with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

thank you @fallen_lights

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if you need to say goodbye
can you make it last forever
before i forget the feeling
of walking on air
if you need to say goodbye
can you say it now or never

now or never w/fallenlights

jasko was one of the first friends i ever made in the scene back when i first joined the silkenwood server, and he was a truly a talent unlike any other out there. jasko would light up a room whenever he walked into it and you just couldn't help but feel happy around him, i'm so unbelievably lucky to have known him and i will forever cherish every second we spent together. thank you for existing jasko, it was an honor to know you. love and miss you so much, lilly

lyrics:
and i've been tryna find the time to even think
all my patience circling the bottom of the sink
i'm treading water but the current's getting stronger
and i don't know if i'll be okay, tell me it's alright

hello again, it's been a while since you heard from me like this
and i'm tryna be okay without you here but i still miss you
you don't gotta say a thing back in return, i know that's not how this works
it's different now, i started college, quit my job and things are changing
still not sure what i'm really after but i'll face it
in the end, what's up ahead? i don't know but i hope i get to see you again

tell me it's alright (with Jasko)

JUST FOR NOW
https://ffm.to/jfn

miocene memorial garden
@cash-official @acloudyskye @viznode @suji_scared @ejtheloser @shameless_wav @jhlofficixl @gethosyne @envyline

As days
gone by 
I see your shadow walking
Surrounding my mind
In a dream  I cried
Beneath the star you cherish
Fading over time

(can't let go)
Just for now

(of hope)

Just for now


When I saw you with her
It felt like a volatile powder keg in the dark
When I saw you with her
You didn't dare to say that there was nothing wrong


Could I be your savior?
Swoopin' in and save you from hurt
Until then  I can't save you
Just for now

Just for now  just for now
Feeling like you're  feeling like you're gonna riot
Just for now  for now
How long can you hold out the pain?
Just for now


As I trace the line
Will we find our place in time?
As we say goodbye
In the silence  our hearts confined
Are we out of time?
As we're losing touch
Our love is fading
(Fading) 




I can tell you're not happy
After everything you told me
Standing helpless
How can I face everything
How could you bring me between
How could you?
(I don't blame you)


When I saw you with her
It felt like a volatile powder keg in the dark
When I saw you with her
I didn't dare to say that there was nothing wrong


I can't be your savior
Coming in to save you
Watching from afar I know you've had it rough
But it's not my fault that you gave up
I can't be your savior
Coming in to save you
You're not the only one around that's had enough
It's not my fault I've given up

JUST FOR NOW

IT MUST BE GETTING WORSE !!!!

EDIT: Soz like 2 things were pissing me off so some small changes are in there now mb !

Thanks so much to mistmurk without them this song would not exist 

Credits - Uh me like everything I did everything really honestly
mistmurk with the addl prod thoooooughhhhh 

THANKS 2 EVERY1 FOR LISTENINGGGGGG sorry back to scheduled garage spam after this no more fun !!!

-----INTRO-----

[You know how to watch video ?]
[mhm]
[Do you wanna go watch video ?]

-----VERSE 1-----

You're talking to yourself
Again
You really made a habit of it
It must be getting worse
Again
The way I speak to my friends

So do you love me, like me ?
Tell me so yourself
And you want me ? 
Boring
You're just like all the rest
Before you think
My heart, still bleeds
It doesn't mean anything

-----CHORUS 1-----

I dont want to feel you
Touch you
I can't wait to hear you
love you
I don't think they know you
Like I do
I don't want to feel you

-----VERSE 2-----

Stop talking to yourself
OK :/
You can't even cry about it
You wanna change so -
I guess
You could try flirting with your friends ?

But then you might feel
Something
Im getting kinda scared
Of you talking
Surely
Theres nothing wrong with that
Should it feel, so bad
When I see you writing back
Ah


YOU AH
WATCH YOU
YOU EE OW
YOU AH
WATCH YOU
YOU EE OW

-----CHORUS 2-----

I dont want to feel you
Touch you
I can't wait to hear you
love you
I don't think they know you
Like I do
I don't want to feel you
I think i'd like
To be you

-----FINAL CHOR-----

I CANT TOUCH YOU
I DONT FEEL LIKE YOU
I HOPE I DONT HURT YOU
BUT I CANT BE LIKE YOU

STOP TALKING TO YOURSELF !

