the surface of your reality is a deep blue sea

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/VoQTvMHKhMs

written & performed by teddybear
produced by jcam
mixed and mastered by jcam, teddybear & Adam Hanney
art by teddybear

@tddybrr

lyrics:

wait for me
you're always saying
wait for me
always saying stay
I can't be alone
clay for me
becoming what you say to me
then you turn back
to what I need most
saying sorry
that's not what I meant
I'm just worried
about you so I stress
and it hurts me
like don't you want what's best for me?
I say yes
and really all I see is 
red from the brake lights
just caught me in a moment
that memory is loading
I've never been this close
I didn't know how
I didn't notice
this coming into focus
this doesn't feel like home to me
you're aiming for the throat I see
constantly
whisper something while you hold me
just underneath
the surface of your reality's a deep blue sea
I know that you'll hate me
Oh how I live so free
all through the misery of me
don't thank me
just don't hit me up
don't thank me
just don't hit me up
she said fine by me
I know that you'll need me
after you live so free
all through the misery
baby when you see
just don't hit me up 
baby when you see
I can't love you enough
I know you'll hate me 
Oh how I live so free
All through the misery
All through the misery of me

you can't kill me in a way that matters

VIDEO

you can't kill me in a way that matters (p. jcam)+VIDEO

trying to connect the dots

prod. @solofttt 🖤
if you're reading this, thank you for listening.
it means, seriously a lot
thx, take care

can you prelude to how i'm feeling?
cause i've been addicted to these patterns
all this time (time)
and it's hardly fair; i'm breaking still
regardless if i've already lost my will
and if i should fade into a darker light
it just doesn't make sense how i feel alright
cause i know nothing's right

and i've known that since yesterday
i'm something that i haven't always been
i lock my door, and lower the shades
letting flow state straight into the pen
the floors creek, and my brain feeds
on a core memory i stowed away
but i come forth; take it head on
peeling flesh off of it's travesty
but the earth hurts; all i have is me
she's here too, but sorta overseas
you amaze me, rearrange me 
in a shape similar to something sweet
the window open on a cold night
honestly i love frostbite
numbing part of me, in which apologies 
aren't policy for the limelight
fight back
fuck off
i'm not going outside today
i woke up too late
to avoid the rays
now i contemplate when was yesterday
i contradict what i thought i was
what i am now's not so pretty
day to day feeling disgust
from the mistrust that i gave me
i had caved in; so shameless
but if you like my shit, put it on playlist
i am not in search of validation.
just something genuine

(6x)
i'll connect the
i'll connect the dots

can you prelude to how i'm feeling?
cause i've been addicted to these patterns
all this time
(all this time)

travesty awaits [prod. soloft]

with the boys <3 (soundcloud.com/cupids-funeral)

Greenwood:
i could see the body from the water
never read the signs as well as most
i can see the problems that we foster
never take the chances that you don't
maybe it just feels like i've been altered 
deconstructed long before you know 
all of this means nothing like you taught her
try to turn these strangers into homes

this close last year
so much so dear
i went back home
there's nothing here
one word breaks through
two lives in bloom
lost mine in june
white skin turns blue

tell me when you realised 
tell me when you realised

AutumnIsEnding:
The uncertainty is unbearable 
I can’t sleep can’t eat it’s so terrible 
You call me the worst and tell me I’m nothing 
It’s okay I’ll use the hurt for the cutting 
I’ll keep on running back you’re the owner I’m your dog 
So I’ll let you do what you want 
They say it’s not over til it’s done 
So I’ll die fighting for you love 

We look happy in all the picture ever took 
Long sleeves hide the knife seams I made just the other month 
But it’s not like it doesn’t hurt me when you ask for a little blood 
And I’m just numb to you I’m worthless 
And that’s just us behind the curtains

Greenwood:
could we pretend you haven't seen me cause i was getting help
and i got out from all that i'm swimming in
and i could start to love you unobstructed by everything
i've been in a dark place, think it's my fault
and it's all grey, and i can't stop
and you loved me til it's all gone
and i hold that like it's someone
and the winters just been so long
and i spent it with the wrong one
learn to let go when i hold on
cause she looks like you, yeah she looks like you, doesn't say much
tell me when you realised 
tell me when you realised

Sleeptowns (w/ AutumnIsEnding)

https://linktr.ee/swainesworld

prod. eric godlow
WELCOME TO DECEMBER

waiting 4 u (prod. eric godlow)

prod @jolst
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is that all you can handle
looking in the mirror and I see myself in tangle
is that all you can handle
I tell myself the same thing 
is it just ramble?
talking to myself I know what I can do
then doubt comes I know what ive been through
from the pills to the alcohol, stuck like glue
got myself from there to here so I knew

that wasn't all I could handle
been through the rut than more than just a handful
had my friends to call 
and to stand through the storm I was that blew me out just like a candle 
I can tell u all the things that I hate
I can tell u all the things that weigh
well im past that now
I don't feel that hate
im happy now need to realise it 

is that all you can handle
looking in the mirror and I see myself in tangle
is that all you can handle
I tell myself the same thing 
is it just ramble?
talking to myself I know what I can do
then doubt comes I know what ive been through
from the pills to the alcohol, stuck like glue
got myself from there to here so I knew

I had to get high
so that I could waste time
watch my life pass by
I don't know what I was thinking
certainly knew yeah what I was mixing yeah
that was a bad time of my life
thinking back I wish I could go back in time
tell myself that everything will be alright
alright alright alright

is that all you can handle
looking in the mirror and I see myself in tangle
is that all you can handle
I tell myself the same thing 
is it just ramble?
talking to myself I know what I can do
then doubt comes I know what ive been through
from the pills to the alcohol, stuck like glue
got myself from there to here so I knew

talking in the mirror

produced by mitsa

lyrics:

I wish I could feel better in my skin
I walk around head down lack confidence

this cunt think he's the shit
you cant run cant hide
red dot aim high
line you up at face height
put a hole inside your frame bruh
compare us compare us
we'll never be the same hush
it's unfair it's unfair
bark like a bitch but won't square

GO 
GO
GO
BITCH U BETTER GO

THIS CUNT THINK HE'S THE SHIT
YOU CAN'T RUN, CAN'T HIDE
RED DOT AIM HIGH
LINE YOU UP AT FACE HEIGHT
PUT A HOLE INSIDE YOUR FRAME BRUH
COMPARE US COMPARE US
WE'LL NEVER BE THE SAME HUSH
IT'S UNFAIR IT'S UNFAIR
BARK LIKE A BITCH BUT WON'T SQUARE

red dot

flow state

flow state (neverforever x flawed mangoes)

feat. @sewerperson & @riverstreaming
produced by riverrrr

backbone w/ sewerperson & riverrrr

Mixed & Mastered: chapx + evrr! 
prod juju + millz

3.5 prod @prodjuju + @reddmillz

Gris (prod. ivoicy)

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