single off of new idealism ep

lyrics

indicate
indicate to me girl that u r right hereee
i’ve been off guide me bae i need u to steer
lights are dim, there’s no ones home, i’ve forgotten all my fears
coz when i see ur face i tend to dry away the tears

nothing else, you is all that’s been on what’s my mind 
i just want u to see that u are what is mine 
i’m sorry i’m who i am and that’s like most the time
i just want u baby can u believe me this time

i just want u baby can u believe me this time
i hope u know that what i show is not what’s inside 
a lot for me to ask but can u ignore all the signs 
i don’t think like they do and i guess with this i’m ripe

and i know
times not moving slow
but with this speed i’m okaaaaaay
reverting back to old ways
but this time i have u 
purple change to blue
nightmares turned to dark days
and hiding out in cold space
until i found u 

still tryna find a way to move 
but i found a source of light and well u might get me thru
u keep forcing me to 
and that’s the honest truth
i’m gonna leave this room my
whole life i was consumed by
something, i never knew why
but now i think there’s 2 sides
and now i’ll live a new life
it’s really do or die

sorry for who i am

sorry for who i am (idealism)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

cthru. | Produced by ryini

wakin' ups just overwhelming
"i don't give a fuck about my friends and family"
at least that's what the voices tell me 

i cant even bare to look at your name in my messenger
its been a week since we last talked and i hope i don't disappoint you mom
and dad
i'm sorry for the latency
of my presence
ran away to lands of make believe
i miss what we had
something we could call a family
oh mom and dad
i love you more than anything

i don't wanna wait around
for you finally come to town
and drag me away from the first thing that's ever been real

its not all in my head

for once, in, a lifetime
i, feel, alive
i, wont, survive
with entities trying to claw me away to the night

you wouldn't believe the things
that rain blood into the seas
recited by socrates

they wouldn't believe in me
i warned them of everything
you cant put the blame onto me
it's not my fault

i love you more than anything (acey)

it was all just a bad dream

Lavender - by Vails, The Sound Clown, Cl6udy

Voiceover anime from Howl’s Moving Castle 

Master: The Sound Clown 

(Lyrics)
Would it hurt you to call me, I’m not doing to well
I find myself in the fields Of lavender for the smell
holding on to reminders, keep me losing my self 
Is it too much to ask, im stuck hiding in my shell 

why was i attracted to ur natural scent
Have to vent 
I always wondered what it subliminally meant 
Uh
Pass these roses, let me lay my bed 
I’m hurt inside, yeah this pains intense 
I see so many changes happening around me
Like faces fade, and I see u smiling 
Your trapped inside , my mind is foggy
I’m losing trust, that this hurt is really  residing

U gave me the seed of hope
So why am I afraid to plant it 
Now I’m struggling to cope
You leaving wasn’t how I planned it
I remeber scents u gave off 
now I’m questioning the reason
left me blind, without a map
I’m changing moods like I’m the seasons 

Would it hurt you to call me, I’m not doing to well
I find myself in the fields Of lavender for the smell
holding on to reminders, keep me losing my self 
Is it too much to ask, im stuck hiding in my shell

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Lavender

Prod. C WORLD
https://www.youtube.com/@cmb_cworld
https://www.instagram.com/cmb_cworld

Blospar
https://soundcloud.com/blospar
https://www.instagram.com/blospar.music/
https://open.spotify.com/artist/0HoxwnXnWcMU8zdqUfSSQP?si=7iw9HbL2QQGd_Tx84xMCgw&nd=1&dlsi=f6cb066b1ba54528

Lessthanfriends:
https://soundcloud.com/1lessthanfriends
https://linktr.ee/lessthanfriends
https://www.instagram.com/1lessthanfriends
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Lyrics:


Lessthanfriends:

is this what you really want from me?
cant help but to see you again
every time I fall asleep
not sure how we were even friends

we're nothing alike, hate all the lies
like all the time you said that you'd stay
but maybe we're more alike than i thought
maybe i never should think again 

all that happened in between, what this my fault?
at least that's how you described it to your mom
every turn we tried to take, it all felt wrong
i wasn't even driving but i guess that its still all my fault



bins:

yeah I wonder if it was all my fault
and I start to think if I could of changed after all
I would of sobered up and picked my life up before I fall
but instead I'm getting high and stuck inside my room after all

is this what you really want from me?
is this what you really wanna see?
is it really what it seems?
now I'm sinking through the seams

I hope your feeling better things
I know I couldn't really bring
no, I couldnt really see 
that you would better after me 

you're never knowing what i think
I'm never saying what i want
and then ill do it all again
so now I know its all my fault
sorry that this will end

now i know i ain't your friend
now i know you ain't my friend

now i know you ain't my friend
yeah, i know you ain't my friend
now i know you ain't my friend
yeah. i know you ain't my friend

Blospar:

Its all my fault were not friends no more
Pick up the pieces erupt like earths centre core
Fall back push forth what do i live for
sinking like an anchor hit the bottom of the seafloor

Wash me ashore upon another planet
You were my shining diamond and now all thats left is granite
Put my heart through the blender
And now im fading out of render
Load back, this time ima full send’er
Ive been timid all my life
But the time is looking ripe
To change the underlying issues
Its all my fault,i think i kinda miss you
But i dont regret anything that i said
Back then i was anxious now im leaving ahead

Wasting Time

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