SOMETHING ABOUT PAIN PT 1

Verse
Locked out the house, 3AM, cold steps,
Backpack full of sins, ain’t no books left.
Momma in tears, I could hear her through the walls,
But the high felt louder than the way that she called.

Jumped that fence just to chase a quick fix,
Grinnin’ with the crew while we all felt sick.
Told myself lies like, “This who I am,”
But deep down knew I had blood on my hands.

Skipped out class just to roll with the wrong,
Could’ve had a cap and a dream, now it’s gone.
Used to write poems, could’ve penned my path,
Now I’m writin’ pain in a notepad of wrath.


                     Verse 2 
Now I’m older, but the pain still breathes,
Memories hit harder than a hundred cold streets.
Pops gave up, said, “You live how you choose,”
Didn’t know I was pickin’ every way I could lose.

Friends turned fiends, some dead, some gone,
Scrollin’ through my past like a list of what’s wrong.
School called home, but I’d already dipped,
In a car full of smoke with a dream gettin’ clipped.

Wasn’t dumb, just lost, heart full of noise,
Tryna find peace in the wrongest of toys.
Now I stare at the ceiling with the lights turned low,
Thinkin’ ‘bout the kid that I used to know.

LOCKED OUT THE HOUSE

Verse
Ridin’ down I-5 with a Glock on my lap,
Moonlight hit the chrome, demons in the back.
Eyes in the rearview, watchin’ for the trap,
I don’t trust a soul — that’s a motherfuckin’ fact.

Tinted windows, no plates, mind full of ghosts,
Every mile I drive feel like I’m gettin’ close.
Pain in my chest, but I never let it show,
Rather bleed in the dark than let ‘em see me low.

Phone on mute, got the plug on speed,
One wrong move, get erased with speed.
Never needed love, just a bag and peace,
But peace don’t come when you play in the streets.

Heart ice cold, but the heat still pop,
Prayin’ I don’t crash, tires squeal, don’t stop.
No destination, just a war I can’t drop,
Ridin’ down I-5 with a Glock — and a lot.

RIDIN DOWN I5 WITH A GLOCK ON MY LAP Ft Itzdrayday

Verse 
Nines and dimes, that’s the life I done seen
One hand on the scale, one lost in a dream
Shorty look fine, but her soul been cold
Loyalty’s rare when the heart been sold

I done seen brothers flip for a lil’ shine
I done seen angels fall for a dime line
Fast life tempt you when you born in the dirt
But every smile got a blade, every high got hurt

Money come quick, but the peace move slow
And the nines don’t jam when the envy fuckin grow
I keep my circle tight, eyes wide on the fake
’Cause dimes turn to demons when the love ain’t straight

NINES N DIMES ft dxth cvbb

I’m stuck in my ways, can’t outrun the curse,
Every move that I make be makin’ it worse.
Told myself chill, but the rage still burst,
Now I’m ridin’ through hell with my pain unrehearsed.

Can’t sleep, can’t dream, can’t cope, can’t heal,
Fake love all around, but I keep it too real.
Swear the scars on my soul got a story to spill,
But they only see the mask, never know what I feel.

They don’t ask how I’m doin’, they just takin’ what’s left,
Givin’ out my heart ‘til there’s nothin’ but death.
Now I’m cold to the core, got regrets in my chest,
Tryna outrun the past with this weight on my breath

ALL MY PROBLEMS RUNNING MY LIFE Ft Lonly!

Verse 
My mind is sleeping, that’s when I’m at peace
No voices creepin’, no doubt on a leash
I move in silence, gettin’ work done fast
No chains from the past, just a clear-cut path

When I’m not thinkin’, I’m locked in the zone
Ain’t no overthink killin’ seeds I’ve sown
Got goals in my chest, got light in my sight
Tryna focus on the good, not drown in the night

Too much time spent feedin’ all my pain
Now I’m chasin’ purpose, not playin’ that fuckin game
Negativity be knockin’ — I ain’t answering the door
I’m buildin’ somethin’ greater, life i can’t waste no more

                          Verse 2 
I fade with the haze, let the silence speak
Been drownin’ for days, I feel too weak
I don’t answer my phone, I don’t open that door
Ain’t no light in this room, just me and the floor

Thoughts too loud, can’t hear my soul
Eyes wide open, still losin’ all control
I know what I need, but I push it all away
Let the pain hit hard, let it echo and stay

Don’t tell me “cheer up,” you don’t know my weight
Don’t speak on the war that I battle too late
So I sit in the smoke, let the demons creep
Only time I find peace is when my mind’s asleep

MY MIND IS SLEEPING

Verse
Heart iced cold but the flame still lit,
Poppin’ off pills just to make me feel shit.
Love ain’t real, just a trap with a twist,
She kiss with a blade, then she cut at the wrist.

