produced by taylor morgan

[blxty]
do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said
do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said

[mental]
i don’t wanna care, but I’m always bothered
i feel like I’m awkward, running out of options
everyday I wake up, feeling like I’m lost inside
and it hurts me every time I watch you cry
i don’t care though, I feel like this all the time
i don’t wanna run away I think I lost my (ugh)
i don’t wanna run away I think I lost my mind
i don’t wanna run away but I can’t watch us fight
tell me why you don’t care
when I openly stare, does it hurt?
‘cause you make me feel like I’m so much worse
you make me feel like it’s so much worse
and I don’t like it when we kiss
it’s like I’m floating off this bridge
it makes me vomit, makes me sick
i think you’re honestly my shit

[blxty]
i wish I was dead
i’m not better off alive
take it how you want
it just makes me cry
i can’t talk to you
i hate it when you’re fried
used to show me love
but now you tell me lies

it’s just I don’t wanna do it
everyday I’m talkin’ to you I just lose it
take some medicine but it all feels useless
(take some medicine but it all feels useless)

do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said
do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said

medicine +mental

produced by jj.aholics, vvsmalibu, & miguelisaneko

[mental]
need something to calm down
i found that thing it’s in my body i can’t walk now
all of my bros been smoking on expensive compounds
need help soon, i can’t handle all these thoughts now
they said i’d fail but i’m about to prove ‘em wrong now
ugh, feeling pressure i think that i want out
i’d say i’ve seen way better but that’d be a cop out
if i felt this forever i’d probably be gone now

i’d probably be gone,
i’d probably be dead but
that’s not what you want
tell me that you hate me
put me in my place please
at least tell me maybe
everything is fading
won’t you come and save me
really could you blame me
lot of stuff i’ve done only cause they made me
tell me i’m the one, but you’re probably faking
but the day i won, ima feel amazing

[blxty]
i wanna feel better
i can’t deal with pressure 
they said that I fell off 
i'm like yeah whatever
i would speak it from the heart
but that shit was severed
i just gotta feeling imma feel like this forever

big body wraith and we drive till E
yeah we up in Soho lookin’ for some eats
i feel like Ho-Oh I’m spreading my wings
they be watching taking notes from me
they be tryna take the hope from me
i'mma talk my shit vocally
everything’s what it’s supposed to be

calm down +blxty

produced by mental

[mental]
tell me i’m fine
cause i don’t know if i’m still alive
told myself that i would follow my dreams
‘cause i don’t think that they would care if i died
i told them it’s getting harder to try
there’s no point i feel like this all the time
i can’t see through all the tears that i cry
but i don’t care, i’ll just pretend it’s a smile

so i’m letting it go
until one day we’re close again, i guess
and i’m still so alone
i hope this is the worst that it ever will get
so i’m letting it go
until one day we’re close again, i guess
cause you ripped a hole into my chest
but i’ll still love you with everything left

[blxty]
and i don’t think i could ever hurt you
love or not baby this is not a virtue
and back to my normal life that i revert to
i revert to, to someone that can hurt you

every second i’m a bother
i think i should just go cut you off
why do i even bother
i know you don’t even care at all
situations kinda crazy
bang my head straight through the wall
so i should probably just let it go

[mental]
so i’m letting it go
until one day we’re close again, i guess
and i’m still so alone
i hope this is the worst that it ever will get
so i’m letting it go
until one day we’re close again, i guess
cause you ripped a hole into my chest
but i’ll still love you with everything left

letting go +blxty

produced by mental
featuring @sanriorose

[blxty]
i don’t wanna do it but you’re leaving me with no choice
do i go? do i stay? i don’t know got no voice
ridin’ around at night this ain’t a chrystler this a rolls royce
i done said fuck this shit turn my life to a exploit
he need a heal he need a regen
yeah this like pokemon take a trip to kanto region
bellsprout bitch i’m weeping
he saw me go up and now he tryna reason
i sent his bro up you can hear the stairs they creaking

[mental]
we on go
don’t even speak they already know
bro play with sticks like a gamer he got peripherals
i love, expensive clothes and impressive poles
we came in aggressive though, and left with hella rolls
they can’t talk to me i’m putting down my telephone
dead guys all up in my wallet and they hella old
money in my pocket walk up into saks and let ‘em go
if you with us and isn’t winning that's unacceptable

[dolly]

[blxty]
i don’t wanna do it but you’re leaving me with no choice
do i go? do i stay? i don’t know got no voice
ridin’ around at night this ain’t a chrystler this a rolls royce
i done said fuck this shit turn my life to a exploit
he need a heal he need a regen
yeah this like pokemon take a trip to kanto region
bellsprout bitch i’m weeping
he saw me go up and now he tryna reason
i sent his bro up you can hear the stairs they creaking

kanto +blxty (feat. dolly)

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

I think you're my most beautiful secret.

