3 butterflies.
7/10/24
I started at the very beginning 
of knowing who I was 
And at the very ends 
Of knowing why

SIGNET RING.

7/10/2024
This EP I was passionately involved in doing things by myself. 
Deeply engrossed with the love within myself 
Deeply engrossed in sending a deep message
I would view this album as interpreting the moss as it grew around my reclusive atmosphere, and the preparation to break from it. 
A peculiar dream with Jahseh holds a lot of pressure to this EP 
As time has come where I have physically outgrown the body

I BOUGHT CLOTHES

7/10/24
I had a dream about yelling at Travis Scott because I wasn't signed to his label but I mean this is an alternative rock album.

Album represents the impulsive response to being dumped by nothing at all 
Album represents the impulsive response to falling in a love you've never heard of before

WHY AM I NOT SIGNED TO CACTUS JACK RECORDS

(The Orchid Project)

WILL YOU BE SAVED//UNCLE DIRKS CANE

prod.lettersick

She passed my way
In a working desolation
I heard her say
Try to be happy when you come my way
I found it bothersome
Hand to hand she would offer some medicine
Understand that I couldn’t take mouth to mouth
I smiled at her sarcastically
Asking the wrath of rhapsody
Contrasting your every sin
Would you mind if I washed it down
She said that she didn’t care
Guess her commitment was fair
I started washing her feet but the romance was never there
It was silent with no deceit i ascended upon the stairs
The judge would send up the sentence of death as I only stared
At your eyes
I said it was fine
You give demonstration
I won’t waste your time
I don’t feel alive
Was wondering
I was wondering
No entertainment
Reply’s are so cumbersome
Mind off your cake then your waist then your face

Catch a trace of your energy
I won’t forsake
Goodness sakes
This is new but you’re cute with your ways
You say what
Let the words all replay
It’s alright
You don’t like me
It’s fine
Love is dead anyways
Inside
I’m fighting
To find
Someone to hide away
She’s just a girl
And I’m making it worse

Diamonds and pearls
But I’m sticks for the stones

She took a bite of my soul
Sunk her teeth in with no permission
She’s chewing it with her ears and appears to her said decision
Incurs that this isn’t flattering
Insist that it doesn’t matter
Cause everything that I write I just hate it the second after
Foresaw that all my fingers were fallen upon a platter
They’re serving a certain mercy and working placid pattern
Its patently past tense take offense at amends a rainbow sent to repent
And the touches upon my chest is a finger you gave for lent
Heaven bent all up every curl
You remind me of my disaster she’s heaven sent
Since heaven we never met
And she can hug me in hell
There’s a way I can tell that it’s over here

LADY DESOLATION

fade (demo)

this track was extremely difficult to produce properly

LYRICS:

Living in a different day 

What’s the song you’re gonna play 

Call the shadows 

Let me hope 

Many years 

On haven road 

And I could look forever 

And take Gods story in 

I pray we’ll be together 

You have my heart to give 

Father you forgive me 

The day I crossed the line 

Leave my phantom living 

And hold them in my eyes 

Oooh I remember what you say 

Oooohhh

Anything to make you stay 


Please give me time 

I needed to trust you 

I need to get right 

You need me to come to 

You want me alive 

Who do I run to

When I choke on the lights 



Smile in my dreams 

Feel what you think 

Out of my mind for you 

I drew a door in my room 

And set out of view 

To see if this all was true 

Has it clouded you 

The hearts in your pocket 


Feeling unreal 

Pray these voices are decrypt 

Pray these people find me interesting 

Love is fatal 

Are you listening 


Everybody had their say 
As I mirror their spirit 
Enter my mind all day 
Sound of your voice 
I got it 
Thoughts when your making a choice 
I have it 

No point in staking the farce like I’m dreaming 
Devils subjecting me harsh without meaning 
Deny it admit that you’re out of your mind 
But you’re totally calm 
rather detached with life 

Admit it 
Embody the visions 
That veil this religion 
and feed two positions of sanity 
Everyone puts on a show 
The purest devotion 
Hella inspiring 
As I wash my head 
In that river 
To realize I’m tainted 
with clarity 
Illicit by all of the means of this world
To indulge in the God who’s aware of me 

Do with me as you want 
As you turn haven road 
Just please don’t leave me all alone 

Jesus i wait for you
I Remember you came 
You took the weight of all my fears 
And told me it’s ok 

You held me way up here

Look to the driver to make your world sane 
Your god is a writer 
And he wrote your name 
Spoke of the chosen at birth you're delivered 
By quivers 
The feathers had murdered the mane 
Section of hell is reserved with the blame 
Lord am I falling or flying away 
Removing the limits of what I believe in 
Just if it’s ripe 
Just if I’m needed 

There is life in the meaning of GOD
You told me my vice is fiendish
John 15 
You are the vine 
Permanent Grace 
Oh Jesus divine 

You are in me 
And I’ll be in you 
Asking him anything 
Ask for the truth 
Show me the way to get closer to you
I’ll search for your voice 
Cause he knows what to do

ｈａｖｅｎ rｄ．

stay in the faith


LYRICS:

