everything is different
produced irby
love u all, thanks for everything

lyrics:
its been a long time

i dont know how i can get better
i hate when the times just change the weather
i lied, liked it better in december
i wish, that i could just forget her :(

but it never happens, never, no
and things start to change and i lose hope :/
and people refrain from helping me cope
from all the mental abuse from all the people i kno

i ask myself, when will things start changing?
you say that, you liked it but, you hate it
amazing, complicated, never basic
life will never b good unless you make it (true)

i wanna make it right
but you dont really want me to win
i hate it when we fight
i have to go repent for that sin
my future is not bright
all the blame just seems to be pinned
on myself, me and I
and that is why i cant win

wanna impress my idols but no one pays attention
i try my hardest but i dont even get follows or mentions
they like my song, say im good, but they dont even listen
im an outlier, on my own, never seem to fit in

maybe one day ill be good enough
think that someday things will not be rough
maybe i wont get excluded by everyone
i wanna call it quits, i really wanna be done

but it never happens, never, no
and things start to change and i lose hope :/
and people refrain from helping me cope
from all the mental abuse from all the people i kno

i ask myself, when will things start changing?
you say that, you liked it but, you hate it
amazing, complicated, never basic
life will never b good unless you make it (true)

but will it ever be good?
yeah idk
inches away from the top
yeah im so close...
ever since this yr its been so damn different
everybody shuts me out and disregards my feelings

but i shouldnt care about that oh no
i got many friends, dont have many foes
and all of the people that doubted are low
this is where i belong, this is truly my home!

but it never happens, never, no
and things start to change and i lose hope :/
and people refrain from helping me cope
from all the mental abuse from all the people i kno

i ask myself, when will things start changing?
you say that, you liked it but, you hate it
amazing, complicated, never basic
life will never b good unless you make it (true)

grateful for everything
thank u all
project soon

different prod irby

produced by @dercept x ayoley

lyrics:
it's not easy for me (x2)
chemicals have taken full control and i'm not even worried
it has to be because of me

i've done nothing to prevent this
i know that all good things come to an end
but i never got a chance to begin

i stay crammed inside this fucking room
it's already far too late for me cuz i've been consumed
i don't know what's the use

wait four more days
i'll just recollect myself and take the blame
i guess u really gotta lose to win the game
i sit in the back of the parking lot while i waste away
every day i'm following a similar schedule
should have known it from the start my fucking heart wasn't edible
but i guess things change and u did too
all along i really was the gum under ur shoe

i stay crammed inside this fucking room
it's already far too late for me cuz i've been consumed
i don't know what's the use
it's not easy for me (x6)

it's not easy for me (dercept x ayoley)

go stupid!

Lyrics:

I just really wish that you were being truthful 
She hit me saying that it was just a trust fall
there ain’t know way I’m gon believe the hoe
I put my trust in all my fucking bros
Barbed wire round my head I feel like post Malone 
Barbed wire round my head I feel like Jesus 
Jesus piece up on my neck, he holding fire arms 
If he run his mouth to much he get deleted 
She said “ I don’t really wanna fly with ya “
told that boy to push up 
get up out the picture 
it’s like every damn moment that I’m with yahh
I think I’m in love cuz I just wanna kiss yah
think I’m crazy because I just wanna kill yah
Only time I feel safe, when I’m in the field yuh 
I got 11,000 choices of the pills hoe 
Don’t matter what you choose either way it’s gunna kill yah

they think I’m dumb because the way that I present myself 
They think I came from hell. I came from jesus Christ himself
full of liberty I think I cracked the fuckin bell 
throw yo body down a W-E-L-L  hoe 
2 barrels on the gun I’m shooting double shells
Honestly you do not wanna test E-L-L hoe 
bitch I feel like james bond I’m blowing double 00’s
I’m a prodigy lil bitch why can’t you fucking tell 

