꧁3L3c✞︎r!c 🚫 c0ntr🧼🧪꧂

my brains talking too loud and i can’t turn it off

when you can’t trust your friends how you know it’s gonna end when you can’t trust your head what is real and what’s pretend when you’re staring in the mirror and you’re seeing someone else now you turn to the one thing that won’t make you feel let down 

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

cause i feed off your negativity i’m the one that you hate to see doing better and better and better you know me i can say it’s whatever blood stained dreams hide inside of my sweater stole the stars from the sky hid em under my mattress couple thousand wishes hoping that i can manage couple thousand more hoping that i will vanish 

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

makes me feel so up

makes me feel so up

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

substance (yungspoiler & king theta)

far from you

cover, prod and vocals by yonklolz.

lyrics:

I can't tell if this is real
And I can't seem to swallow my fears
But yet you told the world that I was trying to heal
Cause I'm swimming in an ocean and no one will wipe my tears

Feeling drained completely
Been on the edge for a few weeks
For a few weeks
Bitch, don't test me
Living on the edge
Of insanity
Yeah, you raked me up
With the rest of the leaves
I can't stop thinking that I'm feeling so weak

You misuse your influence
Talk down on everything
Desire to not exist
One like and everything flips
And I can't tell you why
My existence is a lie
Bitch, I'm talking
Please don't try to speak
I've been on the low
For the past few weeks
I've been struggling
And I'm sick of it
Make me feel like shit
What's the point of it

Feeling drained completely
Been on the edge for a few weeks
For a few weeks
Bitch, don't test me
Living on the edge
Of insanity
Yeah, you raked me up
With the rest of the leaves
I can't stop thinking that I'm feeling so weak

And I can't seem to find what's real
My mind is a painting but every day it peels
And I wrote so many songs about you
The pictures on my wall all lost their value
And maybe one day, I'll get around you
But this time, I'll just fall

I can't tell if this is real
And I can't seem to swallow my fears
But yet you told the world that I was trying to heal
Cause I'm swimming in an ocean and no one will wipe my tears

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don't test me!

(@prodnomu)

Got me thinkin i could fall for u
Ur jus a devil in a dress
That i keep talking too
I almost fucked it up
I almost fucked it up again but then i cut it off

Now i dont want nobody next to me
U only want me for attention wheres the rest of me
ye
ur feelin better off da ecstasy
And i can tell that u dont care its like ur testing me 

I’m getting tired of the same shit
Ive tried it different but its always hard to change it
And u dont even kno my name yet
 gime a chance and ima waste it all

chorus

waste

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SMOKE IT OFF! ✮ (feat. jnhygs) #krushclub

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/tigerstar/4real-feat-deathright

@dthxrgt
and shout out my girl @333ri for the pic <333

Okayye..? <3

theres a couple of guys who keep on asking
and i try to be polite 
but i cant stand to give them hope
bc they definitely wont be taking me home
im better alone, it takes its toll

im kind of avoidant
dont wanna annoy u 
tell me once tell me twice
i'll pack up my things and ill go
one last look before i head out
to spend the rest of my life without

ah yea yea a na nananana oh yea yuh nanana A getagagega a gagahaga ah yea uhhh yea oh yeaa 

i cant acclimate
i got used to thesecurity that i got whenever u were next to me
and so i hVe to watch  my back more closely
it wasnt right, i felt like it wasnt innocent
toss and turn at night
its empty and its different
to shiver and sweat on and off
 with my back up against the wall

i thought i'd been fully strung out
i guess i didnt prepare or account 
for the day u'd finally figure out
that there could be a reason for u doubt 
ive taken back a lot 
and since its way too much to try again
i accept that i lost what i wanted
i cant accept i'll lose what i want

4real (deathright)

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RU4EpTFxZbc&ab_channel=nomu

out now on all plats <3

ty  @scrobaby for the lovely guitar
(@prodnomu)

float like a butterfly
I spread my wings im gona fly like its do or die
Ya ya ya
Dont get another try
Id fucking throw it all away like a sacrifice

like a butterfly
I spread my wings im gona fly like its do or die
Ya ya ya
Dont get another try
Id fucking throw it all away like a sacrifice
like a sacrifice

