapped into something much deeper - that feeling of controlled fury that builds up inside when life keeps pushing you around.

By this time, my songwriting had evolved significantly from those teenage heartbreak ballads of the mid-80s. "Silent Rage" is darker, more aggressive, with a heavy metal edge that reflects both my musical growth and a different kind of emotional landscape. Where my high school songs were about romantic betrayal, this was about life's broader frustrations - the kind of anger that simmers beneath the surface until it explodes.

The imagery in this song is much more intense: "A beast that's longing to explore," "A hurricane beneath the skin." I was writing about that moment when composure finally cracks, when you can't maintain the calm facade anymore. The repetitive chorus builds like the pressure it describes, and I specifically wrote in stage directions like "[Scorching Guitar Solo]" because I could hear exactly how this should sound - raw, aggressive, unrelenting.

The bridge represents that breaking point: "Erupting now, can't hold it back / The world around fades to black." It's about complete loss of control, which was a more mature theme than I could have tackled as a teenager.

What's interesting is how the car club connection influenced the whole vibe. We were all about power, speed, and that controlled aggression you need behind the wheel. The song became an anthem for that energy.

Decades later, with AI technology, I was finally able to hear "Silent Rage" with the heavy, driving sound I always envisioned. The contrast between this and my earlier, softer songs shows how both my life experiences and musical tastes had evolved, but the core need to express raw emotion through lyrics remained constant.

Silent Rage

April's Song

It’s just in my head
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It’s just in my head, don’t try to break in,
I’m floating alone where the quiet begins.
Colors and sounds, spinning through my mind,
A little lost, a little free, leave the world behind.

It’s just in my head,

It’s just in my head,


It’s just in my head,

I’m okay, I’m away, in my own space,
Keep your distance, don’t invade this place.

Stay away from me, I’m just in the vibe,
Drifting through thoughts where I come alive.
No need for noise, no need for fight,
I’m okay, I’m away, I’m feeling right.

It’s just in my head,

It’s just in my head,


It’s just in my head,
Lights flicker soft, echoes in my head,
Dancing with shadows, nothing to dread.
The world can wait, I’ve got my own flow,
In this bubble, I move slow.

I’m okay, I’m away, in my own space,
Keep your distance, don’t invade this place.

Stay away from me, I’m just in the vibe,
Drifting through thoughts where I come alive.
No need for noise, no need for fight,
I’m okay, I’m away, I’m feeling right.
It’s just in my head,

It’s just in my head,


It’s just in my head,

Let me drift, let me spin, let me fade,
I don’t need you to invade this parade.
In my head, I’m free, I’m alive,
Just riding the waves, just in the vibe.

Stay away from me, I’m just in the vibe,
Drifting through thoughts where I come alive.
No need for noise, no need for fight,
I’m okay, I’m away, I’m feeling right.

It’s just in my head,

It’s just in my head,


It’s just in my head,

It’s just in my head,

It’s just in my head,


It’s just in my head,

PB2025


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