This song was hard to write and it is about a suicide attempt I did back when I was 17. My mother to this day doesn't know that I attempted suicide and few people do. Suicide is never the answer. Things seem bleak and dark when I attempted suicide, but they weren't a good enough reason to die. Thankfully I survived with little long term effects and am now comfortable talking about it to help those who are struggling. Hope the song talks to you. Thank you for listening. Peace and Love Carl Runo  

It's Not The Answer

This song I wrote to show how I felt when I drank or used drugs. Dr. Jekyll the normal me and the alcoholic me was Mr. Hyde. The story by Robert Louis Stevenson has been used by psychologist as an example of some one with mental illness. Him illustrating that Jekyll drank something to turn into Hyde makes me think more of alcoholism or drug addiction. I've learned that most people have two sides and wear a mask to hide their true selves. Hope you like the song. Peace and Love Carl Runo 

Just a Ghost of Mr. Hyde

This song I wrote while I was in detox for the fourth time. It's about the friendships i forged with a group of great people. I invented the game Jitter Jenga, we played it in from the first day where the shakes are pretty bad, while detoxing. By the fifth day we didn't shake so much. It was a great memory. The friends I made in detox are all still in touch with each other and often go to meetings together. What a great support they have been to me. Hence the writing of the song. Hope you enjoy it. Peace and Love Carl Runo

Together We Heal

This song I wrote after I came out of treatment for my addictions. Waking up every day sober from now on, what a blessing.

Another Day Sober

Song about a man who turned to drinking to deal with loss but later found faith in God...

Me and Doctor Jack

The Bow Tie Guy looks at the idea that rock bottom is the best place to build the foundation of your new life in recovery.

Mess it Up Show 378 - Minutia

Who would you be - if for a moment - you chose to believe?  Believe in a power greater than yourself! Rise up in your mind and let that THOUGHT lift you HIGHER.  Thanks for listening. xo Kc

Came To Believe

Sometimes in recovery we cling to the things in life that seem important yet they drag us down. This week's show deals with how to drop that rock.

Mess it Up Show 381 - Manumission


Mitchell Frederick - Только Сегодня (Just for Today)

Я падал, как камень, в пропасть без дна,
Стал рабом себе, но не знал, что вина —
Это крик по любви, что я прятал внутри,
Но боль не уходит, пока не скажи: “Я болен, спаси.”

Мир смеялся, я смеялся в ответ,
Но за шуткой прятал голод, жажду и бред.
Сквозь ломку и стыд, через тысячи срывов —
Я искал себя в бутылках, таблетках и дымах.

Но в тишине я услышал зов —
Сила выше, чем страх и кровь.
Я упал — но именно там
Я нашёл свою душу, нашёл храм.

Только сегодня — я жив, я иду,
Через тьму — к свету, по шагу, по кругу.
Двенадцать ступеней — мой мост через ад,
И каждый из нас — не один, не назад.

Мы поднимаемся, даже когда боль,
Мы выбираем веру, а не роль.
Только сегодня — не завтра, не в снах —
Я свободен. Я жив. Иду в небесах.

Брат мой, сестра — если ты на краю,
Знай: у нас есть путь, я держу твою руку.
Сдача — не слабость, сдача — ключ,
Когда ты устал — доверься, отпусти, включи.

Спонсор рядом, группа как дом,
Читаем шаги — как карты в огонь.
Пишем свои страхи, молимся вслух,
И в каждом круге — есть Бог, не слух.

Моя высшая сила — не религия, нет.
Это свет внутри, когда вокруг тьма и бред.
Я не святой, но я не мёртв —
Я выжил, и значит — я обрёл кровь.

Только сегодня — один день живи,
Отпусти контроль, и душой гори.
Двенадцать шагов — и Бог говорит:
"Ты достоин, ты силён — иди, твори!"

Мы все были в аду, но теперь на пути,
Мы не сломаны — мы научились цвести.
Только сегодня — каждый шаг как крик:
Я больше не прячусь, я больше не псих!

"Мы больны не потому, что слабы...
А сильны — потому что признаём это."

