4 https://soundcloud.com/underscores & https://soundcloud.com/pincode8485

i gave up on mixing this

nowhere to be, ever (a remix for underscores x 8485)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

a special collab with a good friend of mine ayesha sophie
please check out her IG <3
https://www.instagram.com/ayesha.sophie/
https://www.instagram.com/ayesha.sophie/
https://www.instagram.com/ayesha.sophie/

this is musicalization of her poetry, about 'you' and all the questions, about finding a direction, a purpose.

lyric:
you and all the questions
and the roses and the flowers
and the sun and all it ashes

you and all the questions
and the pink and the reds
and the blues at the greens

you and all the questions
and the stars and the light
and the gleam brought into

-pre-chorus:
you and all the questions
and the thunder and the rain
and the dizzy dancing of

uncertains
and all the pains

you and all the questions
and all the breath it ran
and all the things it took

you and all the questions
and the stars and the light
and the gleam brought into

you and all the questions
and the thunder and the rain
and the dizzy dancing of

uncertains
and all the pains

where do i go from here?
where do i, where do i go from here
where do i go from-

the broken promises
as you carries all the fears

and when the moon starts to fall asleep
as they burried us beneath

..//

you and all the questions

https://fanlink.tv/ifyourewithme

originally made for FORM's 'All Nighter 9'


miocene memorial garden
@cash-official @acloudyskye @viznode @suji_scared @ejtheloser @shameless_wav @jhlofficixl @gethosyne

visuals by @gethosyne, @suji_scared @viznode & https://x.com/_exaflares


I hide the words again from myself
Knowing no one else is there, to tell
And always fighting, to understand you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
(I'm still alive)
Haven't really been fine

Wait
Feeling lost, can you say we're bound to fate?
Scared of losing everything along the way
I can't change
Chasing a ghost that won't show face
Pile up these dirty leaves
Pointless things ah yeah
Convenient that
There's things I have to tell you

And I get dizzy
Just staring out there
So if you're with me
Could you just give me a sign
Cause it's been ages and I
Haven't really been fine
You took all the time from me
Just passing me by
Show me some life

I keep us tied to each other
Your face in all the places I've been
Still stuck around all the corners
Staring out there

Hide your words
Obscure my face
An empty place
It doesn't even matter
I throw it all away
To escape your face
It fills me with dread
Cause it doesn't even matter

Tell me now
What if we couldn't take —
Call it out
Feeling of echoes
No one knows

listen to me
How did it go
when it fell
out of my reach
Reach out to me
Hopelessly waiting
Wandering out sight

Didn't waste my time
Watering all these dead flowers

Don't go chasing this
Don't go chasing this
Cause I wanted you to know
There's a fire outside your door
Engulfing everything

Just for now
Just for now
It wouldn't matter anymore
Until the dust settles clear

Just for now
Just for a moment

So fingers crossed
Left behind

IF YOU'RE WITH ME

How was your 2024
This is remix of some of the songs I’ve listened to the most in 2024

original artists : @dobimusic @sanholobeats @oyeme-thomas @moorekismet @brakence @porter-robinson @shameless_wav @viznode

Never ready to leave 2024 [A remix of ... my playlist?]

IT MUST BE GETTING WORSE !!!!

EDIT: Soz like 2 things were pissing me off so some small changes are in there now mb !

Thanks so much to mistmurk without them this song would not exist 

Credits - Uh me like everything I did everything really honestly
mistmurk with the addl prod thoooooughhhhh 

THANKS 2 EVERY1 FOR LISTENINGGGGGG sorry back to scheduled garage spam after this no more fun !!!

-----INTRO-----

[You know how to watch video ?]
[mhm]
[Do you wanna go watch video ?]

-----VERSE 1-----

You're talking to yourself
Again
You really made a habit of it
It must be getting worse
Again
The way I speak to my friends

So do you love me, like me ?
Tell me so yourself
And you want me ? 
Boring
You're just like all the rest
Before you think
My heart, still bleeds
It doesn't mean anything

-----CHORUS 1-----

I dont want to feel you
Touch you
I can't wait to hear you
love you
I don't think they know you
Like I do
I don't want to feel you

-----VERSE 2-----

Stop talking to yourself
OK :/
You can't even cry about it
You wanna change so -
I guess
You could try flirting with your friends ?

But then you might feel
Something
Im getting kinda scared
Of you talking
Surely
Theres nothing wrong with that
Should it feel, so bad
When I see you writing back
Ah


YOU AH
WATCH YOU
YOU EE OW
YOU AH
WATCH YOU
YOU EE OW

-----CHORUS 2-----

I dont want to feel you
Touch you
I can't wait to hear you
love you
I don't think they know you
Like I do
I don't want to feel you
I think i'd like
To be you

-----FINAL CHOR-----

I CANT TOUCH YOU
I DONT FEEL LIKE YOU
I HOPE I DONT HURT YOU
BUT I CANT BE LIKE YOU

STOP TALKING TO YOURSELF !

Minami is one of my favourite japanese singers so I had to make a small remix

Minami-main actor (ilyness Botanica Remix)

THERE'S STILL TIME !!!

Thanks so much to halfTrue for putting up with me and trusting me with this instrumental this shit is so cool.

CREDITS !!!
VOX/WRITING AND WHATNOT - MEEEEEE
PROD / MIX / MASTER ETC - halfTrue, (I helped a little bit but not much)
ART - ME WHIPPEE

LYRICS !!!

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
Oh my god ...
Is this really all I've done

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, oh

Time ~! moves ~! on ~!

---VERSE---

Speak my age like a curse !
Couldn't bear it
We all try our best to dispel it
It's why you always talk too much
Cos it makes u feel more young

My parents feel bad for me
I'm not 17
And I haven't been ...
For a while now

Would it bother me
If we treated time more sweetly

---CHOR 1---

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
Oh my god ...
Is this really all I've done ... :(

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, but

IM NOT DONE

YOU GOTTA GET UP !!!

---Bridge---

I really thought I'd like getting old
But no one seems to think so
How many years are left for my own
Chances left to feel whole

Lost to the daydream
There was a place my dad used to take me
Did he waste his time ? For a feeling I'm
Sure that I'll forget

GET UP !

--SOLO CHOR---

Have you written all you wanted ? GET UP !
Time to face your life, GET UP !
Yeah we really wont wait, get up !
And I could never live enough

---Final Chor---

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
OOH MY GOOOOOD
Is this really all I've done :/

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, but

I'M ! NOT ! DONE !

GET UPPP !

ocean wave, take me back

(1/_) of 'AMBLE TIDES' (always changing)

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lyrics

through the door
at the glass
the sink coats with blood

dizzy fuzz
standing tall
while covering your nose

focusing the lens
of your hazy eyes
realize
what have you done?

laughter has built in the halls
you don't know where it's pointed at all
closed behind the nearest stall
do not try to heed the siren's call

tell me it's a dream
(...)
that i'm fast asleep
(...)

can someone take me home?
i can't depend on myself, alone

oh, youth
you've started a fire
slashing down wires
while i'm scarring at the walls
i'm torn
there's a wound beneath my tongue
stinging from the salt
that's breaching through the front

can you tell me it's a dream?
and, that i'm fast asleep?

can someone take me home?
i can't depend on myself, alone

Run, river, run

Not so super.

Finishing songs era ! Finishing songs ! haha ! I am posting songs !

GET UPPP !

Suroki