[Verse 1]
I can still see the tears in your eyes,
When I broke us down with a thousand lies.
You gave me warmth when I turned cold,
Now I’m haunted by the love I sold.

[Verse 2]
I thought I was strong, but I was scared,
Too afraid to need, too numb to care.
You gave your soul, I threw it away,
Now I live with the ghosts I made that day.

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve walked through the silence you left behind,
Every echo’s a mirror of my crime.
If I could bleed it out, I would,
If I could trade my heart, I should.

[Chorus]
Will you ever forgive me for my past?
For the hurt that burned, for love I crashed?
Don’t define me by the worst I’ve been,
I’m still learning what it means to begin.

[Verse 3]
I replay our laughter, the light in your face,
Now it’s shadows in an empty space.
I thought I knew what freedom meant,
But I lost my soul in my own descent.

[Verse 4]
You said love was patient, love was kind,
But I broke that truth, I crossed that line.
Now I stand alone, confessing my pain,
Praying your heart will say my name again.

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve faced the mirror, I’ve faced my sin,
It’s ugly, raw, but it’s where I begin.
If love has grace, then I will kneel,
To show you the man who learned to feel.

[Chorus]
Will you ever forgive me for my past?
For the hurt that burned, for love I crashed?
Don’t define me by the scars you see,
I’m more than the ghost I used to be.

[Bridge]
I can’t erase the nights you cried,
But I can love you right this time.
Every mistake carved truth in me,
Every loss taught me how to see.

[Verse 5]
If I could hold you, I wouldn’t speak,
I’d let my silence show I’m weak.
Weak for your love, strong for the pain,
Fighting to prove I won’t break again.

[Pre-Chorus]
I know forgiveness takes its time,
But I’ll wait for you between the lines.
If healing means I lose my pride,
Then I’ll bleed it out from the inside.

[Chorus]
Will you ever forgive me for my past?
For the hurt that burned, for love I crashed?
Don’t define me by the worst I’ve been,
I’m still learning what it means to begin.

[Bridge 2]
I was broken, I was blind,
Now I see your heart and mine.
If love still breathes beneath the pain,
Let it rise again, let it rise again.

[Final Chorus]
Will you ever forgive me for my past?
For the storm I caused, for love that didn’t last?
Don’t define me by the tears you’ve cried,
I’m a better man with you by my side.

[Outro]
I can’t rewrite the wrong I’ve done,
But I can love you like the only one.
If tomorrow lets our hearts contrast…
Will you ever forgive me for my past?

Will You Ever Forgive Me

Traveling the world in search of a deeper meaning, looking back at the choices of the past and the relationships we once had, the friendships and bonds we shared. Sometimes when we are doing wrong it feels so right, and sometimes when we are trying to right our wrongs, we feel out of place.

LOOKING FOR

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"In Practice of Being" is an exploration of community, creativity and discipline narrated by the art muvvvaa Carrie Mae Weems. When making the mix, I sat thinking about what in my life has brought me liberation and pleasure. Hands down, my creative practice has always been the beginning leading me through it all. Within being there is a little something something for everyone. 

Take a listen.

Describe your DJ style in 3 words
soundtrack, subliminal, connections

What is an affirmation or saying that keeps you going?
"Surrender to the Process" was the affirmation that got me through birth and a gem I hold dearly. 

What does Black Girl Magik mean to you?
Black Girl Magik is a kind of medicine that comes straight from our DNA that is nurturing, expansive & firm. A real reminder that we are a vital link to source. A reflectin of earth, the cosmos & beyond. 

What book are you currently reading?
Dark Matter, a Century of Speculative Fictions From the African Diaspora & Self Publish Be Happy. 

What Black Woman has influenced you?
My mother would definitely be first. Lately we've been having a lot of long conversations on life and relationships, which is making the influence more clear. Sobonfu Some is someones words I frequently return to. There are many Black Women in The Bay that have been strong lights during different stages of my growth : Melorra & Melonie Green, Regina Evans, Karen Senefuru, Ashara Ekundayo. All the women that were in Malidoma Collective, because the bonds are so pure. The whole House of Malico squad. My peers, my partners, my friends, my council. Those that I build with on the 1 on 1. The list goes on and on. 

Tracklist: 
just for you - olivierjawn  
atlantic ocean (w/ th3kwl3st) - gugu 
warm -  sg lewis  
this is a journey -  saya  
touchin juke -  sela.
i got it open (you cannot close it) -  kohinoorgasm  
((((((((( Modest Odyssey ))))))))) - pacific yew 
hug me w/ -  chf chf chf chf chf chf c  
sumthin else w/ sokro -  cube clutch  
sifo -  nonku phiri  
shades -  emily mclean  
i leave a trail of honey everywhere i go -  wizard apprentice  
unravel (bjork cover) -  yetunde  
watch.faith.believe -  astral tempest  
eyekn0 -  dvntphnk  
um (bpm play) -  monsieur  
hungry hippo -  tierra whack  
queen of zamunda - queens d. light 
Lecture of Carrie Mae Weems Youngarts Master Class

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Resident DJ: ON MOMMAS | In Practice of Being

19/10/2018

what took place in my room this morning with the homie @skinniezpantz safe travels my brother. juan love

Fernando's Room w/ Skinniez

MOVE IT (prod. By Ricky P)

Tune into Across 110th Street live every week on 89.9 FM (New York City) or via WKCR.org from 12-2 PM EST!