Lord I’m so thankful 
For my life 
I pray they heal 
I pray they fly 
Oh up above your kingdom come 
Place your faith in Jesus Christ 
So much hate on my mistakes 
I know they hate to see you saved 
Just know it makes me feel ok 
I know God loves you 
and you’re safe 

you’re telling me to run back home 
The tales I’ve told 
Your purpose for me 

You told me that I’m not alone 
So I just saw you 
And beheld your glory 
But something in my mind let go 
And my eyes looked down 
Would you go before me 
I could never reach that high 
But you love that I try 
Though I sinned that morning 

I’ll be in good hands 
I’ll be in good hands 
Hold me in your hands, God 
Hold me in your hands 

Dare you defy the word of his grace 
Snow on the lie 
You’re the one that I chase 
So help me turn away 

Give up your spirit to me 
And ill give you peace 
The kind that you wouldn’t believe 
All of my doubt will decease 
Your body a piece
Of what’s gonna leave with me 
Weighing a heavier soul 
Of your total control 
And telling me nobody knows 
The Meaning of substance 
Meaning of sub below 
The meaning of stance 
Is stand 
To understand the substance 
Of God 
Is simply contraband 
The world that I reside 
You can’t define 
And yet you reprimand me 

Gods the butterflies the birds the sky 
The eye of sovereignty 

Unblemished 
by the human mind that harbors me 

I don’t know what you saw in me 
the presence in my arteries 
Is tethered to the roots beneath this world 
That weep so honestly 
It’s probably a part of me 
Jesus in my insides 
Spirit hit your daughter 
I’ll be martyred just in this life 
Devil catch hitch hike 
Your father breathes in 
All my lines 
My heart stay pierced 
Like Ishmael 
Arrows hit the pharaoh
Of this world 
I’ll give him his mile 
Moses gave us 
His file  
Dreams that bleed 
Us gentiles 


We can do this, Yahweh 
Lord it’s all your time 
I’m sure you heard this all before 
And I will love you always 
Won’t you save your smile 
For when this ride has run full course

I left a segment here for months💀

"IN A PIT WITH A LION ON A SNOWY DAY"

sore throat today 
prod.realracky

PARDON MY SON 
HES A BASTARD 
A LAMB WHO CAN SEE BOTH SIDES 
YET THE COIN SAYS HEADS 
SO HE DIES 
AS THEY TRY TO OMIT HIS LIFE 
BUT ITS ALWAYS MINE 
LED TO THE EDGE OF A KNIFE 
SAID IT FELT SO REAL 
DID THE PAIN FEEL NICE
NO 
I RECKON IM A SACRIFICE 
WELL YOUR RIGHT THIS TIME 

SO GO SIT WITH YOUR SAVIOR 
IN THE WAY THAT YOU OUGHT TO BE SAVED 
THOSE WOMAN GAVE BIRTH 
TO YOUR CHILDREN 
MY LOVE FROM THE 
SECOND DIMENSIONS 
FLESH IN MY WORDS 
AS THEY’RE MENTIONED
AS I WRITHE IN MY OWN DISGUST 
CONCUSSED I BLED 
EVERY BAD WORD
AS MY LUST FOR YOUR LOVE WENT DEAD 
NOW WHENEVER I REST 
A DISASTER 
ONLY EAT WHEN IM FED REGRET 
DID I MAKE YOU STUMBLE 
I APOLOGIZE 
SUN ONLY SHINES DOWN 
ON THE SINNERS SIDE 
LORD I DIDN’T REACH OUT 
I WAS TOO ASHAMED 
BUT YOU GAVE TO ME 
ALL THE ONES 
WHO GO ASTRAY 
WHY DID I MY MOUTH SHUT
WHEN THEY WANT A NAME 
FOR THE CERTAIN WORDS 
OVERHEARD 
WHEN YOU’RE IN THE RAIN 

COLLARBONES AND CARCASSES 
MY SKIN IS STILL A NARCISSISTS 
SUBMISSIVE TO THE WRATH OF GOD 
EXPOSING ME AS OPPOSITE 
PETALS BY THE PIT
AS SHE CATERS TO THE STEM 
SATAN POUNCE UPON MY RIBS 
TILL MY THROAT IS FILLED WITH FLEM 
HOLY FATHER I AM SICK 
SPIT 
RIGHT INTO MY EYES  
GET THE MENTAL FROM THE MUD 
WILL YOU TAKE ME 
AS YOUR LIFE 

Ooohhh 

Come all ye 
Come ye weary 
Faith over all your fearing 
I love it when your near me 
Love still when disappearing 

“I DIDNT CHOOSE MY FIRST GENEISS 
BUT I CHOSE MY SECOND ONE” 

“YOU DARE DEFY MY GRACE AND ANNOINTING? “Your kingdom come” 
“Noah”

FATHER, YOUR THERAPIST RAN AWAY

Lay your stakes into my hands
Must I taste your love again 
I consumed you 

Ugly 
On my own 
Hoping you’d be one 
With me 

City never saved 
Pour their dust 
On my gravestone 

Water in my wounds 
Double body bloody mercy 
Father in the room
Broke that body like a Hershey 

Heresy
(Heresy) 
(Heresy)
(Heresy) 
(Heresy)

Angels in their hearts 
Don’t give them carelessly 
Hidden in a basket 
Know I love you very terribly 
Wickedness 
Leave me dirty poor 
I want no wit in this 
Defile 
Your form 
The guilt
Insufferable 
I yearn 
For more 
The thrill 
Untouchable 
Succeed 
In vain 
Exceed 
Your fallacies 
Weep 
For glory 
And bleed 
Morality 

