every night

capo 3rd fret
chords: Emaj7, G, then sometimes Fmaj7


we used to think that a year was a lifetime
now it’s already been two,
since i’ve last seen you.

a night and it’s wind in your hair;
sitting on a roof;
looking at the moon.

the morning that’d burn us both,
my eyes are closed,
yours are too
we’ll iopen them up soon.
yes we’ll do.

￼



and let the dream of you escape
another fleeting day
where i say all the same things
i wish i’d never said.

“i love you still”,
with your face on my chest,
i’m counting each second
and watching every breath.

now every night here i wonder
if you feel the same,
if any day i could fly over
and start it all again.

would it be the same?
if i held you in my arms
for a second time and told you
we’d never drift apart

would this time be it?
where i sing another song
and pretend i didn’t write it
about you all along.

would we still remember?
every second past,
every single conversation,
the sparks that still last.

(would we remember
every single dream
that we’d share at night?)

but i open up my eyes in the morning’s skies
to an empty room.
a pillow i held onto imagining it was you,
headphones playing the same songs we listened to.
sunlight cast into my bedroom that never reach the bed,
and i’ll have to remember that it’s all in my head.

but i’ll be there soon in a few weeks or so,
do you want to know when?
do you want to know if we can close our eyes again?
do you want to know if we can still dream every night,
the same dream every night,
the same scene all the time,
and hear the oceans waves
washing up on shore
as i dive in the water
searching for something more
and you sleep in the sun
soaking it all up
and i show you what i found
hoping you wake up.


￼





— original —
we used to think that a year was a lifetime
now it’s already been two,
since i’ve last seen you.

a night and it’s wind in your hair;
sitting on a roof;
looking at the moon.

the morning that’d burn us both,
my eyes are closed,
i’ll open them soon.


and let the dream of you escape
another fleeting day
where i say all the same things
i wish i’d never said.

“i love you still”,
with your face on my chest,
i’m counting each second
and watching every breath.

now every night here i wonder
if you feel the same,
if any day i could fly over
and start it all again.

would it be the same?
if i held you in my arms
for a second time and told you
we’d never drift apart

would this time be it?
where i sing another song
and pretend i didn’t write it
about you all along.

would we still remember?
every second past,
every single conversation,
the sparks that still last.


but i open up my eyes in the morning’s skies
to an empty room.
a pillow i held onto imagining it was you,
headphones playing the same songs we listened to.
sunlight cast into my bedroom that never reach the bed,
and i’ll have to remember that it’s all in my head.

but i’ll be there soon in a few weeks or so,
do you want to know when?
do you want to know if we can close our eyes again?
do you want to know if we can still dream every night,
the same dream every night,
the same scene all the time,
and hear the oceans waves
washing up on shore
as i dive in the water
searching for something more
and you sleep in the sun
soaking it all up
and i show you what i found
hoping you wake up.

may 3,2022 at 2:11am

every night pt. 1 demo may 3,2022

with all the time that passes me
endlessly.
still i cant seem to do anything
that pleases me.
looking around at all these faces
staring back at me

wondering if i see
the same thing they can see

write another song to make it seem like
i did something today.
find another word to match the feelings
i said id push away
none of it seems to help at all
or make the slightest change

i said it yesterday.
i thought that’s things could change.

august 2,2022 at 10:03pm

something new demo august 2,2022

a couple chords
capo 3rd fret
A7, A7 but first finger 4th string 2nd fret, same shape but 2nd string 1st fret instead of 3rd fret, C, G

march 6,2022 at 11:43pm

a couple chords demo march 7,2022

for you
capo 3rd fret
chords: 
1: C, Am, Emaj7
2: A7, A7 but 4th string 2nd fret, C but no 3rd fret 5th string, G but no 3rd fret 1st string
& Emaj7 (with 2nd and 4th fret on 4th string), G no 3rd fret 1st string
3: first 3 chords for i can’t see it anymore twice then move on to the full thing


(make lyrics for 1 more like 3 [better and emotional])

1
i see you there
lying next to me
every single night
in every memory
i dream
that you’re still lying there
i stretch out to reach
but i never could hold on
to those moments that you keep.

i listen to
the same song every night
it’s the one before we fucked
in my bed that night
i see your open eyes,
the salt on your skin,
the sweat between our bodies,
the roof that’s caving in

2
if you ask me how i’m doing
i’m alright.
i’m doing just fine.
(without you)

just give me some time
then i’ll find
i promise i’ll find
a moment


for you.
(ill call your phone every night)
(i promise i will just)

for you.
(i’ll make these
dreams come true)

for you.
(i’ll text you when i’m alright.)
(i think i’ll be alright soon.)

for you.
(i’ll make these dreams
for you.)

