a chronological playlist of songs released (or re-released) under the ethel cain moniker. order is based on the date each song was released/shared (i.e. not when they were recorded) so some demos appear after their corresponding finished track. i had to guess at some – i did my best!

cover photo is a shot from the june 22, 2024 show at the greek via @/artziety on instagram

(edit aug. 2024 – added tommy/miss anhedonia tracks. most are mislabelled)

(sitting at 178 tracks as of 7/10/25)

chronological ms. cain

Sunday Morning - ethel cain

Casings - ethel cain

Golden Age - ethel cain

Selby Wall - ethel cain

Famous Last Words (An Ode to Eaters)

Golden Age

Sunday Morning (Demo) - Ethel Cain

An edited version of the Dog Days remaster Hayden played during one of her livestreams (09/22/21). I tried removing the munching and clacking sounds from Hayden eating in the background to the best of my admitedly very limited ability.

All music produced, written and owned by Hayden Anhedönia.

Ethel Cain - Dog Days (Remastered - Demo)

Growing Pains - Ethel Cain

ethel cain - dog days

ethel cain - misuse oh

ethel cain - antlers

Ethel Cain - Skinheads (Demo)

lyrics:

You spent your whole life trying to be tough
Cause your parents married pain to love
But you go all white at the sight of blood
And Jesus knows that you've seen enough
Something happened back when you were young
It kills you but you won't tell me what it was
Sleeping on the floor in your grandma's room
Too tired to cry, too weak to even move
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
25 and you're still crying in your sleep
Scared the world is out to get you
And you've tried every bottle but you're in too deep
Cause you don't know any better, how could you?
And the fear is there when we're in your bed
And I start to cry and you think it's something you did
But baby I'm alright
I'm alright
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
Last night I dreamed that you had gone away
Woke up in tears and stayed in bed all day
And I'm terrified that I'll lose everyone I have
That I'll watch them leave and wait but they won't come back
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself

bruises ♡ ethel cain

(literally no idea what happened to the first 1 so reupload)

Last night I blew you a kiss, I hope that you got it
Underneath you I told you a lie, I hope that you bought it
Strangers touch me in my dreams if I go to bed sober
When the edge of the curtains turn white I'll know that it's over

And you see things for what they are
And I see what they'll never be
And God can make mistakes like he made an example of me
And who could really love someone who's that fucking ugly?

Leaving his cum in the upholstery, always picking it out like a bad memory
They all say that it's fine 'cause they don't know the cycle like I do
You don't know what it's like tryna love while you heal and you don't get to preach if you don't know how it feels to have every last inch of your body invaded like I do
Woke up a saint, fell asleep a martyr
Would you do the same things to your own daughter?
Still I tried saying "I love you" through a mouthful of dirt
Keep parts of dead things in the freezer outside wondering if they suffered when they were alive
Does God make delicate things just to watch them get hurt?

And you see things for what they are
And I see what they'll never be
God can make mistakes like he made an example of me
And who could really love someone who's that fucking ugly?

That gold cross swings only for me
In Jesus's name it kills me slowly
That gold cross swings only for me
In Jesus's name it kills me slowly

Gold Cross | Ethel Cain

Ethel Cain - The God

is it not fun?

(pfp is a shot by laura makabresku)

ethel cain - antlers

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