There's a hole where my heart is. I mean, where my heart was. Been there since it started, it's gotta be karma. And I know that I could never love myself, from the trauma. Even if they try to comfort me I know I'm the problem. Tell me why.

I broke my own heart again and fixed it by myself. And I stopped it but it starts again, I'm never feeling well. Can you send me down to hell please? Cause I'm scared I'm not healthy. Don't know how to make it feel alright. I told you a thousand times but you can't get it through your brain. Told you that I hate you but you went up and you got away. I wish you would ago away. I don't want to see your face. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE. ANYWHERE. NOT YOUR NAME EITHER

Tell Me Why

tell me whyy

performed, written, & produced by me @mental

lyrics:

tell me why it feels
like they don't know my name
cant put my finger on
the look thats on your face
ill wait until i know
its creeping through my skin again
i wish that i could go

its all that i can think about
its getting harder to breathe
im breaking my heart just to feel
theres nothing u ever could save
i cry and i watch it decay
the colors all fade into gray
i saw something farther away
u brought it all back with your face
ill wait til we're back in our place

i just miss u til i cant breathe
never needed u so badly
im so anxious can you catch me
ill keep acting like i cant see
i dont wanna cry but i did
and i didnt wanna lie but i did
ur the one thing i wont try to forget
i dont ever wanna leave u again
close my eyes i see your face inside my head

tell me why it feels
like everybody hates me
and i cant stop complaining
ill freeze and the winter can break me

finally home

performed & written by me @mental
produced by @lilac @winter

lyrics:

i keep on thinking im better off dead
wake up to sleep hanging on by a thread
i cant exist without you in my bed
said every word that i shouldnt have said
heartbreak and anger my only two friends
if i died, what would you do then?
i don't know how long i can pretend
it's not enough just to feel this regret

can't trust cause they lie every single time
fake love feels so cold like the wintertime
and i tried, it don't matter i can't get it right
heart in my hands offered to the sky

never been the best at letting go
tell me things i don't wanna know
take my heart made my heart froze
that's the way that my heart goes
you're the place that my heart needs
i'm just tryna say sorry
i'm just tryna say i want it
if you love me i got it

yeah i got it
hate myself being honest
if you love me then stop it
stop it
if you love me i'll make it right
i don't really wanna say goodbye
take my heart then i'll take my life
take my heart then i'll take my life

#Nightcore

Spotify

cant trust :( prod lilac & winter

@pyu
@1luvpurp

you could give me one more kiss
i feel like a piece of shit
i wish i didn’t exist
i would touch your fingertips
hold them til my body slips
hold you til i wanna live
hold you till you’re gone again
i wish i was really fine
i wish i could go a day and night without missing your eyes
i wish i could show you that there’s still light on the other side
i wish i could fall into your lies and trust you every time

i wish you would leave me alone
never make me feel at home
i miss being something whole
i wish i could be a ghost
never missed me anyways, i try but i still feel so dull
i wish i could, i wish i could be a ghost
but i guess thats typical
i feel so invisible
i mistook a broken heart for you being invincible
we’re back at the part again where i’m bit by the winter cold
we’re back at the start again but this time my heart isn’t yours

until ur gone prod meta & luvpurp

and i thought of losing u
everything i touch rots away
it could be so beautiful
but i know ill always stay the same

i go thru a lot
my pocket got knots
keep goin dont stop
keep goin dont stop
no nike got checks
got weed on my breath
didnt mean to upset i left her upset

dont stop (saig)

getting fried im  not into conversating
she thought i was goin im not into heartbreaking
been collecting funds i think its an understatement 
had to cut them off dont think they were on the same thing
were not on the same thing
were not on the same thing 
i just dropped a check yea id rather blow my saving
had to go and get it yea like whats the point in waiting
its an ivvy service leave a 5 star rating

yea i love this sound
cant get enough of it
drugs got me fucked up
automatic confidence 
and there is no doubt
across the continents

remember our promise

swordddance