a collaborative compilation made in Contemporary Chamber Music Ensemble @ Oberlin

our recital

finish what i started

far from you

straight up to my face / i've been down so long

الضوضاء الصاخبة Loud Noises

Alexandra Aristera- voice
Destanne Lundquist- Moog grandmother, effects

المياه  Water

Writer: Ryaliman
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

It's cold outside
I don't even feel like I'm alive
Been lying to myself a long time
Everybodies' fault but mine
You can see in my face not eating I'm slowly dying
I'm just floating away all these thoughts their just frying
In my head prolly gon' end up dead
I cant want anything when I'm wrong
Guess i never knew i was the problem all along
Brain split into pieces i don't think theirs much left to me
I cannot be strong
Only thing i got is these songs, every day i look in the mirror and see all my wrongs
Nothing else left for me its all been gone
Nothing else left for me

I don't love myself anymore
Sometimes i wish that i was never born
And why'd i have to be the way that i was
Now i look and wonder where is that kid they used to love
And all this time that I'm wasting
All that i do is just sit around hating
When the only thing that i should be hating is my face
Total disgrace ship me out of the united states
What else is there to do, what else is there to prove
I've shown that i cant be alone in my own room
Grief taking my soul turn my space into gloom
I've accepted my fate id much rather be doomed
Then be myself anymore
I'm praying for the rain to pour
To wash my ashes down the sewer when i don't live in this world
Hoping once they find me light fire to my corpse
And if Jesus is real ask him why i wanna fall to the floor

the sky won't glow

Writer: Ryaliman
Produced By: Ryaliman
Mixed/Mastered By: Ryaliman

Lyrics:

This is my suicide note
I'm barely even staying afloat
Wake up every morning wanna cut my throat
But tomorrow gon be the day when my body gets smoked
I've given up on myself and given up on life
Got so many problems it ain't gon be right
I keep the knife by my dresser so i can cut me open say good night
Why would i wanna live anymore
Eyes blacked out i don't wanna live in this world
When my body's lying by the door burn my dying corpse
Send my ashes to the poles to the poles
Don't let me survive
I've accepted its never gonna be right
There's nothing left for me here gotta end my life
There's nothing left for me here gotta end my life
I'm so fucking done with all this pain i cant get out my head
Id rather have everybody see me dead
Its not like anyone would care
Stain the carpet red no tears were shed
I'm a worse version of myself
I just wanna kill myself
Take all of the pain and i put it on the shelf
Fuck everything i don't wanna fix my health

But if you see a blue bird just remember i existed
Even if my life keeps getting more twisted
Even if suicide is what i committed

This is my suicide note
I'm barely even staying afloat
Wake up every morning wanna cut my throat
But tomorrow gon be the day when i finally get smoked
I've given up on myself and given up on life
Got so many problems it ain't gon be right
I keep the knife by my dresser so i can cut me open say good night
Why would i wanna live anymore
Eyes blacked out i don't wanna live in this world
When my body's lying by the door burn my dying corpse
Send my ashes to the poles to the poles
Don't let me survive
I've accepted its never gonna be right
There's nothing left for me here gotta end my life
There's nothing left for me here gotta end my life
I'm so fucking done with all this pain i cant get out my head
Id rather have everybody see me dead
Its not like anyone would care
Stain the carpet red no tears were shed

But if you see a blue bird remember i existed
Even if my life keeps getting more twisted
Even if suicide's what i committed
Even if all of my emotions have drifted
If you see a blue bird just remember i existed
Even if my life keeps getting more twisted
Even if suicide's what i committed
I don't wanna fucking live anymore 
Fuck this shit

blue birds

Playlist and other information available at: https://www.freeformfreakout.com/fffoxy-podcast-259/

FFFoxy Podcast #259

An Instrumental track recorded off the cuff by George E Harris at home using a Mini Yamaha  Keyboard, Looping Peddle, Harmonium and Melodica.

Breathing

Hawa meaning wind in Arabic is experimental, improvised avant-folk music of the West Asian diaspora that we like to call ‘Levant-garde’. Music of resistance and liberation from the root of the land and the depths of the soul.

With Palestinian/Lebanese singer Alexandra Aristera - vocals
Destanne Lundquist - moog synth, mbira, effects
Jesse Gentes - tombak, percussion, effects

Rookery Ensemble would like to say a few words in honour of Alison O'Melia founding member who passed away just before Christmas 2020 after a illness. We will miss you; love you in so many ways. Its still so hard to comprehend but we will follow the paths you set in music and sound. Your patterns of spirit are there rich with colour and transcend the mundane. We hold our hands up and touch those stars above in which way they shine xxx 

Rookery Ensemble were founded by
George Harris and Alison O'Melia 
they were previously called Brother G and The Trouble and World Of Surprises and started in 2011. Performing a number of concerts as a duo and ensemble.
They have ploughed several furloughs in the land of contemporary music. Currently based around George E Harris with Erik Moore and Mark Hill bringing in others in the hear and there. 
Through the lockdown in UK, Alison and George played a number of home performances for Crystal Palace Lockdown Live online which you can hear a best of album on soundcloud and bandcamp.  As well as view some on YouTube and the CPLL Facebook group page. The bandcamp album is available to buy and is raising money for St Christopher's Hospice. This was with the help of Erik Moore on various tracks virtually. 
Rookery Ensemble have just released their first vinyl album Islets Of Langerhans that was started with Alison and completed since her passing.  This album is available on Bandcamp as well as here and other streaming services and the sales are part going to St Christophers Hospice.
Other members of Ensemble  of late have been Hilary Robinson - Piano, Melodica and keyboards, David Rothon on various instruments including the Omni Chord, Pedal Steel and Melodica, Mark Hill - Electronics and Radio, Erik Moore - Bass, K- Keyboards and Percussion, Annabella Maneljuk - Melodica, Glockenspiel and Keyboards.
With previous  collaborations  from Agata Liswoska on Violin with occasional appearances by  Mitzy Valentine - Flute and Voice, Victoria Potterton on Trumpet and Voice. 
Rookery Ensemble continue to build on the fluid nature of the music through various incarnations and sounds.

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