winter, i cut myself

† $yanide  †
She never saw me this way, grey to the grave
Overdose on the pain, only seconds to make it
Or death's gonna take us, the corpse left us traces
We followed to stay, all of my prayers gone away
I folded too soon, but in truth couldn’t say
Hopefully soon I’ll return to my room, where the mirrors still are watching and stare at my face
I thought about cutting my wrist, still wishing I’d never wake up again
Still I find a way to make another piece of me I gave to maybe take away the ache
Snorting more when all is turning grey, but I might never find what I wanted
I spoke to the voices, they called me a problem
I gave them a reason to hate me more honest
I sold them my soul just for looks of them bothered

The tragic halloway
The sound you made in silence 
The sound you made in silence yesterday

I don't get the way
The things you say are silent
Silent for days

I dont wanna wait
Cant you hear the sirens
They're out to get you

Its harder when you say
Im sorry for the violence 
Im not sorry

I dont wanna miss you
Tell me about your issues 
I got mental issues
Heart shape lipstick tissues

† nine52 †
Been talkin to myself at night n lately Im depressed
Ain’t tryna kill myself, but maybe Im be better off dead
In the mirror, I see the enemy he standin next to death
I like the way the drugs feel when she give me neck

she said she could save me, i said baby that’s a lie
im drownin in my habits just so i can feel alive
i’m addicted to the silence, and chaos in my mind
errybody wan my life but ion even wan mine

smile for the pic but im dead inside
an if i die baby would u ride 
an mama if u hear this i really hope u do
before them pills get u and ur face turn blue

shoutout my gng n the yungpunkclique
wit out u i wouldn't be shit
member long day wear i use to slit my wrist 
now i kiss pink get ur bitch off my dick

I don't get the way
The things you say are silent
Silent for days

I dont wanna wait
Cant you hear the sirens
They're out to get you

Its harder when you say
Im sorry for the violence
Im not sorry

I dont wanna miss you
Tell me about your issues
I got mental issues
Heart shape lipstick tissues

Performance $yandie, nine52 
mix & master (*independent)
Prod. $yandie
(yungpunkclique)

the sound you made in silence

† $yanide † 

Last kiss one time on my wrist while 
Time slips between you and me
My existence is but a free trial 
She miss who i used to be
I lose myself in the meaning 
I cut myself when im dreaming 
I choose to pull thru to you on a riverbank dying
When love lights the moon

Whats left is oddly sublime
Wouldnt want it lost in my hatred
Would you walk along by my side
See the stars align in my matrix

I felt the same pain forever it stays
I lost myself in the dust of the day
I gave myself up to meet me again
I told a couple of lies in the game
The blood on the floor isn't wet anymore

I never saw myself falling again
Hurting myself every spec in the wind

† prod. s0ftskelet0ns †

last kiss

deliverance

rhythm in blue

lyrics: 

in darkness
I dont see much anymore 
But i feel as the moon lights on this
Burning the flesh from my heart 
And im giving it all to find this
Hurting myself even more for a moment of all my life then
Throwing it all on the floor and im telling her "no more i quit"
Heart in my hand and i fall even more
But its hard in silence
Bleeding the chore of my own misery
But its all my time spent
Losing it more yes im losing it more
But its all my time spent 
How my life ends

I tried this
Washed alone on my own
I tried this
I dont wanna know now

Bury my body beneath in the lake
In a pit of despair 
Made of all my mistakes 
I cant wake anymore 
Just to see my own face 
Looking back at me crying
While i look away
Am i the monster i hide from at night
When i get high alone in the miserys ripe
I just broke my own holding 
Im high again flowing like i did before 
Cause when sober ive died

You seem so empty inside
Ill hold your hand while we fight
I show you ruins of used to be 
Empty are memories haunting these streets 


But I don't wanna miss you
Summertime is bleeding out
And somewhere in the tragedy
We got lost in a silent sound


losemeagain

the world feel sick

i killed moondrop mirage, now im just $yanide McKee.. again.

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