I’m sad 
I’m sad 
I’m sad 
All this money 
Is a mask 
A mask 
A mask 
As I come before 
The rain 
The rain 
The rain 
I will never lose my name 
My name 
My name x2

Provident faith 
How murderous 
Fall on your face 
I’m courteous 

Give me the first of the secondly death 

Give up the chosen 

Merc the rest 

Spare me a woman 

Let her be blessed 

Let them inherit a holy revenge

holy revenge

What you mean that you don’t want to 
I could take you there 
told me you’re not coming 
You don’t wanna hold my hand 
I won’t leave without you 
Let you be the only one 
Said don’t ever let them doubt you 
You don’t owe me nothing 
I want your love 
I want your heart 
I’ll be your only eyes 
Even if I fall apart 
I want you in my life 
Break my faith  
I loved you harder 
Let you know I die 
Find your catch in holy waters 
I can make you fly
Spread your wings 
Let heaven open 
As I give you sight 
Don’t be scared 
Of what your made of 
Let you know it’s right 
Gave you grace 
For how you say 
The way I made you mine 

Falling in God 
Never know where it’s going 
Waving your hands 
For the one that you're holding 
I wouldn’t dance 
With the darkness below me 
I understand 
You won’t let it control me 

I don’t fold hands 
But I pray all day 
Only need a little bit of faith you say 
Stuck in my ways 
Love in my ways 
Wanna just race 
Run to my place 
Oh you see the way they hate on me 
They just wanna stay away from me 
You remember I’ll be up-coming that’s on 
Jah 
Born to know the rest 
In paradise 
I call it Lockjaw

ANGELS ARE WATCHING

RIVERA

As I fall right in each time 
I see mercy in your eyes 
unafraid to show what’s wrong 
Your hands so pure 
I won’t go on

Go look for clothes 
I have a blue denim jacket
for you 

Is it cruel if I 
Teach to you 

Oooo never know 
When it’s here 
But it happened I 

Bloody tear for the Adonai 

Take shots like they’re photos 

I remember everyday I lost 

Run a nice fade but it’s loco 

Father gave me metal 

and the flame don’t rust 

Down on my knees 

I don’t love enough 

Begging you please 

Could you pick it up 

5 missed calls 

For my own 4 

Only you know 

How it goes like 

Gotta put in hard work 
For the right one 
Give me your grace 
Angel money 
Do you see your prey 
Hiding in the ground 
Ever seen a bird 
kill a dragon 
I was in the room 
When it happened 
Mind was filled with awe don’t imagine 
God. made it real 
Now put it in action 1 2 3 4 5 
Drawing you closer 
My satisfaction 
This isn’t over 
Lord it never happened 
Jesus in the sky 
Sadden my horizon 
You let the graves down 
Very hypnotizing 
You sent a saint down 
In our very eyelids 

God in the womb 
I was mother borne 
Daddy doesn’t wanna see his sons x2

As I fall right in each time 
I see mercy in your eyes 
unafraid to show what’s wrong 
Your hands so pure 
I won’t go on

Go look for clothes 
I have a blue denim jacket
for you 

Is it cruel if I 
Teach to you 

Oooo never know 
When it’s here 
But it happened I 

Bloody tear for the Adonai 

YOU 
I 
FLY 
AWAY


—

denim jacket

[prod.ginseng]

Leave her in my head 
I place my feelings on the altar 
Let me burn up 
Let me love you 
Chasing after heartbreak 
Never words of affirmation 
I can die young 
I could lose you 
Tripping on the thought of you  
the last I was so happy 
Watch it all go 
Never any use 
Following my reapers 
Just to reach a destination 
It will find me 
If I’m meant for it 

Scent of my flesh 
Makes you smile when I reach for you 
Pour out my blood 
all in front of your porch 

I see ropes in the spirits
God let me come proper 
I hang on my neck 
I’m so blessed 
Girl I’m fodder 
Like Jesus 
Come Jesus me 
Let me lose everything 
Let all their faces writhe up 
When they mention my name 
Cut off the small talk 
I just want your pain

spiritworld (part 2) i want your pain [prod.ginseng]

[prod.tuzakci]
<3

Oh what a fool 
What a fool 
What a fool I was 
Thinking I could be the one 
But I found out 
Hey 
I was never better 
When I let it all go 
Step in my room 
You got dark now 

I don’t know why it rocks 
Baby I just wanna talk 
But I don’t know what I want
Till I give you up to God 

Follow over here 
Shawty why’d you disappear 
Issa 
offering of kindness 
Girl I hope you really like this 

You don’t wanna age 
You don’t wanna go away 
I pray you never stress 
When my heart is all a mess 

Follow over here 
Shawty why’d you disappear 
Money makes me look for you 
The blood is all I fear 

When I dropped dead 
God said 
Let thy body walk in 
Ice all on my old man 

Father killed my old clan 
Never were they fit 
For cynical in sovereignty

Caliber the 40 grip 
Paper let my blade talk  

Mirror on my stomach guts 
Posses blood
Trap my trust 

Girl this light is way too long 
Devil underneath my thumb 
Think you need a lower standard 
Call my mommy like you slander 
Diamonds on me co-commander 
Jesus pieces in his manor 

