depression vs sadness 🙂

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(Prod: VAQ)

[FREE] XXXTENTACION TYPE BEAT SAD/DEPRESSIVE (Prod. VAQ) [USO LIVRE]

fog lake - im so tired (fugazi)

LYRICS:

I miss finding a sort of solace in the rain
 I miss crying Im so exhausted of the pain
I miss silence its something talking in my brain 
an inner monologue that up and takes my oxygen away
I miss being happy at church 
The preacher lied to me
Since I was 9 I’ve had existential anxiety
I miss Lincoln logs and see saws and hide and seek
They told me grow up be a man I never really tried to be

I miss when back in school my adjective was gifted
 Now that I’m in college I feel average and conflicted 
I don’t think I have it in me to be actively persistent 
I’m busy convincing myself I’m an actual musician 
I miss when other rappers showed me what they make
 They think I rode in on their wave but I’m just floating in their wake
 I dip my toes in just to show them I can hold my own and take 
a couple notes and ask some questions but I never show restraint 
I miss my girl I miss my friends I miss my foes 
I miss my life I miss the highs amidst the lows
 I miss the times when I felt like I had a home
 I miss when crowds of people didn’t make me feel alone
 I never sleep till I’m collapsing from exhaustion
 I was following my dreams with hella passion but I lost it
 Now this music just a coping mechanism do it often 
Got to throw myself in something more productive than a coffin

fuck it I don't care no more I've given up on subtlety
cause If I don't say it out loud they scream it under me
Yeah I said what I said so let it fucking be
Its like God said drown then never let me up to breathe
So look, I'm fucking manic depressive
I have my good days and bad weeks 
That lack any spectrum
Getting offended takes some effort so I'm passive aggressive
And I ain't sad I'm indifferent I watch my life from a distance  
I put the par in pariah
 I put the sigh in messiah 
People praise my old music back when I was a liar
 I put my life on the line and I wanna take it all back
 Wish I could think how I act but its acting and fuck I’m tired

manic depressive

depressive (prod. depression sweater)

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