THERE'S STILL TIME !!!

Thanks so much to halfTrue for putting up with me and trusting me with this instrumental this shit is so cool.

CREDITS !!!
VOX/WRITING AND WHATNOT - MEEEEEE
PROD / MIX / MASTER ETC - halfTrue, (I helped a little bit but not much)
ART - ME WHIPPEE

LYRICS !!!

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
Oh my god ...
Is this really all I've done

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, oh

Time ~! moves ~! on ~!

---VERSE---

Speak my age like a curse !
Couldn't bear it
We all try our best to dispel it
It's why you always talk too much
Cos it makes u feel more young

My parents feel bad for me
I'm not 17
And I haven't been ...
For a while now

Would it bother me
If we treated time more sweetly

---CHOR 1---

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
Oh my god ...
Is this really all I've done ... :(

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, but

IM NOT DONE

YOU GOTTA GET UP !!!

---Bridge---

I really thought I'd like getting old
But no one seems to think so
How many years are left for my own
Chances left to feel whole

Lost to the daydream
There was a place my dad used to take me
Did he waste his time ? For a feeling I'm
Sure that I'll forget

GET UP !

--SOLO CHOR---

Have you written all you wanted ? GET UP !
Time to face your life, GET UP !
Yeah we really wont wait, get up !
And I could never live enough

---Final Chor---

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
OOH MY GOOOOOD
Is this really all I've done :/

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, but

I'M ! NOT ! DONE !

GET UPPP !

Written by: Doda, N33T, Static
Vocals by: N33T
Produced by: Doda, Static
Mix/Master: Doda

Artwork by: Cherry
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Soundcloud
@dodado1
@user_n33t
@static_official

Twitter
x.com/dodado23
x.com/n33tmusic
x.com/imstatic_



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[originally wasn't going to finish this as it didnt sound like most of volume 4 but my friends changed my mind so i worked on it more. 

here's the result of combining 4 different arcrep scraps to get this, much better than leaving those unused if you ask me]

[defectionpatchwork]

ocean wave, take me back

new release after how long?? lmaoo

this is part of a bigger compilation for 'The Birdhouse' called 'The Bird's Nest, Volume 1"
featuring a bunch of friends and folks who contributed tracks for a donathon to help raise funds for a show of ours

special thanks to @quaide for providing add. vocals and songwriting

check out the rest of the compilation here:

YT: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MFt91FexgGk&t=6s&pp=ygUXdGhlIGJpcmRzIG5lc3Qgdm9sdW1lIDE%3D
BC: https://birdhousecyphers.bandcamp.com/album/the-birds-nest-vol-1

lyrics

i didn't mean for it to burn you down
just send a message that
i couldn't face the truth, oh
i know it's something that we talked about
talked about
but i don't know why
it's in and out
i'm down, my mind is going
round and round
i wanted you to stay and watch the
day turn one more time

oh, what a shame
dripping down your face like it's the rain
i told you that i'd do anything for you girl
but i think that it's getting hard to maintain

how could you dip 
on a girl like that?
okay, okay
i fucking get it
i said some things
i probably shouldn't
but i think that she should hate me
all of my time
i'm self-obsessed
i know, i know
but i can't stop it
just go alone
oh girl i promise
it's better for u baby
i wish that it was fine for us
'cause when it's fine for us
i cannot hide the love
ooh
but i think we're in too much stress
oh it's just common sense
you cannot handle this

oh, what a shame (oh, what a shame)
dripping down your face like it's the rain
i told you that i'd do anything for you girl
but i think that it's getting hard to maintain

oh, what a shame
dripping down your face
like it's the rain
i told you that i'd do anything for you girl
but i think that it's getting hard to maintain

>> i uh... i told myself it would be different

Maintain

Not so super.

Finishing songs era ! Finishing songs ! haha ! I am posting songs !

Cool people
@Finderx
@emblur
@dustkey-hq
@mist-murk
@Kokogane
@flooddubs

GET UPPP !

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