we sing we smile
we laugh and cry
we run we fly
we crash and die
we thank the lord
and say amen
we lie and sin
and fall again

we sing we smile
we laugh and cry
we run we fly
we crash and die
we thank the lord
and say amen
we lie and sin
and fall again

i'm in love with the idea of
honorable men from days of old
killed myself and all of my friends
in search of glory and gold
why are we so far from heroes
maybe we're not meant to be
the mango tree grows when it's alone
i'm content with everything

and i hate that we're satisfied
with ash
we'll take what we like
and they won't get it back

ashamed of every earthly comfort that we utilize
convincing ourselves that we are perfectly alright
flawed human beings that are rotten to the core
cutting hands and arms and legs and simply living for the gore
struggle burned inside our minds
it's what we both crave
we're no better than savages
we're wicked and depraved

maybe the silence
is worse than the violence
"the horror! the horror!", one day we will exclaim

that's okay

when i wake up
you won't get me to stay
i'm leaving now
i'm going far away
don't ask me where
i won't be back again
i'll say goodbye
and that will be the end

when i wake up
you won't get me to stay
i'm leaving now
i'm going far away
don't ask me where
i won't be back again
i'll say goodbye 
and that will be the end

Glory (The Horror!)

i need time with my mind
cuz i'm not fine
in this life

oh you don't even want me

i need time with my mind

The Cycle

Stagnation yet time treks forward
And im traveling through the water
And for gasps of air i feel
It latching onto my lungs
And soaking right into my blood
White out paint in the pondscum
Dead fish in the ocean
Motion it closer to freak you out


Sitting in the back of your parents car
Wishing to feel something else
Coming up slow and strong 
Listening to pink floyd and stuff
Staring out at the people
Walking by its so evil
Why are they all normal
And im a freak its so unequal

Everything is
Bouncing in my head

EVERYTHINGISBOUNCINGINMYHEAD

verse
i lie awake and i think of your face
you never seem to go away
every thought it drives me insane
When ur deep inside my BRAINN

chorus
ILL NEVER SEE U AGAIN
FOREVER INSIDE MY HEAD
ILL NEVER SEE U AGAIN
REMEMBER U UNTIL IM DEAD

verse
and every night i break down and cry 
ive tried so hard to make it right
ever since youve left without a trace
im stuck alone here with this PAINN 

chorus
ILL NEVER SEE U AGAIN
FOREVER INSIDE MY HEAD
ILL NEVER SEE U AGAIN
REMEMBER U UNTIL IM DEAD

NEVER SEE U AGAIN

Orphic Phenomenon

Crying in a Truck

July 19th 2019

lyrics:
I was standing in line waiting for tickets
I saw you standing there looking so exquisite
I just had to come up with a way to get to know you
I knew you wouldn't talk to me because I'm so below you 

your black hair and your thigh high socks 
and your edgy shirt with your eight eye docs
you look so good to me i couldnt beilvie it
but i knew you were trouble i could feel it

lalalalalalalalalalaal

i walked up to you full of surprise
when you looked me up down with those deep green eyes 
you looked at me and i forget how to speak
i looked at you then i looked at my feet

you and me talked for a while 
you looked at me and gave me a smile 
you turned to me and said you had to go
you walked out the door you left the show 

lalalallalallalalallalal

i need time with my mind

hallowed