Vocals and Vocal Engineering: Dev
Produced by Matt Beats (https://www.youtube.com/@MattBeats1.)

Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
I’ve been tryna hit
All night this ecstasy 
At night I talk in my sleep and say
That I’m better of without anyone else with me
This weather devours no one else but me

[Chorus]
Yeah this life is up to me
If I wanna make it full of drugs and drinking all night
Yeah this life is up to me
If I wanna find true love or constantly fight
These demons in my mind
They make me overthink and I see signs 
About my future and how I will die
My whole head filled with these dark lies

[Verse 2]
I’ve been tryna get out of the zone of fear
I think I just need someone to hear me out 
Venting my brain my thoughts and my doubts
I need someone that does not care about what I say
I need someone that knows me fully and not far away
I need someone that I know will stay 
Think the answer to that is only me
I can’t stand anyone else
I just wanna spend time with myself

Uptome (prod.mattbeats)

I think I will try my best to be kind today and tomorrow and the next day and the day after that and the day after that and the day

spotify; https://open.spotify.com/album/4UMATmyGZ7motTjHbkiHcV?si=yZTT8S5DQymEJDItc2cLQA

every track produced, mixed, mastered, written, and procrastinated over by me
a song about someone i no longer recognize

this is a letter that i'll never send
tears shed and shed, with this i hope it ends
my hope is gone now, you're too far lost
but i know that you will probably hear this song

as a little boy, you were my entire world
but as the world kept going on,

i saw you change and change
oh why, oh why?
maybe you were like this the entire time

i thought i could be myself around you
turns out i was oh so wrong
you're so hateful and oh so bitter
but i guess i'll be the model son

cause that's all that i am
that's all i'll ever be
i tried so hard for so long
but you never looked at me

so i'll fly
like a flower in a windy garden
far away from you
'cause i need that space to breathe

just know that you'll never see me again

this is a letter that i'll never send
tears shed and shed, with this i hope it ends
my hope is gone now, you're too far lost
but i know, but i know

as a little boy, you were my entire world
but as that world kept going on,

i saw you change and change
oh why, oh why?
maybe you were like this the entire time

i thought (oh, i thought)
turns out i was oh so wrong
you're so hateful and bitter
but i guess i'll be the model son

cause that's all that i am
that's all i'll ever be
i tried so hard for so long
but you never looked at me

i will fly
like a flower in a windy garden
far away from you
'cause i need that space to breathe

just know that you'll never see me-

like a flower

(prod by @t2kazu & @1sunsuu)

lyrics
@me
baby you were the reason
I don't need another cause
to fall inlove
I seen you with another guy now
you seem so much better
it makes my heart break
even faster

baby I know I'm no longer needed
your flirting so much over text
it makes me so damn jealous
knowing were falling apart
and theres no hope between us
even if we try so hard
my heart cannot take it
its as if I'm dying
so can't you leave me alone
to think about what I done

@t2kazu
this ain’t love, it’s a battlefield,
even my blood don’t know how i feel.
she said “forever,” but she ain’t real,
so i pop one just to keep still.
Baby why can’t you look at me in the eyes
Yea you done hurt me so many times
Yea she left me scars I got marks 
I got no tears to shed I’m alone in this park
Yea I’m alone in this park
Yea you just left me in the dark 
(Yea you left you left me in the dark, I don’t know what to do, yea left me in the dark)

pops don’t call, i don’t call back,
guess we both learned love don’t last.
bro got smoke, can’t take it back,
whole fam cold, i just adapt.

heart too heavy, mind too dark,
she left scars, they left marks.
ain’t no tears left in this park,
so i light one up and restart.

hope with kazu (kazu + 1sunsuu)

Oct 2025 pt.2:
1. Symelz n me
2. Me
3. Me
4. Me
5. Me 
6. Neuroticdidthat, 1plugsoon, sleepyyfr n me
7. aris (MY GOATTT) n me
8. Spaceboyry n me

Oct 2025 pt.2 w/ @symelz, @sleepyyfr, @itsneurotic, @1plugsoon, @arisisdeadinside, @spaceboyry