If she come 
Bet she won’t leave me 
Gave me three tats 
On the east peak 

Shinigami sinner 
I’m a repeat 

Jesus in the liver 
Call it deep seed 

Organ donor 
Had to give it over 

Know you need me 
Show me how you own her 

Already bred an eevee 
Many years sober 

Heaven lingo 
I got wingers on the shoulder

AYO! WHERE MY DAY ONES AT???? [prod.tuzakci]

I felt like I was walking through a forest in the pitch black 

When the day was only the colors of the night 

And I thought to myself after a while 

That perhaps all these songs I write 

Are simply marking trees 

Passing them by 

And recognizing them 

It’s a horror story really

Maybe a psychological thriller

Because the torture is so sublime 

And harmonious 


Little bit of you 
With a little bit of her 
Why did you smile at me first 
Really I thought I could figure you out 
If you gave me your time 
But your fires burnt out 

I’m telling you I’m needing you around me
I need you here when everybody’s doubting
All up in your energy I’m drowning 
wrist work
let em stand up  

Got a couple million dollar ideas 
All our ears just like the shape of bullet holes 
Said your girl was forcing my tears 
Fam id take her soul over a 100 hoes 

Baby you don’t gotta see it 
Girl you gotta be there 
Everybody’s dreaming 
There’s no air 
No air 
To breathe in

Heaven knows the way you’d die for me 
Let me be the man I wanna be 
I could take you and I’d make you holy 
I could love you how you want to be 

He’s the devil in your sleep 
Demonslayer in the dark 
I could make Judas a movie 
Puppet strings all in my heart 
Pour your perfume in a glass vase 
Drank it all down 
Near the ash tray 
Smoking till I saw life halfway 
I just wanna hang out
Get some ice cream 


You gave me heartbreak 
And I gave my heart to give 
You said there’s no way 
That we could let it live 


So nice 
God it feels so nice 
To feel a body 
In the bottom of the night 
To know you want me 
Six slave 
Type of vibes 
I want my love 
Hidden in your blood of life 

Fiddle with your neck just like a Bible 
Ion read alot 
But I can get all deep up in this message 
Pressure up like knots 
You don’t need to know my true intentions 
Just stay on the phone 
Staring through your eyes 
Is heavens reverence 
Angels on low 

Fasting all my love 
I wasn’t allowed 
to love a victim 
Till the chains all on my neck 
Could break a heart and be my witness 
Hurt me till a woman ain’t a feeling
But a concept 
Lurking in my city but he say I’m talking nonsense 
All the haters vamp 
Leaky faucet 
And no options 
see Bikinis in the dam 
All made of man 
Just like a coffin 

Everywhere that we go 
I got ego like a metal horse 
Attached to no attachment 
It so happens 
I just want it more 

They gon take their chances 
Like I offered 
And I’ll let you go 
If you figure out then you won’t want her 
You’ll just want my soul 
play your music loud 
Like I’m your artist 
Show me how you move 
Jewelry from palooza 
She exotic 
Got her from the moon 

So nice 
God it feels so nice 
To feel a body 
In the bottom of the night 
To know you want me 
Six slave 
Type of vibes 
I want my love 
Hidden in your blood of life 

I don’t wanna lose you 
Devil so lonely 

Shock collar got it Bluetooth 
God is gonna use you

IT FEELS SO NICE [REMASTERED]

Prod.Grayskies 


Stay 
Away 

Really it’s fine we got so far 
In the back of my mind 
It’s who you are 

Petrichor 
Lost your powers 

I’ll give everything I have to you 
I’m broken and I needed your excuse
To move along 
But lost of all sensation in my legs 
I watched you disappear
You let me drink my tears  

You peak through the hallway 
Catching wall bangs 
You lost some of your friends 
But you got me 
Hung up on what I don’t know 
What I won’t know 
Don’t change 
Feed on my pain 
In the lonely 


Feel the real 
Baby I’ll give you all I have 
Give it until the world looks back 
Faith reveals 
Darling our in rose is in our past 
How am I supposed to give you back 

Petrichor 
Lost,
Your powers

PETRICHOR...

(prod.grayskies)

Me 
what about me 
I’m sure he’s used to attention 
I’m sucking my teeth 
Cause he figures you out 
Yeah he pulls you right in 
So I don’t need to talk right now 
Just wanna talk to him 

Careful hands 
And he works with angels 
Confidence makes my tongue just tangle 
Never mind that I ask good questions 
Your advice is my best intentions 

I pretended to trust him 
Baby 
Now I watch as you touch him 
Lazy 
Clean the tracks 
Of combustion 
Save me 
Can’t relax 
Cause we rushed it 
Hate me 

You don’t have to chose 
Long as I can 
Make my wages 

Save your tears 
It’s fine that we’re chilling outside 
But I wanna get real
And it’s been hard to change the act 
But baby let’s heal 
Ever since you heard of the glory 
I just wanna make it my deal

WHT ABT ME?

