prod. @hartfxlt x @yashio20k

i dont wanna be thrown away
im tired of all the heartbreak 

can u look me in my eyes
tell me everythings alright 
no i dont u to ever lie 
i dont wanna sit here and fight 
for a love thats already gone 
crying all night in a pillow im not strong

i dont wanna be weak, i dont wanna look back
thought i was strong but im under attack
every memory cuts me so deep 
guess some scars arent meant to keep

is it worth the pain 
to hold onto something that might fade away
i gave u my all but u left me to bleed
now im questioning if its love that i need
maybe i should be free
then i would be at peace

i dont wanna be weak, i dont wanna look back
thought i was strong but im under attack
every memory cuts me so deep 
guess some scars arent meant to keep

memory [hartfxlt x yashio]

- ♡ -

prod. @luc3nt

she says i talk too much about you
about the fights we never fix
she asked what im holding on to
and why love feels like a risk
she says that loves not supposed to hurt
but im too scared to let it burn
i tell her i cant just walk away
but every time i stay it feels the same
my therapist thinks we should break up
says im holding on too tight calling it love
she says i deserve a little peace
but i dont know how to set us free
shes got the answers but ive got this heart
that doesnt know where to stop or where to start
yeah my therapist thinks we should break up
but i dont wanna face life without us
i tell her how you make me smile
then she asks me how long it lasts
we’re good for a little while
but then we’re stuck in the past
she says that loves not made of fear
but walking away feels so unclear
i tell her im not ready to let go
but deep down i already know
we should break up
im holding on too tight calling it love
i deserve a little peace
but i dont know how to set us free
shes got the answers but ive got this heart
that doesnt know where to stop or where to start
yeah my therapist thinks we should break up
but i dont wanna face a life without us
she says i need to love myself more
but im still standing at your door
my therapist thinks we should break up
but maybe im not strong enough

♡ 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘺

my therapist thinks we should break up [luc3nt]

featuring @victxrw
prod. @prodalagen

@akasukii

i tried to keep u 
but the harder i fought
the more i realized love cant be bought 
i tried to hold u 
but the world wouldnt let me have my way 
if only i could see u 
i would be much happier that way 

i cant breathe at all 
i just feel so small 
and i wish i could see underwater 
to understand whats pulling me farther 
i dont wanna live another day 

@victxrw
face away
taste the pain
give it all
to me
ill take it away
i know its obvious
how much i wanted this
sharp pains on frozen lips
waiting for the eclipse

the walls of flesh, engulfing me again
i cant seem to fall any further
so fuck me up again
make me bleed it all and even further

engulfed w/victxrw [alagen]

@prodalagen

i miss u 
i dont know where to take this 
im so confused
abt ur feelings im mistaken
do u notice me reaching out to u 
or is it too late 
we've already reached our fate

my hands are shaking im barely holding on
each breath a battle but u’re already gone
i scream ur name but u cant hear the sound
its like im drowning and u’re nowhere to be found

i miss u 
i dont know where to take this 
i am so confused
abt ur feelings im mistaken
do u notice me reaching out to u 
or is it too late 
we've already reached our fate
oh my gawdddd just fking love meee </333

ｊｕｓｔｆｋｉｎｇｌｏｖｅｍｅｅｅ<／３

- omg im 21 now ! -
prod. @xternalz x @rewind214

trying so hard to move on
but ur always there never gone
i wish heartbreak wasnt so long 
im tired of singing the same song 

oh i put my all into u i put my all into us
and tell me why its still never enough 
i just wanted trust 
i wanted to be loved
but u never chose us 
running away from our problems
we never solved them
pretending like we're fine but we've forgotten
the love we shared and now we're all falling 
falling out of love
why did we fall apart
we built this up but now its gone
i tried to hold on but u let go
now im stuck here all alone

i gave u my heart but u couldnt see
that we were breaking 
u and me 

now im left with all the things u didnt say 
and wondering why u couldnt make me stay
i tried so hard but u just turned away 
now im left alone again and again