Vocals and Vocal Engineering: Dev and @haunted_sad
Producer: @ssaeyxng

Lyrics:
[Chorus: Dev]
Yeah what is even real
I can't break this seal
Stuck in my feels
Lies around me I can't heal
What did I make
Life is just one take
But I'm stuck about to break
Grass around me with snakes
Why did I left myself down
Now my heart filled with nothing now
I feel isolated in my own town
Dreamt of being a king with my crown
Dreamt of myself wanting to drown

[Verse: @haunted_sad]
u had my soul and it just drained me
i knew baby ya u couldnt save me
i spent all my days just hating me
i saw myself baby ya just drowning 
if ur gonna lie to me then just damn discard me
u left me feeling like trash u left me feeling like garbage 
i got this gun to my head would it just save me 
wish i had the courage to just forget it all
got this gun 2 my head would it just save me
u told me that u were my remedy (yeah yeah) 
baby would u even lie to me?  (i wouldnt lie)
u told me baby that u loved me

Nothing (ft. haunted_sad) (prod.saeyxng)

(prod. DIsco)
lyrics-----------------
@peiflowy
Tired of this fake shit,
Gotta face it,
Got some gas in my system feeling faded,
Really wished that relationships work with cadence,
Won’t ever fucking work now,
Work now,
Damn it’s my birthday,
Time really flies in the worst ways,
Pain in my head,
Take these pills up to my face,
Pushing through struggles,
I know that it’s okay,
Everybody goes through the same shit every single day.

@556renzo
i've been feinin 4 ur luv
but i kno u dnt give a fuh
u js wanna break me apart
ik u planned it from the start yuh
even when u push me down
ik i can make it up wit ya
cause things gon be okay
believe we'll be okay
ion wanna wake up if im dreamin
got these drugs all in my system
and i keep thinking all about it
i dont wanna go n lose her
i js wanna be wit ya
i dont wanna be alone
bae can we go back
oh woah-

@peiflowy
Tired of this fake shit,
Gotta face it,
Got some gas in my system feeling faded,
Really wished that relationships work with cadence,
Won’t ever fucking work now,
Work now,
Damn it’s my birthday,
Time really flies in the worst ways,
Pain in my head,
Take these pills up to my face,
Pushing through struggles,
I know that it’s okay,
Everybody goes through the same shit every single day.

relationships (DIsco)

in another life i was destined to be a vocalist in a shitty post hardcore band that disbanded due to petty internal drama

anyway epic song so awesome, some of my longest sustains ever lol
original by pierce the veil (top 5 bands ever)
purely for fun and practice (srsly if u wana improve ur singing cover a song like this) O_O ep soon i hope (i've been endlessly revisiting and scrapping songs somone pls help)

cover art x.com/2uaiueo/status/1982076365089464440

this is also the first song in months where i didn't pitch it up in post savor it
xoxo (this will probably be the norm from now on anyway lol)

Bury me in the bedroom where I
I can sing you to sleep all night
Put me next to the open window, promise me a second time
'Cause I don't wanna leave without you buried by my side
I'd rather kill the one responsible
For falling stars at night
'Cause they fall all around me
The night can be deadly
And they'll never take us alive
(Can you chase away the darkness?)
To live in love and die
Last night, she recited every reason she's fine
So if we're heading there together at the same time
You sing while I drive
Move like a fugitive tonight
(Dance on the ambulance) 
Because I would rather spend my life vacations in bed
With you like drunken summer kites
And this is only a test
Sober and scaring me to death
They'll never take us alive
To live in love and die
And I don't care if you're sick
I don't care if you're contagious
I would kiss you even if you were dead
Would somebody make me go blind for the rest of my life?
'Cause I'd do anything to hold your hand
And I don't care if you're sick
I don't care if you're contagious
Oh, no
Would somebody make me go blind for the rest of my life?
'Cause I'd do anything, anything, anything
They'll never take us alive
'Cause I'll chase away the darkness
I'll live in love and die
I joined the party for the recently blind
So if we're heading there together, you can sing all night
I'm gonna tear out the thread one by one from your skin
'Till your bones feel embarrassed from all the attention
Kiss me while I drive

Oct 2025 pt.2 w/ @symelz, @sleepyyfr, @itsneurotic, @1plugsoon, @arisisdeadinside, @spaceboyry

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