prod @ddertbag

lyrics

i lost again ig u just live and learn
i'll play pretend while everything will just burn
but everytime i try it doesn't go so well
so i just gotta hide (it's hard to reach for some help)

do i really have to know wanna stay where im at
can't reach where i wanna go ig im always last
nothing else to do so im wasting all my time 
i can't let it go cannot get it off my mind

scared of what's to come so i just sit back in the background 
scared of messing up so it just almost never works out
does it really matter, nothing feels the same
still i can't remember, can't recall my name

i've been stuck don't feel like going outside my comfort
i have no one else there is no help yea to be offered
slowly losing to myself im having these delusions
it just felt so real yea i fell for the illusion

#LiveAndLearn (ddertbag)

ty for all the lov on this :D
@domerrz
@lilac

[@domerrz]
I feel damaged to my core
push me to the side, you throw me down
collapsing on the floor
red roses when I look around
all these feelings, I can't manage
really I don't understand it
I just don't get how you feel
my heart shattered cannot heal

I cant look her in the eyes
you move forward, left me behind
while I cant stand to live a lie
I wish I could just rewind

cuz I've been stuck in a rut
blinded by your love
I just cant move on
got me throwin up

and I think I'm done
done feeling numb
everything uve done
always comes back around

yea i tried too hard
just 2 end up all scarred
u break my heart
left me falling right apart in the rain
I've lost my escape
I'm rotting away where I stand

and nothing feels real I feel like I'm better off dead
and nothing feels real I feel like I'm better off dead

I start to think I lost it all
and maybe I've fallen down to far
and u just go ignore it all
so I start to think that I cant love at all
I've shattered into pieces
don't know what to believe in
maybe I was destined to feel this way

I feel damaged to my core
push me to the side, you throw me down
collapsing on the floor
red roses when I look around
all these feelings, I can't manage
really I don't understand it
I just don't get how you feel
my heart shattered cannot heal

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heal (lilac)

instagram.com/melodramalovestory
@coldspades
@rewind214
@mental 

(may)
stole my heart and i can’t get it back
knew u were the one 
since i saw u after class 
i js wna go back 
to the day that i met u 
when i look up at the stars 
bby i wish for ur love 
cuz i can never get enough 
ur x & o’s is what i want 
its my heart in ur hands so don’t crush it
ima give u all i have
leave me js with nothing

(rewind)
when i saw u after class
knew u were the one, made my heart beat fast
so i chased ur love
i cant do it right, i cant do enough
still regret the night when i messed it up
so cold like the winter
ik that i miss her
soju in my cup, downing shots just to omit her
from my brain
i might go insane
cause i need ur love

(mental)
baby its for everything ive ever said
i can tell by the way u speak ur malevolent
i need better friends and some medicine
i need something that makes me feel like im dead again
gave u something but maybe not what u need
if its not then ill bleed, just accept that im me but,
i can tell thru every word that u speak u love every time u leave and im falling to pieces again
so tell me what u like me for
and ill tell u what i adore
cuz u just make my mind go sore
and i dont wanna fight no more

wish for your love +mental & rewind (coldspades)

ty @1jahvi

2023forus

sorry for the delay ty ilyy

sleepless nights i cant getthru
i get lost inur eyes staring backatu
i wish i culd fade away now i cant have u
now i gotta stay away gota pushthe pain away
i keep it all inside
don wana c u cry
tryna change but its hard 
told me wed never tear apart
wish u toldme from the start
now theres nothing i can do
im getting nauseous i feel exhausted
sum save me been hrting alot
ibeen wasting my time never got what was mine
i know its useless but i nver stopped 
they see me trying but they call me the worst
i keep on falling but i guess ideserve
take my time to heal but cant get rid of allmy fears
i just wantu to near

memory of u prod jahvi [OUT ON SPOFTIFYY]

a lab w my bestest buddy yoku boku [@yokulol] 

sampled this: https://soundcloud.com/ihatebixby/taste-of-melancholy?si=6e560e95eb494c8da9b3949a1301defc&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

self prod as usual

people keep asking for lyrics - ill try to do them from now on but me and my friends freestyle most of the stuff we make 

[bixby sample part thing]

[yoku boku]:
its uuuu
in my head
yeye
ye its time
i really like u 
even though i wanna lie about it
ion even wanna talk about it
no i nvr did
idk if i ever wna see u again
but thats the price to pay
with what i got with u
cuz of that pretty face <3

[bixby sample part thing]

[me]:
sometimes 
i wonder what u would be like
if u 
tried to be nice to me
ye im so sorry
but i tried my best4uu
{ye}
2many emotions 
im
2heartbroken

[halftime part inspired by @ketsai]

the sample!

see u again +yoku

ty to @remiliaxd for making the beat!! <3 and @owtiss for hopping on 
^_^

lyrics:
yea im running out of time
u keep on asking why
every reason that i give u always js deny
guess the truth is rlly out
u turned an evil eye
cuz the girl i loved the most js stabbed my heart out w a knife
 yea rlly said i loved u but i wish i never did
all these thoughts n memories i wish i could get rid of
i swear that im seeing things my mind is playin tricks
yea im so done w love yea im so done w trying

but maybe its me
maybe i need to change girl yk u fuck me up
get u outta my brain
used to be all on my mind
thought of u everyday
used to sit w only u
now i sit thru the pain

