definitely way outside the scope of normal
growing old and dying happy. 

[lyrics:]
time—
where did it go?!
where did it go?!

the habits formed are mine to own 
i try to change but i suppose
i’m not man enough to say no

i need a change
i need a drive
i need a push

this everyday
is just the same
this can’t be it

this ai slop i call a soul
it’s moldable 
i’m moldable
i’m moldable 

i’ve built the wrong routines
i’ve built the wrong routines

i can not change
i can not change
i can not change

what will it take? 
what will it take?

i can’t not change
i can not.

is this apathy or boredom? 
i can’t tell anymore
a default setting
with admin rights

and why should i?
expect something else?
when all i do is complain?

i’ll make it work
i’ll make it work
i’ll make it worse
i’ll make it worse
i’ll make it.

there are no solutions
only trade offs
overwhelmed by choices
so i make none 

i need a goal
i need to chase
i need to wake up

the few hours
after work is just not enough

i think one thing
but do the other
it’s self sabotage

i’ll make it work
i’ll make it work
i’ll make it worse

i’ll make it work
i’ll make it work
i’ll make it worse

i’m checking in
just to make sure 
you’re doing worse than me

what’s wrong with me?
what’s wrong with me?

i’l make it work
i’ll make it work
i’ll make it worse

definitely way outside the scope of normal

type shit
growing old and dying happy

[lyrics:]
oh i'm- 
thinking of you
so that you live forever
inside of my heart
i will always remember

what you did for them
what you did for me
what wouldn’t you do
in the name of family

what i wouldn’t give
to be sitting next to 
you - passenger seat 
pick me up after school

your broken english
my broken spanish
we talk to each other
he understands me 

wish you could spy on me 
please just one more time
behind the hedges
i’ll act like i’m blind

nothing worse than seeing
such a strong man be
weakened by a disease
he did not see coming


i owe my whole life
to your sacrifice 
i owe my whole life
to your sacrifice 
i owe my whole life
to your sacrifice 

i owe my whole life
to your sacrifice 
i owe my whole life
to your sacrifice 
i owe my whole life
to your sacrifice 

i miss you-
every single fucking day
no one can replace.

type shit

crossfire
growing old and dying happy.

[lyrics:]
crossfire, I’m hitting a stray
one mistake was all you could take
these memories we’d rather erase
it’s my fault, it’s my fault, it’s my fault 
crossfire, I’m hitting a stray
one mistake was all you could take
these memories we’d rather erase
it’s my fault, it’s my fault, it’s my fault 
turn my insides out now
spill my guts on your couch
with my blood I'll fingerpaint a-
gorgeous poem for you
 
i don’t care what you got to say about me
all the things you’ve said, well I’ve said worse
i don’t, I don’t really like me
i won’t, I won’t change my mind
 
crossfire, i’m hitting a stray
crossfire, i’m hitting a stray
it’s my fault, it’s my fault, it’s my fault 
crossfire, i’m hitting a stray
one mistake was all you could take
these memories we’d rather erase
it’s my fault, it’s my fault, it’s my fault

crossfire.

crossfire

little weezing
growing old and dying happy.

[lyrics:]
can't bring myself to call
facetime you even worse
the years show on your face
i get what i deserve

a selfish piece of shit
who rather not reach out
'cause what’s the fucking point
i know you won’t remember

you know i won’t forget 
those words they burn my skin
they burn like cigarettes 
the ones i never quit

i never follow through
i’ll always drop the ball
afraid of losing you
that’s why i'll never call

call me on my bluff

call me what you want
just call me.

little weezing

my biggest opp, the passage of time
growing old & dying happy.

[lyrics:]
i’m wasted
wasting all my time

i’ve waited-
every single night
     
i’m sorry 
i’ll never say those words

i’m sorry-
this is the best that it will get

all the time i said goodbye
never though it would stick

all the time that we would cry
over meaningless shit

thinking back it seems surreal
having held on for so long

you can't tell me what to feel
you can't tell me it's wrong

i’m wasted
i’m drinking in your name.

let’s face it
i cannot forget your face.

i’m wasted
i’m drinking in your name. 

let’s face it
i cannot forget.  

and i don't-
ever think i want to 

and i don't-
ever want to hear from you again.

my biggest opp, the passage of time

crimson chin
growing old and dying happy.

[lyrics:]
no i didn’t want to leave
'till this day I feel guilty

i had somewhere else to go
left you in that trailer home

felt so alone without you
then learned to love solitude

if I could i’d take it back
a city bus i meant to catch

half or not you make me whole
years fly by and took its toll
i just want you to know that
i’m sorry for what i did
 
i just want you to know that.

do you know that?
does it even matter?

crimsion chin

tres idiotas
growing old and dying happy.

[lyrics:]
i’m lost in thought
i can’t the words
as you came home 
and i went to work

where is that person
i use to know?
and who the hell am i
to stunt your growth? 

a little buzz
to calm my nerves
see i’m no different
i’m just like her

i crashed my car
took months to fix
what did i learn
because i lived?

this was no accident

i feel sick
i woke up after impact

and those airbags
felt like pillows to me

slap me i'm dozing off
slap me i'm dozing off

i'm just resting my eyes
i'm just resting my eyes

don’t want to wake up
leave me in the street 
coughing up blood
and what a lovely dream
dreamt about us
woke up it still felt real
so where do we go from here?  

where do we go from here?

tres idiotas

flesh simulator
growing old and dying hoppy.

[lyrics:]
so tell me
how the hell could you live with yourself?

i heard you tell her “it’s over now,
you’re not welcome here anymore”

was it your choice or was it your parents? 
either way i will never forgive you 

you might be content ‘cause she lies to you
but i never will - i’ll tell you the truth.

no i never will - it’s not okay
i hope that it hurts
when you see her face

hope that it hurts - she didn’t need you at all
i hope that it hurts - i hope that it hurts

i know that its fleeting
only once in a while
but i’ll bring it up, every chance i get

so tell me — how you could be so heartless?

i can not—
forgive you,
how could i?

forgive you,
how could i?

forgive you,
how could i?

forgive you,
like she has?

how could i,
forgive you?

how can i,
be like her?

how can i,
ever?

how can i?

flesh simulator

dreadlocked
growing old and dying happy.

[lyrics:]
you’re not okay , you’re not okay
it’s almost two, you’re still in bed
it’s not just dread, it’s not just dread
it’s not just words inside your head

it’s not the fire that you breathe 
it’s not the words hidden in between
it’s not your mind the lies exposed
they just don’t mind they don’t feel gross

it’s not the things you can’t afford 
it’s not the cities that’ll they’ll destroy
it’s not forgetting to get high
it’s more friends dead then there are alive
 
what’s in your glass? it’s pickled brine,
gin and vermouth, this drink is shit
but i’ll have it for you and i’ll say it again 
it’s not just dread,  it’s not just dread

it’s not just words inside your head.

dreadlocked

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