3
your at my phone
and my windowsill
asking for a word
and to be let in.

you know i’m all alone
it’s just me right now.


i’m ringing your front door
asking to come in
i see you through the frosted glass
asking who it is.

don’t you know?
you know,
it’s still me.

april 4,2022 at 9:41pm

for you demo april 4,2022

it’s still me
capo 1st fret
chords: fmaj7 variations, cmaj7

to everyone i see
to everyone i know
to everyone ive ever even thought to ever love
i hope that these words
find you
well.
 these thoughts that ive had
for the past year
are slowly taking away every part of me you saw
so when i see you again
just know
its still me.

i still joke around
i still talk to you
with every piece that’s able,
i still love you.

i still think about
where things could’ve
been.

i still cry sometimes
i still think of you
with every piece that’s able,
ill still love you

i still wait for when
our faces can meet
again.

october 17,2021 at 7:47pm

it's still me december 29,2021

wake up.
3rd fret capo
chords: fmaj7 and cmaj7 variations

i have moments where i can hold on
to you but they fade.
i can’t remember how it felt un
till it is too late.

and for every facade i believe,
every lie i say is true,
every illusion i see
they never come through.
i lie in memories
to escape reality
but everyone wakes up.

october 17,2021 at 5:21pm

wake up. december 29,2021

january 31,2021, 9:46pm
sometimes
i still hear
you

inside
your empty
room

i still
get up to
check

to see that
you’re still
dead


i still
cook food for
two

i even
leave space for
you

inside
the dining
room

but no one
ever
comes

yeah no one
ever 
comes. 

january 31,2021 at 9:53pm

january 31,2021, 9:46pm

capo 1st fret:
chords: same as second 1 and 2, but with a G for variation and different picking pattern of “i can’t see it anymore”

on your wall you wrote down a list of 15 things to do
before the year ends, before you rot inside this room.
to go outside, to make something new
to do something meaningful, [to clean up your room]
here you are sitting down, looking at the wall
reading all the things you said, [tell me who’s in charge]

is it you or is it me?
does writing down these things make it clear who’s to be
to blame for you and me.
is it him or is it i
who looks me in the eye
when he can’t do something new.
show me something new

tonight.


the moons a little brighter
than it’s been on most nights.
i heard a little later you’ll do some work tonight.
your friends have been calling from halfway across the world
what’d you got to show them,
a list of dreams you’ve heard

sung from you and right to me
in saying all these things i think ive found out who’s to be,
the dreamer of these dreams
it’s not him, it isn’t i,
who looks up at the sky
when he thinks of something new
sees something new

tonight.

november 19,2023 at 10:50am

show me something new november 19,2023

capo 4th fret
chords emaj7 with third fret first string
	G but with the third fret second string
	C
	G but no last finger thing

	emaj7
	G with no last finger thing


i watched a cover
 of a song we liked. 
and on the cover was will toledo, 
singing into a mic.  
and the feeling of the photo 
made me think of when id go off
to pursue my own life
without you. 


and i imagined myself inside a california bar
playing songs that are meaningless 
to anyone 
but you and me.

tearing up at lyrics as my voice cracks away 
getting lost inside of memories of yesterday
to nobody 
who cares about me. 


and in front of them i’d hide 
every feeling i have ever had
that made me write down these words 
in notepad.

my performance would be bad 
and i’d go home sad.
and lie on the right side of my bed and look to 
where you would’ve been. 

——some sort of instrumental break——

maybe i’d think of texting you again,
maybe i’dve completely blocked you. 
not out of any sort of malice 
at all,
simply so id never be able 
to recall 
the time i spent with you
the time that me and you


were inside 
of my room alone. 
and at night we’d sleep together
and i’d feel your rising chest
as we crept 
closer together
hoping that the sun 
would never rise again.

march 2,2021 at 4:57pm

i'll miss you february 24,2022

second
second fret
chords: A7, Cmaj7
i used to talk about dreams
like they were literally me,
writing them down every chance that i could see;
dreaming every time i sleep.
the last time i dreamed
was halfway across the sea

this isn't me

september 14,2021 at 11:34pm

incomplete idea september 14,2021

“and they’d look at it, look at me, and understand a bit more about the world i see.”

New tracks tagged #1 and 2