I couldn’t see 
All of the faces
Worn on the sleeves
Moving the shadow
And I’ll be complete 
In the blink of my eyelids 
Down on my knees 
Burning Apollo 

Why is your love so perfect 
How 
I know I don’t deserve it Now 

I think I met the devil
And God at once 
When the flower loses petals 
Now I’ve begun 
This was never even over 
Let one decide 
If we can make it to October 
Just once 
This time 

Why is your love so perfect 
How 

Cuz I learned 
The martyr 
The new dance 
The step touch 

It felt like 
a slaughter  
The retro 
The blue lungs 

The time that I’ve wasted 
The sitzprobe 
Is naked 
And I entertained it 
I sat there and waited

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—

Nonetheless it was the experience of movement guided by the seemingly sporadic movements of the life given to creatures 

That let me experience this 
So I began to cherish the place that let me do this 
So I said in my mind:
“This place is blessed” 
and was left without a guide 
When the simple decision arose 
to cross the street 
or go back around the bridge 
and I opted out of pouring too much meaning in the path of the walk 
As I’d feel comfortable to walk back the way I came 
Then wander about the street
where others could perceive me in my public silences 
As I turned to go up the bridge and climb up the ramp 
I saw the man from the 7-11 talking loudly on the phone, who upon seeing me immediately took a swift greeting.
I remember thinking about him. 
“god bless you” I said 
With the most earnest intention possible 
and I began to spiral on the merit of Gods spirit 
Resting on one soul 
Over the million 
For the million 
and unto God 
I felt like those 3 words transferred 
all the chaos I was previously experiencing 
into a spiritual grace for him 
I will never know if I’m romanticizing it 
Or actualizing it 
But I walked the peaks of my ego again 
thinking of my intention with that field of lambs 
green pasture 
and staff in my hands 
and God told me sternly 
“Don’t look back” 
and I didn’t want to think of anything else but listening 
Until I crossed that bridge again.
At two times 
On both descents 
I thought of my partner
recalling 
how much she’s done for me mentally to find my balance 
and the peculiarity’s of how she loves me 
her motives when she moves toward 
and away from me
her voice is very very clear in my head
always placed somewhere differently than mine 
harmonious 
or dissonant 
But for the sake of us 
I always want to keep the chord together 
But as she exists with me in the present 
There is no solitude of “plan” 
Only understanding of commitment 
and on this behalf I ponder affectionately 
To her relation with God 
and her part of me
At the end of the walk 
With a sense of calm and clarity 
I saw a black butterfly 
I knew not whether I should take it as is 
Or ask myself if there was a way I could’ve made it 
Orange 
Or Yellow 
But questioning that of itself 
Surely must be taboo 
It is the existence 
It is the fragment 
Endowed to myself as a human being

demo #01

the roots 

In your ears 
In your eyes 
You know she’s nothing like you 
But its still 
Caught on to everything 
The colors on your screen 
It really isn’t me 
I’m conscious of what you have 
But I couldn’t get your woes to grab a thought of you 
That saw us upside down 
I know you wanted privacy 
I know you wanted privacy 
Don’t blame it on the clay 
This place is not the ground 
The scenery appeals to be my priest 
Oh God that’s what it’s all about 
A kiss would kill the silence 
Do you feel the need to time it 

Belladonnas
Ooo it’s lovely in the lost causes 
Praying for you but I don’t promise 
12:25 
And none the wiser 
Got no Rollie 
Lord I pray there’s still questions for me 
To answer 

Run with my precious love 
Girl I warned you 
They’ll tear me up 
Seems that I blew the fuse 
I Told Taylor we’re 22 

I’m conscious of what you have 
But I couldn’t get your woes to grab a thought of you 
That saw us upside down 
I know you wanted privacy 
I know you wanted privacy 
Don’t blame it on the clay 
This place is not the ground 
The scenery appeals to be my priest 
Oh God that’s what it’s all about 

Belladonnas 
Got you sick doing what you wanna 
Kill anxiety I came to raise the karma 
Read the kings song 
Hear you hear you holler 
When the beats off 
I go Harry Potter 
I came with no images 
God got me into this 
She used to write on the wall 
But baby you finally admitted it 
I’m in your syndicate 
Be in your city tomorrow

belladonnas (vocal demo)

Save a place for me 
Rip me out my body 
The horned one 
Answered you love 
And I was not myself 

If I die on my own 
Might as well let go 
It’s you I love
And My heart stopped beating 
Aim it steady 
So you’ll never leave 

Everyday dies for the melody 
Why would I worry 
Only saved you once 
Let you hang up 
It’s you I love
And My heart stopped beating 
Aim it steady 
So you’ll never leave 

Be my sheep I know your voice 
No one breathed 
my soul is void 
Blood and mantra 
What you told me 
Grave is wealthy 
Sex so holy 
I love no one 
Loved you only 
Something happens 
Something happens 

Everyday dies for the melody 
Why would I worry 
Only saved you once 
Let you hang up 
I find money out of bounds 
And God can only love me now

B.A.M (interlude)

made wave trap with vocals the first time 
ruined the genre 
The second time though 
We’re so back

Every day dies for the melody 
Why would I worry only saved you once 
Let you hang up 
I find money out of bounds 
Only God can love me now 

Maybe the suns gone loose 
Cause you don’t shine the same 
It appears I don’t remember 
How to fly away from pain 
But I Loved you like a word 
So Let your lips burn 
Into something for real 
Oooh 

Sick of feeling like I’m used 
Ripped apart abused
All Im wanting is you 
To know me once 
Oooo baby tell me the truth 
On my body 
I gotta take you for life 
Girl don’t kill me off with nobody

oh don’t fear of your memory 
Just remember right now 
Or we’ll never be 

I was going numb 
Drink wine from the vein 
Pissed
Life just wasn’t going my way 
Kiss
Every foot is stomping my face  
Hiss 
At me on the Ballad of the Saint 
Get the gist 
Many angels doing cocaine 
For the sheep 
In the cyst 
Calling many souls quits 
I’ve been full of good times 
in this shitty false bliss 
But it all got twisted

BALLAD OF THE SAINT.

