living with ADHD and ASD (autism) in a meme world as an NPC IRL

Lyrics

“Loading: Emotional stability.ex… failed.”
“Welcome to NPC mode.
You are now socially unpatchable.”
Initiating cringe protocol.

I got ADHD and autism too,
That’s double the swag and none of the clue.
Brain’s all static, I can’t adapt,
Just side quests and panic attacks,no cap.
My brain said “vibe” and dipped,
Now I’m NPCin’ through every script.
Brain’s a browser with 90 tabs open,
But trauma’s got me thinkin’ ’bout ropin’.

Tried to flirt? She called me brave,
Now I “avoid” and never shave.
She said “hi,” I full-on froze,
Alt+F4 on all my woes.

I’m an NPC IRL,
Lootin’ snacks and social hell.
No riz, no drip, no serotonin,
Just Monster piss and porn moaning.
No girlfriend, just brain rot lore,
Left me on unread, I’m hardcore sore.
If life’s a sim, I missed the plot,
But I got memes… and that’s a lot.

I simp for e-girls who call me ‘fam,’
Then cry to a Skibidi edit on cam.
I got that gyatt, but it’s in my knees,
Cracked at Cod, but scared of bees.
My vibes? Ohio. My thoughts? Gone.
Last braincell Subway Surfers at dawn.
Ghosted my crush… in real life, bro,
Then wrote her a haiku in Minecraft snow.

My aura? Fire. My hygiene? Dire.
She said “rizz me,” I said “what?” and expired.
Girl said I’m “funny but a little fried,”
I said “that’s my brand, unhinged inside.”

I’m an NPC IRL,
Spawned in Hard Mode, vibe is hell.
No girlfriend, just Discord mods,
I talk in GIFs and pray to gods.
Neuro-divergent and useless,
My brain’s a group chat,
can’t mute this.
No girl? No worries, I’ve got lore,
And a Minecraft base with a lava floor.

My hygiene’s a side quest, can’t brush my teeth,
Made my bed once, don’t look underneath.
I stim to the beat of anxiety’s hums,
And flinch like a pussy when a delivery comes.
I’m built like a rizzless NPC,
Typing “yo?” at 3:03.
Got kicked outta group therapy twice,
Once for mansplainin’ Evangelion - nice

I’m an NPC IRL,
Too plot-divergent for heaven or hell.
No girl, no plan, but maxed out lore,
Self diagnosed at aged four.
Tried to hug - threatened to get me jumped,
Tried to flirt - accidentally trauma dumped.
My hobbies include catastrophic doom,
And pretending I’m filmed when I walk into rooms.

“Can’t date me? Understandable…
I’m emotionally expendable.”
- Disconnected from server.

NPC IRL (ADHD ASD)

sample:hand crushed by a mallet——100 gecs
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Early/rough mix of dj set performed at Sapitur's Refresh release party - will repost once polished, enjoy :)

Tracklist:
GFOTY - Don't Wanna/Let's Do It (Bucks Mix)
SOPHIE - HARD
Charli xcx - pink diamond
leroy - WE'VE BEEN SMOKING ALL DAY ..........
Charli xcx - claws
Basement Jaxx & 100 Gecs - where's my head at _
Frost Children & Danny Brown - Shake It Like A
SOPHIE - MSMSMSM
Lady Gaga - Aura
Sapitur - loading
That Kid - 4EVER (Jane Remover Remix)(feat. BÉBE YANA & Jane Remover)
Six Sex - Performance Actitud (Pose)
leroy - it's up to YOU now!!
100 gecs - ringtone (Remix) (feat. Charli xcx, Kero Kero Bonito, & Rico Nasty)
Tinashe & Jane Remover - Nasty (Match My Tweak Remix)
George Daniel - Cc Nrg
Jane Remover - Dancing with your eyes closed
Charli xcx - enemy (Jane Remover Remix)
Sapitur - www
Magdalena Bay - You Lose!
Sweet Trip - Pro: Lov: Ad
Oklou, Ariana Grande, & Jane Remover - choke enough x Everyday (mashup)
Grimes & i_o - Violence (Club Mix)
Icona Pop - I Love It (feat. Charli xcx)
SOPHIE - Immaterial x HARD (VIP)
Charli xcx - Roll with me
Slayyyter - Daddy AF
Charli xcx - Club classics
Rebecca Black - Sugar Water Cyanide
Charli xcx - visions
Jane Remover & Kmoe - homeswitcher (VIP) [TURN UP OR DIE MIX]

Refresh Release Mix

umbrella hat - HOLD up (prod. Very Human)
Hope u enjoy!!

υмвяєℓℓα нαт - нσℓ∂ υρ (prod. Very Human)

Mini mix by djbabymonkey
Loouudd EDM

Tracklist
1. Charli xcx - pink diamond
2. leroy - WE'VE BEEN SMOKING ALL DAY ............
3. Charli xcx - claws
4. Basement Jaxx & 100 gecs - where's my head at _
5. Jane Remover - Professional Vengeance 
6. Frost Children & Danny Brown - Shake It Like A
7. Shygirl - BDE (Shy POV)

SHEER COLD AND CONDUCTIVE - Mini Mix

Credits:

Music: The Roblox Song (Beta Mix)
Composer: Lankybox
Ripper: Smoky
Platforms: PC, Mobile, Xbox One, Xbox One: Series X, Playstation 4, Playstation 5

Additional Infomation:

Original Upload Date: May 27th 2025
Event: None
Album: 1000 box
Album Name: robux machine (A.G. Cook Remix)
Game Link: www.roblox.com/games/13640596382
Rip: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3FIfhrf1htw
Playlist: www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLL…ZnnszppBaMi7K8Ioz

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The Roblox Song (Beta Mix) - Find the Lankybox Morphs!