Tracklist:
“Your Heart Belongs to Me” The Supremes
“I Say a Little Prayer” Dionne Warwick
“Walk the Way You Talk” Dionne Warwick
~Talk
“I’ll Take You There” Staple Singers
"Baby, I love You” Aretha Franklin
“Rocksteady” Aretha Franklin
“Like Sugar” Chaka Khan
“I know You, I Live You” Diana Ross
“It’s My House” Diana Ross
~Talk
“After The Dance” Marvin Gaye
“I Want You” Marvin Gaye
“Come Live With Me Angel” Marvin Gaye
“Whatever” Jill Scott
“Can’t Wait” Jill Scott
~Talk
“Cruisin’” D’Angelo
“I’d Rather Go Blind” The Frightnrs
“Mighty Heavy Load” Cymande
“Higher Ground” Stevie Wonder
“I Love Every Little Thing About You” Stevie Wonder
“Superwoman (Where Were You)” Stevie Wonder
~Talk
“Sonora” (feat. Nidia Gongora) The Bongo Hop
“Naomi Min Sumo Bo” Jimi Tenor
“Sorriso de Gabriela” Wal Sant’ana
~Talk
“Sky High” Donald Byrd
“Feel Like Lovin’ You Today” Donald Byrd
“Happy Feelings” Maze

Cover image: Chaka Khan

Across 110th Street 4/11/20

Chesney B brings another blissed out hour of RnB, Hip-Hop & Alternative music gems. Featuring brand new music from Simon Jefferis, Master Soul Boy, Kwaku Asante, SAULT & Deema. Highly recommended morning listening.

Chesney B - July 2020

Angela Munoz ft Adrian Young - So Young
Harry Becket - Ring Within Rings
Billy Brooks - Rockin Julius
Mausiki Scales - Pass The Tradition
Wonky Logic - In Conversation
Wonky Logic - Promise (death)/ Rainbow Chunks/ Like A Killer
Loren Oden - Don't Be
Tenderlonious - Quarantena
Stone Foundation ft Paul Weller - Deeper Love
Terrace M, Robert G, Kamasi W, 9th Wonder - Sleepless Nights (feat Phoelix)
Azat Bayazitov - Magnet
Joshua Crumbly - Afria
Joshua Crumbly - Valor
*****
Alex Isley - In Conversation
Alex Isley, Jack Dine, Masego - Good & Plenty
PJ Morton feat. Alex Isley - How Deep Is Your Love
Terrace Martin - Shea Butter & Blueberries (ft Robert Glasper & Alex Isley)
Robert Glasper Experiment - No One Like You (ft Alex Isley) Kaytranada Refix
Kendrick Lamar - These Walls
Alex Isley - Road To You
Alex Isley & Jack Dine - Think Of Me
Alex Isley - La Brea
*****

Foldedspace On Jazz FM 19/7/2020 w/ Tony Minvielle feat. Alex Isley

Boogie to all current, non traditional, r&b!
Mix includes: Jorja Smith, Mac Miller, Anderson .Paak, Shay Lia, Sir, Tom Misch & more!

Cruzin

Tune into Across 110th Street live every week on 89.9 FM (NYC) or via WKCR.org from 12-2 PM EDT!

Tracklist:
“My God Has A Telephone” The Flying Stars of Brooklyn
“Live On” The Flying Stars of Brooklyn
“Come and Be a Winner” Sharon Jones & The Dap-Kings
“Guilty” Lady Wray
~Talk
“You Take My Breath Away” Minnie Riperton
“I’m In Love” Nancy Wilson
“All I Do Is Think About You” Tammi Terrell
“Never Gonna Give You Up” Lyn Collins
“Think (About It)” Lyn Collins
~Talk
“Sweet Songs” Sarah Webster Fabio
“The Alchemist Manifesto” Ocote Soul Sounds
“Time (You and I)” Khruangbin
“Daisy Lady” Seventh Wonder
~Talk
“Love’s Comin’ At Ya” Melba Moore
“Searching to Find the One” Unlimited Touch
“Good Loving” Unlimited Touch
“This Beat Is Mine” Vicky D
“I Love You More” Rene & Angela
“I’ll Do My Best” The Ritchie Family
~Talk
“Remind Me” Patrice Rushen
“To Each His Own” Patrice Rushen
“Will You Satisfy” Cherelle
“(They Long To Be) Close To You” Gwen Guthrie
“It Should Have Been You” Gwen Guthrie

Pictured: Lyn Collins

Across 110th Street 10/17/20

he “AUDIO WIZARD” instrumental project highlights the sound of AGO Music Group's Producer/Artist The
SEVENth. This offers a closer listen to some of his favorite production for both himself and other artists he’s worked
with throughout his career. To accompany the 15-track release, there will be a limited edition physical photo book featuring personal writings
and exclusive photos. Cover Art Photo by: Leandro Lara

MOVE IT (prod. By Ricky P)

Suzanne Sheer