Ahhhhhh FUCK 
Everytime I stand up 
somebody is there 
that makes me wanna sit back down 
I wanted to ride that hoe to glory
like substance abuse 
But moreso I wanted somebody
 to experience God with 
The minute they punched my ticket 
I thought I was out of there 
I didn’t mind being an industry plant 
But my landlord was on some Mr.Miyagi shit 
Truth is I wasn’t gonna give up music to please people 
But I really wish I did 

Meanings were meaningless 
Promise that you’ll find nirvana in Georgia 
Slaving away at the tedious 
What a sick joke 
How you gonna judge a nigga slit throat 
Roach on my collar 
The floor overhead 
I barely could pay for the basement 
Righteous or hellish 
I dose on the meds 
And never woke up to amazement 

Told me I ain’t ever said you wasn’t good enough 
But really even in they dreams they see you breathe and you’ll be fucking up 
Heaven raises good men
But I can see the dirt clean 
God had gave me angel wings 
Come rip it off em 
Can’t believe it 

Someone wanna see me locked out 
Wanna play it off but I can see your heart now 
You gon put you first 
I came in like a curse 
Saw you unfold 
X2 
It sounded… something like… 
Sounded something like that…
Sounded some thing like… 
Sounded something like that…
Sounded some thing like… 

Hanging in the day to day 
And you was getting sick of it 
Filled you like a crème brûlée 
A poetry’s a synonym 
For all the bullshit the top was feeding me 
From their machinery 
I need to be 
Alive to see it free 
Or I won’t need to breathe in 
the oxygen 
You share with all carcasses 
Bitch I will be marvelous 
If Jesus needs his arms to piss 
Jesus needs some bars to spit 
Now I’m just an arsonist
Strayed a sure approximate 
Jaded out to artemis 
Locate in the firmament 
It Came from God I’m sure of it 
Rob of my obstacles 
When Tommy wants a popsicle 
Sister getting shot but ain’t no leprechauns 
Or pots of gold 
Except the pot im pissing in 
Cuz niggas never listening

SPIKED CUP #615 (PROD.ANDRE LOR)

Hate me 
Face me 
Let me be who you was 
Sleeping at the house party 
Tryna murder me 
Tryna murder me 
Chasing 
Chase me 
Now my body don’t move 
Like it used to 
But you Blame me it’s you too 
You won’t find a legend in these dim lights 
Can’t imagine it’s a him lifestyle 
Look around see how it feels like 
The Documentaries and Midnight files 
Everything I put heart into 
Acting like I wasn’t talking to you 
And even though the blood is red it’s blue 
Wish I made you call the feds so true 
I’ll only love if the love liable 
If I was in would you take the Bible 
Know that audacity makes you spiral 
A Kid went to heaven but where did I go
X3
Im still a limmerent psycho 
God plays his games I still want it 
Girl I don’t know what you got in me 
Just cause I’m not how you wanted 
That’s not what it means to forgive me 

See my shadow in a cold sweat 
Taking hold of me like a leather jacket 
Imagination in them cold texts 
Thinking I might be the one to make it happen 
Put my blood on the projects 
Lemme sow the seed for a scenery 
Swan dive like it’s August 
See the sunny side 
On my dirty knees 

When you lose your love

LIMMERENT PSYCHO!

I need your life today 
Eat and find a way 
Deep inside the grave
Leave without a trace 
Sell me on that fake shit 
Fuck on something real 
Crucify my main bitch 
Thank you for the meal 
Truth is way too loud 
You pray to God on 999 
Tell me what you wear 
I rock that new di
Vi x2 
Vine 
Tell me it hurts so perfect 
Funny you know 
It’s something right 
Butterfly knives 
Read verses 
Baby come home 
If you like that 
Maybe that brain 
Gonna highjack 
Tell em you’ll find your climax 
Why don’t you let me fight back 
Tell me now where my eyes at 

Really I don’t know myself x3 
Really Give me nothing else 
Really Give me no one else 
Really take my soul yourself x2

(999) REALLY I DON'T KNOW

This little devil of mine 
Poison in your skin 
If you’re gonna eat just let em in 
If you’re gonna eat just let em in 
Fed up 
Prove it to him 
You were just a child 
Beat by your abuser 
Till your head is in the clouds 
Fucked up like a cumulus 
How do I go through with this 
Satan’s little bastard 
Save the Faith 
Evade to Budapest 
Shady in the new stress 
Talk to myself ludicrous 
Say it’s God I’m new to this
Sure it’s God I’m new to this 
She say the sex good 
It’s really just the sex though 
Hoped to find lovey life 
But I just found a red coat 
Traumatized romanticize it 
Walk with God in Red snow 
You don’t read the texts though 
Couldn’t read the texts though 
Wonder what your love was 
What’d you waste your breath for? 
Look at what is left of you 
Prompt me 
Steal me in the ways you should’ve taught me 
Haunt me 
Fear of going numb 
Is not alarming 
Honestly 
Ceaseless 
Is this living cause of Odyssey 
Sun that never shone 
My only purpose here 
Is starving me 
If thy sent me messages 
Were they ever messages 
And did I shoot the messenger 
Or did the message slit my wrists 

