i thought that i would be okay
all on my own
guess i was wrong
oh well what isn't there to like
except the long
eternal night
don't play pretend i know what you're like
know all your quirks 
how you fantasize
but i guess it's all in my head
like how you said
it's all in my head
(x2)

now i look crazy
and that's one thing i've been feelin' like lately
but i'm okay
at least i think so
nothing's for sure but at least i am here
so
i can't be that bad
at least i think so
i might be lying to myself when i say so
but take my word for it
that's all i ask for
i think i need to ask for some help more

but don't hit me up
even if i look like i need it
cause i don't need it
i'm better off alone
even if that's not what i say so
(oh)
i tend to do that
go back on my word like screw that
i don't think i need help now
and i think that's a lie
but i've made up my mind now

yeah i made up my mind now
(x3)
and i won't look behind now
don't play pretend i know what you're like
know all your quirks 
how you fantasize
but i guess it's all in my head
like how you said
it's all in my head

i thought that i would be okay
all on my own
guess i was wrong
oh well what isn't there to like
except the long
eternal night
don't play pretend i know what you're like
know all your quirks 
how you fantasize
but i guess it's all in my head
like how you said
it's all in my head
(x2)

guess i was wrong

prod me

i been taking melatonin just to get some rest
it rlly hurts me to see you like this
i cant even stand on my own 2 feet

im losing time
my body's weak 
thought you were mine
im so deceived 
want me to throw everything away
im out of patience and i cant take it all
im losing time
my body's weak 
thought you were mine
im so deceived 
want me to throw everything away
im out of patience and i cant take it all

everything you said 
went right over your head
i wont get up if you break me down again
you leave my messages on read
i think you're better with me dead
is this how u want everything to end
but i cant take anymore
im falling down on the floor
i hate these thoughts running thru my head
thought we were better as friends
you like to say its the end when
things haven't started
my heart cant take this damage
things went exactly how you planned it 
i dont know how i managed to stay alive this long

i been taking melatonin just to get some rest
it rlly hurts me to see you like this
i cant even stand on my own 2 feet

im losing time
my body's weak 
thought you were mine
im so deceived 
want me to throw everything away
im out of patience and i cant take it all
im losing time
my body's weak 
thought you were mine
im so deceived 
want me to throw everything away
im out of patience and i cant take it all

losingtime

luh boujee baby never been a fan of the rules

prod. nico horry

hello!
no one is available to take your call at this time
please leave a message after the tone
*beeeeep*

gotta ask myself if i'm really shocked
that u won't pick up the phone
i stg that u treat me like a dog
but u won't throw me a bone
(woof woof)

i feel like i'm outta my mind
cus i could give u what i got but u won't give me the time
ever-changing affirmations, i'm patient
but i been stuck inside my head
feel like i'm locked in a basement with no escape

if u want me to be honest
i don't think that it's fair
if i'm REALLY being honest
i don't think that u care at all
but u wear it all
u got designer on ur back
but u don't share at all
and i'm losin myself
because of who?
u, u, u, u

tell me how it's different
i got nothin to prove
the situation's never changing
and it's bc of u
n i'm dead real like a heart attack
zip me up in a prada bag
is it the money or the drugs
that's got u actin a fool
luh boujee baby 
never been a fan of the rules
paid my tab n i'm tryna go
in our house it don't feel like home

i don't want it anymore
maybe i should head straight for the door

maybe i should
call a cab n get outta the city
i been tryna make my mind
but idk if u wit me
take a couple different pills
i won't care if u forget me
but i've been losin peace of mind
n it's just starting to hit me, like

tell me how it's different
i got nothin to prove
the situation's never changing
and it's bc of u
n i'm dead real like a heart attack
zip me up in a prada bag
is it the money or the drugs
that's got u actin a fool
luh boujee baby 
never been a fan of the rules
paid my tab n i'm tryna go

spotify

heart attack (nico horry)

https://li.sten.to/lotus
ig: ripavah

welcome to my life
lyrics:
Lotus, I've been getting better let me show ya
Smash an empty bottle to the dome
I've been feeling like I've grown up
Better than ever cause I'm about to blow up

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

Lotus, you know it
I've been on a tangent for a year but I ain't ever fucking show it
I just know my fame is close but I think I've been on the wrong path
Happiness and Adderall, the two things we should all have

You ain't shit yeah you a bitch
I'ma make a jump right to the top then i'ma clinch
Shitty ass artists sign to labels then they're gifted
Imagine what would happen if my music got the same thing

Fuck the poppin sound, and fuck to who's around
I'ma make a wave of other artists with my sound
I wont fix my problems if I don't aim for the ceiling
blacked out drunk, that's a shitty fucking feeling

