Everybody say that I’m different
Why tf they think that I’d be the same
You ain’t even on my wishlist
You always wanna play them games

She don’t even care how I feel and now
I’m standin all alone in the rain
Feels like I always got a deathwish
Like I’m drowning and my hearts in pain

Wish there was a way I could heal
That I could stop all of these thoughts in my brain
I don’t even feel like I’m real
All these dreams they make me feel like I’m fake

deathwish (prod. koilake)

i laid my head to go to sleep
i thought id see you in my dreams
then i woke up to the sound of your screams 
the look on your face told me everything  
i knew right there an then my heart sank
she was gone nothin to say
i cant move on im stuck in place
ill do this blow til i numb my face 
the room was rare and the day stood still
whiskey in my viens an my stomach fulla pills
i dont wanna die but i dont wanna feel
this cant be right 
this cant be real 
in life i loved you dearly
in death i love you still
in my heart you hold a place
no one can ever fill

prod. ayokami

INDICA

† nine52 †
Life is short kinda like a vacation
We all pop pills cause we have no patience
My heart hurts you can hear it in my cadence
We all want love ain’t that a true statement
I been so numb I feel vacant
im not enough i cant replace him
im takin drugs until they take me

I been so numb I still feel vacant
im not enough i cant replace him
im takin drugs until they take me
i swear girl i cant take it

someone tell me that ill be alright
someone tell me that ill be alright 
its a lie...

Life is short, kinda like a vacation
We all pop pills cause we have no patience
My heart hurts, you can hear it in my cadence
We all want love ain’t that a true statement
I been numb so I still feel vacant
im not enough i cant replace him
im takin drugs until they take me

† prod. johnnyfriend †

Life is short

† nine52 †

girl
do what I say so,
you give me these feelings I don’t get from the pesos
do what I say so,
you give me feelings I don’t get from the pesos

do what I say, open up the safe, bro
she my lil' Bonnie, hold the 40 at an angle
she gon’ tat my halo, I forgot her name tho
left her on read cause I’m a lil' ahole

you know I came here for the goddamn truth
you know I came here to find... you

† prod. flower †
cover art FEVVI

Do what i say so

† nine52 †

VERSE
i sit alone an talk to myself
tryna find peace cant nobody else help
lookin at the sky when i pray for myself
hit my blunt i got ash on my belt. 
Gucci in my face everywhere that i go
Milan to Saint Lauren bitches wish they had my glow
my drip from over seas n you know i got dope 
wrap your lil hands round my mufuckin throat                 

HOOK
Eyes red like the moon in the night glow
pop one now i dance with my shadow
told her ride or die now she hold my ammo
blew a kiss caught it thru the glass lambo

† FEVVI †

VERSE
I talk less, but they all say my name now
Ghost most, still light up the gray clouds.
Ice on my wrist but my soul never cools
Came from the dirt, now I bend all the rules
Walk in the room, make the silence loud
I don’t chase the fame it just follow me round
Bags in the safe, yeah I did it all alone
Don’t need no crown I was born on the throne yeah

Felt lost but I needed this
Dark days yeah I feed of this
Low light but my soul still lit
Tell the reaper I ain’t done just yet
Felt lost but I needed this
Pulled myself from the dark abyss
Demons corrupt my aoul
Feelin like I’m on parole
Clinton the days before they take me home yeah

HOOK
Eyes red like the moon in the night glow
pop one now i dance with my shadow
told her ride or die now she hold my ammo
blew a kiss caught it thru the glass lambo

† Prod. by Flower †
Mixed & mastered:  nine52 x FEVVI

Alone ft. FEVVI

†nine52†

[Hook]
my heart frozen like the winter
i look broken in that picture
told myself i’d never miss her
sippin’ on magic elixir

[Verse]
ion feel the same
can’t remember my name
wanna end my pain
like i’m Kurt Cobain

my body full of rage
and i’m stuck in my brain
and my soul liftin’ weights
but i still love the rain 