Make it real 
Make it out 

There’s no life if you don’t hold it 
No doves if you’re not chosen 
No truth if it’s all lies 
Dear God in a lifetime

Amon (michael harrison)

Oh lord made it all go ghost 
Not sure if he loved you most 
Don’t cry it’ll be just fine 
Don’t die this’ll take your life 

I don’t want your pity 
I just loved the city 
I swear I saw their faces 
But where 
Was I mistaken 
And dig without a name 
But where 
You’ll catch a train 
Wake now 
The sash is burning 
Fade out 
The world is turning 

I lose the will 
To walk 
In this shit 


Baby this is Babylon 
Falling to our death it gets lit 
With the smoke up in our eyes 
In a sauna with my necklace still fixed 
And it burns in the chest 
Breath mesh 

It’s a feeling like this 

Woke the next day 
Wonder how I end up like this

I LOVED THE CITY (michael harrison

Do I have your attention 
Ice all on my wrist it’s nothing real 
Show me how to shoot a gun
Quentin Tarantino
Know I came to get it 
I just wanna see my people

Stay long they gon love you with them stacks up 
Need god do not run to check my facts up
But I die a lot out of habit 
Cuz I had some 
Trouble in the love 
In the village 
I’ll just act up 

What is green 
Moneys green 
Falling leaves
In the fall
I could be anything 
I believed 
Got involved 
Nothings all right at home I fear 
Make the cash 
Make the cash 

So you put this shit repeat 
Cuz you don’t wanna go 
Double date your eye bags 
Table eating toast  
Need to talk granny 
But I chose to be alone 
Never gonna land 
I got so high 
He said I know

"onlyfans" (michael harrison)

Tell myself to get along with it 
There’s peace somewhere 
Contradicting 
Life unfair 
I construct 
The far land in my eyes 
Lose your mind 
A breath so wild 
And you can name it boy 
And you can name em all 

Will you show yourself 
To me 
When I’m up? 

Take 
You don’t shake 
I still wanna set this record straight 
 
Break 
I won’t break 
Saw a nice man 
While torn away 

Thread 
Tangle thread 
Let a pretty joke 
Fly by your head 

Rain the subtle dread 
I love this place 
It’s so undead

“Nose Whistle" (idly blare)

POP CULTURE (FT THE GREAT JORHEY)

Ever since I hit the spot 
I had something in me 
Ooh she took me in facade 
Where the light was given me 

Could never fight the sense of loss 
Wished to bless my mentions 
Never saw no such a thing as odds 
All was too convincing

Always held a weight to every soul in the reverie 
Had to give my life to see my own would remember me
Had to fall in love to see a will I’ve never seen before 
Tie it to myself 
I’m a witness 
Feel it in the core 

Angels aren’t the only things 
Good at looking good for the God that you serve
Held at odds and it swerves 

She all on my body for the darkness 
You say that you don’t want it 
Compared to the word
It’s reserved 

And all I wanna make you do is shine 
And you’re mine 
Not no lies  
Give me life
Giving blood 
Giving birth 

I’ve been fed hell 
Yeah 
I’ve been fed hell 
If you see it now 
You can say it well 
Ooh I adorn you 
Ooh I adore you 
Make me take the long road
Make me say it for you 

You pay no attention to the look in my eyes 
Baby what came over me I’m so horrified 
One look in the mirror and I’ll love you tonight 
Fantasy or furor it’s a lovely premise 

Go and get your satchel 
Get your knife 
Get your bag up 
You gon walk alone 
You gon be your only pastor 

I go astray 
So I live on the streets 
Baby your love is a delicacy 
Rap on my teeth 
Can you spell it for me 
Put a wound on my body 
For celibacy

UMBER 8670 (prawjex)

All that I know 
You throw stones 
Words that you spoke 
They go cold 
Sweet as the Venus 
Unfolds 
Thinking is shallow 
I know 
Oh 


If there’s a way let me see it 
And I don’t want you to leave 

Don’t pull it out from inside 
Ooo you better ask Jesus 
Don’t take it from the dope boy 
Sang his little heart out 
We can come clean 
Yuh 
Say you really want the whole story 
You gon have to roll for me 
Living like the breeze 
I’ve been out for myself 
But I don’t want him no more 
I just wanna see 20 20 
And show up to work 

Put a stone on a stone 
And stay on the phone with the modus 
Did I speak almost hellish 
God I just tried be honest 
But it’s against me own up 
To a life that’s forgotten
Cause when it’s gone it’s forever 
What’s next gon spoil me rotten 
I sent it up as a text 
I made the choice 
As it’s plotted 
I lose my mind in these instances 
Pray you did what you wanted 


As I level with this world 
I never see myself 
Welled up in the reds
Where clarity is youth  
And I fall
But I was someone else 
Serenity in how we felt 

You never held me 
You never held me 
back 

Don’t need to tell me 
But does it sell me 
You never held me back

sacrifices (michael harrision)

The bolts on 
The front door 
Day it was done for me 
and the meaning was much more
Ooh 
they screech like a 
Dutch door 
And I got the funds for it 
Saving a million months foreign 
And If I make a Milli 
On dope daffodillys 
Then I’ll make a frivolous fun for ya 
Cuz the hinges melt 
As the sun turned to radiate
Towards any odd degree 
I just take it to the 88th 
And I bite myself a piece 
Found a dear I’ll let no lady rate 
Cuz her body’s going green 
Yeah her body’s going green 