But Im better now
Than ive ever felt
Yea im better noow
thats what i tell myself
But Im better now
Than ive ever felt
And id be lying if i said i dont need you now

like a butterfly
I spread my wings im gona fly like its do or die
Ya ya ya
Dont get another try
Id fucking throw it all away like a sacrifice

like a sacrifice
like a sacrifice

Im getting better w the goodbyes
Cuz nothing ever really hit me like the first time
Im used to watching as the time flies
Im reminiscing - missin when u would drive by

And its crazy to kno that u love me still
And it feels so real somehow
Do u love me still
Do u love me stilll somehow

butterfly

all plats <3

this took a while
huge shoutout to dirkle aka @deadman

prod. me
live instruments recorded by me also

available on all platforms!

lyrics:

(chriad)
you know your words cut deep
everything you said to me
you make it hard just to come back home
you know i'm struggling
'cause i'm never sure what you mean
when you change your mind and i never know

but i know the
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason
i don't understand your feelings
and you never step out to calm down a bit
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
got me fucked up for no reason [for the rest of my life]
put all the blame onto me
you give me no choice but to leave

(deadman)
i‘ll take the blame for it all
despite the fact i tried
you just put up a wall
and filled my head with lies
and i know you won't change, love
you fucked up the way i think, love
and i don't know what i'm doing here
with someone who'd take my life
(deadman + chriad)
if they could now

(chriad)
if they could now
truth hurts you don't want to hear it
truth hurts you don't want to hear it

truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
truth hurts you don't want to hear it truth hurts you don't want to hear it
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
got me fucked up for no reason got me fucked up for no reason
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]
[truth hurts you don't want to hear it]
[truth hurts so i'mma spare your feelings]

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truth hurts (ft. deadman 死人)

{thankyou for 1 mil!}

{prod: 9lives}
{vocals: jnhygs}
{guitar: deathworks}

{original song link:}
{https://open.spotify.com/track/1JjiTsqfpfMoukoIW9cM5O?si=1a47c50235374864}

9LIVES: https://www.instagram.com/rip9lives/ 
JNHYGS: https://www.instagram.com/jnhygs/

xtayalive - {guitar remix}

wait4me ft. kuru (meta)

Please Stop Screaming

Hi 👋🏻 @yazida-essia 


a little lack of space
i gotta get away
and every word u say
Affecting everything
But i must admit
we get along too great to waste it takin'

every move i make is calculated 
when i move around u
so i say i need a minute if i need to
pick apart the ways ur making me freeze up
why cant it be somebody else?
i'm already struck

ohhhh would i be enough
or do i mess up too much?
i wish you'd forget the person that i was
and i would keep it simple
but i cant leave it at that
it might finish me off
just a little bit of loneliness from hoping u could maybe love me back

what should i do 
cus u might never come around again
if i said i want u forever
its too late to trash all that weve been through
if i was just misreading the room
i dont wanna confuse or lose u
by misunderstanding the situation
but i dont think i can keep it in or keep it from u 
I just cant spit out a confession

i guess i could leave everything unsaid
but thats only gonna leave me so upset 
if i dont find out how u feel then its gonna be really really bad
pull the sleeve on ur shirt, follow u like a dog
if were gonna stay friends
I cant keep thinking these thoughts
ur the one thing i'll hold onto
but i cant get a grip of

is it wrong?
that i keep putting an act on
if it means i'll be the one that u want
i choose to keep on chasing
till you choose me bring me along
if i knew that we would change 
i wouldnt have waited so long 
to see if it was actually fate
cus i think that we'll be special
chains that had already been linked
write on a wall
u wouldnt let me look dumb
but its like lately im numb
even if we threw it all away
and for what?
because maybe it would make us become more than a crush 
the way that i had dreamed of

(YAZ)