Fuck you to the past, I'm glad it didn't last
I'ma speed to number one or I'll just fucking crash
I'm glad I'm fucking back just for a while I've had a barrier
Sprouted like a lotus I'll just shout out to my haters

Lotus is strong, lotus is fire
Lotus is weak, lotus is crying
I've been drowning lately listen here's a happy ending
Feeling like a boss, and I'm looking like a real king

Red eyes, feel low
So high, so low
Might cry, oh no
Lotus, blossom

I ain't succeed in a minute
Love this life forever bitch you know I'm not quitting
Avah feels on fire bitch you know that I am winning
Take over my life I wasn't happy where I'm headed, oh shit

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

avah

lotus

other platforms

lotus (dercept x ayoley)

GAMBITZ HELPED ME WITH COVER I FORGOT TO PUT THIS LMAO

IBUPROFEN

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS

LYRICS:

Hit me with I told you so
But you’d never leave or ever listen
Pray to god on my knees
I’m in need of premonitions
Im finding my keys but I know I won’t find what I need

They said
You were toxic they’re right on
Makes sense
I’m only there when the lights off
I can’t
Get my stuff from your house
Cuz you
Stole my favorite sweatshirt tonight 

I make things up in my head
Yeah I’m sorry if I did
I project all of my fears
And end up with no friends
A new direction
I try deflecting

Thousands of tears
And all the blood that I’ve shed
Seems to go to waste
When I get back in bed
Because I haven’t done much
I’m almost out of luck
What did I do with all these years

I cower in silence
Cuz it’s so loud
Drown out my thoughts
With all this sound
If I died now
Would you text back
If I cried how
Would you react

They said
You were toxic they’re right on
Makes sense
I’m only there when the lights off
I can’t
Get my stuff from your house
Cuz you
Stole my favorite sweatshirt tonight 

Prod. drmabeats

Premonitions

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/datboiryen/doing-2-much
lyrics

Only get this feeling when I’m touching you
Can’t tell if you give a fuck about it
Got so much love for you
I can’t tell if this the wrong time to bring this up but
I really miss the way your body feel
Your bestfriend told me I was the one that’s messing up
I know I like to play I guess I’m doing too much
Yeah I’ll be back soon
How the fuck do I make these songs
It’s all because of you
I’m taking these shots right to the face
So don’t get mad if I just pick up my phone tonight
And Ima do what it takes whatever makes me feel right
Wake up drunk, pissed as fuck
Like what the fuck is my life
Yeah I think it’s time
Like maybe if we touch a little, I’ll be fine

Like hold on, wait
I can’t tell if you’re serious bae
I’m on my way
Cuz you’ve been distant, not calling me lately
I’m feeling real sick to my stomach
Everyone walks when I’m running
I’m doing my best and it’s nothing
Somebody tell me why
This shit just keeps on happening to me
I wanna (fucking die)
Don’t fucking say that
I got that devil on my shoulder screaming
You better get payback
I’m about to get with all your friends
And do you dirty like you did to me
Wake me up when this shit ends
I don’t wanna pretend no more

This shit ain’t fun for a nigga like me
I almost slipped into the streets
All these bitches slimy
Ain’t nobody healing me
Nobody doing shit for free
I need to get these feelings off cuz you know that I

doing 2 much (p. typhoon)

kill you first w/rouri404 (joshwa) [2021]

tired of you

spotify <3

wrote a song about a weird world i created in my head lol.

lyrics

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know 

And the soldiers they march with their guns 
In a place that is harsh and its void of the sun 
Now your scared that you cant go outside 
So you run 
But theres nowhere to go
Yeah theres nowhere to go 

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know 

And im scared to say
That ive run out of options and theres no one to save me 
So wont you stay 
I just hope that you dont become one of the ones that blame me 

Yeah cuz right now im just confused wether i should turn the lights out
Or if i should keep on going its not nice out 
I dont like what i see
Wish that i could have a better world but that shit aint free

Yeah and now i wonder
What this world has come to
And every summer i just wanna know who you run to 

Whered you go 
I dont know 
Hope that they dont get you soon 
Had so many fucking dreams
Coulda took us to the moon
And now i know that your gone 
Fucking hate the month of june 
Thats the time that i lost you

Just check in on your cell phone 
Youll be home by curfew 
We dont have that much time 
Should be getting dark soon 
You can raise a blind eye 
Tell em that its not you 
But they know 
Yeah they know 
Yeah they always know

dystopia (johnnyfriend)

dominican fike

mastered by yaki

(will rhead ydkm evan sasha cybertrash)

heart attack (nico horry)

sudbath

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