Abandon Me is a story for the lost who prefer to find their friends in unholy places. The entirety of the year 2023 was a complete nightmare of mine. I lost everyone and everything that I have, besides my music equipment. House, job, long term relationship, and all of my friends. At the end of the year I admitted myself to a mental institute to help me to get back onto my feet, and it worked wonderfully. I still, however, had no one when I got out, but my family; And so I wrote this album. Some of the songs have a story that is contained to the songs individually, while there is a continuous story that fallows myself and my journey to find friends where they can not be seen. They all, however, follow the same premise of being lost and forgotten. 

I am not uploading and sharing all of the stories and songs that go with them until November 24th, 2024 when it is due. It is a personal deadline. Afterwards, the production of Manic will continue, but that will need to be focused on later. 

Stories:

-Track 1: Make Me Lost
In the aftermath of my downfall I found myself nearly alone. I made friends who later abandoned me when I needed them most. Someone of hangout with and to listen. I feel lost now without a clear direction. No anchor anymore to help keep my head up. Suicide knocking at my door. There are monsters in my head, tempting me to follow them into hell, and what little is left to fight back or for. I think that I will contact Him tonight. Learn what He requires of me to make friends among his Legions. 

-Track 4: The Tunnels
The women are just as innocent as the men. They must be taken where they want us all to go, and where they think that it is not so bad. They were the last ones to be picked apart in the tunnels. The quickest way to Hell is to be crushed underfoot by a demon. Wailing screams is their motto. No one, and nothing is an exception. 

-Track 6: Snow Ghost
The Alaskan Wilderness is unforgiving. Hundreds each year are found dead in the summer following the harsh winters. They were frozen in ice and the cold feeling carries on into Ghost-Hood. They drift forever on the ice and make up the mist. They keep Alaska cold, dead, and silent. You are not alone when you think you are. The low temperature they emit makes you suffer as they do. You feel how they feel, and you will join them if you are not careful. 

-Track 8: Dark Water Sanctuary
In a natural underground tunnel is where the Special Exhibits are kept. Cryptids that were captured locally here in Southern Missouri, and part of the Demented Zoo. In the evening we lock them up. A shipping container for each. We have tamed them for the most part. I sneak cigarettes with Luci the Dogman. Relations with the Skinwalker, however, is a different story. It fancies mead mixed with vodka and is only approachable when drunk. We let them out to roam often and hunt without boundaries, but they call our cave home and each night we drink and laugh telepathically, as you do.

-Track 9: Welcome To The Ninth Ring
I have arrived at my vacation home. My first impression of the 9th Ring was shock. It has all that they say it is, but with a carnival twist. The first sight that you are brought upon is the sea of Christians who thought they had it good. Nobody is exempt from sin, and we all fuck up at least twice which makes us eligible for eternal damnation. Level Two is where the Death Metal and Dubstep start playing. The DJ has his CDJ3Ks hooked to the demonic pipe organ array. The Devil makes Trap and Breakbeat like you wouldn’t believe! The Christians are doomed to listen to the “Elevator Music For The Damned” playlist. 
	This place has everything, even a shooting range inspired by Doom. Lets get blastin! We are all immortal, so it will be fine. They even have my cigs with a twist. NXT2s that taste and feel like breathing in the Cries of Omnipotence. So therapeutic and enlightening. Welcome To Hell! I’m leaving my 6 out of 6 star review!

11. I Am Completely Alone

10. Tactical Demonix

9. Welcome To The Ninth Ring

8. Dark Water Sanctuary

6. Snow Ghost

4. The Tunnels

1. Abandon Me, Make Me Lost

A long time ago I was in school for graphic design where I stumbled into sound by accident. Teaching myself through the years and battling a haunting mental illness, it wasn't until 2018 where my work became far more intense, complex, serious, personal; and even 3D! I mainly do science fiction sounscapes now, though from time to time I will come out with another Duck Dance.

My inspirations who sparked my ambient design are The Faint, Mindless Self Indigence, Angels and Airwaves, Blaqk Audio, My Chemical Romance, the first three Terminator movies, Elder Scrolls games Morrowind and Oblivion; Halo CE, and finally Dead Space 1 and 2.

There is more from me heading your way.

List of Past Collections as: Ghyschur
Two Years Notice (2010-2012: unknown amount)
NoyxX Eklypce (2011-2012: 11 tracks)
Starting Over (2013: 2 tracks)
Versuch Technology Ci (2013: 17 tracks)
I, Control (2014 - 11 tracks)
Versuch Technology Cii (2014: 12 tracks)
WaveScaping (2014: 2 tracks)
KODER (2016: 6 tracks)
Toxxik (2017: 13 tracks)
Connect - Flagship (2017: 1 track)
Intro To My Design (2018: 16 tracks)
[Not listed are several singles and a few remixes]

List of past collections as: "@hell.sin"
Asylum Games (Rebranding of tracks from Toxxik, ITMD, and Manic - 2019)
[Not listed are a few singles]

In 2025 I am continuing all work under the name Altera Saevitia.

New tracks tagged #A Call For Help