I don’t wanna string you along 
And I don’t wanna be a burden 
Boy I’ve been trynna move on 
But idk if I’m certain 
cuz all the things you said to me
trynna fit them thru the stream 
All the things u said to to me 
Trynna fit them thru the stream 

Boy if we tried to 
Keep ourselves apart 
To keep or tear apart 
I couldn’t stay apart from you 
You thought that I might 
just handle it 
But I couldn’t be alone for a minute
If I won’t see u again

I just tell myself that we’re good for nothing 
And this isn’t working 
Cuz you push me away too much 
And I can’t seem to find your trust 
Think I’m done, stayed enough
Yeah I’m calling your bluff but…

I’m in awe, over the way you look 
And I can’t stop staring at my notebook 
Drawing everything that I’m seeing 
Your eyes they look so pretty if it’s me that they’re seeing 
I know you’re dating other girls 
And i’d be lying if I said I’m okay 
I know we’re running in circles at the same old pace 
But in the mean time I’ll be biting the bullet 
Cuz one day or another I’ll be in your amulet 
😮‍💨

what should i do 
cus u might never come around again
if i said i want u forever
its too late to trash all that weve been through
if i was just misreading the room
i dont wanna confuse or lose u
by misunderstanding the situation
but i dont think i can keep it in or keep it from u 
what should i do will i ever be what u want?
up late contemplative train of thought
i wuld do anything to be what u want
too late too trash all that we've been thru
if i was just misreading the room
dont wanna confuse or lose u by misunderstanding the situation 
but i dont think i can keep it in or keep it from u
i just cant spit out a confession 😅

Luvsong (+ Yazida)

Lo Que Calla el Corazón

(@prodnomu)

haven't posted a song in forever so here u go <3 luv u allll thank u for listening


Its a been while since i been by myself
Talking nobody else
Except me

Ive been so comfortable inside my own shell
And im feeling quite well
Its routine

Everybody gets one second
Ye Just one second of heaven
1 for me
1 for u
1 for everytime u knew
How i felt when i was down
Everytime ur not around
For the first time in forever I wake up without u now

dont know how much time i have
Til my haves become my had
And my dreams turn into wishes
While my wishes turn to ash
Ive got problems in my veins
You can see it in my face
But my problems fade away
Everytime u call my name

FUCK!!
This prolly the last time for a while
It seems like the perfect chance to get things off my mind ye
Wish i had more music but i just don't have the time
Maybe it's excuses but regardless i was trying

And every time i hear a song i feel so insecure
Cuz everybody has a sound and im just standing here
Cant write a line i lost my shine im out of things to sharee
But thanks for listening to me its good to know you care

just an update - i made it into college
Hope i get a chance to see u all after the fall ends
Ill miss everyone of you who talked to me at all and
Ill make sure to check up on the ones who even called me

Promise ill be back
Maybe send me messages and maybe start a chat
ive been feeling better and better
like Much better than ever
finally i really like it where im at :)

comfortable

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flutter szn >:)

feat da goat @polearm
prod me :))

stream!!

all the time (feat. polearm)

@0rch_id
@odel007

[blxty]
maybe i'm not the bad guy
but i'm awful
keep it all inside
put my feelings in a bottle
moving too fast full throttle
guess that's what i get for being thoughtful

i can't even see right now messed up
how am i gonna walk when i can't get up
in the hall i'm a student
lights off watch your whole movement
and you treat me like a bad guy
gotta keep my head high
everyone on standby
nobody to stand by
gotta keep a hold of myself
if i would've let go, you would have fell

[orchid]
push the bullshit into my head
never listen to what u said
check the bullshit into my head
never listen to what you
oh i felt like i tried so hard
but its never enough or a little bit too much
im bleeding from my eyes in the ceiling
cut my skin like its peeling 
heartbeat pull it out my chest
see? crush it into mess
we never really meant
i rip open your legs
meat eat it oh so fresh
bleed run myself to death
see? aint it oh so blessed?
she opened up my head

Luvsong (+ Yazida)

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