lyrics:
(gothboy in korean)
dangling above my head is the money
you wanna leave cause i know you don’t love me
you only care about the gram and the selfies
clout chasing yeah you feeling kinda ugly 

sitting down on the sidewalk
looking at the storm clouds, my alarm clock
sleeping till i’m dead, i know how, i’m a wallflower
you had to be a tease, faking that you’re tough
i know i’m not enough 

hook
i’m sad that i woke up
anxiety, makes it hard to write
now i can’t focus 
on anything that be going right
and i ain’t notice
who my family is 
i ain’t going out like this
i’m gonna drown, while everyone hit a fever pitch

and i ain’t gonna lie
cause i think i wanna die
not all the time, while i’m writing, you can read it through the lines
me and you we aren’t alike
cause i know you live for the lights 
girl i know you live for the lights

dangling above my head and i hit her with that fuck you
i ain’t feeling lost, i just found out what you’re up to
i go weeks it’s all my sleepless nights
tired vision got my eyes and they  fogging up right 

sleeping on the sidewalk
pictures of you and me and they feeling like a time vault
you ask me, hey do you know what you lost?
i haul out, 
i know i ain’t lost out
well fuck it i’m a boss now

i ain’t hate you
just know that i don’t wanna love you
i don’t be there
i dont wanna live fair, baby my heart aint there

are you sad that you woke up?
if you are then sing it with me cause you a soldier
i only feel i’m living right when i can hold her
my life is up and downs and i’m feeling bipolar 
you looking distant and your touch is always feeling colder
i ain’t gonna fuck
and i ain’t gonna lie
sometimes i wish i dead, but i don’t wanna die
sometimes i feel like a liar
sometimes i feel like a liar

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Lyrics:
I took it like it was my medicine 
I fell asleep I thought that it would help again
It left me from my brain, and my skeleton 
I think I died, but I can’t be sure, imma ghost, I can’t complain 

Me and you up in the dark void
Regret what I thought was my last choice
Took a pill up and I rejoice
Has what I thought was pain

Now in with the hoes, 
I thought I was spiritual 
I thought it was meaningful
All I see dark, in with the lights please, we embark

But then again I feel nothing,
All I got is from this pill jar
And my body’s numbing
Feels like when drive it real hard, except I think I went too far
Can't look back, I’m not involved, in my life anymore 

What do we call this?
A limbo that seems flawless
Cause I know my peeps miss me, but I’m at peace regardless 

Will they find it near me, will they know it was easy? 
Don’t wanna see their face, when they touch my arm  and can feel it freezing 

What do we call this?
What do we call this?

I’m at peace and I want y'all to know it
I’m alone but I’m relieved that it’s over
I took a pass through death's door
It locked behind me and I’m feeling better

Close my eyes and found myself
Taking my last grasp of air
I know you did it yourself
Wanted to meet you there

But my attempts have failed
And again I inhaled
Disappointed, sad and mad
Without you I had to go back

Couldn't find you at the void
Are you just trying to avoid me?
I know I did wrong
I don't expect you to forgive me

I’m at peace and I want yall to know it
I’m alone but I’m relieved that it’s over
I took a pass through death's door
It locked behind me and I’m feeling better

I’m at peace and I want y'all to know it
I’m alone but I’m relieved that it’s over
I took a pass through death's door
It locked behind me and I’m feeling better

solipsism

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