Mitchell Frederick - Только Сегодня (Just for Today)

Mitchell Frederick - Just for Today (Anthem for the Addicts Who Chose to Rise)

I used to wake up sick — heart heavy, mouth dry
Prayin' to a God I swore I didn’t believe in, askin', “Why?”
Mirror never lied, but I stopped lookin’
Numbed every feeling, but inside I was crooked

I stole time, I broke trust, burned every bridge
Said "this is the last time" — but I never did
I wasn’t evil — just empty and lost
Never understood why love came with a cost

But in that quiet, rock-bottom place
I found something sacred in all that disgrace
It wasn’t a sermon, wasn’t a sign
It was one broken breath… and a choice to climb

Just for today, I won’t run
I’ll sit with the pain — I won’t come undone
Twelve steps deep, no shame in the fall
We all crawl before we learn to stand tall

Just for today, I’ll be real
Say what I feel and try to heal
One breath, one step, one prayer at a time
I’m still here… and that’s a sign

This is for the junkie in the trap house bed
For the mother who can’t get her baby outta her head
For the vet with a bottle and a shaking hand
For the kid on the run who don’t understand

You’re not weak — you’re wounded
You ain’t lost — you’re human
This ain’t about guilt or who’s to blame
This is about breakin' the cycle and changin' the game

Surrender ain’t giving up — it’s stepping back in
Into the light, into the fight, into where you've been
Higher Power — call it God, the group, or the sky
Whatever keeps you clean… that’s your why

Just for today, I choose to stay
Even when the voices beg me to stray
Twelve steps deep — with brothers, with truth
We rebuild from the wreckage of youth

Just for today, I’ll hold the line
I ain’t perfect, but this soul is mine
I’m not who I was, and I’m not afraid
I'm alive, I'm awake — just for today

"You made it this far. So stay.
Just for today. That’s all it takes."

Mitchell Frederick - Just for Today (Anthem for the Addicts Who Chose to Rise)

Songwriter. Storyteller. Sound pioneer, Stan Countz (aka Stan and Be Counted) is a genre-bending songwriter with over 200 original songs under his belt — a true craftsman of lyric and melody. From his debut track “Those Hap Happy Days” in 2005, a nostalgic tribute to the golden era of the ’50s and ’60s, Stan has built a musical legacy rooted in meaning, melody, and message.

Writing under the moniker Stan and Be Counted, he stands tall in the world of music as both a creator and a voice of purpose. His catalog spans a kaleidoscope of genres — from contemporary Christian rock and gospel to EDM, country pop, blues, R&B, hip hop, folk, and beyond. Each song is a reflection of his passion for storytelling and his desire to uplift, challenge, and connect.

Whether crafting soul-stirring love ballads, foot-tapping jingles, or heart-pounding hard rock anthems, Stan brings a rare blend of versatility, depth, and soul to every track. He doesn't just write songs — he writes moments you can feel.

Stan Countz is more than an artist — he’s a movement. A call to stand... and be counted. He is a prolific lyricist and lives in Denison, Texas with his artist/photographer wife.

Song writer, composer, producer. writing songs about my journey through recovery from addiction. I hope my songs speak to you and inspire you on your own journey. peace and Love. Carl Runo

Management/Bookings; 
bookings@mitchellfrederick.com

Founder of Nocturnal Radio Live! 
www.nocturnalradio.live

Born and bred in New York City, DJ and Producer Mitchell Frederick, has an untouchable skill for music. With a rich history in music theory and composition, his journey through sound began in childhood. Multi-talented with instruments like the violin, trombone, drums, piano, and bass guitar, the producer quickly learned that his natural ear could be used in a multitude of ways. But by the time he turned 13, he knew that becoming a producer and DJ was the perfect path.

Mitchell spent an entire year practicing on his first DJ setup, a pair of Technic 1200's and a Vestax mixer, and immediately launched himself onto the New York scene. With an unmatched persistence and love for the art, the musician has performed at some of the most exclusive and premiere venues across the country. Mitchell has also graced the crowds of Mexico, Panama, Colombia, Cyprus, Dominican Republic, and Israel with his eclectic house beats. With two decades of professional music experience under his belt, nothing can stop Mitchell Frederick from a bright destiny. His unique style brings infectious energy to a crowd, and his one-of-a-kind demeanor is impossible to match.

“Music is not what I do, It’s who I am.” – DJ Jazzy Jeff

Nervous Records _ NY
Deep Root Records _ NY
Subtone Records _ LA
Contact Records _ UK
Hands On Records _ UK
Homewerx Records _ NY
Risky Label _ Barcelona
Phunk Traxx _ Italy
ReGroup Records _ Brazil
Palmlands Records _ Germany
LFTD Global Recordings _ Canada

We are your peas and carrots for recovery and beyond!

Mark Nepo, Marianne Williamson,  Elizabeth Gilbert, Gary John Bishop  and many others have shared their wisdom here over the years! Kacey hosts morning radio in New York's Hudson Valley.  A life coach, reiki healer, restorative yoga teacher and women's retreat leader, Kacey's foundation, Let It Shine Inc. runs a thrift store and farmers market to support its food pantry and a farmers market.  www.kaceysplace.com www.letitshineoneline.com 
"Shine On" airs Sundays 6:30 AM on 100.7 WHUD  www.whud.com

New tracks tagged #12 Steps