God to figure out 
What I could go without 
Clouds are sensing harm
But never in these arms 
I know I can perform 
I’m sure of what I’ll say 
The intricate approach 
His every single day 
I’m proud of what I made 
(But only cause you made it
It trails me 
You sway me 
Away

And God Im well aware I don’t belong 
Brain is melted into theme songs 
Talking to the east side Palmer 
Drinking his water 
Pray for his daughter 
I need it more 
Sir, what is glory 
A different moral
For every story

"the sun from the window, oh you know it melts us down" (dan darmawan)

Ahhh
Young sloth 
Good blood
I got bad apples 
Knowledge is a throwaway 
It’s a mad hassle 
Try to sell me out  
But you see me in the sheep clothes 
We know 
Blessings all are blessings
On the sheep coat 
Every single thing you got to lose 
Let it be known 
She still want my love 
So Im amused 
Guess I needed more 
And all I ever wanted 
Was to put it in your pocket 
And move along 
So we 
Could believe
That you miss me, Jah (-)
You can get me up 
When you miss me, Jah (-)
Oh you get me up 

God you’re way too necessary 
Did you send her birds or fairies 
In too deep it’s arbitrary 
Just like love the gun 
I carry 

Ooh 
While they’re all dead disdainful 
I’ll think nothing dare, distasteful 
Shot the man who set the table 
You shoot for who made this fable

T.E.C 9 (greyskies)

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INDIGO. (INSTRUMENTAL)

Couple years ago 
Couple years ago 
I lost my mind 
In the indigo 
People never been here before 
Never were seen before 
And I was head over heels 
Oh, trauma 
Took my hand off the wheel oh mama 
It’s ok these days the hands don’t steer 
 
Why don’t we control 
The things we created 
Where Did A God go
Divine Entertainment  
Inside out 
So dark and naked 
Made no sense so clear as day 
And I’d love the man for a few 
Love the man for the few who felt it 
You shed the blood for a blue sky baby 
And I ask the sun if it knew my lady 

Be a moving body an artist 
Know the man who craves his deposit 
Love you so let be as you want it 
I won’t raise a finger too flawless 
To point at the man too deep in his jaw 
Less in the lusts and more in my loss
Will you remember
Will you rembeber me 

I know you’re scared 
To make the choice love 
This is a new thing 
Please don’t avoid us 

Every single body under one eye 
Mourning for a dawn fell down 
Still I seem to find it sleep in my mind 
Even when I drown don’t drown

INDIGO.

restore me. (INSTRUMENTAL)

Sounds like a sentiment
Won’t you open your ears for me 
When the fear seems to settle in 
Let me pay attention to the sphere in her cheek 
Oh my lord make her smile 
Set me on your throne 

I ain’t moving how they moving 
Minute that I show up on the scene I’ll make a movie 
Everybody tethered to the link of blood and boobies 
If I say it as I say it 
And you like it 
Then you knew me 
Take the kisses straight out of my mouth 
I feel it soothing me 
Juxtapose it beautifully 
My time to adorn 
Know she blush in solar jewelry 
Explore the thorns all in my head 
That you may wear it warm on your wrist 

You’re the Figure of the set in the silence 
Count a penny or the pain for your guidance 
And I let it judge me 
Still I dance loud in the destiny 
Balm to the soul
Leave my feelings in your everything’s 
Loud and the low 
Loud and the low 
Dare you think 
He can’t restore me 
If I never let you go

restore me

song introduction

Feel constrained 
but I’m still faded 
Play your games 
But I’m still jaded 
Feel the pain 
Think I can take it 
There’s a rage 
But I can’t fake it 
Hide away 
The heel is lonely 
Time of day 
I heal too slowly
There’s is a God 
And I won’t see 
Let’s see if you even know me 

Don’t you lust no more 
This is what you ask 
Someone knocks the door 
Musket in the glass
So I’m sorry bout that 
But the paint was all black  
Wings in the clouds 
Please get them back 
 
city in the dust  
Please don’t be king 
Everything I love 
You can take it from me 
Death upon my hands
But my eyes are still clean 
Could put me in your plans 
Won’t you let me be me

if you even know me

Even if I saw her face again 
I would be blind 
Tell you baby you should probably stay with him 
God will be mine
What’s on the outside 
Soon I reveal
Trapped in the outlines 
Feels of the field 
Won’t entertain my own will to be killed 
I’m rather normal 
I’m just from Belleville 

I lie from the ghost town 
Hometown 
Sanford 
Can’t move I broke down 
No sound 
Answer 
God give me high wage 
Long days
Long nights
My heart is always 
On page 
On lights 

Chaos 
I’m surrounded by layoffs 
Sound asleep but no manger 
Pray to God for their paper 
Like savior 
Halo 
In your teeth 
Cause you pay for 
Head is in my sharknado 
Swim without me it’s fatal 
Oh you’re such a hero 
Loved ones I need zero
Why don’t you fear to stop me 
Why do you accept it dead? 

But did I really wish to be like you?
You don’t gotta how question I move 
That’s some God given shit 
Any given shot I do not miss 
Jesus you will do it 
As I -

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