She tell me she loyal, but she lie through her teeth,
Like the smoke in my lungs, it’s just easy to breathe.
Got a grip on my past like a noose ’round my neck,
And I dream of the day I got nothin’ left.

They say love heals, but it burn like dope,
She playin’ my mind like a suicide note.
Sex in the dark, with a mask and a motive,
Fucked in the head, now we both feel hopeless.

Cocaine lines on a bathroom sink,
I ain’t blinked in a week, can’t afford to think.
Syrup in my cup, got me leanin’ like trust,
And the devil in my ear always talkin’ too much.

RIDIN  through the city with a death wish grin,
Hell on my heels and the pain in my skin.
I don’t love life, I just flirt with the danger,
Kissin’ on fate like we strangers in anger.

Drugs in the bag like I pack for the grave,
Love in the past, now it’s sex I crave.
Chain-smokin’ thoughts just to hide what I’m feelin’,
Pop another tab, now the ceiling start peelin’.

Lost in the smoke, can’t tell what’s real,
Body in the bed, but my soul won’t heal.
Curse in my blood, every beat is a threat,
Love, sex, and drugs — that’s all I got left

LUV SEX N DRUGS

Verse 
Born with attitude, fire in my jawline,
Eyes say “don’t talk,” even when I walk by.
Never learned peace, just learned how to snap,
Fists in my pockets like I’m holdin’ it back.

Came out the womb with a middle finger up,
Mama said “chill,” but I never gave a—
Stared down teachers, brawled with my kin,
Smirk on my face when I never let ’em win.

Pride too loud, temper like a warhead,
Say the wrong word, I go zero to the forehead.
Tryna stay calm, but I’m built like a flame,
Grew up throwin’ punches just to deal with the pain.

BORN WITH ATTITUDE Ft Csmith

Verse
666 blunts, got the smoke in my lungs,
Draggin’ my coffin through hell just for fun.
Ash on my shirt, bloodstains on my tongue,
Don’t talk pain if you ain’t from where I’m from.

Poppin’ off demons like tabs in the night,
Cursed in my sleep, I don’t pray for the light.
Every blunt laced with a piece of my soul,
Same black heart that’ll never grow old.

Dollars in the bag, but it don’t mean peace,
Got a gun and a gram and a brand new lease.
Six in the chamber, one in the fuckin mind,
Blowin’ out smoke like I’m pressin’ rewind.

Tatted-up flesh, got the scars for the truth,
Triple six flame when I step in the booth.
Live by the smoke, might die by the flame,
Still light up that blunt just to numb out the shame.

666 BLUNTZ

Verse 
Don’t mind me, I’m just dead in the head,
Still breathin’ but I’d rather lay cold in a bed.
Mask on my face, but I’m drownin’ in stress,
Laugh with the crowd, but inside, it’s a mess.

Eyes red, soul black, stomach full of meds,
Can’t feel love, just the weight of regrets.
People say “cheer up,” but they don’t get the test,
Every day’s war, I just hide in my vest.

Fake smile, fake life, this ain’t what it seem,
Dark thoughts stalkin’ like a glitch in a dream.
Smoke in my lungs, got me floatin’ upstream,
But the fall feels close when you run outta steam

                     
                                      Verse 2
Yeah, I smile less now, heart beatin’ slow,
Life movin’ fast but I’m stuck in the low.
Sick of the noise, I just hide from the show,
Put the pain in a rhyme, let the silence grow.

Cold sweats, late nights, thoughts runnin’ wild,
Haven’t felt peace since I was a child.
People say “talk,” but the truth too vile,
So I bottle it up with a fake-ass smile.

If I vanish, just let me drift in the mist,
No prayers, no tears, I don’t need to be missed.
This pain ain’t a phase, it’s a lifelong guest—
So don’t mind me… I’m just tryin’ my best.

SOMETHING ABOUT PAIN PT 1

KILLSTONE