unfurling

life imitates life

i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed

it set me free 
at least i think
what do you know?
theyre all just freaks
what did you wanna know
i see myself in me 
a couple tools 
thats all you need

i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed

you try and try again
and nothing seems to work
you push your age away
and then you ask 
why it fades away
decaying in the room that you were pushed into
its been years you seen the outside and you dont know

i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed
i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed

snarky

You Tell me what you believe in
I push it away
I won’t let you control me 
The Witches they laugh
Oh how I wish I were home
The things I couldnt hold 
I see you’re certain, well
You need a certain hell
To Decompose your mind I need to see it go inside
You know I try to learn
I tried to Make him breathe again
I try to learn
I tried to make him breathe again
It works out, it works out always
I fall for whatever you make
It always gets captured in frames
The Praxis you practice it fades
You know I try to learn
I tried to Make him breathe again
I try to learn
I tried to make him breathe again

soil

I want to feel the ocean in my palms
When the right day comes my silence will break walls
Ill paint the sun for you in forty different shades
Ten for the beaches
And thirty for the stage
The moon was a girl and she cried the whole day through 
Til the sun collapsed and she was put back
Into the sky
I don't know why
I want to you to sow your heart right on my sleeve 
Maybe then we'll see the words you really mean
You say that we should talk
But I don't understand 
I don't have a voice 
And I wish you didn't have hands 
I weep to the trees,
They weep back to me
I get down on my knees
My mother does not know how to help me
I am a mosaic of past memories we share
I know the clock knows because I can see it stare
My limbs ache and I am tired all the time 
Countless remedies won't heal your one track mind
I want to feel the ocean in my palms
When the right day comes my silence will break walls
Ill paint the sun for you in forty different shades
Ten for the beaches
And thirty for the stage
I planted a seed when I was nine in just one day
It did not grow and the excitement ran away
When I was ten I realized it needed water
The news would say im someone's sister, someone's daughter
I weep to the trees
And they weep right back to me
I get down on my knees 
And pray to god that you won't forget me
Throw salt against my shins
Let me hold a tight tight grip 
Can I wring your soul out
And let it drip?
I want to you to sow your heart right on my sleeve 
Maybe then we'll see the words you really mean
You say that we should talk
But I don't understand 
I don't have a voice 
And I wish you didn't have hands

How To Mourn Your Own Death

from Honeyspot, released January 1, 2024
Drew Collins - Songwriting, Vocals, Guitars, Lap Steel, Melodica, Bass
Miguel Pichardo - Production, Mixing
Dave Bugnacki - Drums
Kellyrose Golden - Vocals

I couldn't see your face
Seemed like you're hiding in your hiding place
Both my eyes open, I want your touch
I couldn't brace myself enough

Did you just come around so that you could hurt me?
Put my trust in you and you just desert me
Took me a while just to find myself
Starting to think that you never deserved me
Try to love myself but I'm still learning
I couldn't love you the way you want

Why didn't I tell you when you were here?
Face down in my bed with no one near
I could of sworn that I hear your voice
Your scent in my pillow and my blankets too

Why the fuck did you think you could just hurt me?
Saw myself in you and you just desert me
Took me a while just to figure out myself
Now I know that you never deserved me
Try to forgive myself but I'm still learning
You couldn't love me the way I want

Honeyspot

Hurt Me

Still Here

I send my love to you (cover)

I wish to go back to the meadow
Where we had shared a memory
I long to be where breezes sway
the trees and they dance happily

The flowers growing wild and free
I think that they grow just for me
To watch them as they grow their petals
Do you think they’re aware of me

I’ll sit and wait for you to join me
I see you smile as you’re approaching
I’m glad that i am not so lonely
And you seem happy just to hold me

Hurt Me

sundots