I just really wish that you were being truthful 
She hit me saying that it was just a trust fall
there ain’t know way I’m gon believe the hoe
I put my trust in all my fucking bros
Barbed wire round my head I feel like post Malone 
Barbed wire round my head I feel like Jesus 
Jesus piece up on my neck, he holding fire arms 
If he run his mouth to much he get deleted 
She said “ I don’t really wanna fly with ya “
told that boy to push up 
get up out the picture 
it’s like every damn moment that I’m with yahh
I think I’m in love cuz I just wanna kiss yah

trustfall prod. static + ANH

prod me art by me

i feel 10 feet tall, back against the wall
and ur w them fuckem all, see the money watch em crawl
in my beat trucks, imma walk em down till his teeth crushed
we b walkin round, my whole team flush, team flush
damn, they mad at me, i keep that thing tucked
damn, they mad at me, i keep that dream locked in
crashin out, heavily fucked up, and i swear we goin up
all gas aint no brakes, look at us now, the way we turn this truck
puffin his chest, talkin that shit, its the way he tests his luck
uppin that fye, look at my eyes, yeah i swear we send w love

crushed

prod me

yeah i feel like the doctor
still crying in my room Afraid of Monsters
uh why am i causing disaster
shooting bullets at yo head it kill you faster
putting needles in my brain my feelings severed
if you rlly wanna die just pull that trigger
I'm strapped up with a LR you strapped up with a luger
yeah i kill you in the cold and its not even December
why you acting you bold, yeah you gonna strike my temper
yeah the creatures in my mind yeah they crawling and they fester
shooting bullets at yo chest
gonna leave you like the rest bro
switchblade be my best friend if u wanna fight just say so
and i know that i cant think about it no more
and i feel like i need something to keep me sore
blood coming out of my wrist that shit aint fading
all these drugs got me seeing shit in HD
broken love cause i know that you hate me
all this stuff got me feeling depressed lately
shoot a g45 make his head blow
i see scratches on my body think im mental
fuck
i want you to be mine it aint practical
cant focus when you're round me 
i gotta take some Adderall
i feel the fear through my veins my heart stay pumping
i-i-i gotta lotta things going on its fucking
with my god damn head cause i never see these things straight
cant fuck with all these feds cause they lying to my damn face
every single time I talk I just wanna inject ketamine
never really gave a fuck I just wanted you to envy me
got me sippin so much mud yeah this shit got me fucking dizzy
and I think im outta luck blood splatters all over my knees

afraid of monsters

when u break away, away
half in the tank
am i brave
will i make it
i want u to say
ud do the same
as what i give up

u got a choice to make
when i see ur face
its not a lot u wanna give
im tryna show u what we have
and u want no more mistakes
i wish ud see me clear
i wish u wouldnt hold me down
just bcuz u live in fear

nd i try reaching out 
i cant help it
i cant help it
u can push me away
but ill try to help still
i cant let it go
no i wont leave u alone

push it out
im putting my foot down
cant let u have ur way
u wanna push me out
i wont let u go down
not when u need help
ill deal with hell right now
so i can get u out

i wanna get u home
show u how
u can love more than urself
fast asleep
no more holding dirt on me
just try u can let me in
kick me out if im full of shit
then critique everything that i did
i just wanna show u how to live

u got a choice to make
when i see ur face
its not a lot u wanna give
im tryna show u what we have
and u want no more mistakes
i wish ud see me clear
i wish u wouldnt hold me down
just bcuz u live in fear

get u out (asperr)

Burn

DatBoy

still the same (remix)

Tee-Dreamz x i9bonsai 

@TeeDreamz

@i9bonsai

@y4ndere


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LYRICS


( Tee-Dreamz Hook)

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I’m so sad I fucking hate this :(

Dropping tabs till I see faces

Oh, my bad babe, I’m still wasted…

Oh, my bad babe, I’m still wasted…

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I’m so sad I fucking hate this :(

Dropping tabs till I see faces

Oh, my bad babe, I’m still wasted…

Oh, my bad babe, I’m still wasted…

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(Tee-Dreamz Verse)

Fucked up my mind I can’t help it

All the white lies are so selfish      

You don’t even wanna see inside

Yea you never cared & I’ll never know why 
 

I have you & you have me & - 

I daydream were both happy

Living out our fantasies :(

Baby plss, don’t ever leave me :(

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(I9bonsai Verse)

shldnt b lik dis,, evrysec tryn

y y y,, do u think its right

run it dun run it dwn run it dwn

dnt tlk i dnt wna hear a sound

ill mk it out sumhw

but nt lik dis nt nw

my badd4tryn2tell u im ovr tht

i cnt,, 

cuz its movn wayy2fast

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(Tee-Dreamz Hook)

I’m so sad I fucking hate this :(

Dropping tabs till I see faces

Oh, my bad babe, I’m still wasted…

Oh, my bad babe, I’m still wasted…


I’m so sad I fucking hate this :(

Dropping tabs till I see faces

Oh, my bad babe, I’m still wasted…

Oh, my bad babe, I’m still wasted…

trustfall prod. static + ANH

Sxulz