running away from our problems
we never solved them
pretending like we're fine but we've forgotten
the love we shared and now we're all falling
falling out of love
why did we fall apart
we built this up but now its gone
i tried to hold on but u let go
now im stuck here all alone

forgotten [xternalz x rewind]

prod. injury
major creds to @victxrw

and now
i feel it all
the love withdrawals and the pain that comes with
i feel it all
the wall i hit when i cant stop running

and you never cared as much as i did
for just this once can you please be honest

no
everytime i get up i seem to slip
so leave me alone
im always falling for the same old tricks

so im face down again
am i at fault
im face down again
am i always wrong
im face down again
did you catch my fall
im face down again and again
and now
i feel it all
the love withdrawals and the pain that comes with
i feel it all
the wall i hit when i cant stop running

so i cant fix you now 
feel the blood drip down
i'll hold onto my crown
so make it worth my while
its not fair 
you dont care
im trying to make sense of it all
its not fair 
u dont care
it feels like im meant to fall
 
i feel so drained
why cant you change
it feels the same 
same old day
  
i cant break away
i feel so insane
it feels like the same old day

im face down again
am i at fault
im face down again
am i always wrong
im face down again
did you catch my fall
im face down again and again
and now
i feel it all
the love withdrawals and the pain that comes with
i feel it all
the wall i hit when i cant stop running

love withdrawals

love withdrawals [injury]

prod @exkimelyy

i see your eyes
stare into my soul 
you dont have to be shy 
take my hand we'll go slow
the night is ours
no need for words
just hold me close
and dont let go again

and i broke you again
i dont want this to end
i cant get enough 
this feeling is rough

your touch is calm but my heart still shakes
every moment with you everything aches
you pull me in and my whole world breaks
but i’d do it again no matter the stakes

i see your eyes
stare into my soul 
you dont have to be shy 
take my hand we'll go slow
the night is ours
no need for words
just hold me close
and dont let go again

shy [exkimelyy]

@user-670723281

do i have to break just to be seen
fall apart to make them care for me 
every time i bleed they stay
but silence makes them walk away

im not enough unless im bruised
only when i shatter do they move

why cant i be loved in peace
why cant i be loved just me 
why does pain set my heart free
why must pain bring clarity

unravel [diedinoctober]

i wore my heart out 
bleeding on ur sleeve
you keep me reaching
for a love i cant keep

tell me is it real?
you take and take and i still believe
that someday you'll want whats left of me

im breaking in your hands
and you dont understand
while youre holding someone else
im waiting for you still
loving you feels like violence
im screaming into silence
while ur holding someone else
im breaking at your will

cuz all of this is getting to my head
(im never enough to you)
ive payed back more than i have ever bled
(dont know what else to do)
so tell me is there something i misread
(im never enough to you)
cause all you think of me is misled 
(i hate that it feels so true) 

so take a look at me 
is this what appears in ur dreams 
idk what is going on 
should i play along
im lost inside your make believe
im lost between
these fake realities
i dont know 
what is right
and what is wrong 
im drawn into ur fantasies

so tell me is it real
you take and take and i still believe 
that someday you'll want whats left of me 

im breaking in your hands
and you dont understand
while youre holding someone else
im waiting for you still
loving you feels like violence
im screaming into silence
while ur holding someone else
im breaking at your will

cuz all of this is getting to my head
(im never enough to you)
ive payed back more than i have ever bled
(dont know what else to do)
so tell me is there something i misread 
(im never enough to you)
cause all you think of me is misled 
(i hate that it feels so true)

obsidian [52blu]

i want it now 
im breaking down

so take me away 
im forced to obey 
so take me away 
i fall every day 
just take me away

im losing all my power 
our love has turned so sour 
and i dont know how to go back from here 
im on my knees i cannot break this leash 
i bend i break but you keep holdin the reins 
another day

so take me away 
im forced to obey 
so take me away 
i fall every day 
just take me away

so take me away 
im forced to obey 
so take me away 
i fall every day 
just take me away

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