6/10/22 I was 18 when this was made thank you all
(prod. MAJZKLUANI)
(Intro)
I’m scaring myself
When i speak
Every time, I listen to me closely
I listen to myself in these songs I become weak!
It’s hard to believe that one can think like this.  
I’m in disbelief 
i need some help
 I need some friends .
I don’t think I could fall more than I have,
so I grab 
the closely thing
To feel safe 
“Please don’t collapse” 
(Uh)

(First Verse)
I’m scaring my self When i speak
Every time, I listen to me closely!
I listen to myself in these songs I become weak!
It’s hard to believe that one can think like this.  
I’m in disbelief 
i need some help
 I need some friends.
I don’t think I could fall more than I have,
so I grab 
the closely thing
To feel safe 
“Please don’t collapse” 

Feeling nothing hurts worse 
than feeling something
That nothing turns to something that will change what you want in….Life it’s every night I fight like an addict to feel alright
(I don’t know why I gotta feel like this)

(Second verse)
I’m pushing my self in the unknown I’m falling 
I hit the bottom now I’m crawling 
recalling 
The past that I put on my knowledge 
The suffer in pain Got me learning
Now calling For “help”
Steady yelling in this dark well
Get me out of hell
Promise I will never fail 
Thinking to myself 
“what if I never get help”
Than I’m falling deeper in a well 
That gets me to rebel 

The boy That is lost in the dark in abyss 
Has arisen 
He came to give all he can fit 
In the moments I have 
But know 
that’s its never it!
Crying and sighing 
But never throw fits 
I’m Moving in
motions
Emotions
They potent
They Telling a story
No words, 
they be quoting
The fear in our eyes 
There’s beauty in pain
Suffer and suffer all through the rain 
(Aye)

(hook)
I’m scaring myself When i speak
Every time, I listen to me closely
I listen to myself in this songs I become weak!
It’s hard to believe that one can think like this.  
I’m in disbelief 
i need some help
 I need some friends .
I don’t think I could fall more than I have,
so I grab 
the closely thing
To feel safe 
“Please don’t collapse” 

(Outro)
Feeling nothing, hurts Worse than feeling something
That “nothing” it turns into something
That would change what you want in life!
It’s every night

smokey lavender

restless

look at that girl im not fine
look at that girl im not fine

and nobody told me these feelings where comprehensible so damn quick
and who knew your favorite flower would make my stomach feel so damn sick
and u give me butterflies inside, i don't know what to do
can i ask you for this life? maybe one or two
maybe one or two

la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
La La land u like that movie !!

and i get nervous when i think about how i love you; its cinematic. but nobody wants to see us kissing oh and we're so perfect oh god dammit i think so!! and we're so perfect,and we're so perfect :~) <3

from the bottom of my heart

Dead

Artwork by: https://twitter.com/anxientdesu
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twitter.com/kingfrander

always & forever (prod. zauvage)

ORIGINAL TRACK: https://soundcloud.com/oliverxfrancis3/headphones

IG: @evergotlost

LYRICS:
im spending all my downtime feeling low
she told me you don't know the half of it
'cause you've been in your zone
you've been on the road
and i know you're dedicated
in the limelight putting on a show
shawty you should tone it down a bit
'cause that shit ain't cool
and that shit ain't you
but you don't even sweat the small shit
i know that you don't
give up so easily, no
it feels like you're letting go
we've got no room left to grow
you know i've been there before
i'd lay my face on the floor
give up, don't try anymore
i always fell asleep alone
and when i woke up you were in my bed
eyes closed with your headphones in
like you never really cared about it
did you ever really care about it? 
and when i woke up you were someone else
no love for the way i felt
like you never really cared about it
like you never really cared
you never really cared at all

listen to this while high & thinking about your ex lover
(preferably at night with led lights on)

ever - headphones (reprod. rvmxo)

AVAILABLE ON ALL STREAMING SERVICES.

Produced, Mixed & Mastered by Ab Chan
Co-produced  & Written by Joseph Stingley

Lyrics:

Ive been running round for a minute now 
heard you feeling up when im feeling down
i hope youre feeling good not in your feelings now
cause ive been feeling down for a minute now down for a minute now

we've been in and out for a minute now 
but we can talk it out if you calm down 
maybe we could make it out if you calm down 
cause ive been feeling down for a minute now down for a minute now

baby saying
how could you run in circles 
how could you run in circles 

hop in the car and go vroom 
i dont want space i need room 
how can i say i cant breathe when im so close to the moon
how you gon' say that its me
i might just run up the tree

Ive been running round for a minute now 
heard you feeling up when im feeling down
i hope youre feeling good not in your feelings now
cause ive been feeling down for a minute now down for a minute now

we've been in and out for a minute now 
but we can talk it out if you calm down 
maybe we could make it out if you calm down 
cause ive been feeling down for a minute now down for a minute now

baby saying
how could you run in circles 
how could you run in circles 

i dont need anything on the other side 
hoping that ill be free on the other side 
i dont want room i dont want space 
i dont need me you dont need the same 
you dont need anything on the other side
open up lets be free on the other side 
ive been on the floor chugging all the wine 
hoping for the best 
looking at you smile 

you dont need anything ill just leave 
ill just leave
you dont need anything youre so free
been so free

i dont need anything on the other side 
hoping that ill be free on the other side 
i dont want room i dont want space 
i dont need me you dont need the same 
you dont need anything on the other side
open up lets be free on the other side 
ive been on the floor chugging all the wine 
hoping for the best 
looking at you smile

EVER - I KNOW THAT YOU SEE ME (PROD. TSURREAL)

prod by @skrittzy
background vocals by @shay

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