† prod. johnnyfriend †

Elixir

† nine52 †

Why I hit record?
Every take feel fake before 
Gotta a voice full of pain, an my soul fulla void
Still I breathe on these beats like this shit might be my last
the angel on my shoulder told ima die fast 
they ask me why im sad
muthafucka i aint sad
im jus tired bitch 
of yo fuckn bitch ass 
*
they ask me why im sad
muthafucka i aint sad
im jus tired bitch 
of yo fuckn bitch ass


† prod. @pieruun †

donotdisturb

† FEVVI †
Tell me your nightmare and tell me your fantasy
Come on baby, take my hand and fall with me
Tell me all about the demons you keep in your mind
We both walk down a dark road
But you don't have to walk alone


You say you’re broken — well, so am I
Scars on your skin match the look in my eyes
We talk in silence, pain between lines
But I’d stay up just to read your mind
Smoke in the air, but your voice cuts through
World full of lies, but I know you're true
Even if the sun never hits our side
I’d still find warmth with your hand in mine

I don’t need perfect, I just need real
Even if we both forget how to feel
(so come on) 

Tell me your nightmare and tell me your fantasy
Come on baby, take my hand and fall with me
Tell me all about the demons you keep in your mind
We both walk down a dark road
But you don't have to walk alone


Whispers in the dark, but you speak so loud
Your pain got a beauty that draws a crowd
But I see the you that you try to hide
And I swear I’ll never weaponize your cry
I been numb, yeah, I been cold
Lost myself in the things I told
But now I’m here

Vocals-Mix & Master FEVVI 
Produced s0ftskelet0ns
(yungpunkclique)

Nightmares prod. s0ftskelet0ns

† $yanide  †
She never saw me this way, grey to the grave
Overdose on the pain, only seconds to make it
Or death's gonna take us, the corpse left us traces
We followed to stay, all of my prayers gone away
I folded too soon, but in truth couldn’t say
Hopefully soon I’ll return to my room, where the mirrors still are watching and stare at my face
I thought about cutting my wrist, still wishing I’d never wake up again
Still I find a way to make another piece of me I gave to maybe take away the ache
Snorting more when all is turning grey, but I might never find what I wanted
I spoke to the voices, they called me a problem
I gave them a reason to hate me more honest
I sold them my soul just for looks of them bothered

The tragic halloway
The sound you made in silence 
The sound you made in silence yesterday

I don't get the way
The things you say are silent
Silent for days

I dont wanna wait
Cant you hear the sirens
They're out to get you

Its harder when you say
Im sorry for the violence 
Im not sorry

I dont wanna miss you
Tell me about your issues 
I got mental issues
Heart shape lipstick tissues

† nine52 †
Been talkin to myself at night n lately Im depressed
Ain’t tryna kill myself, but maybe Im be better off dead
In the mirror, I see the enemy he standin next to death
I like the way the drugs feel when she give me neck

she said she could save me, i said baby that’s a lie
im drownin in my habits just so i can feel alive
i’m addicted to the silence, and chaos in my mind
errybody wan my life but ion even wan mine

smile for the pic but im dead inside
an if i die baby would u ride 
an mama if u hear this i really hope u do
before them pills get u and ur face turn blue

shoutout my gng n the yungpunkclique
wit out u i wouldn't be shit
member long day wear i use to slit my wrist 
now i kiss pink get ur bitch off my dick

I don't get the way
The things you say are silent
Silent for days

I dont wanna wait
Cant you hear the sirens
They're out to get you

Its harder when you say
Im sorry for the violence
Im not sorry

I dont wanna miss you
Tell me about your issues
I got mental issues
Heart shape lipstick tissues

Performance $yandie, nine52 
mix & master (*independent)
Prod. $yandie
(yungpunkclique)

save me from your goodbyes - $yanide McKee // Fevvi

$yanide McKee