@owtiss:
i js wna move on and go to better things
i dont need ur approval ik u wont let me >:(
wish u would accept me 
u told me im dead meat
n ur eyes r deadly
wish u never met me..
it's all in my head
i feel like im dead
i'll go to the next one as soon as i can
u dont understand me ;/
the texts that u sent me
wish u never met meeeeeee

(me)
but maybe its me
maybe i need to change girl yk u fuck me up
get u outta my brain
used to be all on my mind
thought of u everyday
used to sit w only u
now i sit thru the pain

sit thru the pain +owtiss (remilia)

@domerrz
prod @neohnq

instagram.com/0domerz
instagram.com/neohnq
instagram.com/sumtherr

Tell me why im feeling stuck
i close my eyes thinking about you
all the time i try and try
u toss aside and tell me lies
everything don feel the same 
cant take the pain
surrounded by the things i hate
wish i could fade away
waking up late at night
cant move forward no im not alright

(dom)
bring me right back to the start
my heart is made of glass you left it broken into shards
pick the pieces up that I lost
i know ill never be whole again I cant stand it
I try way too hard, I try my best to heal my scars
(for way too long)
and all this time I wonder why I get pushed to the side
please tell me why

tysm for the support yall <3

Alright ft. dom! (neohn)

tysm prod @012207 @jichuuu <3

instagram.com/2jichu
instagram.com/baz.fst
instagram.com/sumtherr

2023forus

dk u at all
jus say it to my face
u don luv me at all
I slowly start to break
ok ill take the pain away
take the fall but treat me like sum stranger yea
im danger somebody save me
lost in my head cant move stuck in a daydream
they lend me hand but its what i need
ill stay strong till the end i jus want u to see
its u that i belive in
honestly idc bout nobody else
i wanted this but now it feels like hell
i get lonely so lost no one to guide me
my flaws are what they know me for
its sad i cant go back to what we had before

Dear Diary (baz jichu) [OUT ON SPOTIFY]

@diligencexs

lyrics:

im so tired i cant even open my eyes
but in my sleep i always seem 2 cry
another fight well im not even suprised :/
do u even care if im alright?

bite the bullet
dont know if ill survive
use me as ur own crutch
the one keeping you alive
i need comfort
and not the pseudo kind
i got too much of that from u
dont want us 2 be alike

at this point 
idk what to think 
i split into 2
one part of my mind
wants us to be through
the other wants it back
it only wanted you
maybe we're both wrong...
dont know what to do

im feeling all this sorrow
im losing all my trust in u will u be "here tomorrow?"
im running out of all my love do u have some 2 borrow?
or anything that makes me whole i feel so damn hollow...

i can feel
everything thats haunting me is it real?
everything thats taunting me in this ordeal
i can see everything u hide behind ur veil
stuck up in my head yea im stuck up in this hell

at this point 
idk what to think 
i split into 2
one part of my mind
wants us to be through
the other wants it back
it only wanted you
maybe we're both wrong...
dont know what to do

pseudo (diligence)

@1akura
@prod_dxvi
@pagliuzz

hartfxlt:
letting go of us, girl its weighing me down
you wont hear from me, no you wont hear a sound
thoughts up in my head and theyre way too loud 
push me off the edge so I hope youre happy now
hope you're happy now that you threw it all away, what we had
maybe it was just my damn mistake, its all my bad
maybe its exactly why you shattered
maybe I should realize what matters

akura:
and I see myself when I look right into your eyes 
do you think youd have the strength to ever make me cry?
and when I look around, I see nobody by my side 
you really bring me down, theres nobody here left to help,
im nauseous,  it my blood is smeared all over the walls 
ive lost it, no I dont think I can do this at all
you left me speechless and I dont know what to say 
need you to get away from me before I lose my brain
(and I see myself when I look right into your eyes 
do you think youd have the strength to ever make me cry?
and when I look around, I see nobody by my side 
you really bring me down, theres nobody here left to help)

hartfxlt:
letting go of us, girl its weighing me down
you wont hear from me, no you wont hear a sound
thoughts up in my head and theyre way too loud 
push me off the edge so I hope youre happy now
hope you're happy now that you threw it all away, what we had
maybe it was just my damn mistake, its all my bad
maybe its exactly why you shattered
maybe I should realize what matters

maybe w/ akura (dxvi x pvgliuzz)

@ihateukidu ^^ 

u gave me sum to believe in, you left, time to let it go
ive lost so much dont even care its time i walk this road alone
i cannot get it back
all of the times weve had
how did it get this bad
i wish id do it all again

i cannot get back x6
all of the times we had x6
x2


fuck it all i guess its over
one look at you fucked up to sober
im looking at these pictures on my phone
tears runnin down my cheek 
i cant stand the thought of me being alone
its really damaging

(ohhh, just forget ab it
yea ill just forget ab it
ohhh, these thoughts r makin me go violent
ohhh, just forget ab it
i cannot forget ab it
all dese fuckn memories r rushin back makin me go violent)

u gave me sum to believe in, you left, time to let it go
ive lost so much dont even care its time i walk this road alone
i cannot get it back
all of the times weve had
how did it get this bad
i wish id do it all again

i cannot get back x6
all of the times we had x6
x2

song inspo by @whyhaze and @mental

Alright ft. dom! (neohn)

sumther

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