Credits:

Music: Intro
Composer: Lankybox
Ripper: Memmy
Platforms: PC, Mobile, Xbox One, Xbox One: Series X, Playstation 4, Playstation 5

Additional Infomation:

Original Upload Date: May 27th 2025
Event: None
Game Link: https://www.roblox.com/games/17737579132 (?)
Rip: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s25IFoiETGw
Playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLL0CQjrcN8D3s7r6QptEpVxiBsHIngD13

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Intro - Gedagedago Barry's Prison Run!

Mini mix by djbabymonkey
Consctruct and deconstruct

Tracklist
1. Charli xcx - Club Classics (Satisfaction Remix)[Zephyr Edit]
2. Cortisa Star - PARIS
3. Brittany Spears - Hold It Against Me
4. leroy - XO TOUR LLIF3
5. Charli xcx - enemy (Jane Remover Remix)
6. Six Sex - Performance Actitud (Pose)
7. leroy - it's up to YOU now!!
8. 100 gecs - ringtone (Remix)(feat. Charli xcx, Kero Kero Bonito, & Rico Nasty)
9. SOPHIE - Ponyboy
10. Frost Children, Danny Brown, & Jane Remover - Shake It Like A (Jane Remover Remix)
11. Charli xcx - Taxi
12. Cortisa Star - BAD ASF

METAL BURST MOTION - Mini Mix

it's reminiscent of the era where music would play on low quality pieces of technology

Ghosts of Nostalgia

take_off_and_land_x_came_2_my_show

Lil Bowika - BloodyMary [prod.Dullxx]

I madd this in 2020 when I was 8 and obsessed with 100 gecs

Kiss

Catucci - Crazy (feat. M3SHKA)

avoidant - roscoe {guda}

Tracklist: 
Song 2 (Edu K Reedit) - Blur
Colours - Dj Sega
How Low Can U Bake - A-Trak
Rude Boy Giddy Up (Original Mix) - DJ Tameil
CHROME 004 ROLA - Bicep
Kid Conga ft. MC Miltinho (DJ Rob 3 Remix) - Daniel Haaksman
Cooler Couleur (feat. Yelle) (AC Slater Remix) - Crookers
Joga Bola - Nick Leon x Luca Duran 
Ven Por Mi (ft. Micav) - P.Vanillaboy
Borrachos (feat. Dio MC) - Mr Oizo, Phra & Dio MC
Smack My Bitch Up (Major Lazer Remix) - Prodigy
Evil Boy - Die Antwoord 
Dumbest Girl Alive - 100 Gecs
She's Hearing Voices - Bloc Party
Lost In A Maze - Araabmuzik
I <3 U SO (Skream Made Zdar Feel Like He Was 20 Again Remix) - Cassius
Fluid - Basit
ur special to me - Artemas

She knows I'm not a prude.

shake it x stupid horse (DJ TOMGIRL edit)

a melhor dj do mundo

TRACKLIST
• Schnuffel_Bunny — ૮꒰ ˶- ༝ -˶꒱აSnuggle_Song_dontloveme_Happy_Hardcore_Edit૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა♡
• BAKA GANG — gypsywomanbutanime
• DJ LIFELINE — V
• Mr Oizo feat. Uffie — Steroids (A. G. Cook Edit)
• Hannah Diamond — Never Again (umru & DJH Remix)
• SOPHIE — Eeehhh (Life Sim Remix)
• SOPHIE — OOH (2.0)
• GFOTY — Friday Night
• PinkPantheress — Girl Like Me
• Charli xcx — Lipgloss (SOPHIE Remix) [LADHIE Edit]
• umru & underscores — Poplife
• Valentino Khan — Pump
• Katy da Voz e as abusadas & FKOFF1963 feat. Frimes — Rola Grossa, Que Gostosa!
• SOPHIE DA RUA AUGUSTA — A.M.O.R. DE PIRANHA
• Flume, SOPHIE & KUČKA — Voices
• Arca & Shygirl — Watch
• Basement Jaxx & 100 gecs — where’s my head at _
• SOPHIE — WHOLE NEW WORLD (VIXIRE Remix)
• A. G. Cook with Cecile Believe & Charli XCX — Xcxo Me What
• DJ FUCK & DJH — SPLICEDBREAKS TAKE 10
• Evita Manji — Vixen House (SOPHIE Remix)
• GFOTY — Tongue 
• A. G. Cook — Stargon (Boys Noize Remix)
• ID — Finale
• LADHIE — PURE FEELING (Alt Intro Mix)
and MAKE IT FIZZ

MAKE IT FIZZ - DJ SET

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I write in the spaces where shame meets seduction, where grief morphs into goonbait, where beauty and bitterness share a bed.
Some tracks are lullabies for lost boys. Others are traps for the ones who think they’re in control.
You’ll find humour, heartbreak, humiliation — often in the same breath.
If you’re unsure whether to laugh, cry, or look over your shoulder…
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